Interesting...................

I logged on to a stint on the phones yesterday. My last call got quite interesting. She had mentioned a circle where she sat - and I felt the members of the circle could be a source of help and support for her. I had the name Michael in my head - and I asked if there was someone called Michael at the circle. 'No but I have a brother in spirit called Michael' I was blown away - but sadly the call cut off at that point. Its interesting because this has happened just as I have got back into meditation on a more regular basis

past life meditauon

I did David Wells meditation to visit the Akhasic records this morning. It was interesting. I saw a fox in the forest. The door I eneterd by was blue crystal. And I got the idea that I had been a village 'wiseman' in neolithic times. I saw a pece of worked flint. Would they have had 'wisemen' in those days? I have NO idea. So I am not convinced this had much of a message for me. But the fox in the forest was spontaneous - and quite s surprise - as was the blue crystal door. Its a kind og hmmmm moment. I have to hope it may make sense later.

The road to hell is paved with good intentions

I was full of good intentions. I always am . I haven't kept up with my work with David Wells book. I haven't been that regular with meditating. But as ever full of good intentions I am determined to rectify that.This entry is to make it public that I intend to rectify it. But also its to write down the events of the last few days - last night especially. We have a new member of our circle. Out of the blue I got contacted by someone who wanted to know if I knew of a reiki share group in the area - or would be interested in starting one. We met and she was interested in our circle so Denise came along last night. I also have my first reiki student booked for teaching. She is coming next Friday 17th. Now the lst chapter of David's book I read was about Yesod and the moon. One of the tasks was to look at a moon calendar. Would you believe Friday 17th August is the first day of the new moon? That does feel significant somehow. OK onto circle last night. Basically Sallie seemed to be talking to Edna. And we discussed why Edna would talk her HER rather than to me or Tony. Then last night I had a bizarre dream. Edna had died but no-one told us. Alma was saying that she wanted it that way. I was also aware they were working to the wrong will. They had the old will the one written before Alan died. I went into her room and I tidied her bed up. Then I fond myself on the phone and I could hear Edna saying \Who made my bed' and all I could think was ' She is communicating with me' Was it just triggered by yesterdays events - or was there REALLY sone spirit communication going on? I have no idea.

O wow..............

My studies of the Tree of life have been rather interrupted by pharmacy work - and driving. I have done a couple of chapters - but I haven't always had internet access so I recorded them off line. However this entry isn't really part of that. I have been wondering for about a week now about whether I should come off the register of the GPhC. My feeling is I don't do that much pharmacy work any more and it is debatable whether its worth the money for the registration. I also feel that I will make more progress with my spiritual work if I no longer depend on my pharmacy work. I decided I needed to meditate about it. I saw myself going to my castle room. I walked up the spiral staircase - and counted the steps. Normally its ten. Today it was 15 - and I got the idea I needed to check what no 15 of the major arcana is. And I thought 'wouldn't it be aodd if it was 'The Devil' which is all about repression. I then took only 8 steps instead of ten to get to the door. I decided to check what the 8th card was as well. On opening the door it was totally black. I wasn't afraid - just puzzled. Then I saw a light and eventually realised it was Thomas holding a railway lantern. Then I got the clear message its not my pharmacy work holding me back - but me holding me back. I also got the idea that somehow HSZSN relates to the Tree of Life. Anyway I came down to make this entry and of course checked to see what numbers 8 and 15 are in the major arcane. 8 is Justice ........but the wow is that 15 IS the Devil. This so fits with the idea that I am holding myself back. I am not sure why the room was dark - but in typing this I am wondering if the darkness symbolises my inability to see things clearly. This was a surprising meditation full of unexpected things - the sort that I feel was genuinely meaningful.

The Tree of Life

Todays task from the book was to start drawing the tree of life....... whihc I have now done. All I have put in is the Sephiroth. But amazingly following the instructions and reading what David said about each of them it actually started to make sense. Kether is where the idea starts. So when was my idea started? I guess when I had my first reiki attunement Chokmah charges it with creativity thats when I was doing my hypnotherapy training and trying to volunteer at the hospice Binah gives it form . That probably happened when I started at the hopsice Chesed excitement builds, ideas flow opportunities exist - that probably described where I am now. Geburah - anything unnecessary is removed. So what do I need to remove to move on to Geburah? Tiphareth - balance and the true beauty of the idea shine Netzach invest your feelings into it ....but I have already done that....haven't I? Maybe I haven't Hod - brand and create the image Yesod learn from the past Malkuth - bring it to fruition and land it on earth. Do I need to let go of pharmacy completely to make progress? That thought just came into my head. And it won't be long before the renwal arrives from the GPhC for me to pay to stay on the register next year. I really need to think about this - meditate on it.

Day 1 of using David Wells Book

Well its reall day 2 because I read chapter 1 yesterday but didn't make an entry. As from now I WILL make an entry a day. His first instruction is to start the journal with an affirmation of what you want. I AM an holistic therapist and psychic reader using my abilities and skills to help others develop to their fullest potential. I have used my knowledge of Q and the tree of life to gain a deeper understanding of the universe that I can then help others to understand. Thats a pretty amazing thing I want. Am I sure thats for me? Yes I am. Last night I did the exercise about healing the events of the day, so now on to day 2 Firs thing my daily Tarot card pick The Magician. That made me smile. How apt The magician with his plethora of options. But with that touch of magic that helps you know this is the right thing. The objectt that stands out most to me from his table is the wand....fiery creativity is a good omen for the next few days with this book

Wow so where do I go from here?

OK it has been AGES since I posted here. I have been focussing on other things --- sort of. I have been too busy with other bloggy type things. But this blog is being re-activated now. I have just had my final reiki teacher attunement I have joined channel 886 as part of their option 0 team I have actually started WRITING my proposed book' From scientist to psychic' I am just starting to read a David Wells book 21 days to understand the Tree of Life And that is why I have re-activated this journal I quick scan through has shown me Mr Wells asks us to keep a journal - and this is the easiest way to do that So watch this space for more entries in future........

Circle

Circle last night was amazing. We had a new member - a friend of Sallie's - who I hope will come along again as I feel she needs the support circle can give. Amber did some psychic art. Tony did some mediumship, and I did my job of pulling it all together. This morning I have just given some distance reiki, and am meant to be receiving some in return - but actually cannot feel anything at the moment. But when I was sending I could feel my third eye chakra throbbing. That doesn't normally happen and I don't understand it. Did he send at the same time as me?

I decided to meditate today and randomly picked an untitled one by David Wells. It was one about dealing with your inner bully. I need to do it again when I can focus more than I could today but at one point you confront your inner bully. I realised my bully was overweight while I was slim. I have no idea yet what this means - but I am sure it is something I need to explore

I now have a physical copy of the Divine guidance oracle cards. On flipping through the book I spotted there was a card called 'Dragon Guide' and thought 'wouldn't it be strange if I pulled that one when I use the deck. I experimented with one of the suggested spreads - and got Dragon Guide in the position that indicates the energy I am holding onto. How spooky is THAT I also did a reading for a friend - and it seemed to make sense. Yesterday I did the David Wells meditation to meet your guide - and I have finally 'met' Marie who comes from mediaeval times.

Circle

Circle went really last night. I think starting that up was a brilliant idea for all three of us. We did some crystal work and then some card work. Memo to self I need to use the crystals more.

Making progress

Its been some time since I last posted - but I had a very interesting day today - prompted by events over the past week. I did a reading last Thursday for Marie - for which she paid me with a deck of Angel tarot cards. The reading went well - so I posted on FB that I had done my first reading for some time and that I had enjoyed it. One of mt friends then commented that she always wondered why I didn't do readings - but hadn't liked to ask. So she now knows I do them and the plan is that she and her daughter are going to come to me for reiki and readings. result! Then last night I got some feedback from a reading I did around Easter - which was spot on. I had picked up something happening in 6 - 9 months and got the word pregnant. Turns out they are planning another pregnancy in 6 - 9 months. Result! This morning I had one of my waking visions - I was seeing japanese symbols . I decided to meditate before I went to the salon - and I mediated using one of the cards form the new deck. I took myself inside the card - and got the ifea I need to use my reiki to improve my psychic/medium skills. When I got back from the salon (where I did another reading) I decided to offer 5 free readings to help me get used to the deck. I did one for Ian Doherty (Tony's colleage on 886) and was spot on ...result! And he posted publicly how good the reading had been. I need to focus more on the readings in future. We are booked at 2 psychic fairs over the summer.

Messages in the cards

Check my other blog for recent events to explain the background but I decided to do a reading to see what advice I could give to a new ghost hunter who ended up channelling. I pulled 3 cards. Quiet time, Raising your standards and problem resolved. I felt they were wrong for Oliver and was about to dismiss them - when I realised they could well apply to me. How bizarre is that..........

Crosses

The other day I had a dream in which I was very concerned about some burning crosses. I decided it would be a good thing to ask H about. he immediately responded by saying it was because I was moving to a higher vibration . he also said it linked into my interest in the Tree of Life. Yesterday I unearthed one of my kaballah books again - hoping this time it will make some sense. Surprisingly it did. And this morning I had a brief waking dream. I saw a clear pattern and realised it was all crosses. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. I think the Kaballah book is going back into work for some lunch time reading

I ran a development circle last night for Marie and Tony. Marie wants to develop spiritually and psychically and the circle seemed like a good approach. It gives Tony and me a circle to work with too. It was interesting. I used Laura Daligans guided meditation. I am fixed on the idea I want to teach in someway. This may be a good test of my abilities in that direction. I just hope it will help my development as well

Crosses

I dreamed about crosses this morning. I think they were burning and I know I was worried about that- but the dream is very unclear. I tried to think about what it meant on the walk to work - but didn;t get any real inspiration apart from remembering H is a roscrucian........ But I don't think I can just ask him about his beleifs. I don;t know him that well. I did some self healing combined with recitation of my principles. I then did try to meditate. I was back in the corridor and this time I saw there was a door behind the mirror. I opened it and it was dark. But my inner light provided some illumination. I was in a forest I think. I am sure Thomas and Jenny were there - and maybe MAYBE Marie (if that is her name (and she exists) as well. I just got the idea I need to practice ..... and practice....... and practice.........

Meditation in a hurry

I overslept - but I still made time to meditate before going to work today. Blogging has had to wait until evening.I basically just recited my principles and did some self healing. but interestingly I saw DKM as red . And I thought - fire and creativity . I can't remember anything significant from the meditation. I tied to visualise a crystal to help open my third eye. .

The light within

I had a fascinating and humbling mediation this morning. I started with the reiki principles then did some self healing. Then I mediated. I held a moonstone and I set my intention as confidence to move forward. I saw myself in a long corridor with a light shining at the end. The corridor was marble and long. As I walked along there were doors. I found a red door marked 'anger' I opened the door and inside it was dark and chaotic - and reminded me of a disco - the sort of place I would have gone when I was young.. I started wondering if I am angry at myself for wasting so much of life. But then I got the reminder that my pharmacy training underpins my reiki and hypnotherapy. I then saw a purple door marked guilt - and I couldn't look inside. I walked on and noticed the floor was marble shot through with black - a reminder that humans are not perfect. Then I saw at the end of the corridor was a mirror - and the light I could see was the light comign FROM me being reflected back at me. It was one of those moments like getting a rock from Thomas that I KNOW came from outside I was reminded about the meditation I did during my reiki 3 training when Eli said I will be a diamond. I also got the thought that I am not ready to meet my new guide yet - although I have the feeling she is french and is called Marie. And I am wondering if this a pointer the fact the real Marie I know has things to teach me. She certainly got me into angels. I also got the clear message that I need to practice opening my third eye chakra. I tried opening it and saw a mountain against a blue sky. The mountain I have to climb - one step at a time.

I tired to meditate this morning - with some success. I do think I have a new guide. I went to my cottage and there were 3 chairs by the fire not two. Also I was aware the back door was locked and I had to unlock it so my new guide could come in. I think my new guide is female - and her name might even be Marie - but having had that idea put into my head by the seance at the Witch as few weeks ago I don't trust that. But maybe thats part of my problem. When I started my meditation I set my intention as confidence. I found myself saying confidence as I drew CKR. Does that mean anything? I found myself thinking about do not worry a lot - but I also found myself thinking about ideas to promote Tony's work as well as mine. Was that me worrying = or was it images of what I should be doing? I do think unlocking the door is symbolic of the fact I have unlock the abilities in myself .....by meditation and practice I guess. Why did I link confidence to CKR? That is something to think about. I need to use the symbols more in my daily life. CKR feel very much MY symbol. Now that is something to meditate on

Hmmmm where do I go from here?

OK its time for the blog as meditation. I am just going to type and see what comes out. I am stuck - sort of. My meditations told me things would start moving for me in the spring. I realised that marrying Tony drew a line under the events since 2008 - with a strange symmetry since Tony proposed in 2007 after I Paul McKenna'd myself. And it was what I learned from the Paul McKenna book that set me off on the path of psychic development in the first place. So it all kind of fits......... But over the past few days I have kept getting the message that I am own worst enemy - and last night I went to the Angel Meditation group with Marie and got told something I have heard a lot before that I block my own development. I could BE clairvoyant/clairaudient if I just LET myself. But I don't believe half the things I do, and don't trust myself to interpret the information correctly. So lest take a calm look at what I have been learning about myself and work out how it fits together - and what I can do about it First thing is I lack confidence in myself and I need affirmation from others to believe in myself. Pam at work doesn't trust me - not personal as she doesn't trust anyone. But it drove me to have a major attack of the munchies. Cookies and a doughnut. Sabotaging my attempts to slim down and more importantly stay healthy. Second thing is I lack confidence in my abilities as a psychic. I need affirmation from others to convince me. I realised last night during the meditation that blocking my abilities - which others seem to feel could be so great - GIVES me affirmation. I tell them what I THINK I am, they tell me what I ACTUALLY am or could be if I stopped blocking myself. I get the affirmation I need that I AM psychic . If I DID develop would I get that affirmation? Third thing is why do I need affirmation from outside sources anyway ? Why do I lack the confidence to affirm MYSELF? That is simple - my self image is damaged. I just don;t SEE myself as slim. I just don't SEE myself as clairvoyant. And to cap it all I have a headache, neck muscles that feel like boards, and have my cystitis that isn't back again. And last night for the first time in ages my back started playing up - although thankfully that has gone away today. The headache is linked to work at the hospital. I had a corking headache on Tuesday. Sould I give up work there? OK I took a break ,got a phone call from a friend with some good news, cooked dinner and am just drinking my post meal coffee. The phone call heard me saying to Martyn 'the world is your oyster' I did 3 readings the other weekend - the all pulled 'The World' and I told all of them it meant the world was their oyster. I then got the idea that the same message was meant for me. repeating that phrase again to Martyn (and I didn't remember until after I said it) re-enforced that I am on the right path. That is something I CAN have confidence about.So I posted an 'up boys and at em' type of status - and my headache diminished. The muscles in my neck are still tight but just declaring 'Look out world Sally is coming' felt so GOOD. Tony meditated this afternoon after I reminded him he should meditate more regularly. It went well and he got some interesting images. But my attempt to meditate this morning did not go well. But I have meditated via this blog and clearly something has sneaked into my subconscious. OK I know I am on the right path. But like Tony I haven't been mediating as often as I should. Thats GOT to be the thing I need to focus on. I need to focus on developing as much as I can. I can meditate to give myself confidence. Now THERE"S a thought............

Needing a spiritual kick

I am sure if I took the time to meditate I would get an image of Thomas kicking me. I do feel I have let things slide. But I purchased two meditation CD's from Spiritus during the investigation and I AM going to use them over the weekend, However I haven;t just been standing still. I have started trying to use reiki symbols in daily life. There was a discussion on a FB group about things like using DKM in the shower and SHK on your pillow when you go to bed. I have tried DKM in the shower to energise myself - and actually I am feeling more positive if not more energetic. I keep forgetting SHK on my pillow. I still feel frustrated by my lack of progress both spiritually and in developing the business. But I have had several pointers to changes in the spring. I think I need to keep and going, but be patient

I have been away on holiday - and to be honest a bit too bust to do much blogging here but I must record yesterdays interesting meditation. It was my first for over a week. I decided to ask for a card to mediate on and got the 7 of cups - a card I know well. But for some reason my attention was drawn to the hooded figure in the centre and I realised I didn't know what or who that was. I checked the book and found it was my true self. So I decided to go to my cottage to ask to see my true self. I entered and saw a full length mirror covered in a sheet held by Thomas and Jenny. When they dropped it I saw me in jeans a jumper looking very ordinary - but slimmer. And I realised that I have find my true self. I am me, as I am , as I am meant to be with no need to apologise to anyone for who or what I am. I have found my true self with this mix f skills and talents and work. I am me and have no need to apologise to anyone for what I am. I now also realise this means I can stop being defensive with people who I may think are critical - probably on very little evidence. I can be happy in my own skin And I have just looked bacj through my blog. Check out my entry on 13/1/12...............

A lot has happened that I haven't recorded - but I want to record it as one entry with a beginning middle and end - and I don;t have the end yet. I hope to later if Tony has done the reading I asked for. In the meantime in a totally unrelated event (I think) I had one of my waking dreams. Why should I see a pair of eyes looking at me overlaid by japanese symbols?

There is something odd going on. I have been thinking a lot about my options to develop my side of of the business. I have even asked to be given a sign as to how I should take it forwards and whether I am meant to work up at the salon. Something made me pick a card form my Archangel Michael deck and go the card 'Options' The wording on the card is all about being thankful for and focussing on options available. So I decided to pull a tarot card and got 7 of cups - the daydream card which is all about options and choices. When two cards have the same message in that way there is clearly a message - but I don't understand it. So I decided to visit Thomas in the cottage. It was all green and ready for spring. Is that a sign everything will become clear in the spring?

its been a frustrating day today. I was up at the salon to promote my reiki up there. I did one 3 minutes demo on the juior. But interestingly the moment I started she said she could feel heat in her neck. It turns out she had a neck injury when she was a child. So reiki went where it was needed. the later I did a treatment on Anne one of my hospice patients. We alos had a remarkable conversation where she basically checked that I would be prepared to treat up right up to the end. To say I felt humbled is putting it mildly. I asked this morning for a sign that I am supposed to be working up at the salon - and if not then please could I have some hint about where I should be working or what I should be doing. I do feel I have had my role in reiki conformed today

Happy New Year

I feel guilty I haven't posted in this blog for a bit - but I have been doing some spiritual work. I did a meditation this morning. I picked the 7 of Pentacles and meditated on it. I went inside the figure on the card and felt that he was confident , comfortable in his own skin, and free to choose whatever he wanted. Work was hell today - and as I walked home I wondered if the card was a sign I may to hve to choose whether to stay working regularly as a pharmacist or not