The road to hell is paved with good intentions

I was full of good intentions. I always am . I haven't kept up with my work with David Wells book. I haven't been that regular with meditating. But as ever full of good intentions I am determined to rectify that.This entry is to make it public that I intend to rectify it. But also its to write down the events of the last few days - last night especially. We have a new member of our circle. Out of the blue I got contacted by someone who wanted to know if I knew of a reiki share group in the area - or would be interested in starting one. We met and she was interested in our circle so Denise came along last night. I also have my first reiki student booked for teaching. She is coming next Friday 17th. Now the lst chapter of David's book I read was about Yesod and the moon. One of the tasks was to look at a moon calendar. Would you believe Friday 17th August is the first day of the new moon? That does feel significant somehow. OK onto circle last night. Basically Sallie seemed to be talking to Edna. And we discussed why Edna would talk her HER rather than to me or Tony. Then last night I had a bizarre dream. Edna had died but no-one told us. Alma was saying that she wanted it that way. I was also aware they were working to the wrong will. They had the old will the one written before Alan died. I went into her room and I tidied her bed up. Then I fond myself on the phone and I could hear Edna saying \Who made my bed' and all I could think was ' She is communicating with me' Was it just triggered by yesterdays events - or was there REALLY sone spirit communication going on? I have no idea.

O wow..............

My studies of the Tree of life have been rather interrupted by pharmacy work - and driving. I have done a couple of chapters - but I haven't always had internet access so I recorded them off line. However this entry isn't really part of that. I have been wondering for about a week now about whether I should come off the register of the GPhC. My feeling is I don't do that much pharmacy work any more and it is debatable whether its worth the money for the registration. I also feel that I will make more progress with my spiritual work if I no longer depend on my pharmacy work. I decided I needed to meditate about it. I saw myself going to my castle room. I walked up the spiral staircase - and counted the steps. Normally its ten. Today it was 15 - and I got the idea I needed to check what no 15 of the major arcana is. And I thought 'wouldn't it be aodd if it was 'The Devil' which is all about repression. I then took only 8 steps instead of ten to get to the door. I decided to check what the 8th card was as well. On opening the door it was totally black. I wasn't afraid - just puzzled. Then I saw a light and eventually realised it was Thomas holding a railway lantern. Then I got the clear message its not my pharmacy work holding me back - but me holding me back. I also got the idea that somehow HSZSN relates to the Tree of Life. Anyway I came down to make this entry and of course checked to see what numbers 8 and 15 are in the major arcane. 8 is Justice ........but the wow is that 15 IS the Devil. This so fits with the idea that I am holding myself back. I am not sure why the room was dark - but in typing this I am wondering if the darkness symbolises my inability to see things clearly. This was a surprising meditation full of unexpected things - the sort that I feel was genuinely meaningful.

The Tree of Life

Todays task from the book was to start drawing the tree of life....... whihc I have now done. All I have put in is the Sephiroth. But amazingly following the instructions and reading what David said about each of them it actually started to make sense. Kether is where the idea starts. So when was my idea started? I guess when I had my first reiki attunement Chokmah charges it with creativity thats when I was doing my hypnotherapy training and trying to volunteer at the hospice Binah gives it form . That probably happened when I started at the hopsice Chesed excitement builds, ideas flow opportunities exist - that probably described where I am now. Geburah - anything unnecessary is removed. So what do I need to remove to move on to Geburah? Tiphareth - balance and the true beauty of the idea shine Netzach invest your feelings into it ....but I have already done that....haven't I? Maybe I haven't Hod - brand and create the image Yesod learn from the past Malkuth - bring it to fruition and land it on earth. Do I need to let go of pharmacy completely to make progress? That thought just came into my head. And it won't be long before the renwal arrives from the GPhC for me to pay to stay on the register next year. I really need to think about this - meditate on it.

Day 1 of using David Wells Book

Well its reall day 2 because I read chapter 1 yesterday but didn't make an entry. As from now I WILL make an entry a day. His first instruction is to start the journal with an affirmation of what you want. I AM an holistic therapist and psychic reader using my abilities and skills to help others develop to their fullest potential. I have used my knowledge of Q and the tree of life to gain a deeper understanding of the universe that I can then help others to understand. Thats a pretty amazing thing I want. Am I sure thats for me? Yes I am. Last night I did the exercise about healing the events of the day, so now on to day 2 Firs thing my daily Tarot card pick The Magician. That made me smile. How apt The magician with his plethora of options. But with that touch of magic that helps you know this is the right thing. The objectt that stands out most to me from his table is the wand....fiery creativity is a good omen for the next few days with this book

Wow so where do I go from here?

OK it has been AGES since I posted here. I have been focussing on other things --- sort of. I have been too busy with other bloggy type things. But this blog is being re-activated now. I have just had my final reiki teacher attunement I have joined channel 886 as part of their option 0 team I have actually started WRITING my proposed book' From scientist to psychic' I am just starting to read a David Wells book 21 days to understand the Tree of Life And that is why I have re-activated this journal I quick scan through has shown me Mr Wells asks us to keep a journal - and this is the easiest way to do that So watch this space for more entries in future........

Circle

Circle last night was amazing. We had a new member - a friend of Sallie's - who I hope will come along again as I feel she needs the support circle can give. Amber did some psychic art. Tony did some mediumship, and I did my job of pulling it all together. This morning I have just given some distance reiki, and am meant to be receiving some in return - but actually cannot feel anything at the moment. But when I was sending I could feel my third eye chakra throbbing. That doesn't normally happen and I don't understand it. Did he send at the same time as me?

I decided to meditate today and randomly picked an untitled one by David Wells. It was one about dealing with your inner bully. I need to do it again when I can focus more than I could today but at one point you confront your inner bully. I realised my bully was overweight while I was slim. I have no idea yet what this means - but I am sure it is something I need to explore