The lack of entries in the blog says it all. I have been trying to meditate and use my cards regularly but I haven't done it as much as I should have and I haven't really had any startling results. But today I do feel I have something worth recording.
I have meditated consistently since Xmas and I am using my cards more. Today I specifically asked for a tarot card to use as the focus of a meditation and got the five of pentacles. Although superficially about material well being it is also about spiritual well being and self esteem. There is NO doubt my self esteem is an issue at the moment because I feel I have lost control of my weight. The message from the card was to concentrate on material and spiritual well being. But 5 is a number that indicates tension and anxiety - and there is a tension between my spiritual and materials goals. Work takes time that doesn't give me time to meditate. Except with the new booking at ROH the hours DO give me time for my meditation - and exercise so I have no excuse for whinging.
Anyway I meditated on the card and saw myself as one of the beggars in the snow. I was cold and miserable and I tried to work out why I didnt do the obvious thing and go into the nice warm well lit church behind me. The mmediate answer was I was ashamed to go in. I thought about what I was ashamed of. Weight gain, and lack of focus on meditation, came to mind. But the main one was my weight.
Anyway I went onto the church - and Mum was there. This interesting because Mum came through at the seance on Thursday. I am sceptical about messages through physical mediumship but when the glass spelt Freda and then correctly gave Dad's name and his proper first name I was impressed. Shaz then apparently contacted her and gave me the message to look after myself as well as reminding me about something I haven't done yet. I presume this is the visit to the Donkey Sanctuary.
I am not sure what the total message of the meditation was - but I did get the clear message I have nothing to be ashamed about. I know what I need to do - I just need to get on with it and do it
Sunday, 2 January 2011
Friday, 26 November 2010
Listen
I haven't done much with cards or even any meditation since the weekend. I have been unmotivated and lethargic. But today I listened to Davids 'meet your guide' meditation. And from that I got the ide that a long but exciting path lies in front of me as I develop psychically.
I decided to try some card picks too. Neither tarot nor Angel oracle cards really gave me anything major. I don't think I set my intention with the tarot cards, and the oracle cads gave me 'Joy' I decided to try the Ascended masters deck and got 'Listen' That DID get my attention as I got the same card at the workshop. So I read the meaning from the book and basically it says' Listen to your guide'
It is clear if I am going to walk along this path, I need to MAKE time to listen to my guides by meditating regularly.
I decided to try some card picks too. Neither tarot nor Angel oracle cards really gave me anything major. I don't think I set my intention with the tarot cards, and the oracle cads gave me 'Joy' I decided to try the Ascended masters deck and got 'Listen' That DID get my attention as I got the same card at the workshop. So I read the meaning from the book and basically it says' Listen to your guide'
It is clear if I am going to walk along this path, I need to MAKE time to listen to my guides by meditating regularly.
Saturday, 20 November 2010
Spiritual development
I had a fascinating and enjoyable day yesterday. I finally got the chance to meet David Wells - who is just like he appears on TV and in his books. I knew I wanted to meet him because his books have been so helpful - but also because of all the medium's I have seen on TV he was one who radiated integrity. When he was on MH he came across as totally sincere as well as very gifted. It was as I suspected his sincerity that made him leave the show - and it is no coincidence that the show went downhill after he left. But would I have chosen to do a workshop about Past Life regression if it hadn't been my a chance to meet him? It was my third attempt because the first workshop I tried got cancelled, and the second one I was really interested in was the weekend we were coming back from Scotland. In all honesty the answer would be no. I am unsure what I believe about past lives. In some ways it makes more sense than the idea that we only have one life to get it right but I have yet to see any convincing evidence that anyone has accessed information that conclusively proves they have lived before. So why did I book it? It was so I could meet David and so Tony (who believes he has lived before) could explore this further. In the end Tony didn't go, I went alone and I had a fascinating and enjoyable day.
The first thing that made me go 'wow' was that David had copies of one of my favourite quotes from Change your Life in 7 days on the tables. 'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure....' etc and the rest. I dont know who Marianne Williamson is but that quote hit home when I first read it 4 years ago. To see it as the first thing on a workshop i wasn't sure about made me think. Rightly or wrongly I see things that loop back like that as signs that I am on the right track,
Basically the day consisted of a series of guided meditations - which David lead fantastically well. After a basic visualisation to link in and open our chakras, the first meditation lead us to the tree of life . On the way to it through a forest I saw a wolf - my power animal. This image is no great surprise and at the time I connected it with Tony. As we approached the tree a name came into my head. Not mine and I don't believe it was the name of anyone I saw in the mirror. David suggested later it could be my angelic name -which I should not reveal. In the tree of life I looked in a mirror to see who or what I would see. Initially I saw a girl in homespun with brown hair, then she turned into a black haired indian squaw. These two images kept swapping fora while then right at the end I saw a warrior I felt was a war chief.
The next exercise was to work with a partner and stare into their eyes to try and see into their soul and see if you could see past lives overlain on their face. I didn't see very well for Kate but I did get a hint of a crone like face and got the word witch. She seemed to be able to relate to that. It was what she saw for me that had me going wow. She described the war chief I had such a brief glimpse of and got the word 'thane' which would certainly fit with the time period I connected him with.
The next guided meditation was to try and connect to past relationships. This time as I walked through the forest the wolf stayed in the trees and I got the idea I needed to do this alone. But Jenny and Thomas were in the glade.This time people came out of the tree of life and we looked at them. The only two I saw clearly were an indian brave and a victorian gentleman. I got the idea the brave was the husband of the squaw and the victorian gentleman was my brother. I also got the weird idea I may have known Phil before in a past life even tho I didnt 'see' or 'recognise' Phil in either of the two figures. I was disappointed I hadn't seen things more clearly, but got the idea I wasn't ready for that yet - and that I should come back another time when I could learn more.
Oracle cards also figured in the day. We were all given a free pick of an angel card. I got angel of perfection - which basically said you can lose what is important in the search for perfection. That spoke volumes to me. David also had a deck of angel oracle cards and ascended masters (the same ones we have here) and a random pick from the angel oracle cards gave me 'listen' while the ascended masters deck gave me' twin flame'. Later on I felt moved to make another pick from the ascended masters deck and got 'listen' which made me go 'ok I get the message but what or who am I supposed to be listening to?'
The next meditation took us the akhasic records through the tree of life. David said we could just go to look at past lives or to get answers to questions about why have phobias or repeat certain destructive behaviour patterns. The journey to the akhasic temple was fascinating. We had to pick up a crystal from a granite block then see ourselves throwing it into the arctic waste . At the point where David said we could see a crystal I saw my moonstone. Using that crystal to access the akhasic records is so very appropriate.
I accessed the temple via a door decorated with 'The Sun' card from the tarot. In the hallway where objects from my past lives were displayed I saw a victorian sampler most clearly. My guide to the records was Peter.I didnt see anything momentous in my book even though I had a question - but maybe I was asking the wrong question. On the way back out as well as the sampler I saw a stone arrowhead among the objects from my past lives.
The last meditation of the day was to help us create a 'magic image' we can put on when we need particular virtues/abilities in a situation. David even specifically mentioned putting on an image before giving reiki. We were told we could pick someone we had seen from a past life, or a historical figure, or even a fictional character. Or we could just wait and see what we got. I picked the war chief character. This meditation had us in a theatre and we went up onto the stage and our chosen costume dropped onto us. Despite my best efforts to see the trappings of the war chief, what I got was a nurse from Florence Nightingale's era.
I saw this not a sign I had been a nurse at that time (although I wouldn't rule it out as she could have ben the sister of the victorian gentleman I saw) but as affirmation that healing is what I should be doing. I can put this costume on for reiki and hypnotherapy - and maybe for card readings as well.
This wasn't about psychic development. It was all about knowing and understanding yourself which is why I see this as spiritual development. I wonder if I will repeat this workshop when/if Tony decides he would like to do it after all?
The first thing that made me go 'wow' was that David had copies of one of my favourite quotes from Change your Life in 7 days on the tables. 'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure....' etc and the rest. I dont know who Marianne Williamson is but that quote hit home when I first read it 4 years ago. To see it as the first thing on a workshop i wasn't sure about made me think. Rightly or wrongly I see things that loop back like that as signs that I am on the right track,
Basically the day consisted of a series of guided meditations - which David lead fantastically well. After a basic visualisation to link in and open our chakras, the first meditation lead us to the tree of life . On the way to it through a forest I saw a wolf - my power animal. This image is no great surprise and at the time I connected it with Tony. As we approached the tree a name came into my head. Not mine and I don't believe it was the name of anyone I saw in the mirror. David suggested later it could be my angelic name -which I should not reveal. In the tree of life I looked in a mirror to see who or what I would see. Initially I saw a girl in homespun with brown hair, then she turned into a black haired indian squaw. These two images kept swapping fora while then right at the end I saw a warrior I felt was a war chief.
The next exercise was to work with a partner and stare into their eyes to try and see into their soul and see if you could see past lives overlain on their face. I didn't see very well for Kate but I did get a hint of a crone like face and got the word witch. She seemed to be able to relate to that. It was what she saw for me that had me going wow. She described the war chief I had such a brief glimpse of and got the word 'thane' which would certainly fit with the time period I connected him with.
The next guided meditation was to try and connect to past relationships. This time as I walked through the forest the wolf stayed in the trees and I got the idea I needed to do this alone. But Jenny and Thomas were in the glade.This time people came out of the tree of life and we looked at them. The only two I saw clearly were an indian brave and a victorian gentleman. I got the idea the brave was the husband of the squaw and the victorian gentleman was my brother. I also got the weird idea I may have known Phil before in a past life even tho I didnt 'see' or 'recognise' Phil in either of the two figures. I was disappointed I hadn't seen things more clearly, but got the idea I wasn't ready for that yet - and that I should come back another time when I could learn more.
Oracle cards also figured in the day. We were all given a free pick of an angel card. I got angel of perfection - which basically said you can lose what is important in the search for perfection. That spoke volumes to me. David also had a deck of angel oracle cards and ascended masters (the same ones we have here) and a random pick from the angel oracle cards gave me 'listen' while the ascended masters deck gave me' twin flame'. Later on I felt moved to make another pick from the ascended masters deck and got 'listen' which made me go 'ok I get the message but what or who am I supposed to be listening to?'
The next meditation took us the akhasic records through the tree of life. David said we could just go to look at past lives or to get answers to questions about why have phobias or repeat certain destructive behaviour patterns. The journey to the akhasic temple was fascinating. We had to pick up a crystal from a granite block then see ourselves throwing it into the arctic waste . At the point where David said we could see a crystal I saw my moonstone. Using that crystal to access the akhasic records is so very appropriate.
I accessed the temple via a door decorated with 'The Sun' card from the tarot. In the hallway where objects from my past lives were displayed I saw a victorian sampler most clearly. My guide to the records was Peter.I didnt see anything momentous in my book even though I had a question - but maybe I was asking the wrong question. On the way back out as well as the sampler I saw a stone arrowhead among the objects from my past lives.
The last meditation of the day was to help us create a 'magic image' we can put on when we need particular virtues/abilities in a situation. David even specifically mentioned putting on an image before giving reiki. We were told we could pick someone we had seen from a past life, or a historical figure, or even a fictional character. Or we could just wait and see what we got. I picked the war chief character. This meditation had us in a theatre and we went up onto the stage and our chosen costume dropped onto us. Despite my best efforts to see the trappings of the war chief, what I got was a nurse from Florence Nightingale's era.
I saw this not a sign I had been a nurse at that time (although I wouldn't rule it out as she could have ben the sister of the victorian gentleman I saw) but as affirmation that healing is what I should be doing. I can put this costume on for reiki and hypnotherapy - and maybe for card readings as well.
This wasn't about psychic development. It was all about knowing and understanding yourself which is why I see this as spiritual development. I wonder if I will repeat this workshop when/if Tony decides he would like to do it after all?
Monday, 15 November 2010
Interesting
Yesterday I did some cards but couldn't meditate on them. Instead I wrote them down and took my notebook to work for me to write any thoughts in if I got time. I did get time and one of the messages I got from the cards was that I need to push my mediumship and have more faith in it. Less than 30 minutes later I found I was trsying to use my medium skills thanks to a conversation with Calire the technician - who I beleive also has mediumship skill if she could get up the nerve to deal with her abilities.
As Yvette would say 'Interesting'
As Yvette would say 'Interesting'
Thursday, 11 November 2010
My first proper afternoon as a reiki practitioner
Wow is all I can say. It went really well. Everyone I treated said they felt really relaxed at the end. A couple of pateints commented about the heat form my hands.
With one lady we both felt a breeze . I knew the lady's mother - who had been a patient I knew at the hospice - had died 6 weeks ago . The room had been breeze free up till then and I was convinced her mother was there. When the treatment was over I very tentatively if she knew about the spiritual side of reiki. As her sister used to do reiki it was a possibility. It turns out she is very much into that sort of thing. So I said I felt her mother had been there and she told me she KNEW her mother had been there - and that she had in fact seen her mother shortly after she died.
I have been told I must NOT give mediumistic messages when working with reiki. As I dont get messages of that sort it wasn't anything I felt I had to worry about too much. This has made me think. I was very careful to step out from my reiki role before I spoke - and if she had expressed no interest in the spiritual side I wouldn't have spoken at all.
A number of people took my number and may seek further (paid!) treatments from me.
I feel I took a huge step yesterday.
With one lady we both felt a breeze . I knew the lady's mother - who had been a patient I knew at the hospice - had died 6 weeks ago . The room had been breeze free up till then and I was convinced her mother was there. When the treatment was over I very tentatively if she knew about the spiritual side of reiki. As her sister used to do reiki it was a possibility. It turns out she is very much into that sort of thing. So I said I felt her mother had been there and she told me she KNEW her mother had been there - and that she had in fact seen her mother shortly after she died.
I have been told I must NOT give mediumistic messages when working with reiki. As I dont get messages of that sort it wasn't anything I felt I had to worry about too much. This has made me think. I was very careful to step out from my reiki role before I spoke - and if she had expressed no interest in the spiritual side I wouldn't have spoken at all.
A number of people took my number and may seek further (paid!) treatments from me.
I feel I took a huge step yesterday.
Tuesday, 9 November 2010
A very private meditation
I am not going to put all the details here - but today I did some card picks that were on the 'wow' side and then did an unusual meditation. I was focussing on my weight issues and I think I finally know who Jenny is. I thought she was a reiki guide - but somehow that never quite fitted. I think she IS something to do with my healing but I also feel now she represents my higher self - a visual image for me to keep in mind when I need to contact it - as I need to when I am dealing with food and exercise issues= particularly choices about what when and how to eat.
I will share one bit of the meditation here. I was in my temple of dreams and I saw the 3 stained glass windows behind the alter. In the middle was Christ. On the right was a slim me giving reiki . On the left was a slim me using hypnotherapy.
Tomorrow is the pamper afternoon at the hospice. the first day of my new career???
I will share one bit of the meditation here. I was in my temple of dreams and I saw the 3 stained glass windows behind the alter. In the middle was Christ. On the right was a slim me giving reiki . On the left was a slim me using hypnotherapy.
Tomorrow is the pamper afternoon at the hospice. the first day of my new career???
Saturday, 6 November 2010
A thought provoking meditation
I meditated this morning. I made an effort to tidy and sanctify the room before I did so and had two candles burning. One by me and one in front of the mirror. In other words I made a huge effort to get myself in thr right frame of mind to meditate fruitfully.
I decided to meditate for 'guidance' I also pulled a tarot card to use as a theme and got the 7 of cups - the daydream card.
I strated off in my glade, and it was quite crowded with my guides, Mum Dad and Alan there. I wasn't sure how I felt about Alan being there so I thought 'guidance' and they all turned and pointed down the path opposite to the one I enter by. I wlaked down it and it was dark. I saw a candle flame and the light from the flame expanded until it became a door I could walk through. This is a symbol I have seen before. Then I found myself at the Temple - only this time it was full of peopel and a communion service was going on. I wnt up and took communion. Then I knelt and again asked for guidance. I realised I have lots of guidance available but I have to ask for it.
Then I thought about relaxation and my health problems and in particular my dry mouth. I relaised this is probably due to too much adrenaline so I decided to sue a McKenna style visualistion and took myself to the beach to listen to the waves.
Then the music changed (I had Sacred Woman on shuffle) and it started playing 'Moon (woman) with a backgorund sound of a stream and my immediate thought was 'Woman always giving in a stream of generosity'
I realised I need to make sure I am OK, or can't really help anyone else.
During the meditation I also focussed on my daydreams and realised at the moment I have 2 big ones. A Reiki practice and a holiday abroad. I have realised I need the holiday - whether abroad or in this country - and I probably need to focus on that. The implication is (from the cards and other things) that I am doing as much as I can to get a reiki practice.
It was the best most productive meditation I have had for some time.
I decided to meditate for 'guidance' I also pulled a tarot card to use as a theme and got the 7 of cups - the daydream card.
I strated off in my glade, and it was quite crowded with my guides, Mum Dad and Alan there. I wasn't sure how I felt about Alan being there so I thought 'guidance' and they all turned and pointed down the path opposite to the one I enter by. I wlaked down it and it was dark. I saw a candle flame and the light from the flame expanded until it became a door I could walk through. This is a symbol I have seen before. Then I found myself at the Temple - only this time it was full of peopel and a communion service was going on. I wnt up and took communion. Then I knelt and again asked for guidance. I realised I have lots of guidance available but I have to ask for it.
Then I thought about relaxation and my health problems and in particular my dry mouth. I relaised this is probably due to too much adrenaline so I decided to sue a McKenna style visualistion and took myself to the beach to listen to the waves.
Then the music changed (I had Sacred Woman on shuffle) and it started playing 'Moon (woman) with a backgorund sound of a stream and my immediate thought was 'Woman always giving in a stream of generosity'
I realised I need to make sure I am OK, or can't really help anyone else.
During the meditation I also focussed on my daydreams and realised at the moment I have 2 big ones. A Reiki practice and a holiday abroad. I have realised I need the holiday - whether abroad or in this country - and I probably need to focus on that. The implication is (from the cards and other things) that I am doing as much as I can to get a reiki practice.
It was the best most productive meditation I have had for some time.
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