Psychic Detectives

I joined this social netwroking gorup some days ago at the invitation of Carolyn. The main reason for the site is as the name implies for psychics to try to solve cases like Madeline McCann's disappearance. But it also has other groups on it for those like me who want to develop their abilities.

A specific forum for development ahs opened and one of the psotings acualy suggests keeping a journal like this. it aso suggests thinking very hard about why you want to develop a psychic ability , and what you would do with it.

Well I dont want to become a medium thats for sure. I dont see hear or sense spirit thank you very much. I dont ever expect to - but I have decided I need to keep an open mind. I will develop the abilities I need to do whatever it is the universe wants me to do. I am convinced I am being called along this path - I just can't see the end yet.

Maybe blogging and asking a few questions will help me see a litlle further.

This all started with CYLI7D. That was when I regained my spiritual side. One of the things I realsied I really enjoyed doing ("What would yu pay to do?') is helping people and counselling them. I do derive great satisfaction from that And I really would have loved to be a prrscriber and 'cure' people. So what skills do I need to do that.

Listening and understanding, wisdom and healing.

Empathy? telepathy? a certain amount of prediction? Divination?

I told Jeanagh I was thinking of taking reiki training and her immediate repsonse was very positive that I NEEDED it to enhance what I am already doing. She felt it fitted perfectly .

I would feel so humbled if I became a healer of any sort. But what would I do with the skill? Would I set myself up as reiki healer? I'd like to do something that combined both my conventional and unconventianl knowledge and skills. There must be a way to combine them.

I must arrange some training with Sue. I have got to see if I can do it.

In the meantime all I can do is use a dowsing crystal - which o the face of it seems useless. But it is an indication that I can tap into the universal power- therefore if I practoce tapping in, I will probably learn to do other things with it.


Maybe I can use the cystal to help me answer some of these questions?

Faith

I think the one lesson I have learned in the 3 years since this journey started is to have faith that things happen the way they are meant to. And if something feels right it probably is. So as well as needing to have faith in God, I need to have faith in my instincts.

I worried a little aboutt taking retirement - but it has worked out OK.

I asked Sue about Reiki training yesterday. She has answered and I have decided to have some training although I am unsure if I would ever be in a positon to use the training, and if I am honest I am unsure if I really beleive in reiki. Like a lot of complementary therapies there is no clear evidence it works.

Today this is waht comes into my inbox from Sparkpeople

Trying new things can give you a real zest for life. Pushing beyond your comfort zone in a responsible way helps you grow confidence and creativity that you can apply to your everyday life. Do not let fear control what you do (or don't) do? While taking risks can be scary, doing nothing is a big mistake, as it produces nothing fruitful within you. There is a direct relationship between the things that we achieve and the effort we put forth to obtain them. To reach the fruit, you have to climb the tree first!

QED

Grounding

I sta in the car before I went into work and did the grounding meditation. Then at lunchtime I read the notes Beth gave me and realised she suggested doing it every day. So my insticnts were right. And I feel it help

I also feel I need to gorund myself before every visit to Edna. Ia m sure that can't be harmful.

I found my Amethyst pendant this morning so I am wearing it

Do I really beleive I need to wash it and my earrings in cold water to recharge them? Tat was what Sue suggested. I'm positive I don't - but I probably will do it 'just in case'

I'm still looking for ways to use my dowsing crystal

Preparing for the home visit

Edna had a home visit today to see what help she will need when she is discharged. I felt I needed to be at my intuitive best to cope with the meeting. So I went through the grounding excercise and meditated using the images Beth used on Sunday - the lane with the gate and the meadow. Penny was in the meadow - and this time I saw and picked a purple flower - which I put in a vase. I got the impression it was a gift for Edna .

It was interesting that during the meditation I noticed my hands and feet tingling - sort of pins and needles.

On the way to Edmna's flat I nearly moved the car off ignoring another a car that was about to turn. But I somehow knew it wasn't going to mive ina direction that would interfere with my driving - and I was right.

When I got to Edna's flat I dowsed the flat to pinpoint anything I needed to point out to the OT's or social worker. It highlighted one object only - her pusher with a seat that she had pushed into the wardrobe. It turns out that as she will be having a commode, that needs to be removed from her flat.

I felt much more alert after the meeting than I normally do after a meeting with Edna. And I didn't feel so stressed out I had a massive choclate craving, So somethign worked.

I am still tempted to de-mistify all this and look at the psychological aspects of it. The meditation relaxed me , put me in the right frame of mind, made me more confident etc. But the psycholoigcal aspect does not invaidate the mystical aspect,

A magical day

Yesterday I went on a psychic development course. It was awesome.

I arrived about 10.15 and fonally found the place (well hidden!) and found there were only going to be two students - me and a healer called Sue wo had been to training with Marcus and Beth before.

Beth ran the day and staryed off y going through a few basics from the handbook.

Then Beth led us ina guided meditation to find our spirit guides among other things. In our visualisation we had to pick a flower (daisy) and a crystal of a particular colour (purple) enter a room where we would meet our spirit guide , and receive a gidt from our guide. The person I saw was my ghost from york - and from somewhere I got the name Jenny. My gift was a purple velvet cloak. The purple coak was a symbol I pulled from Soraya's book from her chakra opening routine. The cloak is for protection. The prupel crystal was amethyst - which when I looked it up is for prtoection. I started to see a theme emerging especially as Linda on Psychic detectives suggested I needed protection from 'psuchic vampires' in my agony aunt role.

During the discussion after the meditation I told Beth how I had previosuly saeen Penny as my guide, and how I tried to psychically send Penny to Steve amnd then Edna when I was worried about them.

We tried sending each other pictures, psychometry and doing readings for each other. No total failures - but no spetacular sucesses either.

but the high point was the cystal dowsing

Beth had hidden an object in a box the night before the course. She said whoever found it could keep it. As soon as she said she had hidden soemthign I thoguht it was in the corner at the top right of the room.

Beth put three crystal pendants on the table. I went straight for one of them and without thinking started rubbing it with my hands. Beth immediately said that was the correct thing to do to attune it to me. I didnt know that - I was just acting on instinct. We then asked the cystals to show us yes (clockwise) no (anticlockwise) and neutral (side to side)

We then dowesed on maps we had drown of the room and both Sue and I got postive responses from the top right and bottom right corners.

The we had to dowse the room. I started at the left walked half way up the room getting nothing. Then Beth said we needed to dowse at different levels so I oimmediately lowered the crystal - and it went crazy rotating clockwise for yes. Bet told me to check - and I found a box hidden under a toy tiger. Inside the box was a pin brooch - of a gaurdian angel dog. Bet said she had asked the spirits last night what object se shoudl hid eand had no idea why they suggested the brooch. But as soon as I told me story about tryig to use Penny she knew why - and knew who was going to find the object. Sue said it was clearly meant for me.

I was totally blown away by that. I urchased the crystal - it was clearly meant to be mine.

So I do have a talent - the trouble is I can't see how to use it in relation to increasing my empathy.

But I learned so much. I relaised I have been playing and that I need to take this much more seriosuly. I need to meditate and I now relaise I MUST develop protection . i think that is the message I needed to hear.

I know have a base on which to build and develop. I am so sure I am on the right path with this. I am confident I will be shown the next step to take very clearly

A premonition

I am worried about Edna. I have a feeling she is abut to develop an acute problem that is going to lead to a crisis.

I have the feeling that all the chatter and cheerfulness are a front. Today or yesterday we discussed crying and she said she can't be bothered with crying. When I said it could be helpful to let the emotion out she dismissed the idea. I think she is depressed ...........very depressed.

When she was chasing me out of the hospital today she actually made some comment about her not going to die. That is very out of character for her. I am wondering why she made that remark.

If I am right about the depression, she won't have the will to fight ansy illness - so a crisis now could be life threatening for her.

I am almost sure this is just me being pessimistic - but I will record it here - and hope I am wrong

Cakes

Yesterday Edna asked me to get her something 'yummy' when I went shopping. I didnt have a clue what to buy her but was limited by the fact that it had to be finger food rather than needing a spoon to eat it.

Apart from knowing she doesn't chocolate cakes I wasn't sure what she would like. So in the middle of the supermarket I tried to tune in and asked Doug (her late husband) for some inspiration. I picked a packet of Frangipan cakes, and from her reaction today I think I picked well.

I have NO idea if she meant it when she said she liked them (she does have dementia after all) but from her reaction I think she did.