meditation link?

This morning I decided to meditate. I had just had a drink with Tony and left him in bed telling him I was going to meditate.

I debated about my intentions and toyed with the idea of either finding out more about Colin or my ascended master and finally just decided to set my intention as finding some inner peace.It took me some time to settle and I found myself thinking about reiki regulatory issues and then about pharmacy regulatory issues before I finally got grounded and found myself in the the Temple of Dreams. I could hear the clunk as the latch on the door behind me and could feel the coolness and stillness in the air as I walked towards the alter. Colin was there. I got the idea that my drifting thoughts before were relevant that I needed to think about those issues. The stained glass windows showed an egg on the left hand one, Jonas and Jenny in the central window and Ariel in the right hand window. I got the idea that I need to actively call on Ariel to help me.

I left to walk out and saw my ascended master waling towards me. I got the idea he will meet me where I am. I dont ave to go and find him.

I came out of the meditation soon after seeing him.

I went back inot Tony's room to find im just coming out of his OWN meditation. We ended almost at the same time. He had seen a tibetan monk that he had seen a couple of times before. This time he got a name (Master Chen) and he mentioned he thinks this is HIS ascended master. After I walked in he suddenly grabbed his notepad and started writing things - basically a load of runes/heiroglyphs that came through . It was weird seeing him so focussed and neither of us have any idea what the runes mean. But why would he write them if he hadn't 'seen' them?

We also ad an interesting discussion ( 3 way me him and his guides) about circles and joining or starting one. Gill and Darren got suggested. Also he got some frustration about Gill and Darren NOT doing what they should be doing with their gifts. I am not sure we can do anything about that - but we will try.

At one point Tony got a message to tell me to talk direct not through him. He thinks it came from Master Chen. I tried but couldn't

I am fascinated by so many things to do with this. But mainly why our meditations ended at the same time . I had no idea Tony was meditating and he had no idea when mine would end. Why did we both think we saw ascended masters?

What do the runes mean??? Can we find out?

Meditation images

When I meditate I dont often get really vivif images. This is especially true when I am not uses a guided meditation track. Becasue I am having to guide' myself my brain is a bit too active . What seems to happen is I get ideas in my head that I then visualise. But the origina of the ideas is what worries me. Have they come from inside my head?

Last night I attempted to meditate for the first time in a few days. I went to my castle room (my choice??) For some reason I got the idea of a cloud of soot/dust being blown out as I opened the door. This could be an image of the spring cleaning I gave my mind the other weekend. I tried NOT to put a specific person in the room and instead as I walked in I tried to let my mind go and look around and see who if anyone was in there. The name Colin came into my head Tthis could be psychosomatic as I was t alking to someone at work today who was suspected of having an affair with someone called Colin at the last place we worked together. Initially I saw a man in a suit - very difficult to pin down what time period and I got the idea he was linked to Claire. then suddenly he was in a black suit a dog collar. Then the image of an egg came into my head. The curates egg????? I looked in the book and thought I saw a japanese symbol, At tat point I began to think I was getting delusions of granduer being shown one of the lost reiki symbols. As I can't now recall it if it was it is still lost. I looked out of the window into the garden and Dad was there gardening.

The unexpected images are the ones I believe come from outside me. Thats the dust, and the egg. I don't really think I have yet ANOTHER guide. I can't think of any reason why I would NEED another guide.

I did have some interesting waking visons tho - although these were before I went to sleep. It was mainly the normal colours I see when I close my eyes but it wasn't hard to make out the image of a bunch of roses.

Paranormal psychology or coincidence

Any so called paranormal event can also be explained by psychology and/or coincidence. That is why events like the ghost sighting in York and the behaviour or the pendant at the workshop in Stourbridge are 'wow' moment. Psychology and coincidence can be ruled out. That does NOT mean I believe 'spirits' were involved - it means there is an explanation our science cannot explain that may or may not include beings/spirits from the 'afterlife'.

Recent events are not in that category - but they are still interesting. I have been carrying a bag or crystals - recommended by my pendant - since Sunday morning. Tony got the idea put into his head that I needed to carry them and sleep with them under my pillow for 3 nights. The choice of crystals surprised me because it included my Tigers eye which I thought of as just for protection. However the Crystal Bible told us it is also good for digestive system problems.

On Sunday I was tired, totally fed up and ad a flare op of my IBS that had started the previous week and it was making thoroughly miserable, I hadn't felt like exercising much, my food management was dire and to say I had 'negative self image issues' was putting it mildly.

This morning - after sleeping with and carrying those crystals for 3 days and nights - I have been able to do 20 minutes free step, and my IBS has resolved. In fact I felt more energetic yesterday because I had the energy to do some shopping in my lunch hour.

SOMETHING has worked. It could be the message from the pendant session on Sunday exerted a powerful effect on my mind. I suspect it is more psychology than paranormal or coincidence. But the fascinating thing is we have been given the chance to go and learn about crystals at a local 'new age' shop in August. Again it could be coincidence - but it does feel as if something or someone is trying to make sure I know just what crystals can do.

A minor cataclysm

That might sound like a contradiction in terms - but it feels the correct way to describe what has happened. I have been feeling VERY down recently. I put this down to being tired from trying to work full time, but I now think I was wrong.

Yesterday I did the chakra meditation more as a way to relax than to gain any spiritual insight. The colours I saw during it were unusual light green featured a lot plus some yellow as well as purple. I didn't see anything specific during the final part - but I came out of it feeling relaxed.

This morning I felt dire again - in fact it was so bad I ended up in tears on Tony. He slept late and I ended up waking him up because I felt so lonely. The crying jag helped. I got some stuff off my chest and then I decided to be proactive and use my pendant to help me sort out what was happening. The answers surprised me.

My feelings were nothing to do with me opening anything up during the meditation, and they are nothing to do with me being tired. I am feeling like this because I am not doing the work I should be doing. It seems I should NOT try to get regular work as a pharmacist - the ad hoc covers will bring me in enough income. This was backed up by one of my cards later - 6 of Pentacles. In fact I was told weeks ago when I had my tarot reading that I would never have to worry about money - if I needed it it would be there. Volunteering to give reiki at the hospice seems to be my next move. I have thought for some time I need to just give reiki - and not worry about the business side too much.

I also got some advice about crystals - with help from Tony - that I need to carry with me and sleep with for 3 days. He came up with the 3 days from his guides.

We are going to create a facebook page for Krystal Wolf Holistic Care - once we have decided what it is going to do. I think that is the key we need a clear vision for what it is going to do and how it is going to do it. I think lack of focus is a significant reason why we are not making progress.

I asked the pendant if working as a pharmacist was blocking me from making progress and got told yes. I should add the answers were often VERY vigorous and beyond any doubt. I also got some surprising non responses/negative responses so I can rule out psychosomatic responses. I was really surprised when fatigue was ruled out as a reason for me feeling so lousy. I am sure it IS a factor - but not the main one.

I think I have been left in no doubt that I need to commit to reiki and my spiritual work - and recognise that I will be doing more than reiki - if I am to progress.

I feel as if the ball is in my court - and I need to decide what I am going to do. But Tony also needs to decide what HE is going to do and how he wants to work.

Chakra meditation

I have been stressed out for the past week and really not able to meditate effectively. So this afternoon I decided to really chill out. Bath, candles, incense, and a guided meditation track, I did listened to the chakra track 'sweet surrender'

I saw some very different colours during it. Light greens and yellows as well as purple. It was fascinating - and very relaxing

Earlier in the day I did a bit of reiki on TC. Tony had a weird experince while I was doing it. he saw a scene that could have come from a willow pattern plate complete with heron and pagoda.

Another psychic 'wow' moment?

On Sunday I made a fruitless search on FB to see if I could find Doug. I wanted to let him know about Andy. I couldn't find him.

Yesterday after I made my entry in this blog I wanted to send Tony an email about the blog. Among the emails from a FB was one that told me Douglas Seager wanted to be friends with me. I nearly fell off the chair.

This NOT coincidence happening at this time. Was my search for him a touch of clairvoyance? Did I pick up that he was ready to make contact ?

My cards today ibcluded practice discipline and moving forward fearlessly. The info about MFF in the book includes the words 'you are making great strides' I read that and thought ' no sh*t sherlock'

I am clearly doing things right at the moment.

Getting my priorities right

This morning I put a new regime in pace. No laptop and no FB first thing in the morning. That gives me the time I need to exercise physically and spiritually. So I have done 20 minute son the wii fit, meditated and done some self healing as well as my cards.

I drew two interesting cards. The Queen of cups and Forgive. My immediate thought after the weekend was 'I have to forgive Alan' I meditated about these cards and came to the conclusion I have to forgive myself as well. I think the Queen is an indication I need to keep my emotions controlled - and use some rationality as well as emotion as i do this.

Today is Alan's birthday. I do NOT think it is coincidence I picked these cards today. His birthday may also be why Tony saw him at Dudley.