Listen

I haven't done much with cards or even any meditation since the weekend. I have been unmotivated and lethargic. But today I listened to Davids 'meet your guide' meditation. And from that I got the ide that a long but exciting path lies in front of me as I develop psychically.

I decided to try some card picks too. Neither tarot nor Angel oracle cards really gave me anything major. I don't think I set my intention with the tarot cards, and the oracle cads gave me 'Joy' I decided to try the Ascended masters deck and got 'Listen' That DID get my attention as I got the same card at the workshop. So I read the meaning from the book and basically it says' Listen to your guide'

It is clear if I am going to walk along this path, I need to MAKE time to listen to my guides by meditating regularly.

Spiritual development

I had a fascinating and enjoyable day yesterday. I finally got the chance to meet David Wells - who is just like he appears on TV and in his books. I knew I wanted to meet him because his books have been so helpful - but also because of all the medium's I have seen on TV he was one who radiated integrity. When he was on MH he came across as totally sincere as well as very gifted. It was as I suspected his sincerity that made him leave the show - and it is no coincidence that the show went downhill after he left. But would I have chosen to do a workshop about Past Life regression if it hadn't been my a chance to meet him? It was my third attempt because the first workshop I tried got cancelled, and the second one I was really interested in was the weekend we were coming back from Scotland. In all honesty the answer would be no. I am unsure what I believe about past lives. In some ways it makes more sense than the idea that we only have one life to get it right but I have yet to see any convincing evidence that anyone has accessed information that conclusively proves they have lived before. So why did I book it? It was so I could meet David and so Tony (who believes he has lived before) could explore this further. In the end Tony didn't go, I went alone and I had a fascinating and enjoyable day.

The first thing that made me go 'wow' was that David had copies of one of my favourite quotes from Change your Life in 7 days on the tables. 'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure....' etc and the rest. I dont know who Marianne Williamson is but that quote hit home when I first read it 4 years ago. To see it as the first thing on a workshop i wasn't sure about made me think. Rightly or wrongly I see things that loop back like that as signs that I am on the right track,

Basically the day consisted of a series of guided meditations - which David lead fantastically well. After a basic visualisation to link in and open our chakras, the first meditation lead us to the tree of life . On the way to it through a forest I saw a wolf - my power animal. This image is no great surprise and at the time I connected it with Tony. As we approached the tree a name came into my head. Not mine and I don't believe it was the name of anyone I saw in the mirror. David suggested later it could be my angelic name -which I should not reveal. In the tree of life I looked in a mirror to see who or what I would see. Initially I saw a girl in homespun with brown hair, then she turned into a black haired indian squaw. These two images kept swapping fora while then right at the end I saw a warrior I felt was a war chief.

The next exercise was to work with a partner and stare into their eyes to try and see into their soul and see if you could see past lives overlain on their face. I didn't see very well for Kate but I did get a hint of a crone like face and got the word witch. She seemed to be able to relate to that. It was what she saw for me that had me going wow. She described the war chief I had such a brief glimpse of and got the word 'thane' which would certainly fit with the time period I connected him with.

The next guided meditation was to try and connect to past relationships. This time as I walked through the forest the wolf stayed in the trees and I got the idea I needed to do this alone. But Jenny and Thomas were in the glade.This time people came out of the tree of life and we looked at them. The only two I saw clearly were an indian brave and a victorian gentleman. I got the idea the brave was the husband of the squaw and the victorian gentleman was my brother. I also got the weird idea I may have known Phil before in a past life even tho I didnt 'see' or 'recognise' Phil in either of the two figures. I was disappointed I hadn't seen things more clearly, but got the idea I wasn't ready for that yet - and that I should come back another time when I could learn more.

Oracle cards also figured in the day. We were all given a free pick of an angel card. I got angel of perfection - which basically said you can lose what is important in the search for perfection. That spoke volumes to me. David also had a deck of angel oracle cards and ascended masters (the same ones we have here) and a random pick from the angel oracle cards gave me 'listen' while the ascended masters deck gave me' twin flame'. Later on I felt moved to make another pick from the ascended masters deck and got 'listen' which made me go 'ok I get the message but what or who am I supposed to be listening to?'

The next meditation took us the akhasic records through the tree of life. David said we could just go to look at past lives or to get answers to questions about why have phobias or repeat certain destructive behaviour patterns. The journey to the akhasic temple was fascinating. We had to pick up a crystal from a granite block then see ourselves throwing it into the arctic waste . At the point where David said we could see a crystal I saw my moonstone. Using that crystal to access the akhasic records is so very appropriate.

I accessed the temple via a door decorated with 'The Sun' card from the tarot. In the hallway where objects from my past lives were displayed I saw a victorian sampler most clearly. My guide to the records was Peter.I didnt see anything momentous in my book even though I had a question - but maybe I was asking the wrong question. On the way back out as well as the sampler I saw a stone arrowhead among the objects from my past lives.

The last meditation of the day was to help us create a 'magic image' we can put on when we need particular virtues/abilities in a situation. David even specifically mentioned putting on an image before giving reiki. We were told we could pick someone we had seen from a past life, or a historical figure, or even a fictional character. Or we could just wait and see what we got. I picked the war chief character. This meditation had us in a theatre and we went up onto the stage and our chosen costume dropped onto us. Despite my best efforts to see the trappings of the war chief, what I got was a nurse from Florence Nightingale's era.

I saw this not a sign I had been a nurse at that time (although I wouldn't rule it out as she could have ben the sister of the victorian gentleman I saw) but as affirmation that healing is what I should be doing. I can put this costume on for reiki and hypnotherapy - and maybe for card readings as well.

This wasn't about psychic development. It was all about knowing and understanding yourself which is why I see this as spiritual development. I wonder if I will repeat this workshop when/if Tony decides he would like to do it after all?

Interesting

Yesterday I did some cards but couldn't meditate on them. Instead I wrote them down and took my notebook to work for me to write any thoughts in if I got time. I did get time and one of the messages I got from the cards was that I need to push my mediumship and have more faith in it. Less than 30 minutes later I found I was trsying to use my medium skills thanks to a conversation with Calire the technician - who I beleive also has mediumship skill if she could get up the nerve to deal with her abilities.

As Yvette would say 'Interesting'

My first proper afternoon as a reiki practitioner

Wow is all I can say. It went really well. Everyone I treated said they felt really relaxed at the end. A couple of pateints commented about the heat form my hands.

With one lady we both felt a breeze . I knew the lady's mother - who had been a patient I knew at the hospice - had died 6 weeks ago . The room had been breeze free up till then and I was convinced her mother was there. When the treatment was over I very tentatively if she knew about the spiritual side of reiki. As her sister used to do reiki it was a possibility. It turns out she is very much into that sort of thing. So I said I felt her mother had been there and she told me she KNEW her mother had been there - and that she had in fact seen her mother shortly after she died.

I have been told I must NOT give mediumistic messages when working with reiki. As I dont get messages of that sort it wasn't anything I felt I had to worry about too much. This has made me think. I was very careful to step out from my reiki role before I spoke - and if she had expressed no interest in the spiritual side I wouldn't have spoken at all.

A number of people took my number and may seek further (paid!) treatments from me.

I feel I took a huge step yesterday.

A very private meditation

I am not going to put all the details here - but today I did some card picks that were on the 'wow' side and then did an unusual meditation. I was focussing on my weight issues and I think I finally know who Jenny is. I thought she was a reiki guide - but somehow that never quite fitted. I think she IS something to do with my healing but I also feel now she represents my higher self - a visual image for me to keep in mind when I need to contact it - as I need to when I am dealing with food and exercise issues= particularly choices about what when and how to eat.

I will share one bit of the meditation here. I was in my temple of dreams and I saw the 3 stained glass windows behind the alter. In the middle was Christ. On the right was a slim me giving reiki . On the left was a slim me using hypnotherapy.

Tomorrow is the pamper afternoon at the hospice. the first day of my new career???

A thought provoking meditation

I meditated this morning. I made an effort to tidy and sanctify the room before I did so and had two candles burning. One by me and one in front of the mirror. In other words I made a huge effort to get myself in thr right frame of mind to meditate fruitfully.

I decided to meditate for 'guidance' I also pulled a tarot card to use as a theme and got the 7 of cups - the daydream card.

I strated off in my glade, and it was quite crowded with my guides, Mum Dad and Alan there. I wasn't sure how I felt about Alan being there so I thought 'guidance' and they all turned and pointed down the path opposite to the one I enter by. I wlaked down it and it was dark. I saw a candle flame and the light from the flame expanded until it became a door I could walk through. This is a symbol I have seen before. Then I found myself at the Temple - only this time it was full of peopel and a communion service was going on. I wnt up and took communion. Then I knelt and again asked for guidance. I realised I have lots of guidance available but I have to ask for it.

Then I thought about relaxation and my health problems and in particular my dry mouth. I relaised this is probably due to too much adrenaline so I decided to sue a McKenna style visualistion and took myself to the beach to listen to the waves.

Then the music changed (I had Sacred Woman on shuffle) and it started playing 'Moon (woman) with a backgorund sound of a stream and my immediate thought was 'Woman always giving in a stream of generosity'

I realised I need to make sure I am OK, or can't really help anyone else.

During the meditation I also focussed on my daydreams and realised at the moment I have 2 big ones. A Reiki practice and a holiday abroad. I have realised I need the holiday - whether abroad or in this country - and I probably need to focus on that. The implication is (from the cards and other things) that I am doing as much as I can to get a reiki practice.

It was the best most productive meditation I have had for some time.

This morning I feel very down - and frankly sorry for myself - which is probably the most unhelpful emotional state to be in. In fact I have been feeling down for some time now. I put it down to tiredness. I am now wondering if the tiredness was due to a developing thyroid problem. But I know spirituality is important for good mental health so this morning I decided to do a reading for me.

I used my Angel oracle card deck and my first impression when I saw the cards was that I had picked a couple of cards wrong. But as I looked at the meanings in the book I saw I hadn't. Whether it is psychic or psychological I have taken a very positive and helpful message from the cards. They were

Play, New partner, law of attraction, The ocean, Assertiveness.

My first thought was that I shouldn't have picked New Partner and The Ocean. (I am very happy with Tony and I live about as far away from the ocean as you can get in the UK) But when I looked at the deeper meanings I saw that new partner could mean I am going to meet someone by chance who may be able to help me in a business venture. Yesterday I noticed that the place doing the hypnotherapy course tomorrow also does reiki and found myself wondering if this could be another useful link for me. 'The Ocean' probably indicates the strong link I have to water anyway - but can also be advise to drink more water - which is something I have been concentrating on as part of my health routine for the past few days.

So the message I take from these cards is that I need to stop worrying and relax a bit. There may well be an opportunity for me with the college tomorrow. I need to focus o the positive (whichI am trying to do) I am right to focus in drinking more water, and I need to curb my tendency to get aggressive over bad situations. I am not sure what situation I need to assertive over but I suspect i will know it when I see it.

The other idea that springs to mind is that I want a holiday - which would enable me to play and get near the ocean. Maybe I need to get one booked. It is something I have been thinking about doing recently.

I am going to make time to meditate today. I left ot too late yesterday and I was too tired when I went to bed. So that may well be my next move today

Reconnecting with my spiritual side

I have been unconnected for a few weeks now. Tony had to have emergency surgery for appendicitis a couple of weeks ago. And then I disocoeverd in a lump in my. Well I saw it in the mirror and the thought that went across my mind was'I have a goitre - I must have a thyroid problem' Then I realised the lump was only on one side. However the doctor said it could still be my thyroid and I am currently waiting for the results of blood tests - and really hoping my initial reaction was a psychic one.

Tony's illness meant we had to pull out of Laura's course - and really anyhting spiritual has been put on the back burner. However I am making an effort to get back into meditation and using my cards and pendant.

Yesterday I went back to basics and did the Tony Stockwell spirit journey guided meditation. The cushions in the canoe were green and gold with reiki symbols. the candle falme was red, and the bird I saw was a blackbird. As this represents me, I guess this means I have made progress over the past year when I saw a seagull. This was the meditation wher I frst Thomas and got the gift of a rock whihc puzzled me so much for so long. This time I saw Peter as well as Thomas, but I couldn't see the gifts. I was trying too hard I think.

Today I haven't meditated yet - but will do se in a bit. I have however used my cards. The Healing with the fairies deck thre 2 cards out ( Inner Power and Laughter) and I picked 'Happily Ever After. I certainly need re-assurance about my inner power - and I sure could do with some laughter. I am very down - but this may be die to an underactive thyroid so I am hopeful there is light at the end of the tunnel. Hapily Ever After is a good omen that things WILL work out - both with our health issues and our spiritual work.

Blog hiatus

I havent done any blogging recently and I need to get back into the routine. But over the last couple of days I have been aware of the need to set myself goals and have a definite plan. This morning my FB status was about the week ahead being a blank canvass. Then I read a blog entry from one of my freinds who has not blogged for months and she was in a really bad place. That got me motivated to make an entry in 'Changing life and times' In the entry I said I needed to make another entry later to review where I am and where I am going.

In the spirit of 'lets get organised' I decided to do a daily card pick for the first time in days. I used my new angel deck - and picked 'Creative project' . I do regard my blog as being creative since I enjoy writing.

It was a very interesting card to get. I feel encouraged that I am on the right track and doing the right things

Growing confidence

Yesterday was a quite extraordinary day spiritually - and I was actually at work most of the day! I was out at Sutton Coldfield where I had done the readings before and I took a couple of decks with mainy so I could do picks for me if I had a quiet moment. But it worked out differenly. Both the people I read for before were there so I was able to find out what had happened since the readings. Rebecca was over the moon about how well her daughter was doing at school. The answer was very well. We discussed the effect of the reading and the chat and she said she felt as if she had had therapy after out talk.

I did another reading for her, gave my interpretation of the cards THEN asked what her question had been and she said ' You got it spot on'

I did another for Julie one with each deck (fairy and guides) and both came out with the same message. I am mor eimpressed with the fact that she took the message from the first deck as being accurate to My interpretation of the second was inevitably biased by the first reading.

Then in the evening we went to the 'Witch; Instead of sirtting there struggling I decided to go to my castle room and see who was in there, I saw an old woman dressed in black. Combined with other stuff that had come out someone immediately responded and said she thought she knew who it was. Then a bit later I saw a little girl skipping. Shaz was standing next to me and from the description she gave she was seeing the same little girl. Now that could be that we were seeing the same spirit OR that Shaz was close enough to pick up the image psychically in which case the little girl could have been a figment of my imagination. But even as a demonstration of psychic ability the fact that Shaz clearly WAS seeing the same thing as me is impressive .

I am SO much more confident with the cards now - and as a result of my readings at Sutton Coldfield we may well get a party booking in the new year. The technique of going into my castle room to see spirit is one I will try again. I got results. Maybe next time I will get images and messages combined that someone understands THEN I will feel I am making HUGE progress. I know Karl and Shaz were impressed with me last night - because I heard them talking. karl aos posted it in his FB status for all to see

Sometimes spirit speaks so clearly

I have always had problems trusting my instincts and the information I get from spirit. Today showed me just how much I can trust both

Sue suggested I go down to work with her on a friend of hers to help 'kick start' my reiki practice.I meditated yesterday and meditated again this morning before I went down. I got 3 ideas. One was that problems were mainly emotional . But I also saw a walking stick and an inhaler. I had previously had the idea of chest problems but discounted it. So I THOUGHT the inhaler image was coming from me.

After my meditation I got the idea to pull some cards to help ,e find out something more about Sue's friend. I have NEVER done this before. But I pulled some cards and made a note of them. They seemed to support the idea that the clients problems were largely emotional. I then decided to check whether I should any crystals (yes) I decided I would check which crystals later - but decided to check if the malachite crystal would be needed. I got a massive positive response. I looked it up in the crystal bible and the words that jumped out at me were that when placed on the solar plexus chakra malachite can facilitate deep emotional healing.

When I got to Sue's she was just doing a reading for a friend of hers and she asked me if I would pick a deck I felt drawn to and see what I got. My cards agreed with Sue's reading of the situation. At this point I told her about the cards I had drawn earlier.I decided they could be for this friend rather than the one having the reiki. When we put those into the mix they fitted very well. Sue said it was still possible the cards might apply to the friend coming for healing.

Because I had my crystals Sue left the healing to me. The malachite crystal went on her solar plexus chakra. I did most of the healing from the head. It tund out she had a problem her foot that Sue had sorted out. That explained the walking stick. I asked if the problem had been in her right foot. She said it had been in her left foot - but that since the left foot had improved she was now noticing problems in her right foot. It also turned out she did have intermittent chest pains - non explained but probably stress realted. But she has just given up smoking . When I asked if she was just going cols turkey or using any form of NRT, she said she had been using a nicotine inhaler.

ALL the images and ideas I got were verified. I got no incorrect information and no important health problems were missed.

I was awestruck by the accuracy of the information I deduced BEFORE I EVEN MET HER. The capitals are because I must have been getting the information mediumistically (Is that a word?) i.e from spirit rather than psychically

This counts a huge WOW moment

Finally heading on the right path?

Well we are now back from our very enjoyable holiday in Scotland and I have made it plain to the agencies that I am not interested in long term full time bookings. I am now trying to develop a reiki practice. Tomorrow I am going to help Sue with one of her reiki clients. Today Tony has done a card reading for a friend of ours. I find it hopeful that Tony got this request at the same time that I am finally free to concentrate on reiki.

Another interesting fact is that I have got another short term pharmacy booking - at the Woodlands which is walking distance for me. I have been told I don't need to worry about money that it will be there when I need it. If Woodlands need me for ad hoc cover as well as Little Aston that could be all I need to keep me ticking over financially so I can concentrate on reiki.

I meditated today and I think I can count it as one of my more successful sessions. For one thing I lost track of time. I thought it had only been 15 minutes or so. It actually lasted well over 30 minutes. I think I 'listened' to all the tracks on the album. It was on track 10 when I finished and I started on track 1.

I was mainly meditating for guidance for tomorrow. I went through woods and my safe glade and ended up at my temple of dreams. Thomas was in the glade. Jenny and Jonas were kneeling in the front pew of the temple and I knelt next to them. On the windows I saw Christ - but I was also aware Ariel was there.

I didn't get any major insights. My thoughts tended to drift and I fond myself thinking about the decluttering we need to do in Steve's old room. But as I want to use this room as a sacred space - and maybe as a room to receive clients in for readings maybe my thoughts were drifting to some purpose.

I didnt get any dramatic insights about tomorrow but I did get the thought that I would get more when I meditate tomorrow before I go.

During the meditation - while I was in the temple- it felt as if someone was playing with or stroking my hair. I also felt a breeze. I got the idea it might have been Jenny - but then I got the picture of Christ with his hands on my head.

This has reinforced a feeling I got some time ago that christianity is the best framework for my spiritual work. Or maybe a better way to put it is that I shouldn't turn my back on my upbringing and my faith. In a way the change in perception that started when I first learned about the Bah'ai has laid the foundation for this flexibility. The Church of England might not approve of my doctrinal shift - but I dont care what the Church of England thinks.

I realised that the butterfly image and the yellow colour are combined in my fairy deck. I slept with it under my pillow last night. This was recommended as a means of attuning it to your aura. Since I am still not sure where I stand on auras it may sound silly that I took the advice. But I have slept with crystals under pillow before . My view is it isn't going hurt. And since I have realised the oracle cards could well be a tool a use as my practice develops I want to make sure I can use them properly.

My random pick ( it fell out during the shuffle) from the fairy deck this morning was inner power, 'Heaven needs lightworkers ,including you, to realize and utilize their power'

Images and metaphors

I can't remember if I recorded it on here but I had a waking vision the other day that gave me the image of a dove. I know I blogged on ere about the meditation that gave me the colour yellow and about the image of a butterfly.

The butterfly represents metamoprhosis, the dove intellectual and spiritual metamorphosis. Both apt for my current situation and plans.

This morning I did my card picks. The Tarot card was the 9 of cups (now is a good time for fulfilment of dreams if you work at it)

Then I picked 3 cards to try to get a combined message one each from Ask your guides, Angels and Fairies

I got rest - which is clearly what I need at the moment. Solar Plexus chakra - it is safe to take charge of your life in positive ways and Happy ever after - meaning obvious. The colour for the solar plexus chakra is yellow.

There does seem to be a coherent message coming through. And it is a good message.

Yellow

Yesterday I did the Eamonn Downy Sweet Surrender meditation. The colour I got clearly in the final part was 'yellow' and the image that came to my mind was of the sun giving light warmth to us. I felt this could be an analogy of me as a light worker, giving to those who need or want it.

Its a nice thought

I did random card picks today for the first time in some time. I only used my decks and I got the King of Wands, Law of Attraction, Boredom and raising your standards.

The message I get is that I need to become more like the 'can do' King of Wands. The other 3 cards in their very different ways all speak of changes in my life, dissatisfaction with my current life and of being led down a different path, surrounded by different people and living my dream. But unless I have the 'can do' attitude it won't happen.

On Friday when I left Solihull some of the girls had clubbed together and got me a small fob watch of the type nurses wear. It is in the shape of a butterfly. I forgot until I shuffled the cards today that the back of the fairy deck is a butterfly. Hmmmm coincidence?? Possibly, probably - but it is a nice omen.

A dove

I had a waking vision last night. Unusually it wasn't first thing in the morning but when I woke in the middle of the night. I still wonder if I really AM awake - but I am 99% sure I am. However even if I am asleep these are unusually vivid memorable dreams that I never had before I started actively developing my psychic abilities. And they still seemed to be linked with my being psychically active. In this case I have been meditating regularly.

The images were goldish on a muddy brownish background. Much more muted colours than I have seen before. The images were muddled but I know I saw a face. I also saw winged things including one that was a stylized dove in flight. I also saw symbols that I think were writing - but nothing I could decipher.

Memo to self keep a notebook by the bed so you can record these at the time. 6 hours later after some more sleep the memory is not as clear as it was.

What doe these mean? Is the dove a significant image?

An extraordinary meditation

OK deep breath time. Make of this what you will. I decided to do another card meditation but being a bit disorganised I ended up taking the tarot deck upstairs to pick the card. I put them on the floor by the chair. I went through my usual candle incense and symbols routine reallised I hadn't got my iPod and decided I would meditate in silence. I did my reiki principles and my prayers, then decided I would pick my tarot card. One card had fallen - I presume it was the top one, so I looked at and it was The Priestess (major arcana again!) However as it clearly had just fallen off the top I decided to check if it WAS my card for today by seeing if I got more of a buzz of it than the rest of the deck. I clearly did so I stuck with that card. She is the third of the major arcana (although not number 3 as the Fool is zero) and my birth number is 3 so I feel an affinity for The Priestess as well as The Empress the 'official' card number 3.

Fort some reason instead of seeing myself in my safe glade I decided to use the image of the candle flame and it became a door through which I stepped into utter blackness. I was aware of Thomas and Eli with me. I looked around and saw a light a long way away and we headed towards it. Then the Priestess was sitting there on her bench and I and I asked 'Who are you?" She replied 'I am you' so I sat on her bench for a short time. Then I got up and she sat back down and I decided I wasn't quite ready for that yet. She vanished and the three of us moved on towards the light again - which was still a long way away. Then Tony was there and he hugged me. We moved on towards the light again and I found myself repeating over and over again 'I am not afraid' Except I realised I was repeating that because I WAS afraid the potential power reiki and psychic abilities give me. Then we were traveling though an area where reiki was pouring down. So we stayed there for a bit and from the sudden thirst I developed I was channeling We left the reiki area and the light was still a long way away until I realised I need to use reiki regularlly to deal with my fear and lets be honest self hatred. Suddenly the light was right in front of and it was another door. I stepped through into my safe glade. I decide to self treat while I was still in the glade - not for long but when I could see the purple light rotating I decided to stop and leave the meditation.

At one point ,I dont remember when , I thought about Colin and realised he looked a little like the new vicar at St Mary's. Now if I find his name is Colin I will be VERY amazed.

It was the kind of meditation that I really need to think about a lot. But one message I did clearly get was that I need to embrace darkness and silence. Last night my bedside radio was playing up so when I woke up at 2.15 I didnt keep the radio on. I slept like a log the rest of the night.

I can't wait for the next investigation when I intend to try a lone vigil in the dark and total silence. I will try channeling reiki and see what I get. After all the glass at the Witch did say I worked with spirit by channeling reiki. If that opens up my psychic eyes and ears who know what I could see or hear.

The Hierophant

I meditated today - having missed a lot days lately and I do feel the worse for it. I decided to do a card meditation and ended up with Hierophant. To me the card represents a teacher imparting knowledge and I found myself asking 'Who is my Hierophant? I got the answer Tony. The meaning in the book is that the card represents the desire for spiritual progress. Well that is something I do want to do. The idea that Tony can help me is logical because he has progressed further with his psychic development than I have. But this isnt just about PSYCHIC progress its about SPIRITUAL progress and I suspect I need to look deeper for the meaning.

I did some self healing - not for long but I felt I needed something.

Today I am going down to meet Jane Diane and Anne for our second Taylor Day. I am apprehensive as I always am when a family visit is imminent. I feel I ought to take my crystals with me as I am wondering if I am going to give reiki to someone during the day. That would be nice.

Here's hping its a good day

Wheel of Fortune

I have been lax in my meditations for a few days. I have too tired mentally and physically to meditate fruitfully. This morning got myself organsed and have managed a meditation this morning. I decided to do a random tarot pick and meditate on that card. I got the wheel of fortune.

The figure in the middle is Fortune - and wears purple - the colour of wisdom and of the crown chakra. The man at the bottom wears grey - presumably depicitng how he feels but the other three figures are all colourful. yellow is the common colour - solar plexus chakra? Ib fact the figure on the top is wearing yellow (gold?) and white - the alternative colours for the crown chakra. The ascending figure is predominantly green (heart chakra) while the figure on the way down is mainly red. While I can see that you need heart to climb up I dont immediately see why the sacral chakra should be linked to the descent. Maybe I am wrong in linking the colours to the chakras - or maybe I need to learn more about chakras.

It would be easy to say the fortune is random that it is a cycle. But I know that you can change your own fortune. I think how you deal with changing fortune determines how long it takes for the cycle to complete.

Why did I get this card today? Obviously I am on the wheel. But where am I? Is my instinctive response linking the colours to the chakra's the real message? A sign that I need to focus on my spiritual exercises to improve my fortune?

It is possible. I know I feel working as a pharmacist is literally soul destroying. And I did the whole soul destroyed thing years ago and and am NOT going back. Its a good a message as any.

The meaning in the book is that my circumstances are changing - well thats apt and true. It also speaks about control and lack of control. Its all about how you use the opportunities you get given.

The meaning of the images in the book is blind fortune (wearing the colour of wisdom) and the four phases of life we are all subject to. Strife poverty good fortune and opportunity.

I intend to make the most of my opportunites. Is South Bank and opportunity I need to take?

seances

Over the past 2 days I have been at some very different seances using physical mediumship with some widely differing results.

On Thursday we went to the senace at the Witch - partly to see if Isabelle would come through again which would have been truly awesome. She didnt. However what did happen was very interesting. The medium leading us (Kelly) was trying to communicate with someone she beleived was the mother of one of the other people round the table. Kathleen was clearly NOT taking everything Kelly was saying and looked puzzled. I got a name -Rosemary - whihc it turns out was her sister's name. Then a little later I asked if her mother's name was Mary and her face lit up like a belisha beacon. I felt humbled to get such a response for saying something so simple. We also did a oija board session which was interesting especially as Claire Green appeared to come through with a message for her family. But I remain sceptical about messages obtained this way and feel we have a real dilemma about what is anything to say to anyone.

Then later in the cellar Tony chanelled again and it was weird looking at him. I knew Tony was sitting stil - but I coudl see him rocking slightly and shifting his hands. And the person he chanelled was very nervous. yet again the story Tony got was corroborated by Karl and Shaz as one they had before.

I left feeling exhilerated and with a real feeling of progress in my own abilities and the feeling we really had encounted something paranormal.

Fast frward 24 hours and we went to the Falstaff's experience. We had been told this was really actoive and that we needed to have our protection up. So I was ready for anything. There were 16 of us in the group . After the lit walk round, and the walk round with the medium we were able to do some lone vigils. Nothing really mind blowing came through. certainly nothing that fitted with anything verifiable.

Then we were spilt into 2 groups. Our group included a group of 4 all newbies one of whom was ultra sceptical who seemd to have gone to the karl Beattie school of ghost hunting. Tom Morley (the medium) led us in 'human dowsing - the 'yes/no' technique I learned at Paul McKenna's workshop. The theory in the paranormal as that in that state a spirit can enter your aura and affect you by making you sway and move and even by raising your arms. Not much to my surprise since I have felt wobbly in ordinary seances I was quite affected by this as was Tony. When Tom was debriefing us the ultra secptical man said it looked as if we were responding to hypnosis. Since I know how close guided meditation is to hypnosis I can see what he meant . I am not sure whether wjat I did was 'spirit' led or' me' led.

Then we moved to be led by Alison to do a oiuja board session. The other gorup got really good results but we didn't. We could get moevment but all our questions got the answer no. Then the sceptical guy said he thought I was pushing the planchet. So I stepped out - and actually left the group early to go back to the base for some fresh air. The room felt really flat - and to be honest I was upset. I know I wasn't conciously pushing the planchet - but I did wonder if I had been subconsciously pushing it.

When everyone else came back for a break mr sceptic and is 2 companions left the event - and I found out Alsion and Tom were both annoyed about this groups attitude and Alison was very annoyed that I had been accused of faking the planchet.

The last session we did as a group in the seance room )an area where I had felt activity during the medium walk round) and as a group we got energy gooing and got some very interesting things to happen - including a big heavy table moving quite a lot. The glass was also VERY active.

So did the group of sceptics actually damp down the energy and prevent things from happening? Was that why we kept getting 'no' on the ouija board? And is there a psychological reason why the remaining 12 of us - all open minded at the least - could get more activity?

The contrast between the two events - and even the two halves of the same event - is amazing and has me wondering more about the psychological aspects of investigation. I am not going to lie and say the attitude of that sceptic didn't spoil Falstaff's for me. It did. Falstaff's was not the exciting place I thought it would me. But I would like to go back and see if its better another night. But I am going to see if it is possible to verify the existence of a Hubert K (King? Knighton?) with 6 children aho died in 1664 at the age of 43 - who was the person who came through when the glass really got going in the seance room at the end.

But in the end does it matter if an investigation goes pearshaped? Having found I did reiki one of the participants asked where I practiced and I think would have booked an appointment if she lived anywhere local to me. My reiki is still very real.

Another 5 card reading

I used the Fairy deck this morning and did a 5 card reading.

Magic of nature, make music, follow your dreams, new location, moving forward fearlessly.

It still feels a positive message - and all of them are repeaters that I have picked more than once when I was doing daily single card picks.

Vigil at the Whispering Witch

This turned out to be a very memorable evening. Except to my intense frustration and annoyance I managed to fall asleep at a crucial time. That really soured the whole evening for me I'm afraid. A combination of anger at myself plus a huge amount of sour grapes because Tony and everyone else was sensing things left right a centre when it finally kicked off left me in a very bad mood.

I feel so patronised when other people keep telling me I just need to practice , I just need to trust my instincts. I KNOW I need to practice - but that inevitably means I am in the company of people who do eveyything I want to do with seemingly no effort at all. I know they are not patronising me - just giving me good advice - but it is very frustrating and leads inevitably to a loss of confidence in my ability to do things - which then becomes a self fulfilling prophecy.

Last night was very unusual. Tony and I started off together in the seance room - but it seemed very flat. Tony did sense something possibly sitting on his lap. A bit later Karl told us they get a dog upstairs and a cat downstairs in the cellar. Then we went down to the cellar with Lisa and Patrick. And Karl joined us a bit later. I got the name David - which turned out to be the name of Lisa's guide that she had just met. I also got the name Michael -who i thought was being mischievous and waiting and watching to see if he could cause trouble later. While Karl was with us he said he could see something round me - a sort of white aura. I wondered if he was seeing what Lisa saw on Tuesday. But it does interest me that he didnt see anything round anyone else.

We took a break then and when resumed Tony and I found ourselves in the seance room again with Kelly and Ashley. I got two names Maurice which I mentioned and Marion which I didn't because I decide I had a fixation with names beginning M having got Michael earlier. Also as I know a Marion I decided it wasn't coming from outside

I was experiencing strange things at this point. I saw the colours I normally see when I am channeling reiki . And I was very tired. I also tried to actively bring Eli forward to ask him to help me get information I could. I have no idea what happened. I have no memory of falling alseep but when I became aware of what was going on again (and I have no memory of waking up) it turned out Tony and Kelly had done a lost soul rescue on a woman called Marion. When Tony was talking to Karl and Shaz later it turns out this story in connection with a woman was the same as one they had got before - but they didn't get a name. The story was a complex one to do with a baby and a suicide. But I know Tony has no knowledge of the story before so it could not have been him imagining he got the details. I could see he was totally blown away by the fact the Karl and Shaz had had the same story before from a different source.

Karl then got interested in Tony and asked if he had ever channelled. Tony said no but I reminded him he had (the Roman solider at Dudley Castle) Karl Shaz, kelly and Ashley then sat round the seance table all holding hands to help Tony channel a spirit. I sat out - mainly out of pique if I am honest. I was so upset at falling asleep and missing the rescue. I was also in full blown 'I am useless at this psychic stuff' mode

Anyway I stayed and listend while Tony did channel a woman called Isabella. Eventually Karl and the otjhers broke the circle and stopped giving Tony energy and he carried on channelling. Obviously we have no way to confirm any of the information he got about the woman and her family. But at one point he was asking where she lived when she DIDN'T live in the bullding where the Witch is. She gave Tony a location of a street a couple of streets away and he got a name that he interpreted as station street. My thought was that Alcester had no station so wouldn't have a station street. However it turns out if does have a station road a couple of streets over in the direction Isbaella indicated. And there is no way Tony could have known that. We didn't drive down or past it on our way to the Witch.

If I saw someone else doing that I would suspect them of making it up. I know Tony wasn't and he can't really remember any of what he said . So he is doing SOMETHING.

The information he got was that she worked there when it was a butcher, she had two sons, her husband died at the Somme. She didn't go down in the cellar when she worked there. She didn't go donw in the cellar now. She was aware of other spirits in the building and knew William was in the cellar. (I know they have identified a William as being a spirit in the cellar - I don't think Tony was aware of that though) The session ended with her agreeing to appear at the regular seance next Thursday and do something for them if they bring her a flower. Time will tell. I would be interested to go to the seance on Thursday to find out.

I meditated this morning - difficult when you are dealing with the feelings I have at the moment but I did manage it. I was trying to dins out if I did just fall asleep or if something more mysterious was going on. I don't know that I got an answer . I was in the room at the castle and I decided to go out of the other door and got blinded by bright sunlight. I was scared to go out there. That is probably a significant insight.

Crystals

The logical scientist in me wants to right off a lot of the mystic things I read about crystals as nonsense. The psychic healer side of me wants to believe. The result is I have an open mind. Lat Tuesday I learned a few more things about crystals and was advised to keep my piece of malachite sparate. I have done so since then. This morning I decided I needed to cleanse my crystals - especially as I was given no indication I needed to carry any. So I put all my crystals except the malachitein a large glass bowl . The malachite was put in a lowly plastic container. I did CKR over both containers and then decided to reiki both containers one with each hand. To my amazement I got a very different buzz off the lowly plastic bowl with the malachite in. Almost the feeling I get when I am healing somone and am pulling stuff out which I need to shake off.

Hmmmmm food for thought

cards

I decided to use my Fairy deck and ask for a reading for the next couple of weeks. I just shuffled the deck and took the first 5 cards off the top. I got

Follow your dreams
Make music
Making new friends
Miracle healing
Higher consciousness.

HC has come out the last three times I have used the deck. Twice a single pick and now as part of what looks like a VERY optimistic reading.



Higher consciousness is a 'validation that my recent thoughts feelings dreams and aspirations are coming from spirit. '

New friends after last night is very hopeful.

another meditation

This morning I decided to do my recitation of the reiki principals and the lords prayer actually IN the meditation. I took myself to the safe glade and I 'heard' 5 of my guides recite one reiki principal each. Then I 'herad' them in unison recite the Lords Prayer. then I saw 'Christ' in the glade and I knelt at his feet as I made my intercessions. I saw light come out of his hands as I named the people I was pryaing for.

It was quite an experience.

I also did some more research on sodalite and discovered it is is supposed to be good for changing fixed ideas and mindsets so new ideas and mindsets can be adopted. Strange that I get a sodalite at a time I relise how my mindset needs altering

synchronous meditation

Last night we went to a workshop at a small business in Oldbury called 3 KIndred Spirits. It was a very god evening . We did a meditation, discussed crystals, discussed reiki and generally did all sorts of 'circle' type things. Coming so soon after Tony was told we needed to find or make a circle this is helpful.

During our meditations both Tony and I thought we were given something on a chain to go round our neck. Tony saw a celtic cross. I thought mine was a stone of some sort - but to be honest the only clear ting was the chain. That is the second time that we ave have shared ideas when we have meditated at the same time.

There is a good chance that Lisa - who organised last nights event - will decide to hold a monthly circle to which we will be invited.

Laura is also running a 6 week psychic develpment course/circle starting on October 11th. Although this is a MOnday and means the game will have to be re-arranged/put on hold we are going. Laura 'manages mediums and gets them out there' She is JUST what Tony needs I think.

I learned more about crystals yesterday both at the workshop and in some research I did during the day. I have learned tha bloodstone is my birthstone - and I ended up getting a piece of raw bloodstone. I also understand about my 'rock' crystal . It is a moonstone and signifies among other things new beginnings. I finally realise WHY Thomas gave me a rock when I first saw him. During the meditation last night I felt Thomas was pleased I had finally got the message.

I still have major problems tho. Lisa was trying to teach me to see aura's - and did partially succeed. She sat me in front of a mirror and said she wnated me to see myself as the beautiful person she saw me as. Of course that is NOT how I see myself at all.

I really don't know how to break through this barrier of poor self image and the inevitable lack of faith in myself that follows. If I don't my reiki will get nowhere. I am hoping that if the volunteering at the hospice works out and that I start giving reiki on a regular basis that will help me get over this hurdle.

Its all very well for me to say that I have no-one giving me positive feedback - that is still true and is a real part of the problem - but I shouldn't NEED anyone to give me positive feedback. I should be getting it from my thoughts and actions.

I still see myself as a fat unsuccessful lump. I have seen myself that way for most of my life. re-enforced by critical family, a violent and abusive ex, and an alcoholic ex, I have never really felt I was worth anything. Its strange that at a time when suddenly psychically things seem to be moving to some sort of major step forward, I am being forced to confront the issue that I was trying to resolve when I read CYLI7D - which was the book that got me started on this journey.

Something is going on - and I just hope is as pivotal as I would like it to be. I also hope I can understand and use whatever is going on. I am sure I am being given messages by who or whatever is 'out there' I hope I can receive the message they are trying to give.

meditation link?

This morning I decided to meditate. I had just had a drink with Tony and left him in bed telling him I was going to meditate.

I debated about my intentions and toyed with the idea of either finding out more about Colin or my ascended master and finally just decided to set my intention as finding some inner peace.It took me some time to settle and I found myself thinking about reiki regulatory issues and then about pharmacy regulatory issues before I finally got grounded and found myself in the the Temple of Dreams. I could hear the clunk as the latch on the door behind me and could feel the coolness and stillness in the air as I walked towards the alter. Colin was there. I got the idea that my drifting thoughts before were relevant that I needed to think about those issues. The stained glass windows showed an egg on the left hand one, Jonas and Jenny in the central window and Ariel in the right hand window. I got the idea that I need to actively call on Ariel to help me.

I left to walk out and saw my ascended master waling towards me. I got the idea he will meet me where I am. I dont ave to go and find him.

I came out of the meditation soon after seeing him.

I went back inot Tony's room to find im just coming out of his OWN meditation. We ended almost at the same time. He had seen a tibetan monk that he had seen a couple of times before. This time he got a name (Master Chen) and he mentioned he thinks this is HIS ascended master. After I walked in he suddenly grabbed his notepad and started writing things - basically a load of runes/heiroglyphs that came through . It was weird seeing him so focussed and neither of us have any idea what the runes mean. But why would he write them if he hadn't 'seen' them?

We also ad an interesting discussion ( 3 way me him and his guides) about circles and joining or starting one. Gill and Darren got suggested. Also he got some frustration about Gill and Darren NOT doing what they should be doing with their gifts. I am not sure we can do anything about that - but we will try.

At one point Tony got a message to tell me to talk direct not through him. He thinks it came from Master Chen. I tried but couldn't

I am fascinated by so many things to do with this. But mainly why our meditations ended at the same time . I had no idea Tony was meditating and he had no idea when mine would end. Why did we both think we saw ascended masters?

What do the runes mean??? Can we find out?

Meditation images

When I meditate I dont often get really vivif images. This is especially true when I am not uses a guided meditation track. Becasue I am having to guide' myself my brain is a bit too active . What seems to happen is I get ideas in my head that I then visualise. But the origina of the ideas is what worries me. Have they come from inside my head?

Last night I attempted to meditate for the first time in a few days. I went to my castle room (my choice??) For some reason I got the idea of a cloud of soot/dust being blown out as I opened the door. This could be an image of the spring cleaning I gave my mind the other weekend. I tried NOT to put a specific person in the room and instead as I walked in I tried to let my mind go and look around and see who if anyone was in there. The name Colin came into my head Tthis could be psychosomatic as I was t alking to someone at work today who was suspected of having an affair with someone called Colin at the last place we worked together. Initially I saw a man in a suit - very difficult to pin down what time period and I got the idea he was linked to Claire. then suddenly he was in a black suit a dog collar. Then the image of an egg came into my head. The curates egg????? I looked in the book and thought I saw a japanese symbol, At tat point I began to think I was getting delusions of granduer being shown one of the lost reiki symbols. As I can't now recall it if it was it is still lost. I looked out of the window into the garden and Dad was there gardening.

The unexpected images are the ones I believe come from outside me. Thats the dust, and the egg. I don't really think I have yet ANOTHER guide. I can't think of any reason why I would NEED another guide.

I did have some interesting waking visons tho - although these were before I went to sleep. It was mainly the normal colours I see when I close my eyes but it wasn't hard to make out the image of a bunch of roses.

Paranormal psychology or coincidence

Any so called paranormal event can also be explained by psychology and/or coincidence. That is why events like the ghost sighting in York and the behaviour or the pendant at the workshop in Stourbridge are 'wow' moment. Psychology and coincidence can be ruled out. That does NOT mean I believe 'spirits' were involved - it means there is an explanation our science cannot explain that may or may not include beings/spirits from the 'afterlife'.

Recent events are not in that category - but they are still interesting. I have been carrying a bag or crystals - recommended by my pendant - since Sunday morning. Tony got the idea put into his head that I needed to carry them and sleep with them under my pillow for 3 nights. The choice of crystals surprised me because it included my Tigers eye which I thought of as just for protection. However the Crystal Bible told us it is also good for digestive system problems.

On Sunday I was tired, totally fed up and ad a flare op of my IBS that had started the previous week and it was making thoroughly miserable, I hadn't felt like exercising much, my food management was dire and to say I had 'negative self image issues' was putting it mildly.

This morning - after sleeping with and carrying those crystals for 3 days and nights - I have been able to do 20 minutes free step, and my IBS has resolved. In fact I felt more energetic yesterday because I had the energy to do some shopping in my lunch hour.

SOMETHING has worked. It could be the message from the pendant session on Sunday exerted a powerful effect on my mind. I suspect it is more psychology than paranormal or coincidence. But the fascinating thing is we have been given the chance to go and learn about crystals at a local 'new age' shop in August. Again it could be coincidence - but it does feel as if something or someone is trying to make sure I know just what crystals can do.

A minor cataclysm

That might sound like a contradiction in terms - but it feels the correct way to describe what has happened. I have been feeling VERY down recently. I put this down to being tired from trying to work full time, but I now think I was wrong.

Yesterday I did the chakra meditation more as a way to relax than to gain any spiritual insight. The colours I saw during it were unusual light green featured a lot plus some yellow as well as purple. I didn't see anything specific during the final part - but I came out of it feeling relaxed.

This morning I felt dire again - in fact it was so bad I ended up in tears on Tony. He slept late and I ended up waking him up because I felt so lonely. The crying jag helped. I got some stuff off my chest and then I decided to be proactive and use my pendant to help me sort out what was happening. The answers surprised me.

My feelings were nothing to do with me opening anything up during the meditation, and they are nothing to do with me being tired. I am feeling like this because I am not doing the work I should be doing. It seems I should NOT try to get regular work as a pharmacist - the ad hoc covers will bring me in enough income. This was backed up by one of my cards later - 6 of Pentacles. In fact I was told weeks ago when I had my tarot reading that I would never have to worry about money - if I needed it it would be there. Volunteering to give reiki at the hospice seems to be my next move. I have thought for some time I need to just give reiki - and not worry about the business side too much.

I also got some advice about crystals - with help from Tony - that I need to carry with me and sleep with for 3 days. He came up with the 3 days from his guides.

We are going to create a facebook page for Krystal Wolf Holistic Care - once we have decided what it is going to do. I think that is the key we need a clear vision for what it is going to do and how it is going to do it. I think lack of focus is a significant reason why we are not making progress.

I asked the pendant if working as a pharmacist was blocking me from making progress and got told yes. I should add the answers were often VERY vigorous and beyond any doubt. I also got some surprising non responses/negative responses so I can rule out psychosomatic responses. I was really surprised when fatigue was ruled out as a reason for me feeling so lousy. I am sure it IS a factor - but not the main one.

I think I have been left in no doubt that I need to commit to reiki and my spiritual work - and recognise that I will be doing more than reiki - if I am to progress.

I feel as if the ball is in my court - and I need to decide what I am going to do. But Tony also needs to decide what HE is going to do and how he wants to work.

Chakra meditation

I have been stressed out for the past week and really not able to meditate effectively. So this afternoon I decided to really chill out. Bath, candles, incense, and a guided meditation track, I did listened to the chakra track 'sweet surrender'

I saw some very different colours during it. Light greens and yellows as well as purple. It was fascinating - and very relaxing

Earlier in the day I did a bit of reiki on TC. Tony had a weird experince while I was doing it. he saw a scene that could have come from a willow pattern plate complete with heron and pagoda.

Another psychic 'wow' moment?

On Sunday I made a fruitless search on FB to see if I could find Doug. I wanted to let him know about Andy. I couldn't find him.

Yesterday after I made my entry in this blog I wanted to send Tony an email about the blog. Among the emails from a FB was one that told me Douglas Seager wanted to be friends with me. I nearly fell off the chair.

This NOT coincidence happening at this time. Was my search for him a touch of clairvoyance? Did I pick up that he was ready to make contact ?

My cards today ibcluded practice discipline and moving forward fearlessly. The info about MFF in the book includes the words 'you are making great strides' I read that and thought ' no sh*t sherlock'

I am clearly doing things right at the moment.

Getting my priorities right

This morning I put a new regime in pace. No laptop and no FB first thing in the morning. That gives me the time I need to exercise physically and spiritually. So I have done 20 minute son the wii fit, meditated and done some self healing as well as my cards.

I drew two interesting cards. The Queen of cups and Forgive. My immediate thought after the weekend was 'I have to forgive Alan' I meditated about these cards and came to the conclusion I have to forgive myself as well. I think the Queen is an indication I need to keep my emotions controlled - and use some rationality as well as emotion as i do this.

Today is Alan's birthday. I do NOT think it is coincidence I picked these cards today. His birthday may also be why Tony saw him at Dudley.

Station Hotel Dudley

We went on an investigation at the Station Hotel and it turned into quite a night. It wasn't an ideal group because there was a large party of noisy girls who shrieked a lot. But when Chris (the organiser /medium) saw our group were serious, we always somehow managed to be on our own as a group. And as a group we had a good mix. Becky I think is a total believer, Simon , Tony, myself and Brian are all open minded but take the Taps approach . Martyn I think is sceptical - and only doing it to please Brian. But would like to experience something that convinces him. Rob is a sceptic.

It started off with the whole group in the cellar. A couple of times I felt someone was standing in front of me but there was nothing really convincingly paranormal. I did get the name George which is associated with the cellar . And Tony picked up on a little girl called Anne or Annie and again that name has been linked with that location. As neither of us had researched the location that is interesting but hardly earth shattering. The names are common enough.

Our next stop , with Debbie from Ghost Haunted , was room 217 where we got one interesting picture, maybe a couple of emf spikes in the bathroom and some interesting personal phenomena like being touched and feeling breezes. Rob did some scrying and clearly something happened because he saw himself with a beard and moustache.

In room 214 we tried a ouija board . We apparently spoke to a young lad called Matthew , In fact we ended up singing 3 blind mice to him at Tony's suggestion. Tony then vigorously applauded us. He said he could see Matthew sitting on the floor applauding us. That could have been a touch of trance mediumship - but I am not sure. Physical mediumship is always by definition a paranormal occurrence. As Rob was one of the people on the planchet it was an experience for him. But I am sceptical about Matthew.

We were joined by a couple of other people and Chris the medium for a table tipping experiment. First of all we all sat round a large table that we decided was too heavy to move. But then a smaller group of us stood round a smaller table. All I can say about this was wow. I never knew a table could do that! And I know there was no trickery involved. We had apparent contact with Laura and Alexandra (mother and daughter) I did have some interesting personal experiences at the stat of the table tipping experiment when we were seated.. I had a couple of cold shivers and felt as if I was giving reiki. But neither Tony nor Chris were getting anything so I don't know what happened. I didn't get any names or anything. But this DID result in a suggestion form Chris that Tony and I might lie to join their closed circle!

The last experience of the night was a dark and emotional one and probably shows why trained mediums are useful to have around when you investigate the paranormal. Our group of 7 were in the cellar doing glass divination. We did simple yes/no with a torch. Becky was asking a lot of the questions with me doing some of the questions. We didn't seem to have any of the spirits from the hotel but it did seem there was someone there with a message for Brian - but we couldn't work out who or what the message was. Then Becky got a positive response to the word wife. She thought the person's wife was present in spirit in the cellar. That didn't seem logical to me and I asked if Alan was there and got a positive answer. The information that seemed to come through was that Alan was telling us Andy had passed. That out a real damper on things and the session ended almost immediately. But as we were leaving the cellar Tony went into medium mode and said Alan wanted to apologise to me for his behaviour, said how proud he was and Steve and ended with the comment that his Mum was still telling him off. This was very emotional for both me and Tony .

Robs comment summed the evening up very well. It was very good but the last 10 minutes were a real downer.

Analysing this in the cold light of day I think we were not sceptical enough about the apparent positive responses from the glass. Also Becky has never done anything like that before as far as I know and her questions were not clear . But even though I could accept that Alan might be there I was at a loss to think why he might come through. I wasn't expecting Alan to tell us anything about Andy. I know Tony would not fake that sort of message. But I can think of psychological rather than paranormal reasons for the information he came out with. His brain was reacting to something - but I am not convinced it was Alan's spirit.

How will I feel if we get told that Andy did pass last night? If we get that news watch this space

Now this is getting too silly for words

OK time to take a deep breath and record something that is almost certainly coincidence or imagination........but.

The other evening I was trying to get into a guided meditation and really not doing very well. I was lying in bed and I am wondering if at one point I drifted off very briefly into a doze. Whatever the reason, instead of seeing myself in a woodland setting I saw myself on a path made of square cobbles (aka small bricks) and I could see 2 brown and white spaniels running around.

I don't own a spaniel, never have owned a spaniel, am never likely to own a spaniel and don't know anyone who owns a spaniel. So there is no logical reason I should see a spaniel.

So fast forward to this morning and I decided to go for a walk in the park and try to get back into my exercise routine. On the way back I spotted a small brown and white spaniel running around with a ball in its mouth. He came up to me a couple of times while he was waiting for his owner to finish the conversation he was having. They walked past and I walked on thinking. Thats interesting then I looked at the path I was walking on. It was made of small bricks.

At that point 'interesting' became very spooky and weird. OK this wasn't an exact duplication of what I saw - not even close. But the two key factors were the type of dog and the type of pavement.

Coming so close after my apparent sensing of Andy's stroke I am very unsettled and wondering what else is going to happen. We are on an investigation this evening.

Psychic precognition?

On Monday evening one of our friends came round. He has a large number of health problems and looked very unwell. As I looked at him his mouth looked very slightly odd and the word that went through my head was 'stroke' I even wondered if I should ask him to raise his arms. But when I commented that he didnt look well he said he was just tired after his dialysis.

Today (Thursday) we were told he has ad a stroke. I am not sure when - I think sometime on Tuesday. Was he in the early stages on Monday evening? It seems unlikely as he was able to walk and talk OK. Or did I pick up something psychically? Given his underlying conditions some kind of CV event was always a possibility - but a cardiac arrest was more likely than a stroke so I wasn't expecting him to have a stroke.

Did I get a flash of precognition? I will never know for sure - but I must learn to trust that inner voice .

Really strange

I am working with a lovely technician at my current placement and she is clearly not only fascinated by te paranormal but is psychic herself - although her catholic upbringing and family mean she is slightly scared of it all. But she told me how when she had visited a friend in the chapel of rest she had asked him to let her know somehow that he was OK. She believed he had. I got a picture in my mind that I thought was her friend but when I asked if he was mid twenties with dark hair she said no. But a bit layer she said she also had a cousin who had died. So I decsribed ths person who had popped into y mind 25 clean shaven short dark hair swept top one side with a parting. She said the description fitted her cousin. So I concentrated to see if I could a name. I thought of Tim - which was wrong but his name was Martin.

I have no idea what was going on. My scalp was tingling and I initially thought her friend was with her. Maybe it was her cousin - or maybe I am just deluded. She is going to see if she can find a picture of him.

If he looks anything like the person I 'imagine' I am going to be truly spooked.

I also got the strong idea that woever I saw is a spirit guide for her. I did tell her this.

After the fair

I didnt meditate but as it turns out it didn't matter. As a means of getting clients the fair was a bust. Too few visitors plus there was a large empty space between where the run of tables on our side was - and the main fair so the few tat came in often didn't get down to the area I was in. But I was next to some therapists who all work out of a natural health centre not too far from me- and they have just lost a reiki practitioner. Hmmmm

Then one of the therapists said she had felt all morning she should ask me for an oracle card reading so I did a reading with my Fairy deck for her. The first card she pulled was sexuality - and her immediate comment was 'thats interesting. '. It turns she has been diagnosed with gender identity problems and needs to decide if she wants to live as a man or a woman. Her question was about the implications of her decision. All I could think was 'wow' and as I talked to her the message of the cards became very clear. Double wow.

I also gave a tarot card reading to one of the other theraist. That also had some interesting cards and an interesting message. The cre of her question was about finance and she pulled 3 pentacles out of 5 cards! Again wow.

I learned a lot from the fair, made some useful contacts and I think I need to make more use of oracle cards.

A very odd waking vision

It has been ages since I had one of these. Since I associate them with working with energy I suppose I haven't been too surprised. But my energy work has increased over the past few days (ghost hunt, workshop and giving reiki) so maybe it isn't so surprising I had one this morning. As 'visions' go this was very uninspiring. It was in muted colours and looked for all the world like watching a load of cells or bacteria dividing and moving. The phrase that came into my mind was 'The germ of an idea' but what idea I don't know. The only idea I have had lately is the one about providing parties at peoples homes which to be honest I don't think is that practical. But these visions have never really meant anything - much as I keep hoping they will. They could be energy related and be physiological or psychological. The only thing I am sure about is I never had them before I started doing reiki.

Today is the Natural Health Fair. It is Sunday morning silly o'clock and I am copying leaflets, feeling very nervous. I must meditate before I go to the fair to calm myself down.

Lots of little things

I have had lots of small successes over the past couple days.

On Thursday Tony got very upset by Glenn's actions. So on Friday morning I did a five card spread which was full of 6's - the number of balance and harmony. That seems ironic under the circumstances. But I think the cards were telling me things would work out OK


My daily picks were very odd. 3 of cups, grandparent, mediumship,miracle healing and judgment. The one that really puzzled me was grandparent - and the mediumship card. But it did feel like a good omen for the ghost hunt (Evesham) I meditated about the grandparent card and who it could be. I suddenly got the idea it wasn't for me but Tony and that his grandmother was close to him because of the upset with Glenn. So I told Tony that - and realised I had just done a bit of mediumship. I can't remember now if I saw a specific guide.

The ghost was interesting but irritating in that the emf meter went awol - and we have no idea where. Either one of the other guests took it somehow or............

During the hunt we did a ouija board session and it seems that Tony had a malign spirit with him from Hay. I don't believe that was what was really happening but there was clearly something making mischief.Anyway the mediums round the table were making sure Tony was well protected and one of them described Tony's Grandmother in apperance and character (but not name) He did however say that she was with him because of some trouble over the past couple of days and that she wanted to bag heads together. Now that he could NOT have known about. So i took that as confirmation of what I picked up in the morning.
Yesterday evening we went over to Gill and Darren's and it turned out Mal had seen something during the day that scared him. H (Darren's Dad) had seen it clearly and Gill had glimpsed it. H is interested in Tony and I because he knows we are both psychic (how calmly I write that now!) and he asked Darren to ask us if we could work out what had been seen. I tuned in and asked Eli for some help and got the idea of a ball. Darren said I was very close. Then he asked about the colou and Tony came out with blue - which was right. basically it looked like a blue ball of lightening apparently.

It was on the way home that I had a bit of a doh moment. I had asked Eli for information. and he had given it. I think Eli is my mediumship guide.

Steve came over yesterday too and I ended up giving him 2 reading one with Ask Your Guide cards and one with Tarot cards. AYG gave him among other Psychic awareness and Solitude. Tarot. Gave him 4 of swords - indicating the rest he is having now after his exams, the Sun which I hope is indicative of good news with his results, Temperance - which indicates he still needs to keep some balance as he lest his hair down, The hermit and the King of Cups - which in this case I see as emotional balance. The fascinating thing is The Hermit represents solitude and spiritual development . This echoes the 2 cards he got from AYG. So I think Steve may well find he has some strange events that may guide him down the path of psychic development. he certainly has my empathy - and that is how I first got going.

I have been anxious for some time for him to meet Darren and Gill. I am now wondering if in some way Darren is going to give him some help in some way.

Go with the flow.

This morning I decided to ask the question 'What do I need to know about me' as I shuffled my tarot cards for my daily pick. What I got was a huge surprise. I picked the 8 of swords then realised I was being prompted to pick 2 more and do a past present future spread. What I saw was amazing

Te past was the 8 of swords - feeling trapped. I realised there are other cards that could give that message so I wondered why THIS card was picked and realised I was feeling trapped by own thoughts.

The present was the King of swords - the culmination of the suit -someone who is control. I decided this means I am gaining mastery over my thoughts. Well after all the practice with the wonderful Mr McKenna's systems I should be. I have wobbled recently with the positive thinking and yesterday I got a prod to concentrate on meditation and my spiritual well being. Which is partly why I asked the question I did.

It was my Future card that was such a shock The Empress. As number 3 in the major arcana this card is special to me as my life path number/ruling number (from my birthday) is 3.Once I picked my jaw up off the floor I felt this represnted me fulfilling my 'destiny' - well maybe that is to strong a word - so lets say me doing what I should be doing.

However it was obvious that this golden future depends on my keeping my thoughts under control so I decided to 'Ask My Guides' how I could best do this. the answer was 'discipline' a Master Teacher card.

I decided to meditate to see if I could talk to my master teacher and work out what sort of discipline I need. As I was preparing to meditate I got the thought that discipline about house work would be a good idea for starters. That isn't just me being my normal 'worry wort' about the house and garden. I get a great sense of satisfaction and pride in myself when I am happy about how the house and garden look. Yesterdays gardening session left me physically tired but mentally and spiritually buoyed up.

My meditation took me to the castle where I met Peter. I sat down across the table from him and asked him what I needed to do. He passed a book over to me - I opened it and found a crystal ball inside. I have decided I need a crystal ball to use to help my meditations. Another excuse to go shopping!

Well what a day - and I haven't even done my other card picks yet. But going with the flow I will do them in a bit and see what other messages they have for me. Then I am going to give the kitchen a bit of a sort out and do some 'active ' meditation on the cards I pick

Fairies

Do I believe in fairies ? No. But today fairies have been very much on mind. Psychic TV had a session with fairy cards and the psychic said we can have fairy guides. I immediately thought about the gnome I 'saw' in a waking vision. The psychic showed a deck of fairy cards and we both liked the look of them, so we went to Northfield to see if we could find them. We didn't but did find a different Doreen Virtue fairy deck.

I decided to buy them and on reading the book that comes with them, she makes issue of the fact that fairies are creatures of nature and the cards work bets if you use them in a natural setting or while visualizing a natural setting. That resonated with me as I have realised how important it is for me to link with nature.

When I got home I decided to do a daily pick. I got 'Inner Power' which talks about how I am spiritually powerful, a light worker, shouldn't be afraid to use my power - all SO positive and affirming .

So I feel very positive that I should have the deck. I am not even going to balk if I find out that gnome I saw is a fairy guide for me. I can rationalise about psychological images and messages from the subconscious. I can think in terms of 'nature energy'

I feel getting that deck was important for me

Understanding card picks

Sometimes the cards really surprise me. Often when I do my picks I just ask for a card for 'guidance' or 'inspiration' or 'what do I need to focus today' This morning I asked if I should concentrate on health or money issues.

I am tired and ache this morning. I am also spiritually bruised by a friends attitude. The dispute with this friend has made me wonder how they see me - and that in turn got me thinking about how I see myself and yesterdays meditation. I was wondering the way I feel is a sign I need to stop and give special attention to my health.

As usual I divided the cards into 4 piles - and got a huge buzz off three of them. So I took one card from each of those piles. I ended up with

7 of wands
Knight of wands
9 of pentacles

My initial reaction was 'what?' But on reading the information in the book I decided they do make sense

The 7 is about courage and competition, and that having achieved some success you can't just sit back and relax. But it also speaks about how you sometimes struggle with yourself as much as outside forces. Now that resonated with me

The Knight is all about action decisive action, not planning a lot but just doing. The knight is successful and self confident If he a fails he picks himself up and just gets on with things again.

The 9 is about material contentment ,the person who has enough for their needs, and most importantly is happy with their own company. the phrase that came into my mind (and not from the book) is 'happy in her own skin' The image on this cars is of someone who appreciates herself and her life.

She is EXACTLY what I am aiming for. And I think the message is that I AM or can be that person as long as I have the self belief to take action.

Did that answer my question? Yes I think it did. It told me what I am doing is working and I just need to carry on with what I am doing.

So I decided to do my others picks as well in a mood of confidence. Angel Therapy just produced total confusion. I asked specifically about health issues and ended up trying three times to pick a card. In turn I got Twin Flame, You are clairvoyant and Books. I have no idea what that is all about. I got books recently and have picked Twin Flame before. You are clairvoyant ?? None of those seem to relate health at all.

When I used 'Ask your guides' I literally said 'OK tell me what I need to know' and got Shame 'Quote from the book 'You are at the risk of falling under the spell of self criticism because of poor choices or learned behavior and this is bringing on the energy of shame' This could refer to the situation with the friend OR the way I feel about my failure to lose weight.In either case the message of the card is 'you are your own worst enemy - and you are loved'. It also talks about these problems being part of the learning process needed to make progress.

I didn't really formulate a question as I was shuffling the Uncorn cards. One card fell out 'Believe in yourself'

Maybe that also means I need to believe in the 'I am clairvoyant' card as well. Now there's a thought.

Cards and meditation

My cards today gave me very positive messages on the day that I have my first session at Little Aston. But they also gave me warnings about myself and my need to really know and understand myself.And as ever they spoke of change - one of my cards was Death!

So I decided to meditate on the cards and see what insights I got. The thought that came into my head was about a meditation David Wells suggested to 'meet' your real self. I didn't remember all the details but I know it involved going into a house . So I found myself with Jenny and Jonas leading me to a cottage. It was very dilapidated and in need of repair. I was quite shocked. I realised that is how I see myself. Small and dilapidated. Then I saw a For Sale board and thought 'no' I don't want to sell this place - it can be done up and improved'

I went inside but there was no-one there. I realised not only could the cottage be repaired but it could be extended.

I realised I was being told I need to care for myself if I am going to be able to care for others.

Messages from the cards

As can be seen from my other blog, I have realised a few things and come to some decisions about needing to take a new approach to life. This includes the new approach to my card picks.

I did my usual routine with the tarot cards this morning,but asked specifically for a card to boost my self esteem. I got a reaction from all four piles , and got the feeling I needed more than 1 card. After some concentration I decided I needed 5. So I spread the cards out and picked 5 at random.

The cards I got were

Ace of swords - interesting new circumstances, may initially seem negative but is probably a blessing in disguise

Wheel of Fortune - this again contained the phrase 'blessing in disguise' and also speaks about how we ave control -but at the same time no control over our lives. We can't control the options we are given, but we control our choices

Judgment - reaping what you sow - appraising what you ave done

2 of Wands - new venture, unfulfilled potential balance between action and passivity

5 of wands everything seems to be conspiring against you but the friction can force you into new constructive ways of working

If I had dealt them out the natural way (from the top) rather than they way I did which meant I dealt them in the order I picked them they would have come out in the reverse order - and told exactly the story of how I am feeling at the moment and given me a vision of a wonderful future.

I am absolutely amazed at these cards. I am amazed that I seem to have got the message correct about what I was meant to do.

I am now going to go and meditate on this occurrence.

Master Teacher

One of my cards today was 'Master Teacher' which apparently is an indication that I have on e- a master teacher that is. Si I decided to meditate to try and find out who he (or she) is.

It was a strange very bitty meditation. At times I was so relaxed I was almost dreaming. One vivid image that came to me while I was in that state was of two cats playing together on the back lawn/ One was a tabby cat - and I think the other was black. It wasn't clear enough for me to identify Misha and Jet clearly - but that was the thought that came into my mind.

I saw Peter but for some reason the name Simon came into my mind and that lead off down the path of thinking. 'Simon Peter' Thomas' both apostles names. That lead naturally on to thinking about Jesus. Do I think He is my master teacher - well he could be I suppose but I am not convinced.

I can't remember the other images I saw. I tried to give some structure to the meditation but it didn't really happen. I was in the castle. Peter was there, at one point I left by the other door and I was flying on a seagulls back again.

I did get the idea I maybe ought to give automatic writing a try - but I am not convinced that isn't just a little jealousy of Tony.

I can't quite convince myself that some of my thoughts were not just 'Monkey Brain' but the one clear image I have taken from the meditaton is of the two cats playing.

Interestingly my Unicorn card today was 'Pets' and one meaning of that is that your pets in spirit are saying they still love you. My original idea was that the card related to Penny. Maybe I was wrong.

I am not sure I have identified my master teacher - but my working assumption is that it IS Peter.

Taking action

After the meditation I decided to try and get some serious practice of some sort in. I used my pendant to check if my chakra's were balanced, and if I needed to carry an crystals. (yes and no respectively) Then I asked it if energy work is the right thing for me to, (yes) and if my daily card picks are valid practice (yes). I got quite vigorous movement of the pendant - not as vigorous as Wolf can - but very definite so that was a positive sign.

I did my card picks working to concentrate on expanding my energy and trying to feel energy coming from the 'right' cards. My card picks were fascinating

Page of Pentacles - a common card for me to pick. One interpretation of this card is that is time for me to develop myself. So I see that as confirmation that energy work is what I need to work on

My Angel Therapy card was Ascended Masters - again a card I have picked before.Reading the information in the book they specifically mention Jesus as an ascended master - and that is who I believe I have seen when my ascended master has appeared in meditation. So that was very encouraging.

"Ask your guides ' I upturned 2 cards during the shuffle 'Devotion' and 'Grace' then I picked Communuty

Quoting from Devotion ' Do not allow your mind to isolate you in fera and get stuck dwelling in misery' Wow what a description of how I have been feeling over the past few days 'Instead get outside in the natural world' A salutary reminder to me to get to the park on the regular basis - starting tomorrow.

Grace talks about being aligned with your purpose. Community means I am surrounded by spiritual ancestors. I must try to see if I can find them in meditation.

My unicorn card was Laughter - a reminder that I haven't done enough of that lately.

I did feel these cards were incredibly apt for my current situation. I can nearly always see some message but these fit SO closely with recent events and my feelings. I may be totally wrong but I can't help but feel my active concentration in using energy to 'feel' what I should do has paid off.

I must keep this up

A spiritual hangover?

I have been been feeling both physically and spiritually off colour for the past week. I have been really REALLY fed up and depressed, and have been brewing what seems to be a cold.

I realised yesterday this could be because I still haven't quite evicted the negative energy I think I brought home with me from the creaky cauldron. So this morning I decided to do a meditation to try to re-ground and re-protect myself. It wasn't the easiest thing in the world to do but I did it.

I had 2 candles lit, used an incense stick to bless the room - and used the symbol of the cross as well CKR.

The meditation was a strange affair. I visualised myself covered in light and rising through the top of the house . I then found myself at my 'temple of dreams' The back was lit with green light and Jonas and Ariel were there. I realised I had been forgetting Ariel is there to protect me. That gave me a lot of confidence.

I couldn't make sense of anything in the temple so I left and found myself at the castle. Peter was there. I struggled to make sense of why I was there. I didn't get any clear messages - but eventually I remembered the Ear Chakra card which I have picked 3 times over the past few days.

I wondered if it meant I was 'due' to start 'hearing' messages. I still get very frustrated that I don't seem to have clear communication with my guides. Then I suddenly found myself thinking 'What am I good at?' The immediate answer was communication. Then I realised communication is a two way thing both speaking and listening. Then I got the thought that I would hear more psychically if I spoke more psychically.

I realised I both give a receive information when I use energy techniques. So I think I need to practice those.

Despite the confused feel of the meditation I think I made a leap forward. All I have to do now is work out how to practice the energy work.

Meditation and cards

Yesterday when I did my tarot card pick, the 8 or cups ended up sticking out from the deck. I ignored it and the card I picked was the Ace or Swords.

This morning I picked my card - but then found I had 2 cards - and I can't explain how that happened. The cards were The Fool - and the 8 of Cups.

I decided to make these two cards the focus of my meditation. I found myself in the Temple of dreams.I got bathed in blue light as I entered and I thought I saw Eli. Then I realised he was snarling and got the impression it was one of the nastier characters from Saturday night. I dealt with him with my sword then Eli came forward and hugged me.

I walked towards the alter and saw two stained glass windows. On the right was the word Asda, on the left was the Ace of Swords.

I tried to go into the library at the back - but it was dark.

I am setting out on a journey to become a reiki practitioner with proper patients. The 8 of cups seems to indicate my old life as a hospital pharmacist is no longer valid or useful. The Ace of Swords represents the shaft of white light mentioned in the reading at the psychic fair.The job with Asda will give me useful business skills that will help me run the business side of Krystal Wolf. That also makes sense of the Leadership card I have picked several times. I will 'lead' the company. The Fool card shows the journey starting and shows it is not without risks.

Iam not sure why I had to deal with that character from the creaky Cauldron - if it WAS him. I may ask Carolyn for some advice.

Last nights investigation

This was a fantastic night. I feel I made progress in my psychic development. I sensed someone's knee problem, I got some names and events right, I was close with some psychometry. I ended the evening with a lot more confidence in my abilities

I can't give details because Tony didn't get to the investigation. It was such a fantastic place I want to go back with him as soon as possible. But I don't want to contaminate things by giving Tony any prior knowledge. And there is one piece of information about the buildings history tat they don't give you unless it is sensed by the group. And if you DO get it you are not allowed to tell anyone anyway. they ask you to keep it confidential. So I can't really say anything about what happened

But it was an amazing night.

I missed Tony - but I have the funny feeling I made better progress because I had to push myself more. So maybe he wasn't MEANT to be there.

Don't suppose that will make you feel any better tho Tony.

Law of attraction

We have made two new friend James and Debby. Yesterday I found out that Debby is a hedge witch and you only have to mention ghosts to James and he will start talking about strange events at his house. So apparently by coincidence our circle of spiritual/paranormal friends has grown again. Except I am sure it is NOT coincidence. It is the Law of Attraction in action

I had some good news today. I have permission to offer a reiki service at Fosters.

Building on yesterdays reading

My plan for today was dash over to hall Green, deliver some leaflets, come back for Manie's phone call, then go out again to deliver the rest of the leaflets. I was on my way, sitting in a traffic jam when I realised it was not the best plan. I didn twant to waste probably an hour travelling when I didnt really need to and could put the time to much better use by meditating. So I came home and did just that. I spent over 30 minutes in a very fruitful meditation.

Before I did the meditation I checked my emails and found an email from healthy pages (and I have never had one of those before) and one item that stood out was a link to a hypnotherapy course. I decided on impulse to click the link and get a prospectus. Yesterday Pam did say she saw me doing some studying.

I walked to the park, grounded myself then climbed the cloud staircase. I went ot the Temple of Dreams. I opened the door and found myself bathed in a white/yellow light. I walked towards the alter and I realised my guides were sitting in the pews and the ascended master was in the pulpit. I could see Ariel in the stained glass window.I stopped at the entrance to the choir and knelt down. The Master came down and blessed me and turned me round to face my guides - who were all clapping.

I then walked to the back of the temple where there are rooms. By this time the light had gone and this area was gloomy as it normally is. One room had the word 'school' written on it. I opened it and found myself in a huge library. I couldn't see any particular titles. I walked out again and found myself looking back at the alter and the Ascended Master again - asking for re-assurance - which I got.

Of course it wasn't as clear cut as I have written in. Some very mundane thoughts intruded to do with finance, the new Krystal Wolf company, Asda, the interview. But I did get some inspirations - like asking Gill (or Linda?) to draw a logo for our stationery - unless I can find a crystal wolf among the 50,000 images I purchased the other day.

OK some of what I experienced could be psychosomatic. Like seeing a library when I was told last night I would be doing study. The white/yellow light on entering the temple could also have been due the readers words about white light pouring down on me - and my cards last night were predominantly white and yellow. But some things such as the blessing and the applause from my guides were a genuine surprise.

But I do feel I made the right move by sending off for the information about hypnotherapy

Psychic fair

We went to a psychic fair and both got readings. Mine was very interesting. I am on the right path and at the right place on that path. Tony and I are soulmates, the money will be there when I need it, I need to focu on meditation, and I need to believe in myself. But she also said reiki is just the start.

There were some very familiar cards in the spread (22 cards!) The heirophant, the star, the 7 of pentacles, Ace of swords Knight of swords Queen of wands.........all cards tat have appeared regularly in my picks for myself

I asked for a general reading and the reader asked if there were specific areas like relationships or work - so I chose work. She then asked what I did so I did tell her about the reiki.

She picked up on past sorrow on my path.

It felt like an accurate reading - and I am now wondering what the reiki will lead to. She also said Tony will have to work harder to develop than I will. That it will come easier to me. On the surface that doesn't make sense - but the reiki has been SO easy for me. I think if I can get over the blocks I put on myself, I may find I develop faster than Tony. But he apparently has dome this before in a past life. So I really dont know.

Tony had a reading too.