What's going on? Two posts in one day? I have been thinking about things on and off.And if eel things are starting to fall into place I booked time to do CPD. I need to book time to do meditation, and self healing. I need to be patient with myself - just as David says. I have come a long way. And one of the messages for a pisces is don't expect perfection. I do and I make things way to hard on myself And suddenly things are starting work out for us. We have made a connection up at a new tea shop and she is happy for us to put leaflets in there and to offer readings up there to her clients. Two new businesses helping each other out Tony has been commissioned to write for a new role playing system. Nothing to so with psychic work but his progress affects mine and vice versa. I have details about a one day course about Crystal healing in April in Gloucester and it doesn't cost a huge amount. And its on a Thursday. This s celarly how I meant to serve by improving my skills at the moment.

Wow. I should be at work today. I have not gone in because I couldn't face it. I was at the hospital for the past 2 days and it wore me out. My official reason was that I had a slip on the ice and snow yesterday evening (true but it was only a very one) and that it had upset my back (not true) I need to think about why I decided to compromise my reiki principles to get out of work. Partly it is because Tony is worried about walking up to the shop to see his client today because it is still so icy and if I am home I can drive him up. I need to think abut why I feel I need to support Tony in this way. Anyway I decided to have a nice long hot bath (something I haven't done for a bit - and I grabbed David Well Guide to developing your psychic skills to read in the bath. As I read it I realised that I have never actually DONE the exercises he suggests. I know they will work I teach other people to do them but I haven't actually done them myself. Now what does THAT tell me about myself? Is it a coincidence these thoughts came to be in the bath? Probably not. My sign is Pisces after all. I feel I have the inkling of an idea about how to change things for myself but I have LOT of thinking to do.

Still not sure how succesful I am being with this - but today I did my reiki principles and healing equests while I was still in bed.... it was warmer there! I have picked Green man - synergy as my card today. Reading the book the messgae of this card is that I have an incredible synergy guiding me so that things will fall into place. I need faith that the messag eof this card is right. Thingsdone FELL as if they are going well - but then how often do I tell people that initally a chnage won't feel good but will work out well in the end. That idea really DID just pop into my head. This iS working I think :-) My crystal is quartz which I feel is for communication. I am not sure who I need to communicate with. My guides? the circle? the face bok community? I haven't been communicating much for Krystal wolf - I need to get back to that

I had a lousy nights sleep last night, followed by weird and upsetting dreams when I DID get to sleep. I was late up, and then had an adevnture when I decided to druve to Sainsbury (frts time driving since all the snow on Friday and yesterday) and I got stuck getting home outside my son's house and needed to be pushed, I ache, and am rather fed up contmeplating all the things that may not happen if I can't use the car - including circle on Thursday. So I have NOT done ANY piritual stuff no card no crystal. But I HAVE ket the appoitnment I made in the diary for today and di some CPD. So i do feel I have accomplished something. So why am I bloggin when I have nothing really to blog about. Well I am hoping some blogging will help clear my mind. So how do I feel - totally fed up, like crying, because I ache so much. Mind you I have done a work out including some jogging. But mianly I am tired. I have already told the hospice I won't get out there tomorrow. I feel guilty but while the main roads are fine the side roads are nasty and I am worried about getting stuck again. There is no sign of a thaw. But somthing weird has just happened. I mentioned on FB that I was looking for hypnotherapy courses and I have had a message from a pharmacist colleague about a course running at the hopsice where she works. AND it is running on a Thursday. Is this some sort of answer about what I chould use my Thursdays for! I do feel a little better now Later I have just done my ard pick and my crystal pick The card I got was tsunami - wake up call. I feel I am bieng told I NEED a wake up call The crystal is yellow jasper. Jasper is a great healing stone and closley alinged to the chakras. Yellow is for the solar plexus chakra - which is the kind of powerhouse of the chakras. Well I am very tired. So what is it I need 'wake up ad smell the coffee about' .............My trianing?? A lot of the things I have delat with today have been rleated to my traning - inlcuding a strange incident on healthy pages. i have been contacte dby the moderators to ask if I would check out the bona fides of a poseter who they feel is beig less than honesy in he rintentions.Interestingly she does crystal healing and I was interested before they asked me to test the waters. If I am to learn crystal healing experiencing it would be a greta starting point. Watch this space. I also think this needs I need to rethink how I THINK I am seen on Healthy pages. The moderators said they felt I could be trusted - whihc is nice. I suspect some of my pharmacist colleagues feel I cannot be trusted - but then maybe I am wrong about THAT as well If I am meant to have feet in both the conventional and complementary camps they I am sure the universe needs both sides to trsut me.......

Today I have done some distance healing - something I haven'd done for some time. It was for Sallie's daughter Gemma who is feeling down. for the first time EVER I used a crystal as part of the healing. I have no idea where the idea came from - but it felt right. Today my crystal is - I am fairly sure without looking it up - a banded agate . Having looked it up I feel I was right. Agate stabilises the aura. Since curcle next week is gong to be about the aura and how you can see it that goes in the 'well thats interesting' file. My card today from Earth Magic is Cave -sanctuary. I often use this card in readings as a signal for someone retreating into themselves to solve a problem. redaing whats in the book thats really what its about - and thats pretty much spot on. Its all abot finding that quiet spce inside you. I guess thats what I am doing when I am blogging and trying to sue it as a form of automatic writing. Mind you given the weather the other message of this card in stay indoors. We won't be going to Wolverhampton today. I am still loking for information about what I should do about Thursdays now Paula has closed the beauty side of the salon. I feel I need to learn from why thigns didn't work at Paula's. I need to focus our publicity better. We have an advert going into a ocal magazine (Pages) soon and it will be interesting to see if that brings any results. I have had more success with work at Sphere - what is the difference? I feel I need to FORMALISE my request for guidnace about Thursdays. So i will go with the wording Freda suggested. 'How do you want me to serve on Thusdays?'

I haven't meditated or done my reiki principles today - but I have been logged on on doing readings for Psychic Today. However I am taking time now to pic a card and a crystal. So my crystal pick is blue/purple jasper (I think) Blue if for communication, Jasper is linked to all the chakra and obviously my throat chakra needs support. But obviously communication is an important part of what I am doign when I am logged on. So that makes sense! My card pick is the Ace of Pentacles. I am using Tarot of the Angels and it shows a pentacle sitting on an apple tree laden with apples. I think this is a sign that materially I am comfortable and need to appreciate it. Well I do.

Circle was really good last night. I wrote a meditation and led it for the group - and it seemed to go very well. i am going to record it and give CD's to the group. I used it as the basis of my meditation today - and I feel I need to study more about crystals. That will be a tough assignment NOT!!! My card pick is from Earth Magic and it is lake - stillness. Or maybe its Autumnal equinox - release. That was my first pick but I rejected it. they don't feel as if they relate to me today. The weather today is appalling with heavy snow. I have to go to work and Tony has to decide what to do about the client he has booked for a reading at Sphere. i don't FEEL still - but I am not sure what i need to release My crystal today is blue goldstone which isn't i either of my book. So am I sure its goldstone? 'At work goldstone will ensure that you gain recognition and a chance to develop your strengths. It will also attract a better salary or job opportunities.' Interesting since today I am liable to be at work longer than I planned plus I am trying to work out what the universe wants me to do now Paula Jayne's is no longer open to me. Hmmmmmm