I did a meditation on CKR today - and got all sorts of things. It represents a journey of discovery - and a maze. I found myself standing in front of a HUGE symbol - and felt comforted by it. I also got the idea that the other symbols sort of 'hang' on it. (Imagine it turned horizontal so things could hook over the spirals)

I found I couldn't give it a colour tho/

My self healing tonight I used DKM .....often. I saw it written in fore above my crown chakra. The energy felt good. Not too much, not the 'electtric' feeling - but calmer - a sort of 'just enough' feeling.

I self healed - and meditated on HSZSN. It was quite an experience. This symbol is all about connections. That is why it used for distance healing. But it is also about connections between this world and the spirit world, connections between past and future.

I used the symbol. then DKM. Then I visualised the symbol actally coming into me. The energy levels were really amazing. And at one point I felt a breeze - or maybe a breath on my face. Was I sensing a spirit with me?

I think tomorrow nights investigation could be very interesting for me

My self healing last night was very interesting. I focussed on SHK and its meaning, and I used the symbol. I felt electric. I could feel my energy expanding. I felt as f I was surrounded by electricity. Today I was focus on HSZSN.

I now realise that you need to progress spiritually to make the best use of your healing abilities. On one level I always knew that. But on a deeper level I now FEEL that.

I did a couple of card readings today and had my cards read by Beverly - one of the admin staff at Little Aston. She is about to have her first reiki attunement. She used an Angel Therapy deck but does it in a very different way to me. She doesn't let anyone else touch her cards - and she pulls 3 cards One for who you are/your past (Solar Plexus Chakra) one for the issue you need to address (mediumship) and the third for how to address it (Visualisation) Well THAT message is clear enough. Tony has just pulled a card form the Angel Therapy deck - and guess what he picked? Yup 'Mediumship! Someone is telling us something - or rather shouting at us.

I have been looking more deeply at the reiki symbols. I am sure that understanding them is the key to progressing with my reiki. No startling insights yet - but I have only read - rather than meditated.

On Monday I asked the angles to help me with my pharmacy CPD. With three days work this week I thought it would be reasonable for me to get at least one patient /request that triggered some CPD for me. All I can say is 'wow' Not one but FOUR over two days. And I still have one more day at work.

I feel I need to make an affirmation - a statement of intent to the universe.

I AM A MEDIUM

Today has been an interesting day spiritually. I sent a reading into to site that was advertising for psychics. The organiser said to do a general reading for him and if it was ok, he'd get back to me with a question. Well I did the reading - and never heard anything. I assumed I'd got it all wrong and he was too polite to tell me I was rubbish. However today he replied saying it was pretty good, and asking for a fairy reading. I will start off on the free readings forum - but would move on to other forums where I would get paid. I am going to send Tony the link so he can try too,

I also found a site the published reiki symbols - and saw DKM written in a way that wasn't even close. I asked Sue - and she has asked if I can see why that symbol is ALSO DKM. I need to meditate on all the reiki symbols and what they mean - and why they work - and what they do. This site gave me a new symbol I have never heard of before. I intend to experiment with it on myself

Self healing went ok. I can feel the energy much better now. I also think I could see someone elses aura/energy wile I was talking to her today. She is about to have her reiki one training so Julie suggested she talk to me. She is going to do an angel reading for me tomorrow if she remember her cards

I feel I am on the verge of a breakthrough - and suspect it is not coincidence it is happening while I am busy and don't really have the time to spend on meditation.

Maybe I need to remember Sue's mantra in the early days' Don't overthink it

This morning my first dilemma was whether I felt up to working at the hospice. The second was what to do about Marion's treatment on Thursday.

I decided to do a proper meditation and see what insights I got. I saw Eli, Thomas and Jenny. I saw Eli and Thomas standing very close together and got the idea of them together supporting the two sides of me. I also worked out how I could treat Marion by getting most of the medical information in advance. It all sort of worked itself out step by step. I then saw a shiny blue orb in my glade and got told to walk into it to energise myself for the hospice.

I only did 2 treatments at the hospital. One treatment was a repeat. The other was a new lady. I got moved to do DKM over her crown chakra. It turns out she she had 3 brain tumours, which have now reduced down to 1 for no apparent reason. But the treatment of these , ended up causing a grand mal fit. I immediately made the leap to Marion. I have been concerned about the effect of reiki on her epilepsy ( for no logical reason) and I think this was conformation that I made the right decision in going ahread with her treatment.

Today I went to see Clare and I did a tarot reading for her . I told Clare to pick 10 - 20 cards. I found it quite easy to read for her. I deliberatley asked her to pick a larger number of cards to see how I would get on. I also picked tarot because I suspected it would force me to connect with Eli. I felt a long time ago that Eli is my 'mediumship' guide.

I had an imnteresting meditation on the way home. Clare gave me some therapy - and we ended up discussing spiritual Sally and scientific Sally. I got the idea that Thomas is there for scientific Sally ( I feel he is an engineer) and Eli is there for spiritual Sally. That gives a new spin on the rock to diamond issue.

I have been reading the Angel Therapy book Marie gave me. It is typical Dooren Virtue - but there are some things in that speak to me - especially when she talks about self doubt and skepticism.

Do I beleive everything Doreen Virtue writes? Well I believe she believes what she writes is the truth. But I do find it difficult to accept people seeing Angels physically.

I di my self healing on the train going up to Clare's. You eally can heal anywhere . I don't think anyone noticed me sketching CKR and DKM. Well if they did - no-one asked me what I was doing. probably thought I was barmy!!

I am debating what to do about Marion's reiki on Thursday. With Andy being in hospital - I thought the wedding would be off. But she contacted me today to ask if it was still on. But she wants me to treat her at 9.00 - which meansd I won't get home till gone 10 - and its too late for me.

Is this a signal I shouldn't treat her? I need to give her an answer tomorrow if I am to be fair to her.

Good day today. Marie came for her hypnotherapy and is going to have another session with me. Tony gave her a reading as well. I will have to be very careful how I handle her. I think there are lots more things going on than she is telling me. I may be wrong - but I think she may be in an abusive relationship NOW. I already know I must take care not to step over the line professionally and keep personal contact to a minimum at the moment.

My self healing went well.

Its been an interesting day today. I met Marie - and she is clearly a rather troubled young woman. She is coming tomorrow to have hypnotherapy.

She is in a relatonship with a man 40 years older than her - and on the basis of what she told me today she feels trapped. She also told me she has problems to deal with from her past. That is what she wants to sort out with hypnotherapy. She is also VERY anxious to learn reiki.

I decided to do a reading for her to find out about her development potential the cards were pretty clear

Clear yourself, Past Life Issues, Archangel Raphael , Third Eye Chakra and Shield Yourself.

Clearly she has potential - if she can deal with these issues from her past. I think her hypnotherapy might be interesting.

My self healing today was a bit flat compared with my previous ones. I still felt the energy flowing though. I used CKR SHK and DKM. I DO like DKM.

I feel a bit 'meh' today. Not sure why. It could be because I haven't meditated.

I have just done 30 minutes of self healing. I used all the symbols and it was amazing. I could feel such a strong energy flow from my hands and all through my body. I really CAN feel the energy especially in my chakras. And I can almost SEE the energy from my hands. It is a very very faint shimmer - like a heat haze. But is really there.

I meditated this morning and saw Eli. There was no special message - just general encouragement

I had a phone call tonight . One of my hospice patients asked if he could have my number to give to his father's girlfriend. Well she rang tonight to ask if I could teach her reiki. I am SO frustrated that I had to say no. But I am meeting her for coffee tomorrow so we can at least talk. She and her boyfriend feel the reiki has done Stephen a lot of good. He is now in a care home - and I have said if the care home don;t object I am happy to continue to treat him . Marie thought it was a great idea even though it won't be free anymore!.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring?

I had a bit of a downer yesterday. My healing at the hospice wasn't sensational - good but not a wow really. Howere there were some interesting things. One lady I treated last week had died. When I treated her I used HSZSN to send healing 'for her net procedure' - an impulse I didn't understand. I now wonder if I sent healing to ease her dying. The second thing was when I was healing a youngish man, I got an image of a young girl with dark auburn hair. Because he is open to all aspects of my healing, I mentioned this and he said his daughter has died her hair dark auburn - and he is anxious because he wants to see her but she is reluctant . As he is moving to a care home today, I suggested she may well be more comfortable coming to see him there. I hope that was a mediumistic message - not just me trying to cheer him up.

I have done self healing and meditation this morning. I tried to sit in the power - and it felt OK. Not as good as when Sue is talking me through it - but OK. The healing was OK. I used CKR, SHK and DKM. I could feel energy coming up from my feet - and got the thought that I needed that to heal and help ground me as well.

I healed for about 15 minutes I suppose.

I meditated after healing and got some interesting thoughts. I have a friend coming for his second life coaching session today - and I was wondering whether to use reiki or hypnotherapy as well. Eli clearly said 'Let him decide what he needs' I also saw Dad - who told me he loved me - and I got the message I need to shine like the diamond I am.

Was that me getting messages from spirit? Or me saying what I wanted to hear. The idea of me shining like a diamond is NOT a natural one for me. I beleive that was mediumistic. I always got reminded I need to practice. It is only the 3 rd day since I was taught to propely sit in the power and connect. I need to work on it.

21 days of self healing

I have just done my first self healing session using the new symbol I have been taught. I consciously tried to sit in the power and expand my aura to get myself into a state where I should be able to hear Jenny. As I did the healing downstairs in the room with Tony, I also tried to expand my energy into his to see if he picked anything up from me - or me from him. I don't think that worked.

Anyway I did 15 to 20 minutes of self healing, utilising all three symbols. I don't normally use any symbols when self healing - apart from CKR to start the flow. However I used all 4 on me. When I used CKR I really felt the energy When I used DKM it intensified and I felt a bit wobbly in the stomach.

I was in a meditative state as I treated myself, and I saw Eli.I was (and am) worried about how well my mediumship WILL be and whether I will develop as Sue clearly thinks I will. Eli told me I will be OK - I just need to practice.

I still have a LONG way to go - but that is why I have to do these 21 days.

I am not sure if I am pleased or disappointed that yesterday didn't go as originally planned. I am a master practitioner - but not a master teacher. The reason was very simple. I am not ready - which I can agree with. But also that I need to see where they are with their energy. Sue assures me I will get there. I am not so sure. But when I first started this the concept of feeling the energy flow would have seemed impossible. Instead I was given a day's intense mediumship training to strengthen my link with my guides. So I was taken into a guided meditation and actually taught to 'sit in the power' (one of the things Tony Stockwell tried to teach on his CD) and it did feel amazing. It helped me feel Jenny and Eli (where was Thomas?) and I even spoke for them. Eli was the most amazing. He has always been there, he knew Dad, When Sue asked him if he could show me his calling card he showed me exactly that - a pack of cards. And suddenly something clicked in my mind about the card Thomas showed me me in meditation a few days ago, and the rock that was his original gift to me. I found myself saying something abut a rock becoming a diamond when it is polished. Amazing. They certainly are not the sorts of things i would normally say. I even told Sue she would learn by teaching me. Sue video'd it and it did seem as if I could see the energy round me - and chnages in my face as a guide came in - but it was dark and pixelation/matrixing do strange things - so I amot sure about that.

I did two treatments one on jason and another one on Jo. For both Itried acyively to link to jeny AND to expand my energy to the person I was treating. Treating Jason Jenny reminded me about his elbow problem, so I went to his right elbow - and felt nothing. I went to his left elbow and energy flowed - but he wears his watch on his left hand as if he was right handed. Turns out he shoots left handed. My second treatment on Jo was much better than the first one. I did picke things up more accurately.

Anyway I have a 6 month plan for my development - and reiki is all about personal development more so than healing.

It will be interesting to see how things go on out next paranormal event. Will I see hear and feel more?

Reiki level 3 - day one

Today was absolutely amazing. It started with a discussion of brain waves - alpha theta and delta and where I am when I work. I should be working in theta - but am mainly in alpha - at the moment. I am sure that will change.

Sue then led me in a guided meditation to help me feel and expand my energy and an exploration of why I find it hard to hard to open up. I expanded my energy by visualising my heart chakra I saw it as spinning pink.Sue asked me to expand my energy and I saw that as a shaft of green light coming out of the centre and filling the room. I thensaw energy coming in from my crown chakra and the green became flecked with white, gold and purple I really could feel the atmosphere almost crackling

I then explored various things by seeing my heart chakra as a pick rosebud. I had to explore why it wasn't open - and it got quite emotional as my relationship with Mum and Dad, my issues over my weight and even the hurt inflicted by Alan all surfaced. I had gestalt conversations (and spirit communication?) with Mum and Dad. I saw the rose as open - but this time it was yellow - and I remembered the masquerade roses dad had in the front garden.

I linked the yellow with the solar plexus chakra and got told that all my chakra's work to balance each other and support each other. I briefly visualised my throat chakra as a blur flecked crystal.


When Sue told me to come back to the room I had to count myself back - just as I would count back when bringing a client out of trance. I realise now that I was guided to learn about hypnotherapy so I could actually understand about depth of trance and brain waves and utilise them to good advantage.

We alos discussed the responsibilities of a reiki practitoner - and tomorrow I know we will discuss the repsonsibilities of a master teacher.

I learned a new symbol DKM which gives soul/spiritual healing. Having learned it and what it does,. Sue then got me to give a treatment to one of her friends (Jo) using the symbol -even tho I had not at that been attuned. The treatment went OK - but when I used DKM I really felt the power - and almost felt sick- and did feel quite wobbly. Jo said she felt very light - if hot' after the treatment. I really chanel heat!!

After the tretament Sue then did the attunement. Before she started Sue said there were other people there - and said Sandy wanted to be recognised.

I closed my eyes and relaxed and felt someone was in front of me - but Sue was behind me. Someone touched my left arm, I felt breath on my face when Sue was behind me, and I got this horrible pain in my right arm just below the shoulder. When the attunement was finished, Sue told me take time to meet new guides, and I got this picture of Sandy as a grizzled highlander with shaggy red hair, a shaggy red berard wearing a kilt. I got the ide that he was putting the pain in my arm becasue he had a sword injury in his arm. I asked him ot take it off me - and he did. I need to learn who he is and what he does

Eli was also around for the first time in a LONG time. Sue described him very well. I always felt he was my guide for mediumship - and there is no doubt this attunement has opened me up and will improve my medium abilities.

Tomorrow I will learn how to attune then practice on Sam (Sue's dog) and then on Jo.

I feel tired, have one hell of a headache but am also exited by events and really looking forward to tomorrow

The pamper party on Saturday went really well. No-one wanted reiki but Sarah had said she thought only 3 or 4 people would want oracle readings. In the end Tony and I were working for two and half hours solid. I think everyone had a reading and one girl had one from each of us. As well as being profitable financially it taught us both a lesson. We were both exhausted afterwards. I was better because I am used to working with spirit. Tony isn't.

He has now realised he needs to give more time to things like meditation, protection and grounding.

Sarah was pleased with how things went and she will be contacting me later this week about using her room at the salon to give reiki and a more permanent link with her businesses. I would say its coincidence how all this is happening now - except I know it isn't

Today is the first day of my reiki level 3. I am nervous. So I decided to ask Raphael for some advice. The card I got was 'have faith' That is a good message on so many levels. I need to have faith in myself, faith in my reiki and faith the Raphael will be with me helping me today

We went to The Witch last night. Apart from feeling as if someone poked me in the back, nothing much happened for me. Tony had an interesting time tho. He ended up chanelling someone and getting loads of information that can be checked up on. On the way home e discussed the possibility that none of it was correct - and why that would be. I guess last night had me thinking about what 'spirit' is. Certainly my sceptical side was well to the fore.

I did give some reiki last night as well. One of the guests has sever osteoarthritis in her right knee. Tracy ( who has trained with Sue) tried giving some reiki into the knee and said it wouldn't go in. I decided to help her and the energy flow was nil - until I did CKR over her knee and drew the symbol several times. THEN I could feel something going in. She has been told she needs knee replacement and I am guessing thats why the energy wouldn't in at first. Repair isn't possible and thats what reiki mainly does.

I am using the blog as meditation tool this morning. I feel very unfocussed. I am not sure what to do. I am having hair extensions put in today and I am not sure if it os going to be a disastrous waste of 40,00, or a huge boost to my self esteem that will enable me to move forward with the changes I think I need to make.

My self esteem DOES need a boost. I always feel a bit down after an evening when everyone else has 'seen' and heard' things from spirit, and I feel blind and deaf. Reminding myself we all have out different talents doesn't help. Part of me WANTS to give a message from a departed loved one to someone who really needs to hear it. Part of me feels that the healing I do is nowhere near as glamorous as traditional mediumship. Why does that matter?

Is it because I feel I am settling for second best? as if that is all I DESERVE to be able to do? Its certainly typical of my thinking. Thats why I settled for such bad relationships in the past. And to be honest there is still part of my that feels I don't deserve Tony - but now I also know he is lucky to have me - something I can never remember feeling in my other relationships.

So I do recognise I have a lot to offer. So is my frustration born of envy, or because I am not fulfilling my full potential. Will doing my level three help unlock my potential? Probably not. The only person who can expand my potential is me by practicing.

But I do need to be sure I am practicing the right things. So I need to ask spirit what my next move should be for development.

I used my Angel guidance deck and pulled 5 cards. I am not sure what the message is. I got

Ground yourself - always good advice
Giving and receiving - I do find it difficult to receive.
Play - maybe as sign I need to relax a bit about it all. Don;t over think things as Sue would say
Perfect timing - so it is the right time for reiki three and the other changes I need to make
Be honest with yourself. I want to have more mediumship ability - so I need to practice.

I woke up feeling rather cr@p this morning. I have not been sleeping well lately (due to too high thyroxine levels - my dose has been reduced) do I am tired. I ache, and I have a horrendous headache. Also overnight I had a bout of my' almost but not quite cystitis' I think (maybe wrongly) that dehydration could be a factor in the cystits and the headache. So I found myself thinking about having a detox day .

I decided to use my Raphael deck and asked what I should do to get myself into the best of health.

The answer was Diet is important here, Laughter is the best medicine and Exercise is the key. I was sort of expecting to get the Detoxification card.

I decided to use my Fairy deck for clarification and got Beauty, Trust your intuition, and Visualization.

OK so what do I take from that. I DO need to drink more water but my intention was JUST to drink today and that clearly is bad. I need to eat a good diet, I need to visualise myself healthy - and see my beauty . And I also need to stop taking things so seriously and have some fun. All good health advice - and it placing the responsibility firmly on my shoulders to make the right choices.

We are going to The Witch tonight for the first time on ages. I think it could be a good evening.

I had an amzing experience at the hospice today. I only had one patient, and contrary to usual I hadn't read her notes before I treated her. This was because Jean and I had to tout for patients today. Jean took verbal consent, then left to do the paperwork while I got on with treatment.

She was obviously quite poorly and I felt 20 minutes would be as much as she could take. The only problem she mentioned to me was her stomach which was very distended and she said she needed her stoma to start working. When I was working on her stomach I kept my hands moving - sort of massaging her with reiki. I felt a lot of energy going into her legs which I didnt understand. And I also felt I needed to 'massage' her legs with reiki (something I have never done before) In the back of my mind I got the idea of keeping the blood in her legs moving. I know she is at risk of DVT due to immobility and underlying disease - and I thought that was what I was dealing with.

At the end of the session her first comment was that her feet felt warm for the first time in a long term. I later found out she has Raynauds disease. I should add from the gurgling noises we heard during treatment her stoma was starting to work

Yesterday was really interesting. I was seeing a friend to do some life coaching. I decided to do a reading for him using Ask Your Guides before he turned up. I wanted to see if I get some kind of idea about what he needed to concentrate on. I did - but I didn't realise it until we were well into the session. Then later he asked for a tarot reading and that built nicely on the session.

I didnt do any self healing yesterday. I must do some today.

My meditation today was interesting. I had intended to meditate on what compassion is. But I ended up doing protection and grounding mainly. I was very aware of energy and my chakra's. I felt I had too much energy and needed to ground.

When I grounded I saw Jenny and she put the purple cloak around my shoulders again. Not sure what it meant though.

I did 15 minutes of self healing this morning. I started off with ms gave me y normal hand position at the base of the abdomen then moved to various split hand positions on my body and specifically on my head. I also treated my knees. I could generally feel the flow in the nearest chakra to my hands. When I treated my knees I could feel energy in my legs. I also felt very hot again part way through the session.

I decided to use my Angel Therapy and Ask Your Guides decks together with three cards from each. Angel Therapy gave me Singing and Dancing, If you get nervous focus on service, and Cancel Clear Delete. Ask Your Guide gave me Self Esteem, Devotion and Shame. Certainly singing and dancing and having fun are good for self esteem. Focussing on service certainly requires Devotion. Cancel Clear delete and Shame feel as if they go together. It isn't the first time I have picked Shame recently. Does this refer to my relationship with jane? Or is it about my failure to lose weight?

Something to meditate on I think - and that will be my next move, And maybe It would help if I meditated on what the 5 the reiki principle means. What is compassion and how can I show it?

This morning I have done 10 minutes of self healing - downstairs while watching the news. About 5 minutes in I suddenly felt really hot and sweaty for about a minute then it faded away. I could feel the energy flowing all the time . I just kept my hands on my sacral chakra. This was partly for comfort but also because my cystitis issue seems to be making a comeback. I am actually going to look and see what bladder issues could be a sign of in my wider life. I do not subscribe to the belief that some spiritual healers have that EVERY disease in a certain part of the body is linked to the same sort of life issue. But I am totally prepared to look at a psychological cause for physical problems which seem to be recurrent. And lets face it I have had bladder problems since I was 11!! So a bit of reading later.

I went to church this morning. It was interesting that the vestments were green - the colour associated with Raphael - and the bit of the service that hit me like an arrow was the prayer that talked about serving in newness of life - and I found myself thinking that my master training does mark a very pivotal new beginning for me. Message for me?

Why do I feel the need to go to church? I always feel a little uncomfortable because I know a majority of church members and clergy wouldn't exactly approve of my activities and my beliefs. I certainly don't normally stop to talk to anyone. And I got to the 8.00 am said communion so I don't have to suffer the moment in the normal family communion when the congregation is invited to offer one another the sign of peace. Considering I am a very tactile person, love giving and receiving hugs why do I feel so uncomfortable when everyone wanders round and shakes hands? Why do I put myself in an environment that makes me uncomfortable?


Anyway I did a meditation and my normal intercessions before the service - including my recitation of the reiki principles. And no I didn't feel it was inappropriate to do that in that environment. I feel the reiki principles are totally compatible with Christian beliefs, indeed the beliefs of all major religions.

I am preparing for my reiki level 3 attunement in just over a week. I am preparing a long entry about all sorts of things to do with this, but one of my decisions was that in the run up I meditate on things to do with reiki and do self healing every day.

Today I grabbed my sodalite crystal for the meditation and remembered that it has significance for melding the logical with the spiritual. At times I feel my reiki benefits from the logical side. At other times I feel my logical side blocks me from doing the more spiritual things like seeing auras, seeing spirit, getting clear messages from spirit etc.

I settled in to do my meditation and concentrated on my breathing , then I did my normal recitation of the Lord's Prayer and tried to feel the energy in my chakras. After my normal intercession prayer for everyone on my prayer list, I then decided to meditate on the CKR symbol. And I saw that the symbol with its straight lines and curves is just like me. The straight lines are my logical side, the curves are my spiritual side. Now CKR is the CORNERSTONE of reiki. What does that mean for me?

I then did about 10 minutes of self healing. Again I tired to really FEEL the energy flow - and I did.

With a visit to the doctor due to day, I have been focussing on my health issues especially my weight. Today I realised that I had forgotten one large factor that could be responsible for my weight gain over the last year - a massive reduction the amount of days I am working. However this doesn't make me feel any better about my weight and general appearance

I decided to pull a card from 'Ask your guides' this morning . Shame (Divine Healers) fell out almost as soon as I started to shuffle. The message of this card is about boosting self esteem and how the universe supports us -even when we feel the rest of the world is against us. Its the fact that the card is a healer card that is significant too - on a day when my health is uppermost in my mind.

Archangel raphael gave me 'fresh air' so I think I had better get moving if I I am to WALK to the surgery rather than drive!!

I decided to use Ask your guides and Angel Therapy together today - 3 cards from each plus 1 each from Raphael and Fairies

Ask your Guides gave me Self Control Appreciation and Compromise
Angel Therapy gave me Emotional Sensitivity, Fairies and Power Animal.

Fairies and Power Animal both suggest getting into the fresh air - so I wasn't too surprised when Raphael gave me Fresh Air. Fairies gave me vacation

Self control and Emotional sensitivity do go together. I need to use my sensitivity but keep it in check. Yesterday I pulled Temperance from my tarot deck which is also about emotional balance.

Appreciation and Fairies don't seem to fit - unless I need to acknowledge that I get help from ...no I can't say Fairies I dont believe in them - but nature spirits? Could this be linked with my quest for a new lapel badge with a cornish pixie on????

Compromise and Power animal seem totally unrelated.

I was considering taking a walk in the park even before I drew these cards. I will definitely do so. Good exercise for body and mind. I can meditate as I walk.

I feel really fed up this morning - and I am wondering if I need to make an entry in my other blog since a lot of the issues going round in my head are lifestyle related. But I decided to do some cards and picked one each from Raphael, Daily Guidance and Fairy decks

The message was quite cohesive

Acceptance - accepting that everything is going in the right direction is what is on the card - but when I pulled it I THOUGHT I read it was about acceptance of what is going on. Maybe that should also be acceptance of what HAS gone on i.e. my thyroid issues

Honouring your true feelings - because I still DON'T accept what has gone on

Innocence - and the text on the card includes the words 'Give us your feelings of heaviness'

Well heavy sums up how I feel this morning.

The message I take from these is that I have to honour the way I feel, learn from it, accept what has happened - and also accept myself as I am. That idea has literally juts come to me. Blogging as a form of meditation strikes again.

Today started well. I did a good 30 minutes on the wii fir, had a healthy breakfast and was feeling really upbeat and in control. Then I went to meet Margaret and Sheila at Feet Retreat and it all came crumbling down because they wouldn't treat me due to a small crack in the skin on one foot. This really upset me - almost certainly out of all proportion to the actual event.

However there is still one thing on the plus side. Today we are meeting the ownere of the SaS Co hair salon in Bournville. They are interested in both my reiki and Tony's oracle cards for their pamper parties and I am almost certanly going to book a room one day a week at their other salon to give reiki. I have even ordered a portable trartment table and rolling stool!!

I pulled some cards. I ended up pulling 8 tarot cards. Well to be honest I went for one and the other 7 came with it. WHAT a selection!

The Tower
9 of Cups
10 of Pentacles
Ace of Cups
King of Pentacles
8 of wands
8 of pentacles
Ace of Pentacles

Tower = change, 9 of Pentacles - the wish card, 10 of Pentacles - making something concrete for the future, Ace of Cups -well aces are always good. I presume in this case the relationship is between us and Sarah . King of Pentacles - need ambition and determination, 8 wands end to delays - fortune is on your side, 8 pentacles - new direction in career, Ace of Pentacles - invest energy and drive in a new business

2 8's in the selection and I drew 8 cards - and 8 is the number of regeneration

How many good omens can there BE for the meeting??

But I must NOT get complacent. It still needs work and and dedication. It will only happen if we put the time and energy into it