I've just remembered something that happened yesterday. Shortly after Sue said she had been told when Edna might die, we discussed whether I would REALLY want to know. I said it would depend on the time involved ' .........but if it was only 2 months I would at least know I could cope with that'
I picked 2 months out thin air - I thought. But its a funny time period to chose so I am recording it as a possible premonition and hoping I am wrong.
Sunday, 30 August 2009
The reiki way of life
I have read through the manual again - not worrying too much about the history of how we got to where we are (or where I am?) with Reiki. So different practitioners have adapted and expanded on their practice. Big deal Conventional medicine does that all the time and no-one would try to throw doubt on conventional medicine as a result. But I can easily see conventional practitioners using that as a means to cast doubt on reiki.
One of my pharmacy colleages made what I thought was a scpetical comment about reiki to my FB status where I mentioned going for reiki training. I replied diplomatically and his rseponse was a great surprise. ' Cochrane says it works - I was encouraging you' Cochrane is the bible of evidenced based medicine that all conventional practitioners rely on. He also posted the link to review shat showed a positive effect of reiki and other hands on techniques in arthritic pain. And the moral to that tale is I must NOT assume all my colleagues have closed minds. It was also good to see some scientific backing for reiki. I must ackowledge the needs of my rational sceptical scientific mind.
I think what spoke most clearly to me from the manual was the expanded section on the 5 principals of reiki. So much of what I read there I could relate to my McKenna training. It all fits and thats why it all feels so right.
I havent meditated or done any self healing today yet. I did try last night but I got twitchy again and I decided (rightly ot wrongly) that trying self healing last night after such an intensive day wasn't the right thing to do.
However what I have done is prepare a space where I can meditate properly maybe with incense or an oil burner to add ambience. The oil burner is dual purpose as I presume the tea light flame would. as act as a candle. The tidying up was HIGHLY therapeutic ( life laundry??) as well as being good exercise.
I intend to meditate properly later today.
I didnt sleep well last night mainly because I spent te night chasing TC (our cat) round the bed because he seemed totally unable to leave me alone and insited on sitting on me however many times I pushed him off. As a result I woke with pains in my back. Not my normal back pain - this was deep in my muscles. I did wonder if it could be healing reaction - but its more likely it was just thanks to an obstinate cat. He was far more obstinate than he has been. Whether that is the sort of change Sue suggested I might see in the cats behavior round me I don't know. Felix (our other cat) is as standoffish with me as he always been as far as I can see.
I will make an entry about my meditation and self healing session later.
One of my pharmacy colleages made what I thought was a scpetical comment about reiki to my FB status where I mentioned going for reiki training. I replied diplomatically and his rseponse was a great surprise. ' Cochrane says it works - I was encouraging you' Cochrane is the bible of evidenced based medicine that all conventional practitioners rely on. He also posted the link to review shat showed a positive effect of reiki and other hands on techniques in arthritic pain. And the moral to that tale is I must NOT assume all my colleagues have closed minds. It was also good to see some scientific backing for reiki. I must ackowledge the needs of my rational sceptical scientific mind.
I think what spoke most clearly to me from the manual was the expanded section on the 5 principals of reiki. So much of what I read there I could relate to my McKenna training. It all fits and thats why it all feels so right.
I havent meditated or done any self healing today yet. I did try last night but I got twitchy again and I decided (rightly ot wrongly) that trying self healing last night after such an intensive day wasn't the right thing to do.
However what I have done is prepare a space where I can meditate properly maybe with incense or an oil burner to add ambience. The oil burner is dual purpose as I presume the tea light flame would. as act as a candle. The tidying up was HIGHLY therapeutic ( life laundry??) as well as being good exercise.
I intend to meditate properly later today.
I didnt sleep well last night mainly because I spent te night chasing TC (our cat) round the bed because he seemed totally unable to leave me alone and insited on sitting on me however many times I pushed him off. As a result I woke with pains in my back. Not my normal back pain - this was deep in my muscles. I did wonder if it could be healing reaction - but its more likely it was just thanks to an obstinate cat. He was far more obstinate than he has been. Whether that is the sort of change Sue suggested I might see in the cats behavior round me I don't know. Felix (our other cat) is as standoffish with me as he always been as far as I can see.
I will make an entry about my meditation and self healing session later.
Saturday, 29 August 2009
Reiki Training
Oh my god what can I say. I hardly know where to start. This really has been another 'eureka' moment like seeing the ghost in York and the dowsing crystal in Stourbridge. I went expecting (fearing?) nothing would happen . This was exactly how I was when I went to both York and Stourbridge. And yet again I have been proved SPECTACULARLY wrong.
It was only in retrospect as I thought through the events of the day that I realised quite how spectacular it was. I didnt expect to see colours when I meditated. I didnt KNOW people often saw colours. But I know what I saw - and I know I wasn't consciously manipulating what I 'saw' .
The behaviour of the dowsing crystal when we were talking to 'John' was also amazing. It wasn't so mch what I learned - but the strength of the response compared to when we 'dowsed' Edna.
And that brief glimpse of that female figure as I started the self healing meditation was utterly unexpected. Having failed all day to sense spirit or see anything other than the abstract when I was meditating, why did I suddenly see that outline? And try as I might I was unable to recreate it . So I am as certain as I could be I didnt 'create' it consciously the first time.
So having said how amazing it was I had better rceord more factually what happened before I forget.
Ther session started with a grounding meditation. I found this quite easy thanks to all the practice I have had.
Then we started working through the manual Sue had prepared for me. Although the history of Reiki and the different types of reiki probably are not going to be that relevant to the use I make of it, the discussion it generated gave me helpful insights into a number of things - including my feelings bout Alan, sibling rivalry, and why I want to learn reiki anyway. I could relate concepts and ideas in the manual to stuff I had done using Paul Mckenna's books, philosophical ideas discussed with Masoud when I was learning about the B'ahai, my pharmacy knowledge and training....................so much made sense. And it made it feel right to be where I was doing what I was doing. It was an affirmation that I am doing the right thing. Not confirmation - affirmation.
During this w eended up discussing Edna - no surprise- and Sue got some information from her spirit guide that Edna is getting ready to cross over. She even got told when it might happen - but didn't tell me. At Sue's suggestion I 'dowsed' her Chakra's to find out if they were open or closed and whether they were clean or blocked. I did it with my dowsing crystal and my eyes closed so I culd picture Edna. That meant I couldn't see what the crystal was doing. Sue also asked me to say what I thought of each chakra based on instinct. I wasn't too brilliant at that. Basically this dowsing gave us the information that her chakra's are closed apart from her crown and base chakra's. And they are not really open. The dowsing confirmed what I already knew or guessed -w hich is that Edna is more or less willing herself to die. This isn't really news - but it says a lot that this hasn't been contradicted by anything we found out today.
The sceptic in me says I am reading what I want to see into the information I was given. But it feels like more than that.
The next thing on the agenda was for Sue to attune me. She split it into two parts - for which I was very thankful. I would not fancy doing the whole thing in one.
The first attunment alomost reduced me to giggles when Sue blew on me - but that very quickly subsided and I strated to feel VERY emotional. I was seeing lost of purple , then purple with bright blue specks, then I saw waves f colour - and finally colour moving and changing that I suddenly realised look an eye slowly blinking.
I hadn't expected to see anything particular during the meditation - and I was shocked when Sue described what i had seen -a nd when I read that people often see colours.
Physically I felt quite intense tingling in my hands a feet - much more intense than I normally get. I am kind of used to the fact that this is my signal that meditation is going well and/or that spirit is with me.
The second half of the attunement was even more intense than the first but less emotional. The phsical symptoms were greater and the colours less intense but it was still a very draining process. Sue's question as I cam out of the meditation was 'Do you feel as if yu have gone 10 rounds with Mike Tyson' the answer was 'yes'
Just at the end of the meditation when Sue was asking me to try and see my reiki guide or get a name for them the name 'John' popped into my mind.
We tried to find out who this was using the dowsing crystal. The responses I got were MUCH stronger than when I was dowsing Edna's chakra's. He isn't my reiki guidem he isn't to help me - bt he is something to do with Tony (whose full name is Anthony John) I asked about that when I rememebred the only 'John' I knew was him. This could be a signal that Tony is going to be helping me in some way - maybe with his mediumship if he chooses to develop it. I so hope he does.
We ended the session with my first self healing session. This is when I saw the outline figure of a woman. Apart from that it was mainly abstract colours again although this time I was aware of little holes of blackness - almst black holes sucking colour away.
Physically this was very intrense. At times I felt muscle twitches and I jumped several times. I only spent about 7 minutes meditating - but physically that was more than enough.
The next step is to do self healing for the next 21 days. I am looking forward to it and will record what happens in this blog.
It is only 9.15 - but I feel ready for bed. I didnt expect the day to be so tiring.
It was only in retrospect as I thought through the events of the day that I realised quite how spectacular it was. I didnt expect to see colours when I meditated. I didnt KNOW people often saw colours. But I know what I saw - and I know I wasn't consciously manipulating what I 'saw' .
The behaviour of the dowsing crystal when we were talking to 'John' was also amazing. It wasn't so mch what I learned - but the strength of the response compared to when we 'dowsed' Edna.
And that brief glimpse of that female figure as I started the self healing meditation was utterly unexpected. Having failed all day to sense spirit or see anything other than the abstract when I was meditating, why did I suddenly see that outline? And try as I might I was unable to recreate it . So I am as certain as I could be I didnt 'create' it consciously the first time.
So having said how amazing it was I had better rceord more factually what happened before I forget.
Ther session started with a grounding meditation. I found this quite easy thanks to all the practice I have had.
Then we started working through the manual Sue had prepared for me. Although the history of Reiki and the different types of reiki probably are not going to be that relevant to the use I make of it, the discussion it generated gave me helpful insights into a number of things - including my feelings bout Alan, sibling rivalry, and why I want to learn reiki anyway. I could relate concepts and ideas in the manual to stuff I had done using Paul Mckenna's books, philosophical ideas discussed with Masoud when I was learning about the B'ahai, my pharmacy knowledge and training....................so much made sense. And it made it feel right to be where I was doing what I was doing. It was an affirmation that I am doing the right thing. Not confirmation - affirmation.
During this w eended up discussing Edna - no surprise- and Sue got some information from her spirit guide that Edna is getting ready to cross over. She even got told when it might happen - but didn't tell me. At Sue's suggestion I 'dowsed' her Chakra's to find out if they were open or closed and whether they were clean or blocked. I did it with my dowsing crystal and my eyes closed so I culd picture Edna. That meant I couldn't see what the crystal was doing. Sue also asked me to say what I thought of each chakra based on instinct. I wasn't too brilliant at that. Basically this dowsing gave us the information that her chakra's are closed apart from her crown and base chakra's. And they are not really open. The dowsing confirmed what I already knew or guessed -w hich is that Edna is more or less willing herself to die. This isn't really news - but it says a lot that this hasn't been contradicted by anything we found out today.
The sceptic in me says I am reading what I want to see into the information I was given. But it feels like more than that.
The next thing on the agenda was for Sue to attune me. She split it into two parts - for which I was very thankful. I would not fancy doing the whole thing in one.
The first attunment alomost reduced me to giggles when Sue blew on me - but that very quickly subsided and I strated to feel VERY emotional. I was seeing lost of purple , then purple with bright blue specks, then I saw waves f colour - and finally colour moving and changing that I suddenly realised look an eye slowly blinking.
I hadn't expected to see anything particular during the meditation - and I was shocked when Sue described what i had seen -a nd when I read that people often see colours.
Physically I felt quite intense tingling in my hands a feet - much more intense than I normally get. I am kind of used to the fact that this is my signal that meditation is going well and/or that spirit is with me.
The second half of the attunement was even more intense than the first but less emotional. The phsical symptoms were greater and the colours less intense but it was still a very draining process. Sue's question as I cam out of the meditation was 'Do you feel as if yu have gone 10 rounds with Mike Tyson' the answer was 'yes'
Just at the end of the meditation when Sue was asking me to try and see my reiki guide or get a name for them the name 'John' popped into my mind.
We tried to find out who this was using the dowsing crystal. The responses I got were MUCH stronger than when I was dowsing Edna's chakra's. He isn't my reiki guidem he isn't to help me - bt he is something to do with Tony (whose full name is Anthony John) I asked about that when I rememebred the only 'John' I knew was him. This could be a signal that Tony is going to be helping me in some way - maybe with his mediumship if he chooses to develop it. I so hope he does.
We ended the session with my first self healing session. This is when I saw the outline figure of a woman. Apart from that it was mainly abstract colours again although this time I was aware of little holes of blackness - almst black holes sucking colour away.
Physically this was very intrense. At times I felt muscle twitches and I jumped several times. I only spent about 7 minutes meditating - but physically that was more than enough.
The next step is to do self healing for the next 21 days. I am looking forward to it and will record what happens in this blog.
It is only 9.15 - but I feel ready for bed. I didnt expect the day to be so tiring.
Sunday, 23 August 2009
Pendle Hill ghost hunt
Los of interesting phenomena. Tony finally got to do glass divination and dowsing and all the things I have done on previosu ghost hunts . He also showed definite signs of being sensitive or even a medium!
Monday, 17 August 2009
Asking questions
Thats all you can do with a dowsing pendant really. It can say yes no or maybe. Reducing every problem to a yes no question is challenging - but it does focus your thoughts.
Edna is of course my main worry. The hospital say she seems to be coping fine with the nebuliser - but I am still extremely anxious and I know this upsets Edna. If it is going to work her confidence has got to be a maximum. I need to know how I can best help her
I made my first serious effort to meditate and tune in last night to try to get some answers/help/advice/inspiration. It wasn't a stunning success. because it was so difficult to frame questions when I was using the pendant. The strongest positive respsonse I got was when I asked if I needed to meditate again about the problem. Thats all very well but I am not very good at meditating yet.
Watch this space.
Edna is of course my main worry. The hospital say she seems to be coping fine with the nebuliser - but I am still extremely anxious and I know this upsets Edna. If it is going to work her confidence has got to be a maximum. I need to know how I can best help her
I made my first serious effort to meditate and tune in last night to try to get some answers/help/advice/inspiration. It wasn't a stunning success. because it was so difficult to frame questions when I was using the pendant. The strongest positive respsonse I got was when I asked if I needed to meditate again about the problem. Thats all very well but I am not very good at meditating yet.
Watch this space.
Sunday, 16 August 2009
Dowsing to answer questions
I had to cope with an unpleasant situation today - and I wasn't sure what to do. As I didnt need to make an immediate decision I decided to use the dowsing pendant to help me. So I meditated ,grounded myself, asked spirit to help me and then in my mind composed a letter to send to the person who had upset me.
I then held the pendant and asked if the letter was the right approach - and got a yes. I asked if I had done anything wrong (the other person implied I had) and got a no.
I then asked if Tony would have any paranormal experiences on the ghost hunt - and got neutral. That control question seemed to prove that I wasn't influencing the pendant consciously.
I now have a situation with Edna that has upset me . And I am not sure what to do. I may well meditate about that and try to frmulate some yes /no questions and see if the pendant can help with that.
One of the side effects of a drug Edna has just been put on is a very dry mouth, When I was with her I was aware of having a very dry outh too,. I wondered if I was psychically pickingup on her feelings? It didnt go when I left the hopsital - but did improve. I think that gets filed under 'interesting' - but I am a long way fronm saying it was paranormal
I then held the pendant and asked if the letter was the right approach - and got a yes. I asked if I had done anything wrong (the other person implied I had) and got a no.
I then asked if Tony would have any paranormal experiences on the ghost hunt - and got neutral. That control question seemed to prove that I wasn't influencing the pendant consciously.
I now have a situation with Edna that has upset me . And I am not sure what to do. I may well meditate about that and try to frmulate some yes /no questions and see if the pendant can help with that.
One of the side effects of a drug Edna has just been put on is a very dry mouth, When I was with her I was aware of having a very dry outh too,. I wondered if I was psychically pickingup on her feelings? It didnt go when I left the hopsital - but did improve. I think that gets filed under 'interesting' - but I am a long way fronm saying it was paranormal
Saturday, 15 August 2009
Reiki Training
Sue rnag me yesterday to arrange dates for my training - but my phone was off so she left a voicemail message. I emailed her to let her know I would ring her today - and if I got no answer would try again Monday.
I was just sitting down to tea and toast and planning to ring Sue, when Tony woke up ad asked if he could have a cup of tea. So I made him one, and before I went upstairs to chat to him, I picked up my phone with the thought. 'I'd better take this in case somebody rings. I got upsatirs and the phoe rang.
It was Sue.
I was just sitting down to tea and toast and planning to ring Sue, when Tony woke up ad asked if he could have a cup of tea. So I made him one, and before I went upstairs to chat to him, I picked up my phone with the thought. 'I'd better take this in case somebody rings. I got upsatirs and the phoe rang.
It was Sue.
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