I haven't made an entry for a couple of days but I have been meditating daily. Although not always formally doing the candle music and incense . Today I did self healing and meditation together. Meditated for 'health and well being' and the clear message I got was 'don't procrastinate' So I have come down and straight away told my milkman and the vegetable delivery people that we are on holiday so I have cancelled the deliveries. I could have left Abel and Cole until tomorrow and MIlk and More until much later but tis done - and now I can relax. Why do I procrastinate? I put things off during the day like meditation and self healing. I put things off like paperwork until later in the week. Thats why I am in such a mess with my HPD portfolio. I kept putting it off and putting it off. This is what the introspection card I got twice on Thursday at circle means. I need to work out why I procrastinate and how I can stop it. It is far aand away my worst fault - and it is what is holding me back. . My mantra needs to be 'just do it'

Interesting times

The last couple of days have been really interesting. Out of the blue I had a phone call from someone in Netherton who has booked a home visit for hypnotherapy. The yesterday evening Rhonda - a lady Tony did a reading for months back - suddenly knocked on our door and we ended up lending her a CD to help her meditate. Then today I have had a phone call from a lady in Nechells in who wants s home visit for reiki. And all this has happened since I had that meditation where I saw myself easily getting over the wall. I have just meditated today. My focus was peace and calm - but as I was meditating I found myself remembering David Wells advice to meditate on a card. I remembered yesterdays card pick for our page which was 'Tree - grounding' The interpretation I put on that was that if someone was involved in a project to keep their feet on the ground - but I also went on to say that the other message was that good foundations had been built and that would be reflected in the future development. At the time I did feel it was apt for us - but the meditation seems to have confirmed that. Hopefully things are about to develop as we want them too.

I did miss one days mediation. Yesterday I tried to meditate before I went to bed - after a day when a LOT of things went wrong. I DID try - but it wasn't going to work. However this morning I let a candle, burnt incense and played music. My meditation was surprising. I found myself on a beach sitting in the sun - then shaded by a beach umbrella the suddenly appeared courtesy of Thomas (I think) I looked at the white sand and blue sea and though 'Sodalite' So I wore sodalite today - and I had a great day

Recurrent theme

Fr some reason I have the song 'When we live in a world of our own' running through my mind. I have NO idea why. But as I finished 'How to be a bad christian' (the book I was given yesterday I realised the sentiment was quite apt in some ways for the apr of the book I was reading. He was talking about the butterfly effect and how small random actions can have unexpected effects. I realised that is creating 'a world of my own' with such acts - like my volunteer work at the hospice, and even like my work for the TV station. I have a small window of time to help the people I interact with - that can create a different world for them AND me. I haven't done the 'om' bit today - but I feel my reading of the book has been a meditation. But I will do the 'om' thing in a bit. And I am still a biscuit free zone!!!

An interesting meditation

My meditation this morning was VERY interesting. Thomas came clearly to mind. I saw his rock gift as an affirmation that I am right to be doing the crystal course. I then got an odd image of me jumping a wall - a high wall the sort of things you see in army assault courses and I got the feeling I make too much of what I perceive as obstacles. I also got the words. You go too slowly. This really does build on the confidence meditation yesterday - and in a way is born out by various things that have happened over the past day. This includes a reading request from someone in Tanzania. And she hasn't baulked at the idea of paying. I had an amazing conversation today while I was waiting for car tyres to be fitted. I was sitting next to a lady who turned out to be ordained - and she gave me a book called 'How to be a bad christian' It whiled away the LONG time I spent waiting for my car to be finished - and I agree with a lot of what is in the book so far. It is getting me to think about what I believe - and that is always good, Plus I read some of the crystal course information - and I found I could agree with a lot of what they said and it fits in with my hypnotherapy and reiki very well. I feel excited :-)

Day one of my lent challenge

Well day one went OK. I mediated for peace an calm in the morning. Then we did the Fairy path working at circle - and Mab gave me a tarot card. I couldn't see which one tho. But I then got the idea of running a workshop to teach people how to use their cards. So I have created an event this morning. lets see what sort of response it gets. This morning I meditated with ;confidence' as my focus. I got the feeling Thomas was there reminding he is my rock and I can have confidence in him. Amazingly I have just had a call from 88g that I know I got spot on - and last night with the psychiatry I also picked up something that was spot on. So I am feeling quietly confident. Getting that call so soon after the mediation was ..............almost a wow moment.

Tuesday was pancake day and I suddenly realised that means it is Lent. And I have decided to use that as a fcus to help myself. Traditionally people challenge themselves during lent. So I am challenging myself to meditate for at least 5 minutes EVERY day - and NOT to eat ANY biscuits for the rest of lent. Watch this space