At the moment I seem to be dabbling in so many things. Reiki is the main one, but I am also doing tarot, and Sue insists I AM a medium even tho i dont think I am.
To be honest I haven't been doing much lately. We SHOULD be in Scotland - but due to the weather and Steve being ill (I spent 2 hours in A and E with him Thursday morning) we haven't gone. I've been gutted about not going away and it has taken some of my focus away I think. But Tony gave me a copy of David Well's Psychic Secrets for my birthday and reading that (plus some other apparently events) has given me the impetus I needed.
On Sunday night as we were on our way home from a Dr Who game, Tony mentioned an old character from one of our games - Claire Feran - who was played as a typical teenager. Then yesterday Tony showed me some automatic writing he had done which clearly seemed to say 'Claire Sally guide' I suggested that having been discussing Claire the day before had put the name into his mind.
Today I was reading David's book and being inspired to get back on track decided I would meditate for the first time in a few days. I had just been reading the bit in the book where David talks about different spirit guides - and he included a description of gatekeepers. So I set my intention to find out about Claire and the thought that popped into my head was that she was a biker - possibly a hell's angel - and that she is my gatekeeper.
OK the sceptic would say I was being influenced by the book just as Tony has been influenced by our discussion about Claire Feran. But I believe your subconscious picks up signals like that and when you meditate or get on touch with your subconscious in the right way you can put together these things to get the correct message - just as when I picked up on Sue's fertility problems because I happened to notice a packet of tampax in her bathroom.
Reading Davids book took me back 3 and a half years -because he was telling me the same sorts of things Paul McKenna told me in CYLI7D. I take that as confirmiaton that I am on the right track. He also said a lot of things Sue has said about not trying to hard and trusting my instincts.
I want to re-read that book, try some of his guided meditations and re-read his other book as well. I also want to learn about Qaballah.
I do feel re-inspired today - and I a looking forward to my second reiki attunment on Saturday.
One thing I also need to record is that I think I may MAY possibly be starting to see aura's. Of course that could just be my imagination.
I am also wondering if I have found the reason for that gnome vision. I am wondering if it is a symbol of earth sent to show me I need to keep earth elements in my life to keep myself balanced.
Again this is something I have picked up from David's book.
Tuesday, 2 March 2010
Monday, 22 February 2010
My first tarot reading for an outsider
One of the women I work with discovered I had tarot cards and asked me to do a reading for her. We ended up doing in an odd way because she picked her cards then I went home to do the redaing and reported back to her next time I saw her (which was today)
During the shuffle she dropped one card which I decided to put into the reading and she selected 5 others.
The dropped card was the 3 of cups - sharing with loved ones.
The cards she picked were
Page of Pentacles - opprotunity for material success ?? a new project
8 wands new begining full speed ahead
5 swords - may be chalenges
Empress security and comfort satisfaction from bringing things to fruition
8 Pentacles regeneration - new direction study.
From this I decided my friend is creative would be starting a new project, that maybe study would be involved somewhere and that family is very important to her.
I turns out family IS important to her - she still talks to her ex husband every week even though they have been divorced 12 years and the kids are grown up
She is starting a new project -some decorating and she is creative. She also does a lot of study ate adult education classes.
Her opinion was I got it spot on. I'm chuffed
I'm wondering what the 8's may mean tho - I must try and find out
During the shuffle she dropped one card which I decided to put into the reading and she selected 5 others.
The dropped card was the 3 of cups - sharing with loved ones.
The cards she picked were
Page of Pentacles - opprotunity for material success ?? a new project
8 wands new begining full speed ahead
5 swords - may be chalenges
Empress security and comfort satisfaction from bringing things to fruition
8 Pentacles regeneration - new direction study.
From this I decided my friend is creative would be starting a new project, that maybe study would be involved somewhere and that family is very important to her.
I turns out family IS important to her - she still talks to her ex husband every week even though they have been divorced 12 years and the kids are grown up
She is starting a new project -some decorating and she is creative. She also does a lot of study ate adult education classes.
Her opinion was I got it spot on. I'm chuffed
I'm wondering what the 8's may mean tho - I must try and find out
Wednesday, 17 February 2010
First distance healing
I have just tried distance healing for the first time. The recipient was my reiki teacher and it was a weird experience.
I had incense burning in the room beforehand and I 'blessed' the room with CKR earlier in the evening. I also wafted incense into te corners and made the CKR symbol with the tip of the joss stick. So te room was well prepared and made as sacred as I could.
I opted to sue a teddy bear held between my hands as the focus for the reiki.
So I used the symbols - including SHK - to invoke reiki and send it elsewhere then stated clearly my intention that the healing go to Sue in Droitwich. I held the toy between my hands and focused. At times I visualised Sue but it was too tricky to keep the visualisation going for the full 30 minute sof the treatment.
At one point I used CKR but kept the spiral going and pulled my hand away from the toy to pull negative stuff our of Sue.
I know she is upset because her husband has been admitted to hospital
At times my hands got the tingling onthe back of the hands /wrists that I get during a 'hands on' treatment.
At the end of the session I wrapped the toy up in reiki and sealed it with CKR.
I texted Sue at the end of the session to say I hoped it had helped and I have just had a message back saying it has.
Full feed back will be tomorrow!
I had incense burning in the room beforehand and I 'blessed' the room with CKR earlier in the evening. I also wafted incense into te corners and made the CKR symbol with the tip of the joss stick. So te room was well prepared and made as sacred as I could.
I opted to sue a teddy bear held between my hands as the focus for the reiki.
So I used the symbols - including SHK - to invoke reiki and send it elsewhere then stated clearly my intention that the healing go to Sue in Droitwich. I held the toy between my hands and focused. At times I visualised Sue but it was too tricky to keep the visualisation going for the full 30 minute sof the treatment.
At one point I used CKR but kept the spiral going and pulled my hand away from the toy to pull negative stuff our of Sue.
I know she is upset because her husband has been admitted to hospital
At times my hands got the tingling onthe back of the hands /wrists that I get during a 'hands on' treatment.
At the end of the session I wrapped the toy up in reiki and sealed it with CKR.
I texted Sue at the end of the session to say I hoped it had helped and I have just had a message back saying it has.
Full feed back will be tomorrow!
Sunday, 14 February 2010
Circle
The circle was at Arrons house on Saturday mainly because Allegra's husband was working from home and wasn't available for childcare. But alos poor Arron has a broken leg. It was an unusual circle as we did a walk round of some rooms where Arron senses spirits. Tony got such a lot of information!!
Then we helped to rescue the spirits. the first one (a man we believe was called Jeffrey Franklin) Allegra rescued with our help. the second one (a woman called Alison who had lost a baby) Arron rescued with Tony and I helping. Both times I felt an energy surge as the spirit crossed to the light. Both times I felt the surge then Allegra confirmed they had gone.
This morning Tony and I were talking about his elusive male guide. From a piece of automatic writing Tony had doene I had previosuly seen the name Peter - although Tony saw the date 1642. So I suggested Peter as the name of this guide and sudden;y Tony started to get loads of information about him and about Sarah.
Allegra thinks Tony will help me with my mediumship skills. Despite what Sue says I don't see myself as a medium - but I wouldn't rule ANYTHING in or out.
Tony has lost his crystal pyramid and is quite upset. I know if it is important he will eiather find it or find another one. I used me pendulum today for the first time in weeks. I didnt get any convincing answers to anything.
Oh and oe of my predictions of a few days ago was wrong - my car is now officially written off.
I am still pulling major arcana cards tho. Today it was The Chariot which is highly appropriate on the day I found my new car.
I felt SO at home the moment I sat behind the wheel of the new car (Skoda fabia 1.4L) Interestingly they get very few 1.4l models but I had decided I wanted a 1.4l car and lo and behold they had one in stock of the right age in a colour I liked at a price that was well within my budget. I am convinced I was meant to have the car I have just bought
Then we helped to rescue the spirits. the first one (a man we believe was called Jeffrey Franklin) Allegra rescued with our help. the second one (a woman called Alison who had lost a baby) Arron rescued with Tony and I helping. Both times I felt an energy surge as the spirit crossed to the light. Both times I felt the surge then Allegra confirmed they had gone.
This morning Tony and I were talking about his elusive male guide. From a piece of automatic writing Tony had doene I had previosuly seen the name Peter - although Tony saw the date 1642. So I suggested Peter as the name of this guide and sudden;y Tony started to get loads of information about him and about Sarah.
Allegra thinks Tony will help me with my mediumship skills. Despite what Sue says I don't see myself as a medium - but I wouldn't rule ANYTHING in or out.
Tony has lost his crystal pyramid and is quite upset. I know if it is important he will eiather find it or find another one. I used me pendulum today for the first time in weeks. I didnt get any convincing answers to anything.
Oh and oe of my predictions of a few days ago was wrong - my car is now officially written off.
I am still pulling major arcana cards tho. Today it was The Chariot which is highly appropriate on the day I found my new car.
I felt SO at home the moment I sat behind the wheel of the new car (Skoda fabia 1.4L) Interestingly they get very few 1.4l models but I had decided I wanted a 1.4l car and lo and behold they had one in stock of the right age in a colour I liked at a price that was well within my budget. I am convinced I was meant to have the car I have just bought
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
Intuition
Intuition is a funny thing. It was of course the reason I started out on this journey. I wanted to hone my intuition so I could best help Edna.
My daily tarot picks are proving interesting and scary. Yesterday I dropped the Sun during the shuffle. The card I then picked was the 8 swords - but I wondered if the Sun was the real message.
This morning I did the pick without any cards dropping and I picked................the Sun.
I have had an almost unbelievable sense of optimism over the last week considering all the bad stuff that has been going on. Yesterday I realised I was thinking the impossible.
I am begininng to think the car will NOT be written off
I am beginning to think RHH may keep me on .
So I am recording both these thoughts here. Watch this space to see if my intuition is working or not
My daily tarot picks are proving interesting and scary. Yesterday I dropped the Sun during the shuffle. The card I then picked was the 8 swords - but I wondered if the Sun was the real message.
This morning I did the pick without any cards dropping and I picked................the Sun.
I have had an almost unbelievable sense of optimism over the last week considering all the bad stuff that has been going on. Yesterday I realised I was thinking the impossible.
I am begininng to think the car will NOT be written off
I am beginning to think RHH may keep me on .
So I am recording both these thoughts here. Watch this space to see if my intuition is working or not
Sunday, 7 February 2010
Ewiki level 2
I didn't get my attunement yesterday but I have beem taught 3 symbols and their uses and been sent to practice with them for 2 weeks -including trying some distance healing. Even more to my amazement I have a friend who is willing to be a guinea pig for me in distance healing. Luckliy for me my second patient was convered from scepticism to beleiver by his first session and was very happy at the thought that I could treat him without either of us leaving home.
Yesterday was amazing for me. I went in a little sceptical abut what I knew was on the menu (the symbols) but perfectly happy to accept that the 2nd attunement would open me up in some way and advance me on my psychic journey.
What we did was unexpected. She got me to do some energy exercises which I found relatively easy becasue they were similar to meditation visualisations I had done before with Tony Stockwell and with Allegra. I appraoched in my usual 'well I'll do what I can but I'm not too good at seeing things' approach. During the first exercise Sue said some things that were uncannily like what I was imagining. So as she talked me through it she mentioned seeing the energy siwrling round me - whihc is exactly what I was doing. And I did also think I wanted to see if I could touch Sue with my energy and when we finished - without me even saying what I had been trying to do she said she had felt my energy.
Then ahe got me to mix my energy with hers while she was lying on the treatment table and asked me to find out anything I could about any problems she may have. I gave answers based )I thought) on being influenced by things I had seen or heard about elsewhere or linked to what little I know about my teacher.
I wasn't 100% . I mentioned I thought she had a broken wrist as a result of a fall drom a horse - but it was a fall from a horse box and an ankle not a wrist - but hey I got that it was a broken joint. What really shook me was I picked up on a medical problem that has no external signs . As I was in te bathroom prior to the exercise for some reason my eye noticed something very commonly found in bathrooms all over the country. But for some reason that image came back to me during the exercise and I possibly coupled with a little bit of knowledge about her life I correctly diagnosed a medical problem that I was actually reluctant to mention. I was staggered when I found out I was right. Why did my eye land on that item in the bathroom? Sue would say 'spirit guided me' - and I agree. That is why you need reiki guides to make sure you get the information you need.
I know why I am doing the OU course on psychology now. I beleive it will help me pick up on things from clients much better plus it will help me communicate better with them. It probably wont be the only time I pick up on problems that have emotional connotations and tackling the subject will need great communication skill.
Then we got onto the symbols and Sue could sense what I was doing while she was lying with her eyes closed. She once told me I hadn't done a symbol right- and I knew I hadn't done it right.
When I was chanelling reiki after using the symbols it did feel different, And as a result of taking the symbols seriously I now feel I may need to delve a little into astrology and MUST learn more about chakras. I think I see why have been drawn to collect crystals.
Its a bit like Alice in wonderland. Once you believe one impossible thing its easy how several other impossible things can follow.
I can even se why Sue is so insistent I am a medium. I can even see why I NEED to be medium to use reiki. Whether I will ever see and sense spirit the way she and Allegra do I have no idea. Time will tell.
I have just done my tarot pick - The Empress. Is that meant to be me? I certainly feel like an empress - om top of the world. She is sitting there so calm on the wheatfeil with a cornucopia at a her feet. All is well in her world. She is waiting calmly for what is to some in the knowledge that it will be good. She may be pregnant - and is waiting with joy for the birth of her child. Me waiting for the birth of my new career?
And that makes the count 11 out 15 tarot picks are major arcana . Its not impossible for that to happen by chance - but it is very unlikely. And this morning I didnt even try to sense which card I should pick. I just took the top one off the deck. Yesterday Sue told me several times to stop trying so hard and not to overthink things but just go with it. I think that backs up what she says.
One more thing before I close this entry. We discussed what my rock as a gift meant. I saw it is my grounding rock and I picked one of my crystals because it reminded me of the rock. And incidentally that crystal has a pattern inside it when you hold it up to the light that looks a bit like a musical note - as does one of the symbols I learnt yesterday. But I digress. Sue said maybe the message was also that my guides are my rock - there to support me. That suddenly fit bery well with the way Jenny saw me at the circle Sue didnt go to. Jenny saw me sitting on a rock and said I shouldn't worry about my apparent failures with meditation because it will happen. Maybe I am overthinking that as well?
I think I got it very right when I realised the key was relaxation. Thats something I haven't been able to do much since the bad news started pouring in. I need to give that some priority now I think.
Yesterday was amazing for me. I went in a little sceptical abut what I knew was on the menu (the symbols) but perfectly happy to accept that the 2nd attunement would open me up in some way and advance me on my psychic journey.
What we did was unexpected. She got me to do some energy exercises which I found relatively easy becasue they were similar to meditation visualisations I had done before with Tony Stockwell and with Allegra. I appraoched in my usual 'well I'll do what I can but I'm not too good at seeing things' approach. During the first exercise Sue said some things that were uncannily like what I was imagining. So as she talked me through it she mentioned seeing the energy siwrling round me - whihc is exactly what I was doing. And I did also think I wanted to see if I could touch Sue with my energy and when we finished - without me even saying what I had been trying to do she said she had felt my energy.
Then ahe got me to mix my energy with hers while she was lying on the treatment table and asked me to find out anything I could about any problems she may have. I gave answers based )I thought) on being influenced by things I had seen or heard about elsewhere or linked to what little I know about my teacher.
I wasn't 100% . I mentioned I thought she had a broken wrist as a result of a fall drom a horse - but it was a fall from a horse box and an ankle not a wrist - but hey I got that it was a broken joint. What really shook me was I picked up on a medical problem that has no external signs . As I was in te bathroom prior to the exercise for some reason my eye noticed something very commonly found in bathrooms all over the country. But for some reason that image came back to me during the exercise and I possibly coupled with a little bit of knowledge about her life I correctly diagnosed a medical problem that I was actually reluctant to mention. I was staggered when I found out I was right. Why did my eye land on that item in the bathroom? Sue would say 'spirit guided me' - and I agree. That is why you need reiki guides to make sure you get the information you need.
I know why I am doing the OU course on psychology now. I beleive it will help me pick up on things from clients much better plus it will help me communicate better with them. It probably wont be the only time I pick up on problems that have emotional connotations and tackling the subject will need great communication skill.
Then we got onto the symbols and Sue could sense what I was doing while she was lying with her eyes closed. She once told me I hadn't done a symbol right- and I knew I hadn't done it right.
When I was chanelling reiki after using the symbols it did feel different, And as a result of taking the symbols seriously I now feel I may need to delve a little into astrology and MUST learn more about chakras. I think I see why have been drawn to collect crystals.
Its a bit like Alice in wonderland. Once you believe one impossible thing its easy how several other impossible things can follow.
I can even se why Sue is so insistent I am a medium. I can even see why I NEED to be medium to use reiki. Whether I will ever see and sense spirit the way she and Allegra do I have no idea. Time will tell.
I have just done my tarot pick - The Empress. Is that meant to be me? I certainly feel like an empress - om top of the world. She is sitting there so calm on the wheatfeil with a cornucopia at a her feet. All is well in her world. She is waiting calmly for what is to some in the knowledge that it will be good. She may be pregnant - and is waiting with joy for the birth of her child. Me waiting for the birth of my new career?
And that makes the count 11 out 15 tarot picks are major arcana . Its not impossible for that to happen by chance - but it is very unlikely. And this morning I didnt even try to sense which card I should pick. I just took the top one off the deck. Yesterday Sue told me several times to stop trying so hard and not to overthink things but just go with it. I think that backs up what she says.
One more thing before I close this entry. We discussed what my rock as a gift meant. I saw it is my grounding rock and I picked one of my crystals because it reminded me of the rock. And incidentally that crystal has a pattern inside it when you hold it up to the light that looks a bit like a musical note - as does one of the symbols I learnt yesterday. But I digress. Sue said maybe the message was also that my guides are my rock - there to support me. That suddenly fit bery well with the way Jenny saw me at the circle Sue didnt go to. Jenny saw me sitting on a rock and said I shouldn't worry about my apparent failures with meditation because it will happen. Maybe I am overthinking that as well?
I think I got it very right when I realised the key was relaxation. Thats something I haven't been able to do much since the bad news started pouring in. I need to give that some priority now I think.
Friday, 5 February 2010
The Tarot
I used an idea from David Wells book and decided to make a random pick of a tarot card each day and meditate on it. the idea is to attune you to the deck and get used to interpreting the cards. So I have been doing that since January 24th. That is 13 days of Tarot card picks. And the result has been very unexpected
I have also done some 3 card spreads which were
Q cups, 5 wands , Moon (asking for guidance after I learned my booking at RHH will end)
P swords 2 wands 6 cups (after the car crash)
3 pentacles 10 pentacles The Sun (just looking for some sort of message)
The single cards I have pulled are
6 cups
The Emperor
7 Pentacles
2 Cups
The Hanged Man
The Moon
The Star
The Tower
7 Pentacles
The Tower
The Moon
Death
The Star
Now the sceptic in me thinks that these are just random pulls - the psychic in me can see a message in all those Major arcana cards.
I will do a statistical analysis of these cards
First the major arcana pulls. Out of 22 cards 11 are major arcana. The chance of picking a major arcana card at random is 22/78 or just over 25% To pick 50% looks like more than chance. Every major arcana card has fit beautifully with my circumstances the day I pulled it. Plus the major message is change - and at the moment things are changing very rapidly for me. 9 out of 13 for the single picks is around 70% - but it is still a small sample.
Of the 11 suit pulls 4 are pentacles 4 are cups 2 are wands 1 swords. there probably isnt enough to say there is a siginifcant bias towards one suite or another but certainly my emotions (cups) have been tested during the past 2 weeks and work (pentacles/earth/material things) has been at the centre of my issues.
So all these cards could have been pulled by pure chance - but if I am honest I dont think so.
Tomorrow I have my level 2 reiki attunement. I am really looking forward to it
I have also done some 3 card spreads which were
Q cups, 5 wands , Moon (asking for guidance after I learned my booking at RHH will end)
P swords 2 wands 6 cups (after the car crash)
3 pentacles 10 pentacles The Sun (just looking for some sort of message)
The single cards I have pulled are
6 cups
The Emperor
7 Pentacles
2 Cups
The Hanged Man
The Moon
The Star
The Tower
7 Pentacles
The Tower
The Moon
Death
The Star
Now the sceptic in me thinks that these are just random pulls - the psychic in me can see a message in all those Major arcana cards.
I will do a statistical analysis of these cards
First the major arcana pulls. Out of 22 cards 11 are major arcana. The chance of picking a major arcana card at random is 22/78 or just over 25% To pick 50% looks like more than chance. Every major arcana card has fit beautifully with my circumstances the day I pulled it. Plus the major message is change - and at the moment things are changing very rapidly for me. 9 out of 13 for the single picks is around 70% - but it is still a small sample.
Of the 11 suit pulls 4 are pentacles 4 are cups 2 are wands 1 swords. there probably isnt enough to say there is a siginifcant bias towards one suite or another but certainly my emotions (cups) have been tested during the past 2 weeks and work (pentacles/earth/material things) has been at the centre of my issues.
So all these cards could have been pulled by pure chance - but if I am honest I dont think so.
Tomorrow I have my level 2 reiki attunement. I am really looking forward to it
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