Interesting

Yesterday I did some cards but couldn't meditate on them. Instead I wrote them down and took my notebook to work for me to write any thoughts in if I got time. I did get time and one of the messages I got from the cards was that I need to push my mediumship and have more faith in it. Less than 30 minutes later I found I was trsying to use my medium skills thanks to a conversation with Calire the technician - who I beleive also has mediumship skill if she could get up the nerve to deal with her abilities.

As Yvette would say 'Interesting'

My first proper afternoon as a reiki practitioner

Wow is all I can say. It went really well. Everyone I treated said they felt really relaxed at the end. A couple of pateints commented about the heat form my hands.

With one lady we both felt a breeze . I knew the lady's mother - who had been a patient I knew at the hospice - had died 6 weeks ago . The room had been breeze free up till then and I was convinced her mother was there. When the treatment was over I very tentatively if she knew about the spiritual side of reiki. As her sister used to do reiki it was a possibility. It turns out she is very much into that sort of thing. So I said I felt her mother had been there and she told me she KNEW her mother had been there - and that she had in fact seen her mother shortly after she died.

I have been told I must NOT give mediumistic messages when working with reiki. As I dont get messages of that sort it wasn't anything I felt I had to worry about too much. This has made me think. I was very careful to step out from my reiki role before I spoke - and if she had expressed no interest in the spiritual side I wouldn't have spoken at all.

A number of people took my number and may seek further (paid!) treatments from me.

I feel I took a huge step yesterday.

A very private meditation

I am not going to put all the details here - but today I did some card picks that were on the 'wow' side and then did an unusual meditation. I was focussing on my weight issues and I think I finally know who Jenny is. I thought she was a reiki guide - but somehow that never quite fitted. I think she IS something to do with my healing but I also feel now she represents my higher self - a visual image for me to keep in mind when I need to contact it - as I need to when I am dealing with food and exercise issues= particularly choices about what when and how to eat.

I will share one bit of the meditation here. I was in my temple of dreams and I saw the 3 stained glass windows behind the alter. In the middle was Christ. On the right was a slim me giving reiki . On the left was a slim me using hypnotherapy.

Tomorrow is the pamper afternoon at the hospice. the first day of my new career???

A thought provoking meditation

I meditated this morning. I made an effort to tidy and sanctify the room before I did so and had two candles burning. One by me and one in front of the mirror. In other words I made a huge effort to get myself in thr right frame of mind to meditate fruitfully.

I decided to meditate for 'guidance' I also pulled a tarot card to use as a theme and got the 7 of cups - the daydream card.

I strated off in my glade, and it was quite crowded with my guides, Mum Dad and Alan there. I wasn't sure how I felt about Alan being there so I thought 'guidance' and they all turned and pointed down the path opposite to the one I enter by. I wlaked down it and it was dark. I saw a candle flame and the light from the flame expanded until it became a door I could walk through. This is a symbol I have seen before. Then I found myself at the Temple - only this time it was full of peopel and a communion service was going on. I wnt up and took communion. Then I knelt and again asked for guidance. I realised I have lots of guidance available but I have to ask for it.

Then I thought about relaxation and my health problems and in particular my dry mouth. I relaised this is probably due to too much adrenaline so I decided to sue a McKenna style visualistion and took myself to the beach to listen to the waves.

Then the music changed (I had Sacred Woman on shuffle) and it started playing 'Moon (woman) with a backgorund sound of a stream and my immediate thought was 'Woman always giving in a stream of generosity'

I realised I need to make sure I am OK, or can't really help anyone else.

During the meditation I also focussed on my daydreams and realised at the moment I have 2 big ones. A Reiki practice and a holiday abroad. I have realised I need the holiday - whether abroad or in this country - and I probably need to focus on that. The implication is (from the cards and other things) that I am doing as much as I can to get a reiki practice.

It was the best most productive meditation I have had for some time.

This morning I feel very down - and frankly sorry for myself - which is probably the most unhelpful emotional state to be in. In fact I have been feeling down for some time now. I put it down to tiredness. I am now wondering if the tiredness was due to a developing thyroid problem. But I know spirituality is important for good mental health so this morning I decided to do a reading for me.

I used my Angel oracle card deck and my first impression when I saw the cards was that I had picked a couple of cards wrong. But as I looked at the meanings in the book I saw I hadn't. Whether it is psychic or psychological I have taken a very positive and helpful message from the cards. They were

Play, New partner, law of attraction, The ocean, Assertiveness.

My first thought was that I shouldn't have picked New Partner and The Ocean. (I am very happy with Tony and I live about as far away from the ocean as you can get in the UK) But when I looked at the deeper meanings I saw that new partner could mean I am going to meet someone by chance who may be able to help me in a business venture. Yesterday I noticed that the place doing the hypnotherapy course tomorrow also does reiki and found myself wondering if this could be another useful link for me. 'The Ocean' probably indicates the strong link I have to water anyway - but can also be advise to drink more water - which is something I have been concentrating on as part of my health routine for the past few days.

So the message I take from these cards is that I need to stop worrying and relax a bit. There may well be an opportunity for me with the college tomorrow. I need to focus o the positive (whichI am trying to do) I am right to focus in drinking more water, and I need to curb my tendency to get aggressive over bad situations. I am not sure what situation I need to assertive over but I suspect i will know it when I see it.

The other idea that springs to mind is that I want a holiday - which would enable me to play and get near the ocean. Maybe I need to get one booked. It is something I have been thinking about doing recently.

I am going to make time to meditate today. I left ot too late yesterday and I was too tired when I went to bed. So that may well be my next move today

Reconnecting with my spiritual side

I have been unconnected for a few weeks now. Tony had to have emergency surgery for appendicitis a couple of weeks ago. And then I disocoeverd in a lump in my. Well I saw it in the mirror and the thought that went across my mind was'I have a goitre - I must have a thyroid problem' Then I realised the lump was only on one side. However the doctor said it could still be my thyroid and I am currently waiting for the results of blood tests - and really hoping my initial reaction was a psychic one.

Tony's illness meant we had to pull out of Laura's course - and really anyhting spiritual has been put on the back burner. However I am making an effort to get back into meditation and using my cards and pendant.

Yesterday I went back to basics and did the Tony Stockwell spirit journey guided meditation. The cushions in the canoe were green and gold with reiki symbols. the candle falme was red, and the bird I saw was a blackbird. As this represents me, I guess this means I have made progress over the past year when I saw a seagull. This was the meditation wher I frst Thomas and got the gift of a rock whihc puzzled me so much for so long. This time I saw Peter as well as Thomas, but I couldn't see the gifts. I was trying too hard I think.

Today I haven't meditated yet - but will do se in a bit. I have however used my cards. The Healing with the fairies deck thre 2 cards out ( Inner Power and Laughter) and I picked 'Happily Ever After. I certainly need re-assurance about my inner power - and I sure could do with some laughter. I am very down - but this may be die to an underactive thyroid so I am hopeful there is light at the end of the tunnel. Hapily Ever After is a good omen that things WILL work out - both with our health issues and our spiritual work.

Blog hiatus

I havent done any blogging recently and I need to get back into the routine. But over the last couple of days I have been aware of the need to set myself goals and have a definite plan. This morning my FB status was about the week ahead being a blank canvass. Then I read a blog entry from one of my freinds who has not blogged for months and she was in a really bad place. That got me motivated to make an entry in 'Changing life and times' In the entry I said I needed to make another entry later to review where I am and where I am going.

In the spirit of 'lets get organised' I decided to do a daily card pick for the first time in days. I used my new angel deck - and picked 'Creative project' . I do regard my blog as being creative since I enjoy writing.

It was a very interesting card to get. I feel encouraged that I am on the right track and doing the right things