Today I went to see Clare and I did a tarot reading for her . I told Clare to pick 10 - 20 cards. I found it quite easy to read for her. I deliberatley asked her to pick a larger number of cards to see how I would get on. I also picked tarot because I suspected it would force me to connect with Eli. I felt a long time ago that Eli is my 'mediumship' guide.

I had an imnteresting meditation on the way home. Clare gave me some therapy - and we ended up discussing spiritual Sally and scientific Sally. I got the idea that Thomas is there for scientific Sally ( I feel he is an engineer) and Eli is there for spiritual Sally. That gives a new spin on the rock to diamond issue.

I have been reading the Angel Therapy book Marie gave me. It is typical Dooren Virtue - but there are some things in that speak to me - especially when she talks about self doubt and skepticism.

Do I beleive everything Doreen Virtue writes? Well I believe she believes what she writes is the truth. But I do find it difficult to accept people seeing Angels physically.

I di my self healing on the train going up to Clare's. You eally can heal anywhere . I don't think anyone noticed me sketching CKR and DKM. Well if they did - no-one asked me what I was doing. probably thought I was barmy!!

I am debating what to do about Marion's reiki on Thursday. With Andy being in hospital - I thought the wedding would be off. But she contacted me today to ask if it was still on. But she wants me to treat her at 9.00 - which meansd I won't get home till gone 10 - and its too late for me.

Is this a signal I shouldn't treat her? I need to give her an answer tomorrow if I am to be fair to her.

Good day today. Marie came for her hypnotherapy and is going to have another session with me. Tony gave her a reading as well. I will have to be very careful how I handle her. I think there are lots more things going on than she is telling me. I may be wrong - but I think she may be in an abusive relationship NOW. I already know I must take care not to step over the line professionally and keep personal contact to a minimum at the moment.

My self healing went well.

Its been an interesting day today. I met Marie - and she is clearly a rather troubled young woman. She is coming tomorrow to have hypnotherapy.

She is in a relatonship with a man 40 years older than her - and on the basis of what she told me today she feels trapped. She also told me she has problems to deal with from her past. That is what she wants to sort out with hypnotherapy. She is also VERY anxious to learn reiki.

I decided to do a reading for her to find out about her development potential the cards were pretty clear

Clear yourself, Past Life Issues, Archangel Raphael , Third Eye Chakra and Shield Yourself.

Clearly she has potential - if she can deal with these issues from her past. I think her hypnotherapy might be interesting.

My self healing today was a bit flat compared with my previous ones. I still felt the energy flowing though. I used CKR SHK and DKM. I DO like DKM.

I feel a bit 'meh' today. Not sure why. It could be because I haven't meditated.

I have just done 30 minutes of self healing. I used all the symbols and it was amazing. I could feel such a strong energy flow from my hands and all through my body. I really CAN feel the energy especially in my chakras. And I can almost SEE the energy from my hands. It is a very very faint shimmer - like a heat haze. But is really there.

I meditated this morning and saw Eli. There was no special message - just general encouragement

I had a phone call tonight . One of my hospice patients asked if he could have my number to give to his father's girlfriend. Well she rang tonight to ask if I could teach her reiki. I am SO frustrated that I had to say no. But I am meeting her for coffee tomorrow so we can at least talk. She and her boyfriend feel the reiki has done Stephen a lot of good. He is now in a care home - and I have said if the care home don;t object I am happy to continue to treat him . Marie thought it was a great idea even though it won't be free anymore!.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring?

I had a bit of a downer yesterday. My healing at the hospice wasn't sensational - good but not a wow really. Howere there were some interesting things. One lady I treated last week had died. When I treated her I used HSZSN to send healing 'for her net procedure' - an impulse I didn't understand. I now wonder if I sent healing to ease her dying. The second thing was when I was healing a youngish man, I got an image of a young girl with dark auburn hair. Because he is open to all aspects of my healing, I mentioned this and he said his daughter has died her hair dark auburn - and he is anxious because he wants to see her but she is reluctant . As he is moving to a care home today, I suggested she may well be more comfortable coming to see him there. I hope that was a mediumistic message - not just me trying to cheer him up.

I have done self healing and meditation this morning. I tried to sit in the power - and it felt OK. Not as good as when Sue is talking me through it - but OK. The healing was OK. I used CKR, SHK and DKM. I could feel energy coming up from my feet - and got the thought that I needed that to heal and help ground me as well.

I healed for about 15 minutes I suppose.

I meditated after healing and got some interesting thoughts. I have a friend coming for his second life coaching session today - and I was wondering whether to use reiki or hypnotherapy as well. Eli clearly said 'Let him decide what he needs' I also saw Dad - who told me he loved me - and I got the message I need to shine like the diamond I am.

Was that me getting messages from spirit? Or me saying what I wanted to hear. The idea of me shining like a diamond is NOT a natural one for me. I beleive that was mediumistic. I always got reminded I need to practice. It is only the 3 rd day since I was taught to propely sit in the power and connect. I need to work on it.

21 days of self healing

I have just done my first self healing session using the new symbol I have been taught. I consciously tried to sit in the power and expand my aura to get myself into a state where I should be able to hear Jenny. As I did the healing downstairs in the room with Tony, I also tried to expand my energy into his to see if he picked anything up from me - or me from him. I don't think that worked.

Anyway I did 15 to 20 minutes of self healing, utilising all three symbols. I don't normally use any symbols when self healing - apart from CKR to start the flow. However I used all 4 on me. When I used CKR I really felt the energy When I used DKM it intensified and I felt a bit wobbly in the stomach.

I was in a meditative state as I treated myself, and I saw Eli.I was (and am) worried about how well my mediumship WILL be and whether I will develop as Sue clearly thinks I will. Eli told me I will be OK - I just need to practice.

I still have a LONG way to go - but that is why I have to do these 21 days.

I am not sure if I am pleased or disappointed that yesterday didn't go as originally planned. I am a master practitioner - but not a master teacher. The reason was very simple. I am not ready - which I can agree with. But also that I need to see where they are with their energy. Sue assures me I will get there. I am not so sure. But when I first started this the concept of feeling the energy flow would have seemed impossible. Instead I was given a day's intense mediumship training to strengthen my link with my guides. So I was taken into a guided meditation and actually taught to 'sit in the power' (one of the things Tony Stockwell tried to teach on his CD) and it did feel amazing. It helped me feel Jenny and Eli (where was Thomas?) and I even spoke for them. Eli was the most amazing. He has always been there, he knew Dad, When Sue asked him if he could show me his calling card he showed me exactly that - a pack of cards. And suddenly something clicked in my mind about the card Thomas showed me me in meditation a few days ago, and the rock that was his original gift to me. I found myself saying something abut a rock becoming a diamond when it is polished. Amazing. They certainly are not the sorts of things i would normally say. I even told Sue she would learn by teaching me. Sue video'd it and it did seem as if I could see the energy round me - and chnages in my face as a guide came in - but it was dark and pixelation/matrixing do strange things - so I amot sure about that.

I did two treatments one on jason and another one on Jo. For both Itried acyively to link to jeny AND to expand my energy to the person I was treating. Treating Jason Jenny reminded me about his elbow problem, so I went to his right elbow - and felt nothing. I went to his left elbow and energy flowed - but he wears his watch on his left hand as if he was right handed. Turns out he shoots left handed. My second treatment on Jo was much better than the first one. I did picke things up more accurately.

Anyway I have a 6 month plan for my development - and reiki is all about personal development more so than healing.

It will be interesting to see how things go on out next paranormal event. Will I see hear and feel more?