Reiki level 3 - day one

Today was absolutely amazing. It started with a discussion of brain waves - alpha theta and delta and where I am when I work. I should be working in theta - but am mainly in alpha - at the moment. I am sure that will change.

Sue then led me in a guided meditation to help me feel and expand my energy and an exploration of why I find it hard to hard to open up. I expanded my energy by visualising my heart chakra I saw it as spinning pink.Sue asked me to expand my energy and I saw that as a shaft of green light coming out of the centre and filling the room. I thensaw energy coming in from my crown chakra and the green became flecked with white, gold and purple I really could feel the atmosphere almost crackling

I then explored various things by seeing my heart chakra as a pick rosebud. I had to explore why it wasn't open - and it got quite emotional as my relationship with Mum and Dad, my issues over my weight and even the hurt inflicted by Alan all surfaced. I had gestalt conversations (and spirit communication?) with Mum and Dad. I saw the rose as open - but this time it was yellow - and I remembered the masquerade roses dad had in the front garden.

I linked the yellow with the solar plexus chakra and got told that all my chakra's work to balance each other and support each other. I briefly visualised my throat chakra as a blur flecked crystal.


When Sue told me to come back to the room I had to count myself back - just as I would count back when bringing a client out of trance. I realise now that I was guided to learn about hypnotherapy so I could actually understand about depth of trance and brain waves and utilise them to good advantage.

We alos discussed the responsibilities of a reiki practitoner - and tomorrow I know we will discuss the repsonsibilities of a master teacher.

I learned a new symbol DKM which gives soul/spiritual healing. Having learned it and what it does,. Sue then got me to give a treatment to one of her friends (Jo) using the symbol -even tho I had not at that been attuned. The treatment went OK - but when I used DKM I really felt the power - and almost felt sick- and did feel quite wobbly. Jo said she felt very light - if hot' after the treatment. I really chanel heat!!

After the tretament Sue then did the attunement. Before she started Sue said there were other people there - and said Sandy wanted to be recognised.

I closed my eyes and relaxed and felt someone was in front of me - but Sue was behind me. Someone touched my left arm, I felt breath on my face when Sue was behind me, and I got this horrible pain in my right arm just below the shoulder. When the attunement was finished, Sue told me take time to meet new guides, and I got this picture of Sandy as a grizzled highlander with shaggy red hair, a shaggy red berard wearing a kilt. I got the ide that he was putting the pain in my arm becasue he had a sword injury in his arm. I asked him ot take it off me - and he did. I need to learn who he is and what he does

Eli was also around for the first time in a LONG time. Sue described him very well. I always felt he was my guide for mediumship - and there is no doubt this attunement has opened me up and will improve my medium abilities.

Tomorrow I will learn how to attune then practice on Sam (Sue's dog) and then on Jo.

I feel tired, have one hell of a headache but am also exited by events and really looking forward to tomorrow

The pamper party on Saturday went really well. No-one wanted reiki but Sarah had said she thought only 3 or 4 people would want oracle readings. In the end Tony and I were working for two and half hours solid. I think everyone had a reading and one girl had one from each of us. As well as being profitable financially it taught us both a lesson. We were both exhausted afterwards. I was better because I am used to working with spirit. Tony isn't.

He has now realised he needs to give more time to things like meditation, protection and grounding.

Sarah was pleased with how things went and she will be contacting me later this week about using her room at the salon to give reiki and a more permanent link with her businesses. I would say its coincidence how all this is happening now - except I know it isn't

Today is the first day of my reiki level 3. I am nervous. So I decided to ask Raphael for some advice. The card I got was 'have faith' That is a good message on so many levels. I need to have faith in myself, faith in my reiki and faith the Raphael will be with me helping me today

We went to The Witch last night. Apart from feeling as if someone poked me in the back, nothing much happened for me. Tony had an interesting time tho. He ended up chanelling someone and getting loads of information that can be checked up on. On the way home e discussed the possibility that none of it was correct - and why that would be. I guess last night had me thinking about what 'spirit' is. Certainly my sceptical side was well to the fore.

I did give some reiki last night as well. One of the guests has sever osteoarthritis in her right knee. Tracy ( who has trained with Sue) tried giving some reiki into the knee and said it wouldn't go in. I decided to help her and the energy flow was nil - until I did CKR over her knee and drew the symbol several times. THEN I could feel something going in. She has been told she needs knee replacement and I am guessing thats why the energy wouldn't in at first. Repair isn't possible and thats what reiki mainly does.

I am using the blog as meditation tool this morning. I feel very unfocussed. I am not sure what to do. I am having hair extensions put in today and I am not sure if it os going to be a disastrous waste of 40,00, or a huge boost to my self esteem that will enable me to move forward with the changes I think I need to make.

My self esteem DOES need a boost. I always feel a bit down after an evening when everyone else has 'seen' and heard' things from spirit, and I feel blind and deaf. Reminding myself we all have out different talents doesn't help. Part of me WANTS to give a message from a departed loved one to someone who really needs to hear it. Part of me feels that the healing I do is nowhere near as glamorous as traditional mediumship. Why does that matter?

Is it because I feel I am settling for second best? as if that is all I DESERVE to be able to do? Its certainly typical of my thinking. Thats why I settled for such bad relationships in the past. And to be honest there is still part of my that feels I don't deserve Tony - but now I also know he is lucky to have me - something I can never remember feeling in my other relationships.

So I do recognise I have a lot to offer. So is my frustration born of envy, or because I am not fulfilling my full potential. Will doing my level three help unlock my potential? Probably not. The only person who can expand my potential is me by practicing.

But I do need to be sure I am practicing the right things. So I need to ask spirit what my next move should be for development.

I used my Angel guidance deck and pulled 5 cards. I am not sure what the message is. I got

Ground yourself - always good advice
Giving and receiving - I do find it difficult to receive.
Play - maybe as sign I need to relax a bit about it all. Don;t over think things as Sue would say
Perfect timing - so it is the right time for reiki three and the other changes I need to make
Be honest with yourself. I want to have more mediumship ability - so I need to practice.

I woke up feeling rather cr@p this morning. I have not been sleeping well lately (due to too high thyroxine levels - my dose has been reduced) do I am tired. I ache, and I have a horrendous headache. Also overnight I had a bout of my' almost but not quite cystitis' I think (maybe wrongly) that dehydration could be a factor in the cystits and the headache. So I found myself thinking about having a detox day .

I decided to use my Raphael deck and asked what I should do to get myself into the best of health.

The answer was Diet is important here, Laughter is the best medicine and Exercise is the key. I was sort of expecting to get the Detoxification card.

I decided to use my Fairy deck for clarification and got Beauty, Trust your intuition, and Visualization.

OK so what do I take from that. I DO need to drink more water but my intention was JUST to drink today and that clearly is bad. I need to eat a good diet, I need to visualise myself healthy - and see my beauty . And I also need to stop taking things so seriously and have some fun. All good health advice - and it placing the responsibility firmly on my shoulders to make the right choices.

We are going to The Witch tonight for the first time on ages. I think it could be a good evening.

I had an amzing experience at the hospice today. I only had one patient, and contrary to usual I hadn't read her notes before I treated her. This was because Jean and I had to tout for patients today. Jean took verbal consent, then left to do the paperwork while I got on with treatment.

She was obviously quite poorly and I felt 20 minutes would be as much as she could take. The only problem she mentioned to me was her stomach which was very distended and she said she needed her stoma to start working. When I was working on her stomach I kept my hands moving - sort of massaging her with reiki. I felt a lot of energy going into her legs which I didnt understand. And I also felt I needed to 'massage' her legs with reiki (something I have never done before) In the back of my mind I got the idea of keeping the blood in her legs moving. I know she is at risk of DVT due to immobility and underlying disease - and I thought that was what I was dealing with.

At the end of the session her first comment was that her feet felt warm for the first time in a long term. I later found out she has Raynauds disease. I should add from the gurgling noises we heard during treatment her stoma was starting to work

Yesterday was really interesting. I was seeing a friend to do some life coaching. I decided to do a reading for him using Ask Your Guides before he turned up. I wanted to see if I get some kind of idea about what he needed to concentrate on. I did - but I didn't realise it until we were well into the session. Then later he asked for a tarot reading and that built nicely on the session.

I didnt do any self healing yesterday. I must do some today.

My meditation today was interesting. I had intended to meditate on what compassion is. But I ended up doing protection and grounding mainly. I was very aware of energy and my chakra's. I felt I had too much energy and needed to ground.

When I grounded I saw Jenny and she put the purple cloak around my shoulders again. Not sure what it meant though.