New start????

I have been keeping a separate off line development journal and I HAVE been meditating much more regularly. I am recording in here that we have an exciting new link with a firm called Opal Aura run by Manue Obi-Nega - who I first 'met' when in her role as a recruitment consultant I became her first client EVER to fail to get a job at Asda!! But she forgave me anyway! Manie works out of Kiddicare in Merry Hill and as long as I work under the Opal Aura name (her company) I can use the rooms for free - and still take the money. Opal Aura is a community interest company and Manie plans to put most of the money back in to support her local community. But she plans to make a sell aromatherapy sprays and mists so my production knowledge may come in useful as well. It has been arranged that I can use the room on Thursday mornings . The plan is to run self hypnosis for childbirth classes eventually. Manie is a Doula and the whole focus of Opal Aura is towards pregnant, childbirth and baby care - but involving the whole family. So I need to dust off that folder and start planning what I am going to do.......

Shamanism

I have been reading a book about Shamanism - which resonated with me. And as I read it I realised I have probably already been on a shamanic journey. So this morning I listened to the first of Steven Former's power animal tracks - and I was right. It IS a shamanic journey. What is the difference betweena shamanic journey and a meditation? I don;t know! Anyway I did the 'journey' to meet my power animal. First time I met a bera. This time I met a deer - and a leopard. That is interesting since Freda has channelled leopard watching the circle. I tried to get rid of him - but he kept reappearing. That must mean something I have also done a card pick for myself from Angel Therapy and I got Vegetarian/Vegan. I feel the message is clear. Dump the biscuits and eat the fruit instead

Post holiday blog

I have slipped with the meditation, the biscuit avoidance and so much else since my last entry. but I have been away on holiday - and did come back with a bad back. So I haven't really been at my best. but today I decided I would meditate and decided I would find a card to meditate on. because it was the best deck to hand I picked from the Ascended Masters deck and cot Ameratsu - Come out of the closet. The card is all about recognising who you truly are and about boosting your self esteem. Yesterday I did the second part of Clare's reiki training and we did the Sweet Surrender meditation. At one point I saw myself standing with hands outstretched with light flowing from them. If ever I had an image to boost my self esteem that is it. I also feel I need to stop hiding what I do because I am worried people won't understand or approve.

I haven't made an entry for a couple of days but I have been meditating daily. Although not always formally doing the candle music and incense . Today I did self healing and meditation together. Meditated for 'health and well being' and the clear message I got was 'don't procrastinate' So I have come down and straight away told my milkman and the vegetable delivery people that we are on holiday so I have cancelled the deliveries. I could have left Abel and Cole until tomorrow and MIlk and More until much later but tis done - and now I can relax. Why do I procrastinate? I put things off during the day like meditation and self healing. I put things off like paperwork until later in the week. Thats why I am in such a mess with my HPD portfolio. I kept putting it off and putting it off. This is what the introspection card I got twice on Thursday at circle means. I need to work out why I procrastinate and how I can stop it. It is far aand away my worst fault - and it is what is holding me back. . My mantra needs to be 'just do it'

Interesting times

The last couple of days have been really interesting. Out of the blue I had a phone call from someone in Netherton who has booked a home visit for hypnotherapy. The yesterday evening Rhonda - a lady Tony did a reading for months back - suddenly knocked on our door and we ended up lending her a CD to help her meditate. Then today I have had a phone call from a lady in Nechells in who wants s home visit for reiki. And all this has happened since I had that meditation where I saw myself easily getting over the wall. I have just meditated today. My focus was peace and calm - but as I was meditating I found myself remembering David Wells advice to meditate on a card. I remembered yesterdays card pick for our page which was 'Tree - grounding' The interpretation I put on that was that if someone was involved in a project to keep their feet on the ground - but I also went on to say that the other message was that good foundations had been built and that would be reflected in the future development. At the time I did feel it was apt for us - but the meditation seems to have confirmed that. Hopefully things are about to develop as we want them too.

I did miss one days mediation. Yesterday I tried to meditate before I went to bed - after a day when a LOT of things went wrong. I DID try - but it wasn't going to work. However this morning I let a candle, burnt incense and played music. My meditation was surprising. I found myself on a beach sitting in the sun - then shaded by a beach umbrella the suddenly appeared courtesy of Thomas (I think) I looked at the white sand and blue sea and though 'Sodalite' So I wore sodalite today - and I had a great day

Recurrent theme

Fr some reason I have the song 'When we live in a world of our own' running through my mind. I have NO idea why. But as I finished 'How to be a bad christian' (the book I was given yesterday I realised the sentiment was quite apt in some ways for the apr of the book I was reading. He was talking about the butterfly effect and how small random actions can have unexpected effects. I realised that is creating 'a world of my own' with such acts - like my volunteer work at the hospice, and even like my work for the TV station. I have a small window of time to help the people I interact with - that can create a different world for them AND me. I haven't done the 'om' bit today - but I feel my reading of the book has been a meditation. But I will do the 'om' thing in a bit. And I am still a biscuit free zone!!!

An interesting meditation

My meditation this morning was VERY interesting. Thomas came clearly to mind. I saw his rock gift as an affirmation that I am right to be doing the crystal course. I then got an odd image of me jumping a wall - a high wall the sort of things you see in army assault courses and I got the feeling I make too much of what I perceive as obstacles. I also got the words. You go too slowly. This really does build on the confidence meditation yesterday - and in a way is born out by various things that have happened over the past day. This includes a reading request from someone in Tanzania. And she hasn't baulked at the idea of paying. I had an amazing conversation today while I was waiting for car tyres to be fitted. I was sitting next to a lady who turned out to be ordained - and she gave me a book called 'How to be a bad christian' It whiled away the LONG time I spent waiting for my car to be finished - and I agree with a lot of what is in the book so far. It is getting me to think about what I believe - and that is always good, Plus I read some of the crystal course information - and I found I could agree with a lot of what they said and it fits in with my hypnotherapy and reiki very well. I feel excited :-)

Day one of my lent challenge

Well day one went OK. I mediated for peace an calm in the morning. Then we did the Fairy path working at circle - and Mab gave me a tarot card. I couldn't see which one tho. But I then got the idea of running a workshop to teach people how to use their cards. So I have created an event this morning. lets see what sort of response it gets. This morning I meditated with ;confidence' as my focus. I got the feeling Thomas was there reminding he is my rock and I can have confidence in him. Amazingly I have just had a call from 88g that I know I got spot on - and last night with the psychiatry I also picked up something that was spot on. So I am feeling quietly confident. Getting that call so soon after the mediation was ..............almost a wow moment.

Tuesday was pancake day and I suddenly realised that means it is Lent. And I have decided to use that as a fcus to help myself. Traditionally people challenge themselves during lent. So I am challenging myself to meditate for at least 5 minutes EVERY day - and NOT to eat ANY biscuits for the rest of lent. Watch this space

When is a spell not a spell

When it is a prayer, a ritual or a visualisation. My journey of comparative theology continues fuelled by my continues reading of the book about grimoires, and last nights discussion at circle. We were talking about protection and Angie read out a Wicca 'spell' for protection which is really just a visualisation although it can include a component in the form of a clear quartz crystal. Is the 'ritual' I do when preparing for a session on 886 that uses reiki symbols a 'spell' or a 'prayer' Christian prayers include a symbol in the sign of the cross. I went to see Jane on Wednesday and it turns out she would love to be a holistic therapist too if she could afford the training. But she rejected the idea of reiki out of hand even though I offered to attune her for free. She wants to advice people of supplements, flower remedies that sort of thing. But I do feel it means something that with our vastly different spiritual approaches she in essesne wants to be doing the same as I do.

Well I had a sudden rush of blood to the head this morning. I got up, put laundry away, went downstairs fed the cats made a drink, then emptied the dishwasher and the washing machine. Somewhere along the way I fed the cats too. Then I went back upstairs put the damp laundry on the airer........then I went and prayed/meditated/ and DID SOME SELF HEALING!!!! I had some interesting musings about the Imbolc ritual while I was self healing. Not sure where I am going with it yet - but I am sure it will come I feel good to have done it all this morning

I went to the Sapling Bards Imbolc ritual yesterday with Angie from circle. It was an interesting experience and clearly a lot of Christina ritual has been based on Druid/Wicca/Pagan ritual.The circle was consecrated with water and fire- something I would not see in a church- but then the whole circle shared mead bread and foo - something I would see. The who circle was blessed with blessed water - something that happens to every child at its christening. So what does this mean for what I believe? Well really nothing. I already knew the early church had adapted pagan rituals and festivals to attract them into the churches. And frankly after yesterday I can see the advantage of celebrating in a building in a cold weather. Fire and water food and drink were the absolute necessities of life in the dark ages. So it isn't surprising that their are rituals including them in the bible.So it would have been natural to include them in the Passover celebrations that embrace the crucifixion story. I have to believe in the power of the Lords Prayer - I saw that for myself one ghost hunt when it really annoyed something nasty trying to come through the portal at the Whispering Witch.And it wasn't psychological because I wasn't expecting have any effect. I certainly wasn't reciting it out of fear................ So am I still a Christian? Well yes in that believe in the existence of Jesus son of Joseph and Mary. Do I think the council of Nicea that set up so much of what now constitutes orthodox christianity was inspired by God? No I believe it was more inspired by politics - with the best of intentions. I know the bible was 'censored' to exclude writings that didn't agree with the the Christians wanted to say. I believe in one supreme power - but I can accept that all the deities from other traditions are aspects of that supreme power. In fact is the concept of one supreme God and his angels simply a recognition of the fact that God has to have different aspects? I don't know - and I don't think anyone can know. But I do know there is a basic 'goodness' that can help determine what is right and what is wrong. Do I believe in the basic laws of the Ten Commandments tho? Well yes. They codify what is right and just - and do include 'Thought shelf have no other gods' If I believe in a supreme power what do I make of yesterdays ritual that mention Bridget a lot? Carol dedicated her sip at the mead horn to Bridget, Dave to Loki. I wonder why he chose Loki. But Bridget's festival is Imbolc and interestingly she is a healer and a reader. Now how spooky is it that my first ritual is dedicated to the pagan goddess I would probably take as my own. ButI know this is not because I am being called to Drudism. I know I am being prompted to decdie what I truly believe in. How fascinating...........

Wow last nights circle was eventful for all the wrong reasons. Freda's chair collapsed under her at a time when a couple of people sensed some nasty energy in the room. Amber was getting some disturbing images and messages from her guide....and we realised we have become complacent. I haven't done my normal pre-circle ritual with reiki in the room, and we have neglected to do the normal grounding and protection we used to do at the start of the circle. Is it a coincidence that this has happened at a time when I am worried about needing to get back to basics in my own spirituals journey? Maybe or maybe not. I don't know. But I am not taking the whole package very seriously. Whether its psychic or psychological something needs to be done. I have been spending too much time focussed on pharmacy. Well next month I have NO pharmacy work and I WILL deal with all this

I meditated this morning to the solfeggo harmonic again. I haven't self healed for 2 days tho. I am tired - but I suspect I am spending energy on unproductive things like worry. My mantra this morning was peace and calm - plus I imagine Pam wrapped in a pink fluffy bubble! My carc is thw 2 of swords. I need balance in my thoughts. My crystal is orange cats eye. Orange for the solar plexus chakra which is undoubtedly one that needs support as I am quite tired - except of course orange is for the sacral chakra and I know that. Is that the closest to yellow I have? or is it my sacral chakra that needs support? Not sure. It is a vibrant orange and maybe a symbol of the vibrancy I need. I am at ROH today. I will need all the vibrancy I can get , except by thinking like that I am setting myself up for a bad day there. Thank good ness this is the last week I am there for a bit.

Yesterday I went to to visit Clare and I realised we both have the same issue. Both of us get too caught up in daily things before we do things like meditation and self healing. So I suggested we challenge ourselves for the next week to do these things first. I actually did some healing when I went to bed last night. This morning I have listened to the Solfeggio harmonic and done a simple meditation. Just focussing on peace and calm. And I got the insight that lack of peace and calm can rob me of energy. I have picked a crystal. No idea what it is but I actually don't care. I have picked a card and got the eight of wands. This shows a ma firing 8 arrows into the air. 8 is always about hard work and I think this is telling me not that it will be hard work - but that I can do it. The wand with their link to creativity are telling me I am only limited by my imagination. Tiem to start thinking BIG.

After yesterdays decision to get back to basics I have decided to start with the first exercise David suggests. Finding out who I am. Yes I know did this over 5 years ago when I first read Change your life in 7 days and started off on this journey. But I am not the person I was then so sitting down and doing again makes sense. It will make sure I stay on track. I wrote a guided meditation for the circle and it put them on a path that represented their spiritual progress. The first thing I got them to do was look back and see how far they had come. Well this is my way of looking back. So since I am doing this the David Wells way I am going to start by looking at what my sun sign tells me about myself. 'A natural intuitive you are likely to be highly perceptive already, but structure is required if you are to make the most of yourself and that isn't always welcome is it?' Actually I know I need structure but I seem incapable of getting it. David goes on to talk about the fish swimming in two directions being a sign of lack of direction - but more often because I tend to put others needs before mine. Now that is SO true. Thats why I find it so hard to say 'no' when I am offered pharmacy work. I somehow always seem to prioritise other things above my spiritual (and indeed physical!) exercise. It may be just me being a typical pisces - but I need to acknowledge this weakness and work round it if I am going to get anywhere. David talks about planning time to do it in advance - letting everyone know. Well thats sort of what I did when I put the CPD in my diary. If I put a slot in every day for spiritual and physical exercise it will get done. i will give it priority. In fact i can meditate as `i exercise. David then talks about grounding being important for me - finding practical applications for what I can do. He even says I am likely to be good at 'hands on' healing. That seems very true to me. I DO feel the need to use what I can do to help others - but I am reluctant to sue it to help myself. Thats why I always duck self healing. My piscean tendencies are causing me to get my priorities wrong. Now that is a lesson I need to remember. I do take 'me time' but its often a bath (although my ruminations in the bath are often very helpful. lets face it I am doing this as the result of bath time ruminations) But I feel I have to have 'me time' when Tony isn't up. What on earth is wrong with me telling Tony I am going upstairs to meditate and self heal while he is up and about? David mentions negative thoughts - and the importance of re-programming through meditation - something I feel I am bad at. Well I am bad at making time for it. I will start with Davids basic exercises again and see how I get on. I also need to remember Davids final comment about pisceans. Confusion is a sign you are on your way because confusion brings out answers So my strengths are my intuition and empathy but the downside is I can be confused, vague and easily led. That last one is VERY true. Interestingly my North node is ALSO Pisces. And again reading what David says it is hard to argue with it. I would benefit a lot from meditation and slowing my mind down. I need to stop finding fault in others. I want to be perfect and worry when I am not. In fact David's advice is to be the best I can be. This was my 2012 resolution - to be the best 'me' I can. So has my journey changed me since it started? Well I am happier, I am now married, I do work and use my abilities to help others (although not as much as I would like)I am also very unsure I help people in in the right way. I need. I need to recognise my weaknesses - and try to turn them into strengths.

What's going on? Two posts in one day? I have been thinking about things on and off.And if eel things are starting to fall into place I booked time to do CPD. I need to book time to do meditation, and self healing. I need to be patient with myself - just as David says. I have come a long way. And one of the messages for a pisces is don't expect perfection. I do and I make things way to hard on myself And suddenly things are starting work out for us. We have made a connection up at a new tea shop and she is happy for us to put leaflets in there and to offer readings up there to her clients. Two new businesses helping each other out Tony has been commissioned to write for a new role playing system. Nothing to so with psychic work but his progress affects mine and vice versa. I have details about a one day course about Crystal healing in April in Gloucester and it doesn't cost a huge amount. And its on a Thursday. This s celarly how I meant to serve by improving my skills at the moment.

Wow. I should be at work today. I have not gone in because I couldn't face it. I was at the hospital for the past 2 days and it wore me out. My official reason was that I had a slip on the ice and snow yesterday evening (true but it was only a very one) and that it had upset my back (not true) I need to think about why I decided to compromise my reiki principles to get out of work. Partly it is because Tony is worried about walking up to the shop to see his client today because it is still so icy and if I am home I can drive him up. I need to think abut why I feel I need to support Tony in this way. Anyway I decided to have a nice long hot bath (something I haven't done for a bit - and I grabbed David Well Guide to developing your psychic skills to read in the bath. As I read it I realised that I have never actually DONE the exercises he suggests. I know they will work I teach other people to do them but I haven't actually done them myself. Now what does THAT tell me about myself? Is it a coincidence these thoughts came to be in the bath? Probably not. My sign is Pisces after all. I feel I have the inkling of an idea about how to change things for myself but I have LOT of thinking to do.

Still not sure how succesful I am being with this - but today I did my reiki principles and healing equests while I was still in bed.... it was warmer there! I have picked Green man - synergy as my card today. Reading the book the messgae of this card is that I have an incredible synergy guiding me so that things will fall into place. I need faith that the messag eof this card is right. Thingsdone FELL as if they are going well - but then how often do I tell people that initally a chnage won't feel good but will work out well in the end. That idea really DID just pop into my head. This iS working I think :-) My crystal is quartz which I feel is for communication. I am not sure who I need to communicate with. My guides? the circle? the face bok community? I haven't been communicating much for Krystal wolf - I need to get back to that

I had a lousy nights sleep last night, followed by weird and upsetting dreams when I DID get to sleep. I was late up, and then had an adevnture when I decided to druve to Sainsbury (frts time driving since all the snow on Friday and yesterday) and I got stuck getting home outside my son's house and needed to be pushed, I ache, and am rather fed up contmeplating all the things that may not happen if I can't use the car - including circle on Thursday. So I have NOT done ANY piritual stuff no card no crystal. But I HAVE ket the appoitnment I made in the diary for today and di some CPD. So i do feel I have accomplished something. So why am I bloggin when I have nothing really to blog about. Well I am hoping some blogging will help clear my mind. So how do I feel - totally fed up, like crying, because I ache so much. Mind you I have done a work out including some jogging. But mianly I am tired. I have already told the hospice I won't get out there tomorrow. I feel guilty but while the main roads are fine the side roads are nasty and I am worried about getting stuck again. There is no sign of a thaw. But somthing weird has just happened. I mentioned on FB that I was looking for hypnotherapy courses and I have had a message from a pharmacist colleague about a course running at the hopsice where she works. AND it is running on a Thursday. Is this some sort of answer about what I chould use my Thursdays for! I do feel a little better now Later I have just done my ard pick and my crystal pick The card I got was tsunami - wake up call. I feel I am bieng told I NEED a wake up call The crystal is yellow jasper. Jasper is a great healing stone and closley alinged to the chakras. Yellow is for the solar plexus chakra - which is the kind of powerhouse of the chakras. Well I am very tired. So what is it I need 'wake up ad smell the coffee about' .............My trianing?? A lot of the things I have delat with today have been rleated to my traning - inlcuding a strange incident on healthy pages. i have been contacte dby the moderators to ask if I would check out the bona fides of a poseter who they feel is beig less than honesy in he rintentions.Interestingly she does crystal healing and I was interested before they asked me to test the waters. If I am to learn crystal healing experiencing it would be a greta starting point. Watch this space. I also think this needs I need to rethink how I THINK I am seen on Healthy pages. The moderators said they felt I could be trusted - whihc is nice. I suspect some of my pharmacist colleagues feel I cannot be trusted - but then maybe I am wrong about THAT as well If I am meant to have feet in both the conventional and complementary camps they I am sure the universe needs both sides to trsut me.......

Today I have done some distance healing - something I haven'd done for some time. It was for Sallie's daughter Gemma who is feeling down. for the first time EVER I used a crystal as part of the healing. I have no idea where the idea came from - but it felt right. Today my crystal is - I am fairly sure without looking it up - a banded agate . Having looked it up I feel I was right. Agate stabilises the aura. Since curcle next week is gong to be about the aura and how you can see it that goes in the 'well thats interesting' file. My card today from Earth Magic is Cave -sanctuary. I often use this card in readings as a signal for someone retreating into themselves to solve a problem. redaing whats in the book thats really what its about - and thats pretty much spot on. Its all abot finding that quiet spce inside you. I guess thats what I am doing when I am blogging and trying to sue it as a form of automatic writing. Mind you given the weather the other message of this card in stay indoors. We won't be going to Wolverhampton today. I am still loking for information about what I should do about Thursdays now Paula has closed the beauty side of the salon. I feel I need to learn from why thigns didn't work at Paula's. I need to focus our publicity better. We have an advert going into a ocal magazine (Pages) soon and it will be interesting to see if that brings any results. I have had more success with work at Sphere - what is the difference? I feel I need to FORMALISE my request for guidnace about Thursdays. So i will go with the wording Freda suggested. 'How do you want me to serve on Thusdays?'

I haven't meditated or done my reiki principles today - but I have been logged on on doing readings for Psychic Today. However I am taking time now to pic a card and a crystal. So my crystal pick is blue/purple jasper (I think) Blue if for communication, Jasper is linked to all the chakra and obviously my throat chakra needs support. But obviously communication is an important part of what I am doign when I am logged on. So that makes sense! My card pick is the Ace of Pentacles. I am using Tarot of the Angels and it shows a pentacle sitting on an apple tree laden with apples. I think this is a sign that materially I am comfortable and need to appreciate it. Well I do.

Circle was really good last night. I wrote a meditation and led it for the group - and it seemed to go very well. i am going to record it and give CD's to the group. I used it as the basis of my meditation today - and I feel I need to study more about crystals. That will be a tough assignment NOT!!! My card pick is from Earth Magic and it is lake - stillness. Or maybe its Autumnal equinox - release. That was my first pick but I rejected it. they don't feel as if they relate to me today. The weather today is appalling with heavy snow. I have to go to work and Tony has to decide what to do about the client he has booked for a reading at Sphere. i don't FEEL still - but I am not sure what i need to release My crystal today is blue goldstone which isn't i either of my book. So am I sure its goldstone? 'At work goldstone will ensure that you gain recognition and a chance to develop your strengths. It will also attract a better salary or job opportunities.' Interesting since today I am liable to be at work longer than I planned plus I am trying to work out what the universe wants me to do now Paula Jayne's is no longer open to me. Hmmmmmm

I have just done an online guided meditation run by a group called Law of Attraction. It was quite interesting. She used the words 'ease of flow' and I found all sorts of images came into head. A spirmng bubbling out of the ground, the reiki symbols flowing through my life. I must try it again tomorrow and see what happens. I have grabbed Tony's Shaman cards today and have got Tobacco which is Masculine, East Mars and Earth. I will type what it says in the book. I am tobacco. I am the sacerd offering. I am release of your negative elements and energies. I am purifciation. My smoke will provide you with clarity of thought and purpose. I am the sacred centre of native american spiritual knowledge. Do not be too selfish with what you are doing. remeber to give away. Giving is receiving. I offer to help through purification. I am the ascred smoke of the pipe ceremony My crystal today is picture jasper. Jasper is a nurturer, helps to align the chakras. It imparts determination. Picture jasper seems to have a variety of uses depending where you look, but it is supposed to help with visualisation and business pursuits. Yesterday my business changed for good. Paula has decdied to abandon beauty so I can no longer do reiki up there. The card and csyratl feel approriate to this change. I am actually excited that things are chnaging. I can do things with Thursdays without worrying about not having clients up there. Sphere has alays been better than Paula's since I moved in there. All together the meditation card and crystal seem to fit. I need tor elase negativity to make the most of the opportunity Paula's decison gives me - and I do feel it is an opportunity. This feels right somehow

A bit of a rush today. My crystal pick is tree agate. This is very much about nature but also helps promotes feelings of positivity. It also helps promote feelings of safety in challenging situations. Hmm I am working at ROH today. I suspect I will be working with Pam today - which I always find challenging. My card pick from tarot of the Angels is The Emperor. he is golding a flaming sword on one hand and a ball in the other. He is is sitting on his throne with a red winged angel standing behind him - hands on the Emperor's shoulders. The meaning in the book is Seek power - only for good. Seek strength - only to defend yourself. Seek security -but only to offer stability to the weak. The thought that went through my mind was 'how does this relate to the reiki principles?' Something to think about as I walk to work since I have no time to meditate on them properly this morning (I overslept ) And it will keep my mind off the cold. -3 this morning!

This morning I have done some self helaing combined with contemplation of the reiki principles. And here I am blogging again after making dialy card and crystal picks. My card today is Dance - celebration. My crystal is Unkanite. Unkanite balances emotions with spirituality, it is the stone of vision. It promotes visualization and psychic vision. It provides gorunding and can be useful after meditation and psychic work. I can see why I picked that especially today as its Tuesday and I will be off to the hospice for what should be a fairly concentrated 'spiritual' day of giving reiki. My inital recation to 'Dance' was what have I got to celebrate? But I realise I actually have quite a lot to celebrate. The image on the card is of an african native woman dancing. Why a woman? Whay not a man? I am being told to celebrate my femininity. Am I being told I will have something to celebrtae later today? Its possible This morning I meant to join in an intenet guided meditation session run a group called the Law of Attraction. Visulaisation is the main way to put the law of attraction into action. Is that why I picked the unkanite? I am being told to visualise having reason to celebrate.

Well so far so good. 3 days in a row I have done some spiritual work and blogged. And I have signed up for regular early morning meditations via the internet with a meet-up group called Law of Attraction. We will see what happens with that. My crystal pick this morning has me puzzled. I don't recognise it as one of my crystals even. And identification has been a real hassle. I have finally settled on pyrolusite. Where has this crystal come from? However it has the ability to transform and restructure energies. I can see why I need it.It promotes confidence optimism and determination all of which I need - and have been rather lacking so far this year. So lets see if today I can really make some steps forward. Today I WILL sort out the paperwork so I can paid for my work at the prison! I may have misidentified it but so I suspect this is also a reminder I need to study crystals more. My card today is from Earth magic . Spring Equinox - rebirth. Well again that feels appropriate. I am taking it as a psoitive sign that the company will be 'reborn' But it could also be about ME being reborn with greater confidence in my abilities. It isn't all about the company. It needs to be about ME as well. Something to think about Mind you in this awful weather (its snowing for the firts time this year) the spring feels ages away. This card is also a remidner that spring does follow winter and that good times can follow after bad. But I haven't really had bad times - I just haven't been focussed enough. This card is telling me I am doing the right things to get my focus back.

My blog IS my meditation this morning really. I did a LONG stint on the phones yesterday. I took 9 calls and had 3 chats to the studio. So thats 9 longish readings and about 6 short ones live on air. I earned 30.00 or thereabouts. But I feel drained today. So here I am at my laptop I have made a crystal pick and a card pick from Goddess Guidance. I will start with the card as it is very apt Sige - Quiet time. 'Take some time alon to rest meditate and contemplate' Sige is considered to be the great void from which all creation sprang. One of her messages is that we reconnect to the universe in silence. She is also a Gnostic goddess - and I didn't know there were any. Gnosticism intrigues me.......along with Kaballah and Wicca of course. There may be another message here for me later for now the main message is clear. Do NOT log on. Have a chill out day. The crystal I picked is violet crackle quartz. So I still need the healing ;my ear is still hurting. But the violet is for the third eye chakra - whihc clearly needs energising and balancing after yesterdays efforts. So I have valdation of my decisions- made BEFORE I made my picks I might add. There could be another meaning to Sige as well. The weather forecast is dire and if we go to Wolverhampton we may well end up driving back in snow. It wouldn't take a lot of encoragment to make me say I don't want to take the risk. Is the card suggesting I initiate the conversation? At the very least I feel I shouldn't hesitate to take the option to avoid the journey. So what do I make of the fact that my picks fit so closley with how I feel? Is it psychic? Or just psychology? Does it matter? Not really. Why do I doubt what I do? I beleive in what Tony does - but he only does what he does because I encouraged him to develop. Tony beleives in what I do, other people beleive in what I do. Is doubting a sign of lack of faith? I don't think so. I beleive it keeps me humble. But I MUST avoid false modesty. Why on earth have I started on this theme? Clearly someone wants me to remember this and think about it. Guess automatic writing DOES work!

So here I am again 2 days in a row. If I practice hard enough it may well become habit. I hope so. So this morning I have prayed, meditated on the reiki principles and picked a GODDESS card for myself. I picked Freyja and the advice on the card is to take risks and be more daring. From the book the phrase that stands out in the book is 'Success comes not from timidity but from committing yourself fully to realising your dream. Hold the clear intention of success and it shall come about' Could there be a clearer kick up the backside to me not to waver in my work to get BOTH parts of Krystal Wolf off the ground? How can I utilise the reiki principles to help me do that? Random thought but significant I think My random crystal pick today is quartz - plain clear quartz - probably my least favourite of all the crystals But looking at the first sentence in the crystal bible ' Quartz is the most powerful healing and energy amplifier. I think I am being guided to experiment with quartz today as the first step in getting to know crystals better. I had decided this morning I would do a daily pick not only to get a crystal I need but to read up and learn about it. Quartz is the first crystal every other healer uses. OK I have got the message. I think this combines with the message of Freyja too. I will wear quartz today and focus on my ear pain (I have had stabbing pains in my left ear for a week - doctor cannot see anything wrong in my ear) Watch this space..........

Hello blog. LONG time no see. So what has rompted me to come back? Well it was the exercis we did at circle last night. Tony led us through automatic writing and got the message that this is the best way for me to do automatic writing - so here I am. Ii also another way of meditating for me I am trying to get back into the routine I sued to have of meditation, reiki principles and regular blogging. I need to get back blogging for the business as well but lets take it one step at a time! Circle left me with quite a few tasks to do but during curcle I found myself being queried about why I dont use crystals mre than I do. And I relaised I do need to make more sue of them. So this morning I did a random pick from my crystal and got drawn to sodalite. So i will carry that as well as my Moonstone with me today. I prayed, did my reiki principles, asked for helaing for a growing list of people who are unwell, then did some self healign and combined that with some meditation - or tried to. I saw Jonas (who re-appeared last night during the automatic writing session) and realised however visual I am my logical side means claircognisance is still the best way for me to receive messages - and that this sort of writing is a good way to get them. I feel I have taken a small but significant step today simply by making this entry.