The monk

Last nights meditation was interesting but difficult. I had to trry and consciously let my mind free. In the end I got the idea that the monk was in the house I visited with my guides - in the room at the end of the corridor. So I went in and as I opened the door he pulled his hood down and I could see he had light hair. I think his name is Jonas - the name just came to me as I was watching TV last night.

I have the idea he is there to help me open up more so I become more receptive and aware of spirit. Why a monk? Well I have always put my psychic work in my religious frame. Also of course one of my favourite characters from fiction is the psychic monk Jon Darrow. Jon ? Jonas? Hmm. I do know Jonas looks nothing like Jon Darrow.

I have the feeling it could be very interesting for Tony and I to meditate together. Tony is prepared to try it so maybe we will do so this weekend.

I found myself thinking about Allegra's tarot reading last night. She predicted that I am going to get help from a man who is ' a bit smitten' with me, but we will be nothing but good friends, a bit geeky, and she saw him wearing a white coat so she thinks it could be one of my work colleagues.

I found myself last night wondering about Rob All rolepayers are a bit geeky. And he DID work at a hospital. And he is a LOT more chatty to me now than he used to be.I do feel he is more of a friend now than I used to. At one time I felt he actively disliked me. And he has this unexpected interest in the paranormal. I dont think he is 'smiten' with me - but probably like all male roleplayers without a girfriend he wishes he could find someone LIKE me to share their interest. I am probably WAY off the mark - but am recording it anyway.

Water!!

I have been very thirsty today. I am wondering if this is a side effect of my reiki session yesterday.

One intersting development is that Tony saw the monk again in his night time meditation. So he asked the monk if he was there for HIM and got the answer 'No' . So tonight I must see if he appears in MY meditation and/or ask Thomas if he knows anything about this monk. Since I haven't yet worked out how to ask questions in my meditation this could be challenging.

Another reiki treatment

I have just given Tony a reiki treatment. I was quite surprised at the results. Initially he didn't seem to be feeling anything but he did report feeling heat on his body and that my hands felt hot. But he started seeing things. A Monk, his spirit guide Sarah, and then a victorian lady with a book, he got the letter J with her so I am wondering if he was seeing Jenny my reiki guide.

I didn't see or sense anything much unusual although I did get extreme tingling in a couple of places. As I know Tony very well I think I know what it was I picking up. And that means I will get some idea if things have changed.

All in all I feel happy with the treatment . I have aslo been giving our cat TC 5 minute treatments (when he will stay still!)

The pendant

I did some succesful exercises with the pendant tonight - although I have realsied I need to be very clear in what I ask the pendant to do. I am getting the confidence to beleive the pendant WILL give me help if I ask in the right way.

I decided to use the pendant to ask about my chakra's Am I surprised at the answer that my third eye and crown chakra's need attention? Not really whihc means the result could be false because I expected that result. I might try asking about Tony's chakra's and see what answer I get

Pendant practise

I got good results yesterday with the pendant including finding the one red card mixed with 9 black ones. It did it at the first attempt! I tried prediting what time Richard would arrive and it didnt work - but to be honest prediction is a dicey business. I dont think I have the pendant to predict things, I think I have the pendant to discover things.

Last night I used the shuffle function to let the iPod pick my meditation track. It chose temple of dreams so my meditation saw my imagining Thomas taking me to temple of dreams on a cloud in the sky and I imagined all my dreams for my future using my abilities. I didnt get any answers or guidance - but maybe I need to be clear about what I really want to DO with my abilities before I can actually make progress. I need to know where I am going before I can start the journey.

Something to think about.

I asked for Thomas to try and enter my dreams. I have the idea that when I am asleep my logical side is shut down and I will be more receptive to hear my guides. I didnt get a message that I am aware of - but an old friend appeared in my dreams - Chris Hirsch who used to work for me years ago, As she is still a pharmacist and still working, and still living in the area it is not impossible I could run across her. I can't think why I should suddenly dream about her. It probably means nothing but I am recording it here 'just in case'

The psychic circle

I made it to the psychic circle today - and so apparently did Thomas! At least the man Allegra described as being with me sounded like Thomas.

It was a good experience. I had a tarot reading - and GAVE a tarot reading. Allegra did my reading and I did a reading for Sue - which she said was quite accurate.

I even picked up some stuff while Allegra was doing a normal reading for Arron.

My reading from Allegra was interesting - the past and present bit was accurate. the future bit was fascinating. Something good could happen at Xmas and it will take me about 6 months to properly develop. But I feel I got confirmation that I AM on the right path

Slow and steady

I still feel dispirited when nothing amazing happens. My meditations are still a bit .............static I think is the word. But I did have a tsrange woman wander into my gorunding meditation yesterday. I wondered if t was Tony's Sarah. I have asked him to ask her.

This morning I did the 5 card excercise with the pendant and it worked. That cheers me up. I am beggining to beleive I can use the pendant reliably. I have to assume when I am confident with it I willl be told clearly what I am supposed to do with it.

I did some self healing this morning. My main problem is my IBS so I concentrated on that then thought I would try and do something with my head to try and lift my mood. So I put one hand on my head. then I realised I was seeing red and decided that was a sign I needed to concentrate on my base chakra. So I moved back to lower abdomen. I ended up with tingling on the back of my hands - and having to shake stuff away through the window.

So practise is helping me and slow and steady is always the best way. I am confident I will have more 'wow' moments

I rang Allegra last night - and Tony seems amenable to the ide of going along on Saturday.