Day 6

This morning if it could wrong it did. As a result I was grumpy and a bit bit rushed when I did my self healing. Not much to my surprise I don't have anything much to report. Didn't see feel or experience much. Being honest I found it difficult to focus. My mind kept wandering.

But I DID it and I feel a bit calmer so I am sure it has helped.

But there is a big lesson in this for me - and I have learned it. I didn't stick to me plan to give meditation and reiki priority in the mornings. I MUST do that for the rest of the 21 days AT LEAST.

Day 5

A good meditation / self healing session. I made a blind pick of my chakra crystals again and this time picked the sacral crystal. Interesting as my main problems at the moment are physically in the area of the sacrum (my back and a touch of IBS)

My legs felt really full of energy again - the way they did when I was going the chakra opening exercise with Sue.

I saw little tiny of flashes of purple at times during the session.

Nothing much to report

Yesterday as I was approaching my car to go home after work I saw what I am almost certain was an optical illusion that focussed my attention on something ion the car that from that distance looked like a cigarette. But for a moment I could ave sworn there was a man sitting in the driving seat of my car smoking. I am 99% convinced it was an illusion and I was matrixing to 'see' the man - but I am not sure. I hav made that approach before without that happening and I would not be expecting to see anyone in my car. Matrixing normally happens when you make something random fit into what you are expecting/hoping to see.

Day 4

Today is the first day of my new 'back to work' regime. I have decided to ive meditation my priority in the mornings - and do my self healing in the mornings too. It means I have to do more of my exercises after work rather then before - but as long as I fit it all in it doesn't matter.

My meditation and self healing went well. My routine is to recite the reiki principles, then the Lord's prayer. then I ground and then I do the self healing.

As I have acquired chakra crystals I have also decided to use crystals in the self healing. Today I felt drawn to the solar plexus crystal.

I really felt energy going into my legs. It could be me 'earthing' myself - but I now wonder if it is keeping my legs fit for all this training and for the Race for Life? Nice thought

I started off with my hands on forehead and the back of the neck, but I ended up with my hands over the solar plexus chakra and with my hands in that position I started to see purple again. The purple seems to an affirmation that I have got it right. So I tink what I was being told was that in self healing unless I have a specific issue I just need to keep my hands on the solar plexus chakra. It is easy enough to visualise reiki going in the middle and spreading out up and down through the chakra's.

I finished my self healing feeling both hungry and thirsty. This was a major help as I hadn't really been hungry before but didnt want to eat when I wasn't hungry simply to make sure I could get through until lunchtime. The reiki sorted that problem out for me!!

My tarot pick today was the Ace of Pentacles. Yesterday Tony drew a random unicorn card and got 'unexpected gift' I wonder if the two could be linked?

Day 3

This morning I did a very structured meditation/prayer session. I went through the reiki principles, said the Lords prayer and then prayed for specific people. One of the people I prayed for was the young boy who has been kidnapped in pakistan. As I prayed for him I remembered how I had tried to send Penny to him - but decided she couldn't find him to help him. As I thought about where he was I got a picture in my mind of a very generic asian street - and a man dressed in black asian costume - with a scarf wound round his face. he was carrying a gun. He looked like a generic taliban fighter I guess. I have no idea of this was me imagining or me responding to something. There is no hint the taliban is involved in any way with this kidnapping.

But I can't get that image out of my head. It was VERY clear and VERY unexpected.

Having prayed I grounded -but this time in my 'safe glade' I also made a point of visualising all my guides giving me all the gifts. I realised that the sword I have visualised - because Beth used it in her grounding meditation - is a gift from Claire -who I beleive is my gatekeeper.

The actual self healing went OK. I got the feeling I was pulling reiki up from the ground although I normally visualise it as white light coming in trough my crown chakra. I got the thought that I needed some earthiness to balance my basic wateryness. (I am a pisces after all)

I am thinking of sending myself reiki ahead to help me cope at work tomorrow. I have the feeling tomorrow could be an emotional day.

Day 2 self healing

I have decided to do my self healing in the mornings when I am less tired. This means I may have to re-arrange my morning routine to allow the 30 minutes I need but this is important.

This morning I did a combined meditation and self healing. I tried to find out more about Claire - and this time I saw her in 1940's uniform and got the impression she was in the RAF. I saw her petting Penny - and I think she may look after Penny - or may have had a dog herself.

The Jonas came and took me to the castle - and I got the feeling that is where I need to be to do my self healing.

I saw purple during the session - and green. I also omm'd to open up my crown and third eye's chakra's before beginning the session. I actively tried to concentrate on what I was feeling in my chakra's during the session.

I got the feeling my heart chakra is blocked - so I used my green crystal during the healing - at one point focussing reiki through the crystal. I am alos carrying the green crystal with me to attune it to me.

Separate to the self healing I have received confirmation that I need to study Kabala, and probably numerology as well.

I have also had an insight into an experience I had during one of my first reiki sessions on one of my friends. I saw total black when I put my hands on the friends head during the session. Since black is the absence of any colour - I am wondering if his chakra's were all blocked. After the session he experienced a number of major improvements in his life - and is now a confirmed reiki fan. I am wondering if I helped to unblock his chakra's.

I need to pracice sensing and balancing my chakra's

21 days of self healing again. Day 1

I had my second attunment today and it was a very interesting and moving day. Before I went today something told me it could get emotional - so I decided to try and send some reiki to the future (I set it for when I was being attuned I thought) to support me if I DID get emotional. And it did - but not during the attunement.

Sue took me through a couple of exercise to open my chakra's. The first one was just an exercise to help me feel them one by one. Then she played a guided meditation that uses sounds to open up the chakra's - then having opened them it took us to a 'serene place' to meet your spirit. In the final section the one word that came into my mind was 'love' and I realised my spirit guides were my guides because they love me and I am lovable. This was quite emotional. At the same time I started seeing vivid purple. It was when I was talking to Sue afterwards that I realised the reiki I had sent earlier in the day had kicked in. So although I felt emotional - I didnt actually cry.

The actualy attunement was almost ordinary. I didnt see or sense anyhting that made me go wow. But I had my 'wow' moment earlier during the meditation.

I approached today in a mood of 'can do' not 'Can I do it' I have realised I need to trsut spirit. They are with me and they will help me. I just relxed and didn't over think - and didnt try too hard. And it all went like a dream

I have done my first self healing session. I saw some amzing colours. For the first time ever I saw a brilliant bluey green colour. And towards the end of the session I again saw purple.

I started the session feeling very tired. In fact I deliberately did it early because I knew I would be too tired to do it properly if I did it when I went to bed. However I now feel much more energetic.

Reiki level two

Today I will be getting my seconf level reiki attunement. I am looking forward to it and wondering what surprises it will spring on me.

Last time Sue told me several times to stop trying so hard, not to overthink things, to just let it happen. I have realised that is advice I need in the rest of my life as well. I have realised because I always start out with the expectation of failure, I put a lot of effort into everything - work relationships, studying, meditation - and it doesn't always help.

This is an interesting insight because one of the common threads running through everything I have read - inlcduing Paul McKenna is the phrase ' know thyself' So much of what David Wells said in his book matched things Paul McKenna told me in his! And the Qabala is based on 'know thyself. I do feel I am being pulled to study it.


I do feel the insight I have gained about why I put so much effort into everything is a fascinating breakthrough i some ways. I feel I have learned something very important about myself. Now all I need to do is act on it - starting with todays session with Sue


On a separate note Tony has come up with some really fascinating stuff using automatic writing and drawing. It seems we share a spirit guide - Claire, and that she may have lived somewhree nearby. Interestingly he drew a flower for no apparent reason. Yesterday when we went shoping I asked him to pick something for me that he thoguht I would look good in - and he picked a couple of tops. It wasnt until last night that I really looked at the pattern on one of them and realised it bore a startling resemblence to the flower he had drawn while meditating. I have no idea what it means - if it means anything at all! But I am recording it anyway