I have been away on holiday - and to be honest a bit too bust to do much blogging here but I must record yesterdays interesting meditation. It was my first for over a week. I decided to ask for a card to mediate on and got the 7 of cups - a card I know well. But for some reason my attention was drawn to the hooded figure in the centre and I realised I didn't know what or who that was. I checked the book and found it was my true self. So I decided to go to my cottage to ask to see my true self. I entered and saw a full length mirror covered in a sheet held by Thomas and Jenny. When they dropped it I saw me in jeans a jumper looking very ordinary - but slimmer. And I realised that I have find my true self. I am me, as I am , as I am meant to be with no need to apologise to anyone for who or what I am. I have found my true self with this mix f skills and talents and work. I am me and have no need to apologise to anyone for what I am. I now also realise this means I can stop being defensive with people who I may think are critical - probably on very little evidence. I can be happy in my own skin And I have just looked bacj through my blog. Check out my entry on 13/1/12...............

A lot has happened that I haven't recorded - but I want to record it as one entry with a beginning middle and end - and I don;t have the end yet. I hope to later if Tony has done the reading I asked for. In the meantime in a totally unrelated event (I think) I had one of my waking dreams. Why should I see a pair of eyes looking at me overlaid by japanese symbols?

There is something odd going on. I have been thinking a lot about my options to develop my side of of the business. I have even asked to be given a sign as to how I should take it forwards and whether I am meant to work up at the salon. Something made me pick a card form my Archangel Michael deck and go the card 'Options' The wording on the card is all about being thankful for and focussing on options available. So I decided to pull a tarot card and got 7 of cups - the daydream card which is all about options and choices. When two cards have the same message in that way there is clearly a message - but I don't understand it. So I decided to visit Thomas in the cottage. It was all green and ready for spring. Is that a sign everything will become clear in the spring?

its been a frustrating day today. I was up at the salon to promote my reiki up there. I did one 3 minutes demo on the juior. But interestingly the moment I started she said she could feel heat in her neck. It turns out she had a neck injury when she was a child. So reiki went where it was needed. the later I did a treatment on Anne one of my hospice patients. We alos had a remarkable conversation where she basically checked that I would be prepared to treat up right up to the end. To say I felt humbled is putting it mildly. I asked this morning for a sign that I am supposed to be working up at the salon - and if not then please could I have some hint about where I should be working or what I should be doing. I do feel I have had my role in reiki conformed today

Happy New Year

I feel guilty I haven't posted in this blog for a bit - but I have been doing some spiritual work. I did a meditation this morning. I picked the 7 of Pentacles and meditated on it. I went inside the figure on the card and felt that he was confident , comfortable in his own skin, and free to choose whatever he wanted. Work was hell today - and as I walked home I wondered if the card was a sign I may to hve to choose whether to stay working regularly as a pharmacist or not

I haven't done any serious spiritual work for a few days. Although I did do a wonderful meditation On Wednesday or Thursday when I saw Thomas in the cottage. It was decorated for Christmas with a HUGE old fashioned tree. I got the clear message tat Christmas is a time of renewal and I needed to relax and enjoy myself. And I have done. Iwas very chilled on Christmas eve and Christmas day. I didn't stress about the preparations, and the dinner was a triumph with nothing forgotten or burned. This morning I have meditated and tried to a reading about Steve's job prospects. the cards I got were fascinating 6 of swords, 3 of swords, 3 of wands, 9 of swords and King of wands. the feeling I got was that he is in for a rocky ride but things will work out in the end. And I got the number 9. Now there are 4 ways of making the number nine from the cards I got . I was wondering if 9 meant 9 weeks or 9 months before he got a job. If it is a time its 9 months. (4 ways of making 9 = number of weeks in a month) Now that could be about right if the teaching assistant thing is going to work out. But I think he is going to need some support for the next few months as he will either have no job - or unsatisfying jobs. I picked a card for me from Michael - and got explore your options. I meditated and saw the cottage with Thomas, jenny Jonas and Eli. I got the idea of the CKR symbol trying all my possible options together - and got the message the key my spiritual development.

Fire

I have had a lot of fiery images recently. All the wands in Moira's reading. The image of a burnt out landscape with new growth, and this morning I had one of my waking visions. I saw the same image three times, A baby being held by a stylized phoemix. I think all the fire is positive - but it does imply sudden and maybe painful change. But getting that image today is interesting. Steve has an interview today - and this morning Tony has his test reading for 886. I did a pick from my Michael deck and one card fell out. It was all about staying positive and the power of positive thought. I know I can tend to be negative. Today I am going to be as positive as I can be. Whatver the outcome of todays events I am sure great things are in store for our family