An epiphany

OK thats a pretty strong word to use but that is how I feel after my experiences over the past 2 days. Yesterday I went to the Paul McKenna weight loss event. I was unsure how much I would get from the day as I already know and understand the golden rules. What happened was unexpected. It was the 20 minutes on 'thought field therapy' that left me going 'wow' At one point he had us tapping the base our hands - and told us the tingle we could feel was 'chi' Well I could immediately link that to reiki.

Then another TFT demonstration showed us that out bodies can give us 'yes/no' answers about whether it is OK for us to eat a certain food. Again although the demonstrator described it as 'witchcrafty' to me it made perfect sense. I already KNOW our subconcious can give us information if we access it in the right way.

Then again when Paul was doing a demonstration with an audience member, he finished up by doing something that looked remarkably like the 'wrap up ' at the end of a reiki session - except he only did it down her arms.

So I left yesterday feeling 'wow' Not only do I feel TFT (which I had been sceptical about before) could be of use, I felt I could use it in a healing setting with clients. TFT all links into accupuncture so maybe I need to learn about that.

Then this morning I read 'the reiki Bible' that Steve gave me for Christmas. Not only did is re-enforce my feeling that reiki is the right path for me but I could see how the techniques Paul taught me were actually getting me ready for reiki.

Then I have had an amazing run with tarot cards. I see to be working backwards through the major arcana. 2 days of the moon, followed by the star, and then today I picked The Tower.

All this makes the minor issue of a car crash that has written off my car seem far less worrying than it would be. I even said last night I am convinced something good will happen as a result of the crash.

Time will tell....................

A paper journal

I have finally started to keep a handwritten record of my meditations, visions and tarot card readings. I will suew this to report significant findings/events.

This week I started drawing a tarot card every morning and just writing down my impressions.

Monday I pulled 'The Emperor' and wrote about taking material control over my world

Tuesday I pulled the 7 of pentacles - and I decided the choice I would have to be would be whether or not to pay off the mortgage early.

Today I pulled the 2 of cups - and started writing about how this was a sign that Tony and I were a firm couple with an interesting future ahead of us.

Then today when I got to work I was told that there is a chance they may not want me after 1st April - and suddenly I saw a different interpretation of all the cards. That in combination they gave me a positive message about this situation. That I can control it, that I will have choices - and that whatever happens Tony and I will still be a couple.

Tony's first circle

Circle yesterday was quite an experience.
It started off with a guided meditation. Allegra talked us through relaxation then took us up into the sky and left us to it. I ended up in my 'temple of dreams' I t was filled with green light then it went dark and I saw a candle in an ornate candlestick spotlighted, and then a book. I wanted to go to the alter - but Jenny led me to a side room that was dark. And I had no idea why I was in there. Sadly that was the point at which Allegra caled us back. I must try to get back there. I have realised the difference between the guided meditations and my self guided ones is I dont take the time to relax properly.

Tony had a 'wow' moment which I felt priviledged to be able to share with him. Arran was plagued by one tarot card. The Page of cups. During her meditation she saw a face - and for her it was the first time she had seen a face during meditation. Allegra identified the page of cups as a spirit (guide?) with her and then Arran realised the face on the card was the one she had seen in her meditation. At this point Tony said he was getting the name George. Arran's face was a picture because she said for weeks her little girl had been talking about a George and they had no idea who he was. Tony's face was a picture at that point!.It was so special for both of them. A bit later on Arran got a reading using Sue's tarot cards and it became obvious crystals are important to her but she doesn't have any. So I gave her the amethyst crystal that somehow never got put with my other crystals. I dont know why but it felt like the right thing to do.

This morning I got the evidence I needed that when I meditate properly amazing things can happen.Not much to surprise I saw things this morning. It happened twice. the first time it was sort of Dr Who affect faces - rather indistinct but definitely there. Then later on I had a much more vivid vision - much brighter. It was more like my initial 'jungle' vision in quality and colour - but the patterns were more ornate. And instead of silhouettes I saw faces. Again no one I recognised but much clearer definition in the features than the first vision this morning.

So what have I learned from all this

I need to work on relaxation before I meditate.
I seem to respond to energy. I wonder if that's why I feel it would be good for Tony and I to meditate together? There has to be more psychic energy around when a group is meditating together. All my visions have happened either after a circle or after I have been exposed to energy of some sort (reiki attunement and the energy attunement that Carolyn and Jeanagh did at Hay.

I have decided I must keep a handwritten notebook so I can quickly record anything I see, tarot readings, numerology readings (I want to try numerology as well) I may write it up in here later but I need to record at the time.

I wonder if I can combine my weight loss needs with my psychic work? Listen to one of Paul's shorter meditations to relax me then when I am relaxed go into meditation. There is no doubt my meditation yesterday was much more productive because I was more relaxed than I normally am.

Lets face it - making time to relax properly will be good for me in all sorts of ways.

I am looking forward to my second attunement - I booked it with Sue yesterday for 6th Feb - and Martyn wants another treatment. I told Sue my goal was 5 paying clients by the end of the year and she said there was no reason why I shouldn't achieve that.

I feel quietly confident that I am on the right track. I also had a reading yesterday which indicated things are going to go well this year and that I am on the right path . I dont need confirmation of that - but it was good to get it all the same.

Tony's meditation

"Last night when I asked my guides what our stepson will do after his term ends. I thought if anything came through it would only be for the immediate future. How wrong I was!
The first thing I saw written before me as clear as day was immigration! I asked what year and saw 2012 and the month August. I asked why and got the feeling that it's because of someone he'll meet on facebook. Furthermore that person and he will see each other before face to face. I clearly saw a map of America and the city Chicago came into my head. Any insight? I also felt he'd either rent out his house still to his friend or sell it too him. Interesting for sure. Do you pick up on anything about this?"

I am recording this so if any of this does come true - and I am frankly sceptical it will- there is proof that it was predicted.

I think prediciting the future is a very difficult thing to do. What Tony was told could be one possible future for Steve - but I dont believe anything is pre-ordained - we have free will.

I am not scpetical that this information was genuinely given to Tony. He would not make up something like that - especially when he knows this future would be potentially upsetting for me.

I have been unwell recently.Nothing specific but a low grade feelig of being unwell and a total lack of energy. I suspect it is the aftermath of dealing with Edna and her estate. I have realised that I am far less prostrate with the stress than I would have expected. I also recovered from whatever it was quicker than I would have done. Jeanagh sent me healing essences and I have done reiki self healing. Cause and effect. Also I had a pain in my neck - one I have had before and needed physio for. That has cleared up remarkably quickly too.

I WANT to say 'Its all down to the reiki and the healing essence' but my sceptical brain thinks maybe I wasnt as poorly as I thought. One thing is for certain none of this has put me OFF reiki.

I have been meditating on the tarot cards as per David Wells suggestion. I can't say I have had any amazing insights - but I do feel my meditations are better.

I decided to ask my spirit guides if I was right about some of Steve's stress being due to personal issues (bereavement and worry about me) and not all just due to study. I got one very clear phrase 'he loves you' which I took to mean that he has been worrying about me because he loves me.

Meditation

There is no doubt this is the stickiest thing for me. I read what David Wells had to say on the subject - and so last night I declared my purpose in meditation to be to open myself to receive any message from my guides. I didnt meditate long - but I did feel it was more focussed. I realised weeks ago meditation for meditations sake doesnt work for me . I guess it doesn't work full stop.

It was his comment about infocussed meditation leading you to see prett colours and fairy creatures that hit home!!

Yesterday I did some tarot card readings to tune myself into them

Should I take a few days off work
Is the David Wells book going to be useful for e
Will Steve end up a teacher
Just give me a message!!

I got major arcana cards with frightening regularity. But decided taking time off work was a good thing, Steve is doing the right thing, I am on the right path - and the David Wells book will be useful for me. In fact I think depsite it being my present to Tony I was guided to buy it for me as much as him.

And the message ? Well I got 3 majaor arcana cards The world the star and the tower. So the message I took was that Change is coming .

Spookily I did a reading for Tony about the David Wells book and we both got the same first card - 8 of pentacles.

But now it is time to stop blogging and start doing to make the best use of my days off. I may be physically less than 100% but my mind is still finctioning on all cyclinders so I need to use it

A Xmas present for me?

I bought Tony a copy of David Wells psychic development book for Xmas - but I am reading it before Tony. Maybe it was really for me all along.

I read the astrology bits. My sun sign and my north pole sign . I am pisces/pisces. It sounds trite to say it was almost as if it was written just for me - but I felt it was incredibly accurate in what it said.

Then I read Tony's (he is Leo/Cancer) and it didnt fit him at all. Am I being guillible? I will be intersted to see what Tony's reaction is to his and my ast

I have also read the book Steve gave me by some American celebrity medium. 'Do ghost see you in the shower' Also I dont accept everything she says she knows - I did get some useful insights.

Todays sparkpeople reflection was relevant today. It was all about the importance of being childlike. Both Concetta and David mention how children are naturally sensitive to spirit. The reflection was meant to help with lifestyle and stress reduction - and I know I need that message too. I just felt it had a double message for me.

David also recommends keeping a journal. I don't think he would see this blog as being the ideal way for him. he spoke about a beautiful book. Trouble is it would be spoiled by my less than beautiful handwriting! I need to be able to read my journal!!

This year I am going to get to grips with proper meditation and take my level two reiki attunment. And we will see what else happens.

New year new start?

One of my plans (not ressolutions) for the new year is to make sure I spend time ebvery day meditating. I haven't been as rigorous as I should be.

I did have a strange experieinec this morning. I felt was sitting round a table with other people when one of them suddenly keeled over with a heart attack. It was very specific that the problem was a heart attack.

I was listneing to the radio layer when it was announced that one of the presenters of Gardeners Question time had died of a heart attack.

It was probably coincidence - but this morning I had been asking Jonas to help me open up. Maybe it wasn't co-incidence maybe it was a sign spirit DOES communicate with me