A spiritual routine

I have recognised the need to have a spiritual routine - not just doing some stuff when I have the time. I have been meditating every day for s few days now, but last night something made me look at Pendulum magic - which Simon returned to me last Wednesday. I went to the last 2 chapters and discovered that contrary to my thoughts the book was basically practical it does touch on the spiritual as well. I realised I need to use my pendulum more. So this morning I did my regular recitation of the reiki principals followed by my prayers then I used my pendulum. I got very strong responses. So I decided to use it to ask about Neal and Lou's baby. It will be born healthy, but after the due date of April 23rd. I asked if it would be born on April 28th - which was Dad's birthday and it said yes.

My meditation was interesting. I walked through the normal forest to my safe glade but this time there was a hedged archway that I walked through. When I went through it a portcullis gate came down behind me and I could see a second archway out of the glade which also had a portcullis gate shutting it. I walked round the glade and saw it had a privet hedge round it now like the one we used to have in Marlow. I realised No-one can come in unless I invite them. I raised the gates and waited to see who would come in - but O am not sure what happened. I got the thought that I need to do some gestalt work with Claire of Sally to talk to Mum and Dad. U sat down on the bench that now exists under the tree and I imagine my feet going into a fish tank like the one at feet retreat. I then did the inner smile but it stopped at my brain as I realised positive thoughts release good feelings all over your body. I visualised myself with gold light spreading through me from top to toe.

I then decided to pull cards - one from each deck. I got 9 of swords, Inner Power,Steady progress and Throat Chakra.

To me this means I need to stop worrying about the future, I need to trust in my inner power - which is greater than I think it is, I am making steady progress in the right direction and my throat is chakra is fine - my throat is healing OK. The words in that card are The angels are helping you lovingly speak your truth - not the truth but YOUR (i.e. my) truth. The book talks about admitting my true feelings

Also steady progress the text reads 'We acknowledge you for the progress you have made in remembering love in your daily activities. I have had a lot of thoughts about the necessity of loving
myself and my body lately. Hmm

Inner power talks about not being able to abuse your power and talks about my guides bringing me opportunities.

As I was picking up the Angel deck book I managed to displace the cards and 2 fell on the floor. Joy and Be honest with yourself My power comes from staygn centered in a feeling of joy Steady progress talks about being to hard on myself and that I need to stay focused ib how far I have come already. being honest with myself talks about me hiding my feelings and needing to talk. That ties in with Throat chakra in a way.

And the 9 of swords explanation speaks about fears being more to do with thoughts than feelings. This what I have been focussing lately - and clearly this card is to tell me I am on the right track



I got up ay 7 and it is now 10.30 and I haven't had breakfast yet. I guess my spiritual tasks have taken about an hour - including making this entry - which is part of the process. I think that is about the right time to spend on this.

Turbulent times

Life has been interesting lately. The details are recorded in my other blog. But as the goals I have put in that blog show I have been making a concerted effort with my spiritual and psychic development

Today I did some self healing, chakra opening and closing and meditation all combined. During the healing I suddenly felt a tingle on my head as if someone else was giving me reiki. Also when I asked for images for guidance I was immediately shown a very pretty archetypal chocolate box cover mountain. Blue sky white cap with a green meadow in the foreground. The clear message I got was I will get healthy - but I still have a mountain to climb. But I will get there as long as I take it slowly, and accept help .

I then found I could clearly see myself as thinner ,healthier and more energetic. I was wearing jeans - tight jeans and my cream v-neck jumper - with a scarf - I am sure it was H's gift.

I suddenly feel VERY positive.

Feedback on a reading

I gave Rebecca a reading a few weeks ago, and it included the card 'Miracle Healing' I can't remember what rebecca said about that card but she did seem to understand what it was about. Today she told me what had happened.

Her son was born with a heart defect - 2 holes an ASD and a VSD. She and James have lived with the knowledge that Ben would need surgery. For various reasons they didnt tell anyone. A few days after that reading they took Ben for one of his regular appointments. And both holes have closed. The consultants have said it only happens very rarely .

Rebecca could hardly wait to tell me what had happened. All I could think was 'Wow'

I have been very distracted by the problems with my thyroid and haven't done much with the cards. But what I HAVE done (and Tony did with me) was attend a 10 hour mediumship development course that I happened to see mentioned in a status on Facebook. It was especially good as they were offerred free. Normally it would have cost 30.00.

The course , run by Chris Butler , has been interesting. He has a very military style of teaching - not surprising as he was in the army. He doesn't encourage much talking by his students, and has very regimented ideas about how the spirit world works. I also didn't like the way he insisted he was right and anything else was wrong. He was very dictatorial too. 'Everything comes through your guide' 'You never get anything for yourself' 'Everything comes through your guide' ''If yur guide shows you an alligator ir means a surprise' His course assumed NO previous psychic/mediumship experience. he clearly doesn't think psychic work exists. His whole ethos is aimed at doing readings and healing. There was SO much I disagreed with him on (not that I dared tell him) But he has been the best teacher for visualisation I have ever come across. He has really helped me - and Tony. He has also given me confidence to try automatic writing.

He was invited both of us to his advanced course - but I dont feel it right for me. Chris has a very dismissive attitude about tarot and oracle cards, and pendulums. In his view the ONLY way is direct communication with the your guide (oh yes you only have one guide - others who may appear are communicators)

I am also not happy with the fact he included helaing in this development course - and then proceeded to rubbish it. He implied only a small percentage of people could be helped and that most illnesses are in the mind. I did attempt to briefly touch on the ethics of healing - and did say if anyone wanted to heal they should do a proper course. But I wasn't comfortable with what he said.

But I have learned things from him and I am grateful to have had the chance.

What prompted this entry is the seance wt the Witch last night. I saw a hand waving at me!! I saw it clearly and it wasn't Karl or Shaz . The hand appeared between them.

Shaz insisted on splitting Tony and I up because she feels we block each other. Tony had a brilliant evening while apart from the hand I got nothing. I think I do better when Tony is with me - but suspect I siphone off something from him that blocks him. I MUST practice working without him.

One inetresting thing happened down in the cellar. The protal was on the table and so was the ouija board. I looked at them and saw the portal would fit neatly overe the board. I asked if they had ever done that. They said no so we gave it a go and the board reacted almost immediately. So that was interesting.

Two weeks ago on our previous visit Shaz got us all to do psychometry and I got 3 pieces of information that the owner could understand so I was quite pleased.

We also finally remembered to take some tulips with us for 'Isabel' We got some inetersting reactions from the table in the seance room when we had the flowers on it.

Both tables in the witch produce amazing results with table tipping. Both move physically across the floor. I can hardly beleive we find ourself saying 'Move the table back to the centre' Last night it was amazing. It was even tipping and moving with Richard sitting on it.

New Year new resolution

The lack of entries in the blog says it all. I have been trying to meditate and use my cards regularly but I haven't done it as much as I should have and I haven't really had any startling results. But today I do feel I have something worth recording.

I have meditated consistently since Xmas and I am using my cards more. Today I specifically asked for a tarot card to use as the focus of a meditation and got the five of pentacles. Although superficially about material well being it is also about spiritual well being and self esteem. There is NO doubt my self esteem is an issue at the moment because I feel I have lost control of my weight. The message from the card was to concentrate on material and spiritual well being. But 5 is a number that indicates tension and anxiety - and there is a tension between my spiritual and materials goals. Work takes time that doesn't give me time to meditate. Except with the new booking at ROH the hours DO give me time for my meditation - and exercise so I have no excuse for whinging.

Anyway I meditated on the card and saw myself as one of the beggars in the snow. I was cold and miserable and I tried to work out why I didnt do the obvious thing and go into the nice warm well lit church behind me. The mmediate answer was I was ashamed to go in. I thought about what I was ashamed of. Weight gain, and lack of focus on meditation, came to mind. But the main one was my weight.

Anyway I went onto the church - and Mum was there. This interesting because Mum came through at the seance on Thursday. I am sceptical about messages through physical mediumship but when the glass spelt Freda and then correctly gave Dad's name and his proper first name I was impressed. Shaz then apparently contacted her and gave me the message to look after myself as well as reminding me about something I haven't done yet. I presume this is the visit to the Donkey Sanctuary.

I am not sure what the total message of the meditation was - but I did get the clear message I have nothing to be ashamed about. I know what I need to do - I just need to get on with it and do it

Listen

I haven't done much with cards or even any meditation since the weekend. I have been unmotivated and lethargic. But today I listened to Davids 'meet your guide' meditation. And from that I got the ide that a long but exciting path lies in front of me as I develop psychically.

I decided to try some card picks too. Neither tarot nor Angel oracle cards really gave me anything major. I don't think I set my intention with the tarot cards, and the oracle cads gave me 'Joy' I decided to try the Ascended masters deck and got 'Listen' That DID get my attention as I got the same card at the workshop. So I read the meaning from the book and basically it says' Listen to your guide'

It is clear if I am going to walk along this path, I need to MAKE time to listen to my guides by meditating regularly.

Spiritual development

I had a fascinating and enjoyable day yesterday. I finally got the chance to meet David Wells - who is just like he appears on TV and in his books. I knew I wanted to meet him because his books have been so helpful - but also because of all the medium's I have seen on TV he was one who radiated integrity. When he was on MH he came across as totally sincere as well as very gifted. It was as I suspected his sincerity that made him leave the show - and it is no coincidence that the show went downhill after he left. But would I have chosen to do a workshop about Past Life regression if it hadn't been my a chance to meet him? It was my third attempt because the first workshop I tried got cancelled, and the second one I was really interested in was the weekend we were coming back from Scotland. In all honesty the answer would be no. I am unsure what I believe about past lives. In some ways it makes more sense than the idea that we only have one life to get it right but I have yet to see any convincing evidence that anyone has accessed information that conclusively proves they have lived before. So why did I book it? It was so I could meet David and so Tony (who believes he has lived before) could explore this further. In the end Tony didn't go, I went alone and I had a fascinating and enjoyable day.

The first thing that made me go 'wow' was that David had copies of one of my favourite quotes from Change your Life in 7 days on the tables. 'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure....' etc and the rest. I dont know who Marianne Williamson is but that quote hit home when I first read it 4 years ago. To see it as the first thing on a workshop i wasn't sure about made me think. Rightly or wrongly I see things that loop back like that as signs that I am on the right track,

Basically the day consisted of a series of guided meditations - which David lead fantastically well. After a basic visualisation to link in and open our chakras, the first meditation lead us to the tree of life . On the way to it through a forest I saw a wolf - my power animal. This image is no great surprise and at the time I connected it with Tony. As we approached the tree a name came into my head. Not mine and I don't believe it was the name of anyone I saw in the mirror. David suggested later it could be my angelic name -which I should not reveal. In the tree of life I looked in a mirror to see who or what I would see. Initially I saw a girl in homespun with brown hair, then she turned into a black haired indian squaw. These two images kept swapping fora while then right at the end I saw a warrior I felt was a war chief.

The next exercise was to work with a partner and stare into their eyes to try and see into their soul and see if you could see past lives overlain on their face. I didn't see very well for Kate but I did get a hint of a crone like face and got the word witch. She seemed to be able to relate to that. It was what she saw for me that had me going wow. She described the war chief I had such a brief glimpse of and got the word 'thane' which would certainly fit with the time period I connected him with.

The next guided meditation was to try and connect to past relationships. This time as I walked through the forest the wolf stayed in the trees and I got the idea I needed to do this alone. But Jenny and Thomas were in the glade.This time people came out of the tree of life and we looked at them. The only two I saw clearly were an indian brave and a victorian gentleman. I got the idea the brave was the husband of the squaw and the victorian gentleman was my brother. I also got the weird idea I may have known Phil before in a past life even tho I didnt 'see' or 'recognise' Phil in either of the two figures. I was disappointed I hadn't seen things more clearly, but got the idea I wasn't ready for that yet - and that I should come back another time when I could learn more.

Oracle cards also figured in the day. We were all given a free pick of an angel card. I got angel of perfection - which basically said you can lose what is important in the search for perfection. That spoke volumes to me. David also had a deck of angel oracle cards and ascended masters (the same ones we have here) and a random pick from the angel oracle cards gave me 'listen' while the ascended masters deck gave me' twin flame'. Later on I felt moved to make another pick from the ascended masters deck and got 'listen' which made me go 'ok I get the message but what or who am I supposed to be listening to?'

The next meditation took us the akhasic records through the tree of life. David said we could just go to look at past lives or to get answers to questions about why have phobias or repeat certain destructive behaviour patterns. The journey to the akhasic temple was fascinating. We had to pick up a crystal from a granite block then see ourselves throwing it into the arctic waste . At the point where David said we could see a crystal I saw my moonstone. Using that crystal to access the akhasic records is so very appropriate.

I accessed the temple via a door decorated with 'The Sun' card from the tarot. In the hallway where objects from my past lives were displayed I saw a victorian sampler most clearly. My guide to the records was Peter.I didnt see anything momentous in my book even though I had a question - but maybe I was asking the wrong question. On the way back out as well as the sampler I saw a stone arrowhead among the objects from my past lives.

The last meditation of the day was to help us create a 'magic image' we can put on when we need particular virtues/abilities in a situation. David even specifically mentioned putting on an image before giving reiki. We were told we could pick someone we had seen from a past life, or a historical figure, or even a fictional character. Or we could just wait and see what we got. I picked the war chief character. This meditation had us in a theatre and we went up onto the stage and our chosen costume dropped onto us. Despite my best efforts to see the trappings of the war chief, what I got was a nurse from Florence Nightingale's era.

I saw this not a sign I had been a nurse at that time (although I wouldn't rule it out as she could have ben the sister of the victorian gentleman I saw) but as affirmation that healing is what I should be doing. I can put this costume on for reiki and hypnotherapy - and maybe for card readings as well.

This wasn't about psychic development. It was all about knowing and understanding yourself which is why I see this as spiritual development. I wonder if I will repeat this workshop when/if Tony decides he would like to do it after all?