The logical scientist in me wants to right off a lot of the mystic things I read about crystals as nonsense. The psychic healer side of me wants to believe. The result is I have an open mind. Lat Tuesday I learned a few more things about crystals and was advised to keep my piece of malachite sparate. I have done so since then. This morning I decided I needed to cleanse my crystals - especially as I was given no indication I needed to carry any. So I put all my crystals except the malachitein a large glass bowl . The malachite was put in a lowly plastic container. I did CKR over both containers and then decided to reiki both containers one with each hand. To my amazement I got a very different buzz off the lowly plastic bowl with the malachite in. Almost the feeling I get when I am healing somone and am pulling stuff out which I need to shake off.
Hmmmmm food for thought
Friday, 6 August 2010
Wednesday, 4 August 2010
cards
I decided to use my Fairy deck and ask for a reading for the next couple of weeks. I just shuffled the deck and took the first 5 cards off the top. I got
Follow your dreams
Make music
Making new friends
Miracle healing
Higher consciousness.
HC has come out the last three times I have used the deck. Twice a single pick and now as part of what looks like a VERY optimistic reading.
Higher consciousness is a 'validation that my recent thoughts feelings dreams and aspirations are coming from spirit. '
New friends after last night is very hopeful.
Follow your dreams
Make music
Making new friends
Miracle healing
Higher consciousness.
HC has come out the last three times I have used the deck. Twice a single pick and now as part of what looks like a VERY optimistic reading.
Higher consciousness is a 'validation that my recent thoughts feelings dreams and aspirations are coming from spirit. '
New friends after last night is very hopeful.
another meditation
This morning I decided to do my recitation of the reiki principals and the lords prayer actually IN the meditation. I took myself to the safe glade and I 'heard' 5 of my guides recite one reiki principal each. Then I 'herad' them in unison recite the Lords Prayer. then I saw 'Christ' in the glade and I knelt at his feet as I made my intercessions. I saw light come out of his hands as I named the people I was pryaing for.
It was quite an experience.
I also did some more research on sodalite and discovered it is is supposed to be good for changing fixed ideas and mindsets so new ideas and mindsets can be adopted. Strange that I get a sodalite at a time I relise how my mindset needs altering
It was quite an experience.
I also did some more research on sodalite and discovered it is is supposed to be good for changing fixed ideas and mindsets so new ideas and mindsets can be adopted. Strange that I get a sodalite at a time I relise how my mindset needs altering
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
synchronous meditation
Last night we went to a workshop at a small business in Oldbury called 3 KIndred Spirits. It was a very god evening . We did a meditation, discussed crystals, discussed reiki and generally did all sorts of 'circle' type things. Coming so soon after Tony was told we needed to find or make a circle this is helpful.
During our meditations both Tony and I thought we were given something on a chain to go round our neck. Tony saw a celtic cross. I thought mine was a stone of some sort - but to be honest the only clear ting was the chain. That is the second time that we ave have shared ideas when we have meditated at the same time.
There is a good chance that Lisa - who organised last nights event - will decide to hold a monthly circle to which we will be invited.
Laura is also running a 6 week psychic develpment course/circle starting on October 11th. Although this is a MOnday and means the game will have to be re-arranged/put on hold we are going. Laura 'manages mediums and gets them out there' She is JUST what Tony needs I think.
I learned more about crystals yesterday both at the workshop and in some research I did during the day. I have learned tha bloodstone is my birthstone - and I ended up getting a piece of raw bloodstone. I also understand about my 'rock' crystal . It is a moonstone and signifies among other things new beginnings. I finally realise WHY Thomas gave me a rock when I first saw him. During the meditation last night I felt Thomas was pleased I had finally got the message.
I still have major problems tho. Lisa was trying to teach me to see aura's - and did partially succeed. She sat me in front of a mirror and said she wnated me to see myself as the beautiful person she saw me as. Of course that is NOT how I see myself at all.
I really don't know how to break through this barrier of poor self image and the inevitable lack of faith in myself that follows. If I don't my reiki will get nowhere. I am hoping that if the volunteering at the hospice works out and that I start giving reiki on a regular basis that will help me get over this hurdle.
Its all very well for me to say that I have no-one giving me positive feedback - that is still true and is a real part of the problem - but I shouldn't NEED anyone to give me positive feedback. I should be getting it from my thoughts and actions.
I still see myself as a fat unsuccessful lump. I have seen myself that way for most of my life. re-enforced by critical family, a violent and abusive ex, and an alcoholic ex, I have never really felt I was worth anything. Its strange that at a time when suddenly psychically things seem to be moving to some sort of major step forward, I am being forced to confront the issue that I was trying to resolve when I read CYLI7D - which was the book that got me started on this journey.
Something is going on - and I just hope is as pivotal as I would like it to be. I also hope I can understand and use whatever is going on. I am sure I am being given messages by who or whatever is 'out there' I hope I can receive the message they are trying to give.
During our meditations both Tony and I thought we were given something on a chain to go round our neck. Tony saw a celtic cross. I thought mine was a stone of some sort - but to be honest the only clear ting was the chain. That is the second time that we ave have shared ideas when we have meditated at the same time.
There is a good chance that Lisa - who organised last nights event - will decide to hold a monthly circle to which we will be invited.
Laura is also running a 6 week psychic develpment course/circle starting on October 11th. Although this is a MOnday and means the game will have to be re-arranged/put on hold we are going. Laura 'manages mediums and gets them out there' She is JUST what Tony needs I think.
I learned more about crystals yesterday both at the workshop and in some research I did during the day. I have learned tha bloodstone is my birthstone - and I ended up getting a piece of raw bloodstone. I also understand about my 'rock' crystal . It is a moonstone and signifies among other things new beginnings. I finally realise WHY Thomas gave me a rock when I first saw him. During the meditation last night I felt Thomas was pleased I had finally got the message.
I still have major problems tho. Lisa was trying to teach me to see aura's - and did partially succeed. She sat me in front of a mirror and said she wnated me to see myself as the beautiful person she saw me as. Of course that is NOT how I see myself at all.
I really don't know how to break through this barrier of poor self image and the inevitable lack of faith in myself that follows. If I don't my reiki will get nowhere. I am hoping that if the volunteering at the hospice works out and that I start giving reiki on a regular basis that will help me get over this hurdle.
Its all very well for me to say that I have no-one giving me positive feedback - that is still true and is a real part of the problem - but I shouldn't NEED anyone to give me positive feedback. I should be getting it from my thoughts and actions.
I still see myself as a fat unsuccessful lump. I have seen myself that way for most of my life. re-enforced by critical family, a violent and abusive ex, and an alcoholic ex, I have never really felt I was worth anything. Its strange that at a time when suddenly psychically things seem to be moving to some sort of major step forward, I am being forced to confront the issue that I was trying to resolve when I read CYLI7D - which was the book that got me started on this journey.
Something is going on - and I just hope is as pivotal as I would like it to be. I also hope I can understand and use whatever is going on. I am sure I am being given messages by who or whatever is 'out there' I hope I can receive the message they are trying to give.
Sunday, 1 August 2010
meditation link?
This morning I decided to meditate. I had just had a drink with Tony and left him in bed telling him I was going to meditate.
I debated about my intentions and toyed with the idea of either finding out more about Colin or my ascended master and finally just decided to set my intention as finding some inner peace.It took me some time to settle and I found myself thinking about reiki regulatory issues and then about pharmacy regulatory issues before I finally got grounded and found myself in the the Temple of Dreams. I could hear the clunk as the latch on the door behind me and could feel the coolness and stillness in the air as I walked towards the alter. Colin was there. I got the idea that my drifting thoughts before were relevant that I needed to think about those issues. The stained glass windows showed an egg on the left hand one, Jonas and Jenny in the central window and Ariel in the right hand window. I got the idea that I need to actively call on Ariel to help me.
I left to walk out and saw my ascended master waling towards me. I got the idea he will meet me where I am. I dont ave to go and find him.
I came out of the meditation soon after seeing him.
I went back inot Tony's room to find im just coming out of his OWN meditation. We ended almost at the same time. He had seen a tibetan monk that he had seen a couple of times before. This time he got a name (Master Chen) and he mentioned he thinks this is HIS ascended master. After I walked in he suddenly grabbed his notepad and started writing things - basically a load of runes/heiroglyphs that came through . It was weird seeing him so focussed and neither of us have any idea what the runes mean. But why would he write them if he hadn't 'seen' them?
We also ad an interesting discussion ( 3 way me him and his guides) about circles and joining or starting one. Gill and Darren got suggested. Also he got some frustration about Gill and Darren NOT doing what they should be doing with their gifts. I am not sure we can do anything about that - but we will try.
At one point Tony got a message to tell me to talk direct not through him. He thinks it came from Master Chen. I tried but couldn't
I am fascinated by so many things to do with this. But mainly why our meditations ended at the same time . I had no idea Tony was meditating and he had no idea when mine would end. Why did we both think we saw ascended masters?
What do the runes mean??? Can we find out?
I debated about my intentions and toyed with the idea of either finding out more about Colin or my ascended master and finally just decided to set my intention as finding some inner peace.It took me some time to settle and I found myself thinking about reiki regulatory issues and then about pharmacy regulatory issues before I finally got grounded and found myself in the the Temple of Dreams. I could hear the clunk as the latch on the door behind me and could feel the coolness and stillness in the air as I walked towards the alter. Colin was there. I got the idea that my drifting thoughts before were relevant that I needed to think about those issues. The stained glass windows showed an egg on the left hand one, Jonas and Jenny in the central window and Ariel in the right hand window. I got the idea that I need to actively call on Ariel to help me.
I left to walk out and saw my ascended master waling towards me. I got the idea he will meet me where I am. I dont ave to go and find him.
I came out of the meditation soon after seeing him.
I went back inot Tony's room to find im just coming out of his OWN meditation. We ended almost at the same time. He had seen a tibetan monk that he had seen a couple of times before. This time he got a name (Master Chen) and he mentioned he thinks this is HIS ascended master. After I walked in he suddenly grabbed his notepad and started writing things - basically a load of runes/heiroglyphs that came through . It was weird seeing him so focussed and neither of us have any idea what the runes mean. But why would he write them if he hadn't 'seen' them?
We also ad an interesting discussion ( 3 way me him and his guides) about circles and joining or starting one. Gill and Darren got suggested. Also he got some frustration about Gill and Darren NOT doing what they should be doing with their gifts. I am not sure we can do anything about that - but we will try.
At one point Tony got a message to tell me to talk direct not through him. He thinks it came from Master Chen. I tried but couldn't
I am fascinated by so many things to do with this. But mainly why our meditations ended at the same time . I had no idea Tony was meditating and he had no idea when mine would end. Why did we both think we saw ascended masters?
What do the runes mean??? Can we find out?
Tuesday, 27 July 2010
Meditation images
When I meditate I dont often get really vivif images. This is especially true when I am not uses a guided meditation track. Becasue I am having to guide' myself my brain is a bit too active . What seems to happen is I get ideas in my head that I then visualise. But the origina of the ideas is what worries me. Have they come from inside my head?
Last night I attempted to meditate for the first time in a few days. I went to my castle room (my choice??) For some reason I got the idea of a cloud of soot/dust being blown out as I opened the door. This could be an image of the spring cleaning I gave my mind the other weekend. I tried NOT to put a specific person in the room and instead as I walked in I tried to let my mind go and look around and see who if anyone was in there. The name Colin came into my head Tthis could be psychosomatic as I was t alking to someone at work today who was suspected of having an affair with someone called Colin at the last place we worked together. Initially I saw a man in a suit - very difficult to pin down what time period and I got the idea he was linked to Claire. then suddenly he was in a black suit a dog collar. Then the image of an egg came into my head. The curates egg????? I looked in the book and thought I saw a japanese symbol, At tat point I began to think I was getting delusions of granduer being shown one of the lost reiki symbols. As I can't now recall it if it was it is still lost. I looked out of the window into the garden and Dad was there gardening.
The unexpected images are the ones I believe come from outside me. Thats the dust, and the egg. I don't really think I have yet ANOTHER guide. I can't think of any reason why I would NEED another guide.
I did have some interesting waking visons tho - although these were before I went to sleep. It was mainly the normal colours I see when I close my eyes but it wasn't hard to make out the image of a bunch of roses.
Last night I attempted to meditate for the first time in a few days. I went to my castle room (my choice??) For some reason I got the idea of a cloud of soot/dust being blown out as I opened the door. This could be an image of the spring cleaning I gave my mind the other weekend. I tried NOT to put a specific person in the room and instead as I walked in I tried to let my mind go and look around and see who if anyone was in there. The name Colin came into my head Tthis could be psychosomatic as I was t alking to someone at work today who was suspected of having an affair with someone called Colin at the last place we worked together. Initially I saw a man in a suit - very difficult to pin down what time period and I got the idea he was linked to Claire. then suddenly he was in a black suit a dog collar. Then the image of an egg came into my head. The curates egg????? I looked in the book and thought I saw a japanese symbol, At tat point I began to think I was getting delusions of granduer being shown one of the lost reiki symbols. As I can't now recall it if it was it is still lost. I looked out of the window into the garden and Dad was there gardening.
The unexpected images are the ones I believe come from outside me. Thats the dust, and the egg. I don't really think I have yet ANOTHER guide. I can't think of any reason why I would NEED another guide.
I did have some interesting waking visons tho - although these were before I went to sleep. It was mainly the normal colours I see when I close my eyes but it wasn't hard to make out the image of a bunch of roses.
Tuesday, 20 July 2010
Paranormal psychology or coincidence
Any so called paranormal event can also be explained by psychology and/or coincidence. That is why events like the ghost sighting in York and the behaviour or the pendant at the workshop in Stourbridge are 'wow' moment. Psychology and coincidence can be ruled out. That does NOT mean I believe 'spirits' were involved - it means there is an explanation our science cannot explain that may or may not include beings/spirits from the 'afterlife'.
Recent events are not in that category - but they are still interesting. I have been carrying a bag or crystals - recommended by my pendant - since Sunday morning. Tony got the idea put into his head that I needed to carry them and sleep with them under my pillow for 3 nights. The choice of crystals surprised me because it included my Tigers eye which I thought of as just for protection. However the Crystal Bible told us it is also good for digestive system problems.
On Sunday I was tired, totally fed up and ad a flare op of my IBS that had started the previous week and it was making thoroughly miserable, I hadn't felt like exercising much, my food management was dire and to say I had 'negative self image issues' was putting it mildly.
This morning - after sleeping with and carrying those crystals for 3 days and nights - I have been able to do 20 minutes free step, and my IBS has resolved. In fact I felt more energetic yesterday because I had the energy to do some shopping in my lunch hour.
SOMETHING has worked. It could be the message from the pendant session on Sunday exerted a powerful effect on my mind. I suspect it is more psychology than paranormal or coincidence. But the fascinating thing is we have been given the chance to go and learn about crystals at a local 'new age' shop in August. Again it could be coincidence - but it does feel as if something or someone is trying to make sure I know just what crystals can do.
Recent events are not in that category - but they are still interesting. I have been carrying a bag or crystals - recommended by my pendant - since Sunday morning. Tony got the idea put into his head that I needed to carry them and sleep with them under my pillow for 3 nights. The choice of crystals surprised me because it included my Tigers eye which I thought of as just for protection. However the Crystal Bible told us it is also good for digestive system problems.
On Sunday I was tired, totally fed up and ad a flare op of my IBS that had started the previous week and it was making thoroughly miserable, I hadn't felt like exercising much, my food management was dire and to say I had 'negative self image issues' was putting it mildly.
This morning - after sleeping with and carrying those crystals for 3 days and nights - I have been able to do 20 minutes free step, and my IBS has resolved. In fact I felt more energetic yesterday because I had the energy to do some shopping in my lunch hour.
SOMETHING has worked. It could be the message from the pendant session on Sunday exerted a powerful effect on my mind. I suspect it is more psychology than paranormal or coincidence. But the fascinating thing is we have been given the chance to go and learn about crystals at a local 'new age' shop in August. Again it could be coincidence - but it does feel as if something or someone is trying to make sure I know just what crystals can do.
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