OK so in the last 3 years I have moved from someone who was interested in the paranormal- but very sceptical - to being much less sceptical and wondering if I may have a psychic ability of some sort.
If I look back I can recall events from when I was a teenager when I felt I knew what was going to happen. I remember vividly an incident from the days as a Saturday girl at Boots. I was holding a jar of honey in my hand. I remember thinking' I wonder what sort of mess this would make if I dropped it' Next minute the jar was on the floor - and I did NOT deliberately drop it. There are non paranormal explanations - but a flash of foreknowledge IS one explanation. I also remember an event when someone we were xpecting did not turn up. I commented afterwards that I wasn't surprised that I had felt they were not going to turn up. That could just be hindsight or pessimism. But again it COULD have been psychic.
There is a lot of 'coulds ' and 'maybes' in the story so far. And I havent had much success when I have conciously tried to predict events.
A sceptic would look at the facts and correctly point out that I am claiming to have had forknowledge of events when I was young, but now am saying I have empathic ability. But maybe I still have the ability to nake predictions.
I remember doing a 'Mystic Mog' act at Steve's school fetes when he was at Juniot school. At the time I had a computerised 'I Ching' program. I would get the person to press the mouse key and bring up symbols - and I would give them a reading. I remember I foind it very easy to do, and sometimes the people I read for did say what I said made sense. I was in NO WAY pretending to be a reel fortune teller, It was clear it was all for fun, but maybe I was picking up something from them.
Just as I can rationalise that David Wells uses astrology charts as a tool to focus his predictive abilities, maybe I used the I Ching programme (or the dice in my recent experimemnts) to focus any ability I may have.
Why is all this so imprtant to me? Why am I currently investing money and time to find out if I have an ability?
It sounds trite to say I think I being 'called' to it - but that is exactly how I feel.
If it turns out I haven't got any ability will I be dissppinted? Yes. Will I think it has been a waste of time? No - becasue I know I have learned about myself during the past 3 years - and that information will always be useful
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
Monday, 27 July 2009
I have a mentir
Carolyn invited me to join a psychic social network site! So I did and I have now got a mentor. Like everything else that has happened to me arounf the whole psychic thing it was almost accidental. The moderator started a group for anyone who wanted training, so I posted something . I got a response from a lady called Lind in Canada who used the very descriptive phrase 'psychic vampires draining you of energy' That rang a bell, so I accepted her offer to mentor me and she has come through with excatly the right thing for me. Bretahing excercises twice a day 5 minutes each time. I know what I have to do and how long for.
I have also posted a link to this blog on the site. So I had better continue with the tale of how a depressed scientist ended up beleiving she may just have psychic ability.
I read Soraya's book and found I could rationalise the spells section as simply being a way of focussing on what you want. ;You get more of what you focus on' as Mr Mckenna would say. The psychic section of the book started with a section on the Chakra's. I could never get my head round the idea of chakra's and frankly it was ooe of those ideas I had always felt was on the nutty side of the paranormal. Even though David Wells - who I have always felt had great integrity - clearly beleived in chakra's I didn't. But I started looking for more information and turned to Wikepedia. The entry I fund contained a comment that some people beleived the chakra's related to hormone glands. Suddenly I was in familiar territory. I had no difficulty beleiving that imagination can affect the endocrine glands. So I decided to delve a little deeper into Soraya's book and learn about the chakra's. I had a 'eureka' moment when I learned that imagination happens in the crown chakra ( as opposed to visualisation happening in the 3 rd eye chakra) and that the crown chakra is the seat of spirituality.
It was all the imagining I did when working through CYLI7D that started me off on this path. It was through that I realised I had lost touch with the spiritual side.
At this point I gave up fighting and just sccepted that for whatever reason someone wanted me to go down this path.
Do I beleive in chakra's? No not really. But I can accept that others use that as their tool for getting in touch with whatever power is out there.
One of the things Carolyn said on Thursday was ' Where you the sort of child who always wanted explanations and wanted know how things worked' She said this was the impression she got from Dad. Well yes I was - and it seems I still am. Having fund a plausible explanation for how chakra's or tarot cards, or astrology could be used (basically all tools to focus the mind to the task you want to undertake) I find I can beleive in psychic powers - because I know how powerful the mind is, and I know we son't understand a tenth of what it can do.. And I now want to find out what MY mind can do if I train it the right way.
This is acceptable to my world view, even my reigious view becasue I do beleive in an ultimate power code named 'God' Although what God thinks of all the religious wars ging on I dread to think!
Up to now I have been dabbling. Now I have some proper trainign planned. Will I be dissappointed if I dont discover the smae sort of ability as Claire is discovering on Psychic Acadamey ?(I am sure she is going to win) To be honest yes I will be. But I do beleive I can learn to use my mind more effectively , to connect to 'God' and its power to help people.
I have also posted a link to this blog on the site. So I had better continue with the tale of how a depressed scientist ended up beleiving she may just have psychic ability.
I read Soraya's book and found I could rationalise the spells section as simply being a way of focussing on what you want. ;You get more of what you focus on' as Mr Mckenna would say. The psychic section of the book started with a section on the Chakra's. I could never get my head round the idea of chakra's and frankly it was ooe of those ideas I had always felt was on the nutty side of the paranormal. Even though David Wells - who I have always felt had great integrity - clearly beleived in chakra's I didn't. But I started looking for more information and turned to Wikepedia. The entry I fund contained a comment that some people beleived the chakra's related to hormone glands. Suddenly I was in familiar territory. I had no difficulty beleiving that imagination can affect the endocrine glands. So I decided to delve a little deeper into Soraya's book and learn about the chakra's. I had a 'eureka' moment when I learned that imagination happens in the crown chakra ( as opposed to visualisation happening in the 3 rd eye chakra) and that the crown chakra is the seat of spirituality.
It was all the imagining I did when working through CYLI7D that started me off on this path. It was through that I realised I had lost touch with the spiritual side.
At this point I gave up fighting and just sccepted that for whatever reason someone wanted me to go down this path.
Do I beleive in chakra's? No not really. But I can accept that others use that as their tool for getting in touch with whatever power is out there.
One of the things Carolyn said on Thursday was ' Where you the sort of child who always wanted explanations and wanted know how things worked' She said this was the impression she got from Dad. Well yes I was - and it seems I still am. Having fund a plausible explanation for how chakra's or tarot cards, or astrology could be used (basically all tools to focus the mind to the task you want to undertake) I find I can beleive in psychic powers - because I know how powerful the mind is, and I know we son't understand a tenth of what it can do.. And I now want to find out what MY mind can do if I train it the right way.
This is acceptable to my world view, even my reigious view becasue I do beleive in an ultimate power code named 'God' Although what God thinks of all the religious wars ging on I dread to think!
Up to now I have been dabbling. Now I have some proper trainign planned. Will I be dissappointed if I dont discover the smae sort of ability as Claire is discovering on Psychic Acadamey ?(I am sure she is going to win) To be honest yes I will be. But I do beleive I can learn to use my mind more effectively , to connect to 'God' and its power to help people.
Sunday, 26 July 2009
Does this count?
I'm not really sure but I'll put t down anyway - becasue if I get ots of these types of thing sit may indicate a trend.
One of the things Steve told me about Judy was that she had a previosu relationship whihc ended because hewas very manipulative. The thought that went through my mind was that it was possible Judy was the manipulative one - and she projected her problem on to him.
Yesterday having learned that the realtionship had broken Alanna (who was Steve's target until she said she preferred Scott!) told him that she had always felt Judy was manipulative.
Also he admitted that he DID see Judy as his 'one and only'. I am now wondering if I was also right when I felt that Judy had ended the realtionship because she wasn't ready to get serious - and Steve was govong clear signals he was.
I have booked myself AND Tony on the Hay Castle event. I am so pleased :-) I really want him to meet Carolyn and I want to meet Jeanagh.
One of the things Steve told me about Judy was that she had a previosu relationship whihc ended because hewas very manipulative. The thought that went through my mind was that it was possible Judy was the manipulative one - and she projected her problem on to him.
Yesterday having learned that the realtionship had broken Alanna (who was Steve's target until she said she preferred Scott!) told him that she had always felt Judy was manipulative.
Also he admitted that he DID see Judy as his 'one and only'. I am now wondering if I was also right when I felt that Judy had ended the realtionship because she wasn't ready to get serious - and Steve was govong clear signals he was.
I have booked myself AND Tony on the Hay Castle event. I am so pleased :-) I really want him to meet Carolyn and I want to meet Jeanagh.
Saturday, 25 July 2009
Thursday, 23 July 2009
Carolyn
I went to see Carolyn yesterday after work. I had asked her for some advice via FB, and she suggested I go round. She didnt even charge me for her time.
It was fascinating. She asked me for some jewellery - and I gave her the ring Edna gave me. Se did psychometry on it. What she told me was accurate . Busy minds (probably both mine and Edna's) and I need to slow down.
I was hoping using that ring would give her a feel for Edna or a link to Doug . I am sure it was Doug she was seeing at Dudley Castle.
I dont think she intended to connect to the spirit world for me bu someone DID come through and it semmed to be Dad. the things she said related to growing tomatoes and chrysanthemums, and the value of gardening as relaxation. She mentioned his cough and chest, She mentioned that at 78 'it all fell apart' he died when he was 79. She asked if were planning any decorating. We are in the middle of a load of renovation and decorating. She mentioned some things that didnt make sense about a pocket watch he inhesrited from his dad, and a boy on bike. She also said Tony is very laid back - and that he should do more to help me in the kitchen - whihc is something I would appreciate and have asked him to do.
I asked Jane about the pocket watch but she said the only pocket watch she knows about is one that belonged Grandad. I presume she means Mum's dad. If it turns out she means Grandad Howe that WILL be amazing.
I wenmt to see Carolyn hoping to connect to Doug and try to get an inside track to Edna's mind. And Also some confirmation that I am doing the right things for Edna. I rpobably got the messages I needed to hear (slow down!!) And Carolyn did say it was probably impossible to get a good handle on what is going on in Edna's mind becasue ti is so busy. And it is true At one point Carolyn mentioned Edna coming out with a 'torrent of words' which is exactly what is like.
I really want Tony to meet Carolyn. I would love him to have a reading. If she doesn't go to Pendle Hill when we do, I wil make a formal appointment for us to see her.
It was interstimg that when talking about gardening Carolyn decribed it as very meditative . I told her later about my efforst at meditation attempting to unlock whatever psychic ability I may have.
I came away with a lot to think about. And I think some gardening will be on my agenda for the weekend.
It was fascinating. She asked me for some jewellery - and I gave her the ring Edna gave me. Se did psychometry on it. What she told me was accurate . Busy minds (probably both mine and Edna's) and I need to slow down.
I was hoping using that ring would give her a feel for Edna or a link to Doug . I am sure it was Doug she was seeing at Dudley Castle.
I dont think she intended to connect to the spirit world for me bu someone DID come through and it semmed to be Dad. the things she said related to growing tomatoes and chrysanthemums, and the value of gardening as relaxation. She mentioned his cough and chest, She mentioned that at 78 'it all fell apart' he died when he was 79. She asked if were planning any decorating. We are in the middle of a load of renovation and decorating. She mentioned some things that didnt make sense about a pocket watch he inhesrited from his dad, and a boy on bike. She also said Tony is very laid back - and that he should do more to help me in the kitchen - whihc is something I would appreciate and have asked him to do.
I asked Jane about the pocket watch but she said the only pocket watch she knows about is one that belonged Grandad. I presume she means Mum's dad. If it turns out she means Grandad Howe that WILL be amazing.
I wenmt to see Carolyn hoping to connect to Doug and try to get an inside track to Edna's mind. And Also some confirmation that I am doing the right things for Edna. I rpobably got the messages I needed to hear (slow down!!) And Carolyn did say it was probably impossible to get a good handle on what is going on in Edna's mind becasue ti is so busy. And it is true At one point Carolyn mentioned Edna coming out with a 'torrent of words' which is exactly what is like.
I really want Tony to meet Carolyn. I would love him to have a reading. If she doesn't go to Pendle Hill when we do, I wil make a formal appointment for us to see her.
It was interstimg that when talking about gardening Carolyn decribed it as very meditative . I told her later about my efforst at meditation attempting to unlock whatever psychic ability I may have.
I came away with a lot to think about. And I think some gardening will be on my agenda for the weekend.
Sunday, 19 July 2009
Re-visiting my experiments
I did suggest to Edna that she avoids the common room because she wants to avoid conversations where her poor memory might become obvious. She denied it - but I still think I am right. I got regaled with tales of all the things she does in the common room - so I guess she has forgotten she hasn't been down for weeks.
I also took another look at my dice divination when I asked if Edna would go back to Fosters. I realised the one thing I hadnt looked at was the number I got from adding up the numbers. It came out at 4 - and the phrase 'major changes around the home' leaped out at me from the page of Soraya's book.
So I think the answer to my question is 'No she won't go back to Foster's'
I also took another look at my dice divination when I asked if Edna would go back to Fosters. I realised the one thing I hadnt looked at was the number I got from adding up the numbers. It came out at 4 - and the phrase 'major changes around the home' leaped out at me from the page of Soraya's book.
So I think the answer to my question is 'No she won't go back to Foster's'
Saturday, 18 July 2009
In the middle of disaster
Things are pretty crappy at the moment (see other blogs) but yesterday I did feel my intuition had been sharpened a bit. I had 2 'eureka' moments yesterday when I felt I understood hidden messages behind things
I realised that Edna no longer goes to the common room because she doesn't want to talk to anyone because she so often gets lost in the middle of a sentence. She doesn't want to appear an idiot.
I realised that when Tony surprised me by starting work on staining the door it was his way of saying' I love you'
Their may not be much paranormal about these two , but I feel good that I had the insight to realise. I do feel positive I am right and that means something I have been doing is working.
I realised that Edna no longer goes to the common room because she doesn't want to talk to anyone because she so often gets lost in the middle of a sentence. She doesn't want to appear an idiot.
I realised that when Tony surprised me by starting work on staining the door it was his way of saying' I love you'
Their may not be much paranormal about these two , but I feel good that I had the insight to realise. I do feel positive I am right and that means something I have been doing is working.
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