I had a lousy nights sleep last night, followed by weird and upsetting dreams when I DID get to sleep. I was late up, and then had an adevnture when I decided to druve to Sainsbury (frts time driving since all the snow on Friday and yesterday) and I got stuck getting home outside my son's house and needed to be pushed, I ache, and am rather fed up contmeplating all the things that may not happen if I can't use the car - including circle on Thursday. So I have NOT done ANY piritual stuff no card no crystal. But I HAVE ket the appoitnment I made in the diary for today and di some CPD. So i do feel I have accomplished something. So why am I bloggin when I have nothing really to blog about. Well I am hoping some blogging will help clear my mind. So how do I feel - totally fed up, like crying, because I ache so much. Mind you I have done a work out including some jogging. But mianly I am tired. I have already told the hospice I won't get out there tomorrow. I feel guilty but while the main roads are fine the side roads are nasty and I am worried about getting stuck again. There is no sign of a thaw. But somthing weird has just happened. I mentioned on FB that I was looking for hypnotherapy courses and I have had a message from a pharmacist colleague about a course running at the hopsice where she works. AND it is running on a Thursday. Is this some sort of answer about what I chould use my Thursdays for! I do feel a little better now Later I have just done my ard pick and my crystal pick The card I got was tsunami - wake up call. I feel I am bieng told I NEED a wake up call The crystal is yellow jasper. Jasper is a great healing stone and closley alinged to the chakras. Yellow is for the solar plexus chakra - which is the kind of powerhouse of the chakras. Well I am very tired. So what is it I need 'wake up ad smell the coffee about' .............My trianing?? A lot of the things I have delat with today have been rleated to my traning - inlcuding a strange incident on healthy pages. i have been contacte dby the moderators to ask if I would check out the bona fides of a poseter who they feel is beig less than honesy in he rintentions.Interestingly she does crystal healing and I was interested before they asked me to test the waters. If I am to learn crystal healing experiencing it would be a greta starting point. Watch this space. I also think this needs I need to rethink how I THINK I am seen on Healthy pages. The moderators said they felt I could be trusted - whihc is nice. I suspect some of my pharmacist colleagues feel I cannot be trusted - but then maybe I am wrong about THAT as well If I am meant to have feet in both the conventional and complementary camps they I am sure the universe needs both sides to trsut me.......

Today I have done some distance healing - something I haven'd done for some time. It was for Sallie's daughter Gemma who is feeling down. for the first time EVER I used a crystal as part of the healing. I have no idea where the idea came from - but it felt right. Today my crystal is - I am fairly sure without looking it up - a banded agate . Having looked it up I feel I was right. Agate stabilises the aura. Since curcle next week is gong to be about the aura and how you can see it that goes in the 'well thats interesting' file. My card today from Earth Magic is Cave -sanctuary. I often use this card in readings as a signal for someone retreating into themselves to solve a problem. redaing whats in the book thats really what its about - and thats pretty much spot on. Its all abot finding that quiet spce inside you. I guess thats what I am doing when I am blogging and trying to sue it as a form of automatic writing. Mind you given the weather the other message of this card in stay indoors. We won't be going to Wolverhampton today. I am still loking for information about what I should do about Thursdays now Paula has closed the beauty side of the salon. I feel I need to learn from why thigns didn't work at Paula's. I need to focus our publicity better. We have an advert going into a ocal magazine (Pages) soon and it will be interesting to see if that brings any results. I have had more success with work at Sphere - what is the difference? I feel I need to FORMALISE my request for guidnace about Thursdays. So i will go with the wording Freda suggested. 'How do you want me to serve on Thusdays?'

I haven't meditated or done my reiki principles today - but I have been logged on on doing readings for Psychic Today. However I am taking time now to pic a card and a crystal. So my crystal pick is blue/purple jasper (I think) Blue if for communication, Jasper is linked to all the chakra and obviously my throat chakra needs support. But obviously communication is an important part of what I am doign when I am logged on. So that makes sense! My card pick is the Ace of Pentacles. I am using Tarot of the Angels and it shows a pentacle sitting on an apple tree laden with apples. I think this is a sign that materially I am comfortable and need to appreciate it. Well I do.

Circle was really good last night. I wrote a meditation and led it for the group - and it seemed to go very well. i am going to record it and give CD's to the group. I used it as the basis of my meditation today - and I feel I need to study more about crystals. That will be a tough assignment NOT!!! My card pick is from Earth Magic and it is lake - stillness. Or maybe its Autumnal equinox - release. That was my first pick but I rejected it. they don't feel as if they relate to me today. The weather today is appalling with heavy snow. I have to go to work and Tony has to decide what to do about the client he has booked for a reading at Sphere. i don't FEEL still - but I am not sure what i need to release My crystal today is blue goldstone which isn't i either of my book. So am I sure its goldstone? 'At work goldstone will ensure that you gain recognition and a chance to develop your strengths. It will also attract a better salary or job opportunities.' Interesting since today I am liable to be at work longer than I planned plus I am trying to work out what the universe wants me to do now Paula Jayne's is no longer open to me. Hmmmmmm

I have just done an online guided meditation run by a group called Law of Attraction. It was quite interesting. She used the words 'ease of flow' and I found all sorts of images came into head. A spirmng bubbling out of the ground, the reiki symbols flowing through my life. I must try it again tomorrow and see what happens. I have grabbed Tony's Shaman cards today and have got Tobacco which is Masculine, East Mars and Earth. I will type what it says in the book. I am tobacco. I am the sacerd offering. I am release of your negative elements and energies. I am purifciation. My smoke will provide you with clarity of thought and purpose. I am the sacred centre of native american spiritual knowledge. Do not be too selfish with what you are doing. remeber to give away. Giving is receiving. I offer to help through purification. I am the ascred smoke of the pipe ceremony My crystal today is picture jasper. Jasper is a nurturer, helps to align the chakras. It imparts determination. Picture jasper seems to have a variety of uses depending where you look, but it is supposed to help with visualisation and business pursuits. Yesterday my business changed for good. Paula has decdied to abandon beauty so I can no longer do reiki up there. The card and csyratl feel approriate to this change. I am actually excited that things are chnaging. I can do things with Thursdays without worrying about not having clients up there. Sphere has alays been better than Paula's since I moved in there. All together the meditation card and crystal seem to fit. I need tor elase negativity to make the most of the opportunity Paula's decison gives me - and I do feel it is an opportunity. This feels right somehow

A bit of a rush today. My crystal pick is tree agate. This is very much about nature but also helps promotes feelings of positivity. It also helps promote feelings of safety in challenging situations. Hmm I am working at ROH today. I suspect I will be working with Pam today - which I always find challenging. My card pick from tarot of the Angels is The Emperor. he is golding a flaming sword on one hand and a ball in the other. He is is sitting on his throne with a red winged angel standing behind him - hands on the Emperor's shoulders. The meaning in the book is Seek power - only for good. Seek strength - only to defend yourself. Seek security -but only to offer stability to the weak. The thought that went through my mind was 'how does this relate to the reiki principles?' Something to think about as I walk to work since I have no time to meditate on them properly this morning (I overslept ) And it will keep my mind off the cold. -3 this morning!

This morning I have done some self helaing combined with contemplation of the reiki principles. And here I am blogging again after making dialy card and crystal picks. My card today is Dance - celebration. My crystal is Unkanite. Unkanite balances emotions with spirituality, it is the stone of vision. It promotes visualization and psychic vision. It provides gorunding and can be useful after meditation and psychic work. I can see why I picked that especially today as its Tuesday and I will be off to the hospice for what should be a fairly concentrated 'spiritual' day of giving reiki. My inital recation to 'Dance' was what have I got to celebrate? But I realise I actually have quite a lot to celebrate. The image on the card is of an african native woman dancing. Why a woman? Whay not a man? I am being told to celebrate my femininity. Am I being told I will have something to celebrtae later today? Its possible This morning I meant to join in an intenet guided meditation session run a group called the Law of Attraction. Visulaisation is the main way to put the law of attraction into action. Is that why I picked the unkanite? I am being told to visualise having reason to celebrate.