And the wierdness continues

I got my reading from Psychic TV. I think the medium also got the Ace of Pentacles because she mentioned new beginnings. She was absolutely spot on because she said she felt I was stagnating, but that there is a new beginning for me and I should get news within 3 working days. She also said the number 3 is important. 3 is an important number numerologically for me.

I sent a thank you message - which sadly I missed seeing but Tony caught and she gave a small further reading for me about wearing purple and pink and I think silver.

But the real wow happened when Tony did HIS tarot pick - and got the Ace of Pentacles.

How weird is that?

It isn't the first time we have pulled the same card - but for the same card to appear 4 times in different ways is spooky in the extreme

A bit of a wow moment - right when I needed one

Things are not going to plan at the moment and I am anxious about things. This morning I decided to tune into channel 886 and I decided to ask for a work reading - which I did on the comment line. As I watched a text message came on screen from a supply teacher (a locum teacher in effect)asking for a work reading . The first card Anne pulled was the Ace of Pentacles which she said represented stability and new beginnings - an interpretation I agree with.

I decided to do my daily tarot pick while I was waiting to see if my message gets played. I changed my way of doing the pick. I decided to just shuffle and pick without splitting the deck because it is quicker.

Can you imagine my feelings when I saw the card I picked was the Ace of Pentacles?

Today I am going to talk to a private hospital about going on their bank , and I also know UHB are going to decide about their locum today. So quite a lot going on.

I had a weird dream just before I woke up. I found myself among both humans and the elven race from Julian Mays world. I had the chance to join them and unlock my psycyhic potential - but I was reluctant to do so. Tony didn't know I was there and when I tried to contact him I couldn't get my mobile to work. When I did get through I heard Tyler's voice saying 'everyone is crying' then the alarm went off.

I meditated. I grounded visualising the park, then climbed my cloud stairway. I found myself on a cloud rising higher and higher above the park and looking north - which is the direction I will be driving this morning - and I realised today's drive is also the first part of the drive I will make to Burton. I also found myself thinking about Brian and Martyn. I got the impression I needed to go up high to get a proper perspective on everything. Then I suddenly realised Ariel was with me - and will be with me today. I feel it also significant I am carrying my Tigers Eye crystal today. The pendant was very clear it was the only crystal I needed.

Todays meditation

I tried to meditate on my card picks for today which were Queen of Swords, Change, Cut the cords and Leadership. The cards puzzle me especially leadership since I don't think I am developing a leadership role.

I found myself in my safe glade with Clare and Penny. Clare pointed to the path out of the glade and I went along it and found myself in another glade covered with flowers. I picked 3 of them a star shaped yellow flower - that I don't think exists in nature, a red poppy or tulip and a purple Iris. I followed the path and found myself climbing a slope. At the top of the slope I looked to my left and saw thew top of the waterfall I climbed to by a much harder route yesterday.

I also saw I was at a crossroads and I planted the 3 flowers round the junction. The yellow flower to my left, the red flower straight ahead and the purple flower to my right.

I then walked back through te flowery glade to my safe glade, hugged Clare and walked out.

I need to see if the flowers or colours have any significance - but I can't immediately connect this to any of the cards I picked.

I do feel the crucial card is the leadership card. Normally if I pick a card that doesn't seem to have any significance I just ignore it. I can't do that this time and I don't know why

Meditation part 2

I have made a much more disciplined spiritual start to the day today. I asked about crystals I might need, I have said the reiki principles and the Lords Prayer. I prayed for all those people who I know need help and I also used the prayer as a sort of God Box and mentioned specifically all the things I am stressed about and basically said 'here you are you look after these now'

I then meditated and went back to the same place as yesterday. This time I found a path to the top of the waterfall and could see three paths leading to my different meditation buildings (castle, temple and Moroccan building) The message I got was that it will be ard work (the climb up to the top ) but it will get me where I want to go.

I found I kept thinking about my reiki flyers so I think I need to print some more - and get some more paper so I can print lots of them - and pepper them around Northfield.

I am not going to get clients unless they know I exist!

Cards for today

I did my tarot card before I meditated and ended up with 2 cards. The Heirophant and the Ace of Cups . At the moment these dont seem relevant.

My Angel therapy card was God Box. This basically advising a method I have seen recommended before that you write your worries down then put the paper in a container and let them go. Given the way I feel at the moment that is probably a very good idea.

Ask your Guides gave me balance - which is all to do with balancing give and take in my personal relationships. I am not aware of this being a problem. Must ask Tony.

My unicorn card was Imagine. Think of what you really want and imagine it has come true. In other words going back to basics with Paul McKenna and CYLI7D

There is a kind of unifying feel about these cards.I can relate all of them to things I learned with Paul McKenna.

At the start of my meditation I set my intention to get some positivity back into how I feel. Maybe the combined message of the cards and the meditation is that I need to get back to basics.

I am still not sure I have received and understood any message.

Meditation

I meditated this morning - for the first time in a few days. I think the lack of meditation is one reason why I have been feeling a bit 'meh'

I am going to try and describe what happened as honestly as I can.

I started off with a recitation of the 5 reiki principles and then The Lords Prayer. Then I tried to relax and visualise things. This didn't go exactly smoothly. The I heard Tony go to the bathroom and turn on a tap. The sound of running water made me think 'waterfall' and suddenly I was in a wooded canyon with a huge waterfall ahead of me. All the trees seemed very tall . Thomas Eli and Dad were there. I tried to go somewhere but nothing really happened. I just stayed in among the trees.

Lots of thoughts came into my head. none of them that coherent. But I did remember reading somewhere that sometimes people worry too much about always the right decisions. So I presume that was something I needed to remember. I know I also read it it something was relevant to me (my start sign or something like that)

I am wondering if the tallness of trees is somehow symbolic. i am feeling slightly daunted by things at the moment.

I also found myself thinking that I haven't been disciplined enough with meditation lately.I need to make sure I at least do the reiki principles and the Lords Prayer daily. I also found myself thinking that Living by the reiki principles should help me cope at the moment. Mainly 'do not worry'

At one point Thomas gave me a purple flower (an Iris?) I have no idea what that means.

I was hoping blogging about it would help me get some inner meaning from the meditation. That hasn't happened yet. I am convinced there IS message for me I just need to think about it a little more

The cards tell a story

Well today they do

Queen of Swords -need to cope with difficulties
Discipline - need to work hard to move towards your dream
One step at a time - no explanation needed really
Base Chakra - need to think postive.

OK So I am on the right path, but I am going to have problems to deal with, it isnt going to just happen I need to put the work in and think positive thoughts about what I am doing .

Well it all makes perfect sense to me.

I havent meditated for several days. That is one discipline I MUST get back into

Basing decisions on the cards

It is almost certainly a very bad idea to base decisions on the cards or indeed anything psychic - apart from intuition of course. But that's what the cards/dowsing pendants do. They sharpen your intuition by enabling you to contact your subconscious more clearly and pick upmessages you would otherwise miss.

My driving force for some time has been to work partime as a pharmacist to give myself days when I can develop my reiki practice.

I have for ages seen working as a community pharmacist as the best was because there are more part time opportunities. The confusion caused by the conditions attached to the Asda job is making me wonder if Iam on the right tack or not. So today my card picks were made with a very definite question in mind. Is my basic plan the right one

Tarot gave me the Knight of Cups

The knight of cups is a dreamer, romantic. 'It is time to pursue my ideals and dreams' but ' the shadowy side of the knight of cups is a tendency to be moody woolly minded and prone to getting lost in a fantasy world'

Ask your guide' gave me a very worrying card 'Despair'

The description of this card fits me very well at the moment 'all seems bleak' I have been struggling to keep positive. 'genuinely difficult situations may be causing true anxiety but its more likely that your fears are exaggerating things way out of proportion' That is also me to a T. The description of the card goes on to say 'Stop dwelling on your problems for the time being and go outside' How often ave I commented in this blog about needing some earth energy to balance my watery piscean nature?

Angel Therapy gave me 'Twin Flame'

'You drew this card because your twin flame is intricately involved with the answer to your question' The wording on the card talks about a romantic relationship. A 'twin flame' is (apparently) a romantic partner from my soul group. This twin flame probably isnt on earth at the moment but could be guiding me from the other side. This guidance is normally about romance on this side of life. To me this is a clear indication I need to discuss this with Tony for all sorts of reasons, not the least that he way well have a valuable idea that I havent considered. After all I have always felt in some way we would be working together with our abilities. How that will be achieved yet is very unclear.

The Unicorn deck gave me Definitely yes

The answer to your question is a strong yes. 'What you are asking about will definitely happen provided you keep your thoughts positive' 'Set aside doubts and worries and feel secure that everything is positive'

I do not think I am reading what I want to read into the cards. I asked a serious question and I do feel I have been given answers.The answers need some interpretation however.

Trying to understand the cards

I am used to doing my daily card picks now and can usually take some message from them. Sometimes the cards are so apt and positive it is almost impossible to beleive. The Page of Pentacles is a regular visitor at the moment

Yesterday I got thrown a curved ball. If I get the job at Asda I will have to do a months training - but it will probably be at Nottingham which would mean I would have to stay in Nottingham and be away from Tony for most of the time. There is a chnace the training couls be moved to Coventry which would be a lot better - but it is not guaranteed. So the wuestion I have to decide is is the job at Asda good enough to make that month away from home worth while?

I decided to pull some cards and was surprised at what I got.

Ace of Wands, 8 of Pentacles and 10 of wands. My initial repsonse was surprise htat the reading looked so positive. I have decided I need to try and analyze these cards a little closer

Lots of yellow - looks very positive.
Wands are for creativity -which is what I will need for the job and the pentacles are for the material value of the job.

Ace of wands

A beginning full of energy. Time is ripe for a new endeavour in the business world' When this card appears in a reading it is likely that you will encounter an upsurge of energy and initiative in respect of new project of some kind'

Well the Asda job fit that very well

8 of Pentacles

Regeneration, a new direction in my career - which may involve study. The month away is specifically for training

10 of Wands

This is a warning against trying to do too much. 'The idea and the desire are greater than the physical capacity to do so' But this card does NOT say' Dont do it' It says be careful how you do things.

I worked through an OU exercise this morning which was to reflect on who I am at my best. The words I came up with were focused, organised, hard working, reliable. That implies I can avoid the trap of the 10 wands.

There is nothing I can see in those cards to say 'dont do it' There are clear indications it could be good for me to do it. the words 'new start' and 'regeneration' appeal to me at the moment.

My plan is to work part time as a community pharmacist while I try to build up a reiki practice. Maybe the next question I need to think about is whether that is a good plan?

Post treatment entry

I could do this a comment to my previous post - but i feel it merits an entry all of its own, because I have been utterly blown away

During the pre treatment medical history session, my client told me they had bilateral hip replacements.

I am utterly amazed. I have tried to think back if I got any clues beyond the age of the client, that hips might be an issue. But I didnt and if I had been asked to speculate about other problems I would have said knees - and been right. But the message during the meditation was so clear.

The treatment went well, the client enjoyed it and the comment was that they would see me again.

Hopefully word of mouth will help if they tell friends and neighbours - especially as they know I live within walking distance of where they are.

The client has in information sheet with my phone number on.

Watch this space

My first reiki client

In about 30 minutes I will be leaving to go and treat my first reiki client. I am nervous. But I have meditated and done the cards.

My meditation was interesting. I went to my morrocan building. Jenny and Jonas were there - and Dad. I asked abut my client today and got told there may be hip problems. Both Jenny and Jonas re-assured me they will be with me . I sawe all my guides today even Claire and Penny. Tey were all wishing me luck.

My cards for today were uniformly encouraging.

Page of Pentacles, Pleasure, Visualize Success, and best of all in many ways You are gifted.

A prediction

I am not normally in the business of predicting - I think its a very risky activity because I don't believe the future is fore ordained. I believe we can alter the future by our actions.

But just for fun I ave decided to try to predict the sex of Rachel's baby using my pendant. This is only a 50:50 bet of course so it maybe a bit of a copout.

But I have asked the pendant and got a strong positive response to girl. Boy was very negative . Thinking about it the only way both could be positive is if she was having twins. The thought about twins having popped into my head I decided to ask if se was having twins and got a yes. I am not sure I believe that one but I am going to record it. If it IS twins it must be two girls

Do I tell Rachel and Tyler? I don't think so. I am not doing this to impress people. I am doing to test my ability. I will only tell them if they ask what I think they are having. I have NO intention of mentioning the twins thing to them

Success when the time is right

Having focused on the idea of the hairdresser being a good place to get clients or maybe even to work (They have a couch for the beauty therapies) today I dropped off a few flyers advertising my services. Within minutes I had my first booking for Monday morning.

In a way I am not surprised. My feelings about the hairdresser being a good place to cultivate ave been constant - never wavered in the slightest. I think this quick booking may be spirit giving me some encouragement.

I really dont mind about the lack of a locum booking now!!

My Ask your Guides for today was 'Intuition' telling me I can trust myself and my intuition. Dont really need to be psychic to get the message!!

The three card trick

I am tired today. I not only did a 30 minutes wii fir work lout but I did an hours gardening this morning. As a result I am tired. I don't know if this is affecting my sensivity, but I have got three very odd card picks.

My tarot card was 3 cups. I initially decided this was an indication of a celebration assuming I would hear that I have a booking from Monday. That was this morning. It is now mid afternoon and I have heard nothing. I have only just done my other 3 cards picks. I have been busy having a bath and then designing a flyer to advertise my reiki services.

My three cards are Ask your guides - Deceit, Angel Therapy Heart Chakra, and Unicorns gave me healer.

Although both Deceit and heart chakra are about trusting your feelings, Deceit talks about facing up to someone else's deceit, or your own deceit, and trusting your feelings about something being wrong.Heart Chakra says to honour your feelings and trust your instincts abut something being wrong.

The only thing I have unhappy feelings about at the moment is the lack of contact from the agency.Although I am also unhappy about how tired I feel - but I dont think there is any mystery about that


Is this a warning that a position is NOT going to be immediately available? Is the Healer card a prompt that I am doing the right thing by starting to advertise my services?

Or is my intuition so poor today that I have picked the wrong cards?

A meditation

I have just meditated. It was a fascinating experience.

I went to the park . Dad was there. I climbed my cloud staircase and set off on a cloud and found Eli was with me. I had no idea where we were going and then I suddenly saw the minaret thing I saw in a meditation weeks ago. I ended up in an arabic style building. I clearly saw myself going in through the door and found myself in a light airy room with lots of gold. It was so unlike either the castle or the temple of dreams. I looked around to see who was there and saw Jenny. The thought that came into my head was that she hadn't left me - I needed to find her again by moving on in my development. I saw some doors but went through an archway into a garden - and Dad was there again.

The thoughts that cam into my head were that this building that I glimpsed weeks ago has been built out of the work I have put into my development. It is truly mine in a way the castle is not because the castle was Allegra's suggestion when she led us in meditation. I think as I develop I will explore the rooms here.

I have this feeling that I need earthiness in my life. I think Dad is suggesting I do gardening. he suggested it when I went to see Carolyn last summer. I even found myself getting some ideas for what to do with the garden!

I was feeling frustrated this morning because things are not working out as I hoped or expected. Still no work, the David Wells workshop may not happen, I am not losing weight, I am not really improving my fitness.

This meditation has relieved of that by giving me the feeling that progress IS being made.

Confusing card reading.

I decided to do a card reading for myself and asked if I was going to be offered the booking at Stoke. It isn't my ideal booking but at the moment its the only work on the horizon .

I actually am not expecting to hear anything until tomorrow - which is the day Tony predicted I would hear something about work. (Although where Tom and Digbeth come in I don't have a clue)

I didn't just deal out the top cards, I picked the cards using my instincts . I went through the whole deck and picked 6 cards

They were

King of Cups

Page of Pentacles

Temperance

High Priestess

3 Cups

King of Wands

My initial impression was 'This looks positive' but then I started looking at each card individually and using the book and that is when I got confused.

King Cups

Strong desire to be intimately involved with other people but fear of danger in such involvement

Page of Pentacles

Material success from a small beginning that will lead to something big

Temperance

Need for balanced emotions - moderation is the key May reflect mediation needed between conscious and unconscious mind

High Priestess

This again emphasises the link between the conscious and unconscious mind. Something is growing in the subconscious.

3 Cups

Something to be celebrated

King Wands
Development of mental achievements a priority.

Now I asked about Stoke - but if I had asked about my work in reiki I would be dancing on the ceiling but this is all so positive - especially the Page of Pentacles.

I am confused. Maybe I shouldn't try to do readings for myself.

I made progress in plans for both Pharmacy and reiki work today. I ave spoken to Manie and she has nothing definite yet so she agrees with me I need to take Stoke if they want me. But I have also e-mailed Fosters to offer my reiki services to their residents. And thanks to Manie I have become aware of a healing centre in Halesowen that offers space to visiting therapists and readers. So possibly both Tony and I could work there. I want to go and visit them rather than ring or e-mail them.

Today feels like a pivotal day

My normal picks for today were Ace of Wands, Family and Celebration from Ask your guides, Goddess from Angel Therapy and Happy surprise from Unicorns.

3 keeps cropping up. 3 of cups and the High Priestess is card 3 in the Major Arcana. 3 is the number of initial completion within the tarot, and 3 is my life path number.

I am probably talking totally rubbish - but if I learned one thing from my development it is to trust my feelings. Of course this could all be wishful thinking because I am worried about the lack of work!

My development started with Change your life in 7 days. Not only did I start the essential 'know thyself' process so essential for any development, but it also taught me the amazing power of the mind. But most importantly it gave me a positive attitude. Without that positive attitude I would be gibbering wreck about my current work situation not just a bit worried.

All hail Mr McKenna!

Different ways of meditating

Meditation is a way of freeing the mind to pick up the signals around us that we would otherwise miss. I have realised my routine with the cards is actually a form of meditation.

I now pick one card from each deck (My tarot deck, Angel Therapy, Unicorns and Ask your Guides) The thought I put into discovering the message is usually very productive.

Tony now does the same using HIS tarot deck and the other three decks . Yesterday something really weird happened. We both got 'The Magician' from our tarot decks and we both picked 'Imagine' from the unicorn deck.

I am sure that is significant - but I don't think we have yet worked out the message.

Understanding card picls

Sometimes my card picks dont make sense. This morning I picked 'Death' from the Ask your guides deck.

It didn't make any sense. It was talking about walking away from something,someone, some behavior pattern that was damaging me. The final part of the explanation was the good news that the worst is over and whatever it was is no longer damaging my spirit. I initially took this as just a general sign that my work situation will get better - ie I will have some. I am expecting to hear from Manie today and maybe one of the agencies may come back to me.

Then I made an entry in my weight loss blog and I found myself writing the following

'I have just had an insight. No work = no worth. No worth = not worth bothering about. Not worth bothering about = no incentive to try and manage my weight.'

Now if that isnt a spirit damaging behaviour pattern I dont know what is. And amazingly I get this insight just after I picked the Death card.

Well not amazingly at all really. The message from the guide is crystal clear. Having recognized the destructive thought process, I can now deal with it.

Taking action

This is a quote from my other blog today

'Each day I am going to do something towards each of my major goals at the moment. These are training for the race for life, decluttering the house, and setting myself up as a reiki practitioner with paying clients.

So what am I going to do today? I am going to walk up to the hairdressers and ask if I can advertise through them for reiki clients. I am going to start sorting out Steve's old bedroom. And I am going to get up off my fat backside ,put my track suit on and go for a walk in the park.'

I have been very unstructured in all sorts of ways lately. But today as you can see I decided to be pro-active and start taking action. This includes my psychic/spiritual development.

My Tarot card today was the 5 cups. Although it didn't immediately speak to me I am sure if I think about the card I will find the message I am meant to get. I don't feel as if I am focusing on what is lost rather than concentrating on what I have. But maybe my urge to get active is because I have decided to focus on what is possible.

I did the chakra meditation this morning. I could feel the chakras vibrating as I opened them with the sounds. In the final part of the meditation, I saw my Dad and Eli. I saw the colour purple and a rose.

I hugged Dad. I really do feel he is there for me. Eli was a surprise but I sense that he and my Dad would get on well so maybe it isn't so surprising.

I am still digesting the events of the workshop and trying to work out what I have learned.

Sorting out my thoughts about yesterday

This is a case where this journal becomes a tool rather than s simple record of events. My head is whirling and I need to sort out my thoughts about yesterday to see what I learned.

The fun started before we left. My card picks were The Magician (choices) Ascended Master (Angel healing) and Sonia Choquette gave me two cards Judgement (which picked itself) and Self Control Both these suggested I need to keep my emotions in cheque and not get pulled into the drama. In other words dont let my heart rule my head. This could have been about the workshop - but could be about work as well.

I did a meditation with the intention of finding out more about the Ascended Master who is there to help me (according to the card) and found myself confronted by a stereotypical Jesus figure. Well if you are going to have an ascended master helping you you want the best.....................

Tony asked me what Jenny looked like because he had seen a new female in his meditation and he wondered if it was Jenny. I hadn't told him I thought Jenny had left me for him. (As Yvette would say interesting) But later in the day he said he was getting a P name with her. Penny and Jenny may sounf alike but I can't see a P and and J being mixed up either visually or in sound

Barrie correctly identified that I am blocking myself without me even saying anything. The question is have I done anything to unblock myself?

I enjoyed the exercises on the first bit of the workshop which was all about aura, and energy and expanding your energy and trying to read energy.

I did see a flash of yellow in one persons aura. I think to see aura's I need to see the person against a light background then shut my eyes and open them again. I see a colour in the after image.

I was able to feel another persons aura and was able to push out MY aura towards the other person so they could feel it. That was an exercise I have done before with Sue. It is something I need to practice because I know it will help me read aura's and people better.

I volunteered to take part in a ribbon reading experiment and ended up reading someone else. I got the word 'student' (He had just finished a teacher training course) But I dont think the rest of the stuff I got was really true . I said he was dis organised and was not as emotionally open as he should be because he had been hurt before. I think the disorganised but was a sort of hit - but the rest wasn't.

I did much better with a card reading exercise. The other person picked a card, held it and then I held it to see what I could pick up. I said that she was a teacher then ammended it to a headmistress. I said she wasn't married and had no children. The card she picked was something to do with study so I said study was important and tat I thought she would gain a lot from the day. She is a nurse tutor whoa admits that she is bossy - probably due to her army background. She IS married and does ave a child BUT she and her husdand live in different cities and she admitted she doesnt feel married.She is in the middle of doing a degree course. She felt I had got a lot of things right.

Tony was really REALLY good with a psychometry experiment and when he was doing card reading.

While Barrie was doing his introduction, Tony was obviously picking something up and said the name Harry was being repeated. Then a bit later when Tony was standing to Barrie ready for a demonstration he said he had a man chattering away. The when the person was reading Tony's ribbon and Barrie asked them to give Tony a ate they gave 27th April. It felt as if Dad was around. And during a planchet session it is possible Dad did some through.

Before we left for the workshop I asked spirit to let me know if Betty passed. I decided it was possible Dad was trying to tell me that. So if I find out Betty died about 1.00 yesterday I will be very interested.

But later on putting together various apparently unrelated comments I became convinced Dad is there to protect me.

Barrie led a guided meditation which took us to a cottage with a book on the table. Inside the cottage was a book. There was an eye on the cover and inside the names of my guides - excepts Jenny's name was crossed out. I saw my ascended master again and the gift I got from him was the book. I need to meditate on the meditation I think to see if I can make any sense of it.

Woodchester Mansion was a fabulous location. I got some interesting pictures with possible light anomalies on them. I must post them on FB so Wolf can see them and comment.

Two of the guests went into trances at times during the evening. I did some mirror scrying which was weird because I wasn't expecting anything to happen -and it did.

There were some strange smells, some strange noises but nothing that I can conclusively say was paranormal rather than psychological. Tony was getting a lot of stuff - but there was nothing to corroborate what he was saying.

Twice Barie commented that something I said was 'interesting' Once when I commented about not liking one of the staircases and when I said in another room that I had a headache. I got the feeling my experiences agree with other peoples.

I tried actively to open up and expand my aura during the investigation and I did get some weird feelings on my face and hands at times. I also had a tendency to sway. When Louise went into trance the TFT yes / no sway was used to communicate with her. Both she and Andrew (the guy who went into trance) were clearly unaware of what was going on and not faking it. Andrew ended up talking up in a girls voice. Is trance something in my future? Is that wy dad seems to be around for me because he will protect me if I do? Maybe I need trance to help me unblock myself.

Now there is an interesting but scary thought.

I have just done my cards for today and in every case I asked for guidance about important tings I needed to learn from yesterday.

My tarot card was the two of cups which fell sideways during the shuffle so I decided that picked itself. I couldnt get any resonance off the rest of the cards - so I think that is my card. Is this signal that Tony and I need to develop a closer psychic relationship? Start practicing together ?

Doreen Virtue gave me Crown Chakra - but my attention was drawn to Listen to your feelings - which was on the bottom of the pack when I picked it up.I will quote directly from the book for Crown Chakra entry.

You have picked this card because the angels are asking you to trust and follow the ideas you have recently received as they are the answers you have been seeking for your current situation. You already know the truth and the best course of action to take' Since Listening to my feelings is something I have a problem doing because I DON'T trust them. That message is crystal clear.

Sonia Choquette gave me New Life - which picked itself and Self Control which I picked

New Life is 'Whatever you are seeking to create it is happening' Self control is again warning me about keeping my emotions in check 'during this period of change'

The message seems fairly clear.

Self healing

I have been feeling a bit off for a couple of days so this morning I did some self healing. Although I use a variety of hand positions for this the most natural for me is hands on abdomen and let reiki go where it wants. I saw lots of green today as well as red. As usual it ended with lots of purple. I got what appears to be spinning chakra effect.

I have used my pendant to select crystals. I didnt use any in the healing but I am going to be carrying some today. It picked my tigers again. I now have a copy of the crystal bible. I now see Tigers eye is linked with earth energy as well as being protective. I must also try placing it on my third eye chakra. I didnt know it could enhance psychic ability like that.

Tomorrow is the psychic development workshop. It will be interesting to see what crystals I end up carrying tomorrow.

My tarot card for today is The Empress. A time of abundance and domestic stability. Thats a god omen given my current lack of work. Security and contentment through physical comfort. That seems to back up my feeling that I needed to have a couple of quiet days before the workshop.

My Angel therapy card was Integrity. Align your actions with with values and inner knowledge of what is right for me. That is exactly why I am trying to use my reiki. It does fit my inner values. It is interesting that I got this card the day after I heard from the Pharmaceutical Society that they do not need to know about my reiki as long as I always act in accordance with the Pharmacy Code of Ethics during my reiki. I did get an encouraging card dropped during the shuffle. You are a powerful lightworker. Its nice when the cosmos decides to give you a pat on the back

Ask your guides threw up two cards as well. One card turned the wrong way during the shuffle - Discontent and I picked Denial

'See your frustration as a longing to learn more' I am frustrated with pharmacy at the moment- but I am actively trying to learn so I can move into more satisfying work as a pharmacist.

Denial is all about possible frustrations in relationships especially with husbands/partners 'Take off the blinkers and be open to the truth about others and yourself' I think this card is telling me I can trust my relationship with Tony. Even after 16 years the self doubt that previous bad relationships gave me hasn't quite gone. I think this card is to help me get rid of those final vestiges of doubt that I am lovable for myself rather than for what I do or what I can give.

Reading the cards

My card picks for today were interesting.

My Tarot pick today was the Queen of Pentacles. One phrase jumped out of te book at me. 'Take care of your physical needs' I had decided last night I was going to have a lazy day today. I felt that was confirming I had made a wise decision.

My angle therapy card was 'visualize success' It tied in interestingly with my Ask your Guides pick which was 'Restriction' That card is a warning that you are backing yourself into a corner with incorrect thinking and pre-conceived ideas. My interpretation is that I need to believe in my psychic side. My preconceived idea is that I'm not really doing anything. But if I visualize success -a phrase that goes back to my Paul McKenna training - I will succeed and get myself out of that negative thinking

I dont feel well at the moment. I am determined not to be ill for the workshop at the weekend. But the one thing I haven't done is any self healing - or any meditation. That needs to be corrected tonight and tomorrow.

I finished reading 'The Lost Symbol' today. It was interesting how much numerology there is in it. Also a lot of the stuff about a time of enlightenment for mankind fits in with what the Qabbalah says, what numerology says, and to an extent what I learned about the B'ahai a few years ago.

Now is Dan Brown just cashing in on all these things - or is there really a message for me in the book? Is it coincidence I read it just after I read all the numerology stuff?

I do NOT believe the Masons get up to half the things this book implies, and I am highly sceptical about 'the science of noetics' although I have no problem believing that thoughts can have a powerful effect.

The book has certianly got me thinking - and that was probably why I read it.

When everything just fits..............

It is great when everything just fits and you get a sense of rightness about something you are doing.

I have finished reading the course booklet for my OU course. Well skim reading it anyway. I need to re-read it slowly and do all the exercises. But I already know what a lot of the exercises are about. And so much of it needs you to look at things based on your experience, or look at things in your own life. The truth is that as you come to understand other peoples , you inevitably end up understanding your own as well.

It is not a coincidence that I am doing this - which help me to know myself so much better - at a time when I am focusing on my spiritual development.

I am now certified

Had a good day with Sue having a de-brief about my self healing and my reiki progress. I have also acquired two new decks of cards.

Sonia Choquette Ask your Guides Oracle cards and Doreen Virtue Angel Therapy Oracle cards. I feel they will be useful extra tools to receive messages from my guides. The Angel Therapy can also give me guidance about chakras

I need to work on my chakras. I now have a copy of the chakra opening meditation Sue took me through last time. Tony can use it as well - and I think we both need to practice closing our chakras as well.

I need to open up more - Tony probably needs to close down more. We will get there.

I did some reiki on Sue's dog Sam today. He was very good and very patient. But I did get the feeling he may have a heart problem. I mentioned it to Sue. She doesn't know of a problem - but said it was possible he had developed one. Thats one for the vet to sort out - but it was what I felt so I decided to say it.

But I must remember I wouldnt just say something like that if I was treating a clients dog. As a reiki practitioner I do NOT diagnose. So how would I handle that in a real situation? By suggesting a check up might be useful as a follow up to my treatment? I dont know - have to think about it.

I dont intend to start treating anyone yet. But I am going to see about some methods of advertising to find clients. I am going to sit in on some of Sue's clients and get some more hands on experience. I am worried I need to open up a lot more before I can be effective as a practitioner.

I think I need to practice opening up and reading people - and for that I need another circle. They have open circles at a spiritualist church in Kings Heath. I need to go to some of them.

Planning the next steps

Tomorrow I have my final reiki two day with Sue. I feel as if all the stuff for reiki has fallen into place. I have realised how to use my pendant, the crystals and my intuition to help keep me healthy. I now have confidence in the pendant. So when I am giving reiki to my clients I can use the pendant to guide me.

I am also learning to trust my intuition - but still can't get over the worry that when I get an idea, I have made it up rather than picking it up. I need to work on that.

I think my exercises with the tarot cards are helping me with this. I have learned to trust my intuition to pick a card. As well as realising the card I want has a rough feel, I can sense a tingle when I split the pack to decide which bit of the pack I need to work with.I also think tarot could be useful tool to help me find out more about my clients. And I have the example of Jenny who started with tarot cards - and progressed to the stage that she didn't need to use the cards to read people.

So I am going on a tarot workshop. And for the hell of it doing an astrology workshop as well. I can also see me studying numerology as well.


I did a tarot spread to see if I cloud get any advice about whether I should book myself on the workshop, because Tony said he wasn't interested. I got The Magician (which I think represented David Wells who is running the workshop) Seven of swords which I felt indicated the thought and preparations I would need to make - or possibly a sign of what the workshop could prepared to me to do. And then there was the magical gift represented by the Ace of Pentacles. Short of making the booking for me - I felt the cards couldn't have been any clearer.

I feel I have this time off for the next 2 (or even more) weeks not only for me to get a rest but also so I can have some time to focus on developing my senses. I intend to make good use of it