Two very interesting cards today. Ten of swords and from the Law of Attraction deck 'I can reach for a better thought" So I meditated on what thoughts and attitudes I need to change (or am changing?) and got the idea that I must stop self limiting thoughts. But the tarot card indicates this is a pivotal time to make the change - so why now? Maybe because I am on the brink of a new career as a hypnotherapist? With the thoughts I have had about working out of Little Aston since I have the connections there - and the fact that I may have another client from there . Plus the question from another friend about whether hypnotherapy can cure emetophobia it isn't an unreasonable assumption that I may well have the beginning of a client list.

A second attack by the lurgy has meant my spiritual exercises have been nil - but today I intend to correct that. My meditation on Thursday was interesting tho. I was in my glade and Jonas was there. he lead me over to the bench and I got the idea 'You need to take things easy' Later that day I realised I was fighting round 2 with the lurgy and ended up leaving work at lunchtime, and didn't go to work on Friday either. It was only AFTER I got home on Thursday that I remembered my meditation and thought ' Wow - how strange is that?' Did I subconsciously remember the image and decide I 'needed' to be ill to be able to rest? I don't think my work ethic is that poor - but I can't rule it out. But feeling poorly and my early departure DID give me the opening to say to Emmeline - I can't do 4 days a week - end of message.

I have discussed in my other blog what this means for me in practical terms. What does it mean spiritually? I won't be so tired I won't have the energy for meditation and my exercises and that has GOT to be good.

Today I tried to watch and understand some of the Kaballah course I signed up for. I didn't get on very well. But I have had it re-enforced that it is about spiritual development - just like reiki. I was confused by the idea that permission is needed from above to reveal certain wisdom to others. At first that didn't make any sense - but then I thought that if it is about development - the journey to find that wisdom is part of development - so I guess it does. But even the basic stuff is talking about Sefirot and other things I don't understand. So where does this leave me and my quest to understand the Tree of Life? I'm not sure. Maybe its all just a distraction. I need to meditate on it - which is probably what a Rav would suggest I would do ....................

One thing I will say - they are not interested in making any money from the course. Its free and the books are downloadable as free pdfs. OWL charge 40.00 to join - although I think their Kaballah stuff can be downloaded free. I must check that out again. But is David Wells and the OWL a Kaballist that Rav Leitman would approve of ? Hmmmmm

Ok. This morning I got back into the routine of doing my spiritual exercises early. And I decided to use a card pick as part of them. I intended to pick just one card - but ended up picking five - and all I can say is WOW

In order I picked The Hierophant, Strength, Knight of Pentacles, 6 of Pentacles and The World.

As I said WOW. SO many relevant images and ideas. A desire for spiritual development, inner resources available. slow and steady progress, giving and receiving - and completion of something major.

So much of that fits in with Kabbalah ideas - but also with what feels right about where I am at the moment. And with what I am doing. It even fits if read as a horseshoe spread.

As I said .....WOW

I had a good day yesterday. I meditated and used the cards for the first time in a week. I didn't meditate properly - but I did pull 'meditation' as one of my cards. So today I am going to try a proper meditation.

Last night we ended up The Witch at short notice - and it was a VERY interesting evening. Tony saw stuff (something he has been wanting to do for ages) And I ended up giving a message to Emma. She was in contact with her uncle, who had already said he wanted her to talk to his aunt. I sudden;y got the word 'light hearted' come into my head. So I said'; He was a very light hearted person' and Emma said 'yes' I then pieced together everything she had already said' and said' he wants you to tell your aunt he is OK, and that he os OK with the fact that she has just re-married' (Emma had said her aunt had just married last week) I then just went with what I 'felt' was right and said he still loved his wife, but he had had to go and he was pleased she was carrying on with her life..

Now did I get that intuitively from what she had already said? Was I telling her what I THOUGHT her aunt would want to hear? I don't know - but I AM sure that was the message her uncle wanted to get across.

At the end of the evening Karl said people often make the mistake of trying too hard and thats me OK. But what I HAVE realised is just because I don't 'see' or 'hear' things doesn't mean I am NOT getting messages. I have been reading a life coaching book about 'meta models' and I have realised I am a kinaesthetic person. I 'feel' things. So is a great shock that psychically that is how I work? After all I came into psychic development to enhance my intuition - or how I 'feel' things from other people. I have to remember that and trust that when I do get the words or feelings in the right circumstances. And I think the key is recognising the right circumstances.

But for paranormal activity last night was a blast - including myself Emma and Rachel getting names on the ouija board that Carl could relate to that we could not know. Also Karl gave Emma a message about the front wheel on her car not knowing that she has had a recurring problem with the tyre on that wheel. And the table upstairs was moving in an amazing way, while the portal in the cellar was very active.

I have been feeling decidedly 'meh' for a couple of days, so I decided to do some self healing this morning. It was an interesting experience. IAt one point I had my eyes open, and could see my reflection in the mirror. I didn't look like me. It was as if someone else face was impressed on mine. Jenny?

And later on I had my hands on my abdomen - but I could feel reiki going into my head. It started off of one side so I asked Jenny if it was her to move it to the other side ....and it did.

When I first started channeling I had my hands by my head. I could feel the energy leaving my hands - and as normal wondered if it was just my hair tickling my hand - then I realised my hands were well away form my hair.

I felt REALLY thirsty as I was channeling.

All in all it was an interesting experience.

I meditated this morning and asked for any insights about the patient(s) I would be treating today. I got shown a heart and legs.

I had 3 referrals from the ward. One declines, one had a fractured femur - and old fracture so I could have treated her but she was away from the ward when I was free. the third lasy's main complaint was about her legs.

I also did a home treatment today for a carer who when I asked about her mother - who is the patient - commented about her heart disease.

Sometimes it just happens right!

The psychic fayre yesterday was good. I gave some reiki, and I am hoping to get at least one proper paying customer as a result. The readings were not as good, and I have decided to concentrate on tarot since those were the readings that went best. I can offer tarot readings modified by oracle cards or crystals for a small extra fee.

One of my reiki clients felt like an affirmation that I am on the right track. It was a favour for Karl, given free of charge, but it not only used my reiki skills but my hypnotherapy taught counseling skills and life coaching skills and my pharmacy knowledge as she is on anti-depressants. She was adamant that she wants to come and see me again professionally, and insisted I give her one of my cards.

I have also an idea about a circle. Marie wants me to help her with spiritual development - so when she comes round we have a small circle of 3 and we can all work together. That will also enable me to reduce the amount she pays me without her feeling guilty. If we benefit as much from what we do as she does, why should she pay as a massive sum of money? That feels like a 'win-win' to me

We know of other psychic fayres in the area, karl is going to have another one in Alcester in a couple
of months so we seem finally to have got our feet under the table with that.

My next goal MUST be to improve my mediumship so I can try to go for reiki teacher