A good meditation / self healing session. I made a blind pick of my chakra crystals again and this time picked the sacral crystal. Interesting as my main problems at the moment are physically in the area of the sacrum (my back and a touch of IBS)
My legs felt really full of energy again - the way they did when I was going the chakra opening exercise with Sue.
I saw little tiny of flashes of purple at times during the session.
Nothing much to report
Yesterday as I was approaching my car to go home after work I saw what I am almost certain was an optical illusion that focussed my attention on something ion the car that from that distance looked like a cigarette. But for a moment I could ave sworn there was a man sitting in the driving seat of my car smoking. I am 99% convinced it was an illusion and I was matrixing to 'see' the man - but I am not sure. I hav made that approach before without that happening and I would not be expecting to see anyone in my car. Matrixing normally happens when you make something random fit into what you are expecting/hoping to see.
Wednesday, 10 March 2010
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
Day 4
Today is the first day of my new 'back to work' regime. I have decided to ive meditation my priority in the mornings - and do my self healing in the mornings too. It means I have to do more of my exercises after work rather then before - but as long as I fit it all in it doesn't matter.
My meditation and self healing went well. My routine is to recite the reiki principles, then the Lord's prayer. then I ground and then I do the self healing.
As I have acquired chakra crystals I have also decided to use crystals in the self healing. Today I felt drawn to the solar plexus crystal.
I really felt energy going into my legs. It could be me 'earthing' myself - but I now wonder if it is keeping my legs fit for all this training and for the Race for Life? Nice thought
I started off with my hands on forehead and the back of the neck, but I ended up with my hands over the solar plexus chakra and with my hands in that position I started to see purple again. The purple seems to an affirmation that I have got it right. So I tink what I was being told was that in self healing unless I have a specific issue I just need to keep my hands on the solar plexus chakra. It is easy enough to visualise reiki going in the middle and spreading out up and down through the chakra's.
I finished my self healing feeling both hungry and thirsty. This was a major help as I hadn't really been hungry before but didnt want to eat when I wasn't hungry simply to make sure I could get through until lunchtime. The reiki sorted that problem out for me!!
My tarot pick today was the Ace of Pentacles. Yesterday Tony drew a random unicorn card and got 'unexpected gift' I wonder if the two could be linked?
My meditation and self healing went well. My routine is to recite the reiki principles, then the Lord's prayer. then I ground and then I do the self healing.
As I have acquired chakra crystals I have also decided to use crystals in the self healing. Today I felt drawn to the solar plexus crystal.
I really felt energy going into my legs. It could be me 'earthing' myself - but I now wonder if it is keeping my legs fit for all this training and for the Race for Life? Nice thought
I started off with my hands on forehead and the back of the neck, but I ended up with my hands over the solar plexus chakra and with my hands in that position I started to see purple again. The purple seems to an affirmation that I have got it right. So I tink what I was being told was that in self healing unless I have a specific issue I just need to keep my hands on the solar plexus chakra. It is easy enough to visualise reiki going in the middle and spreading out up and down through the chakra's.
I finished my self healing feeling both hungry and thirsty. This was a major help as I hadn't really been hungry before but didnt want to eat when I wasn't hungry simply to make sure I could get through until lunchtime. The reiki sorted that problem out for me!!
My tarot pick today was the Ace of Pentacles. Yesterday Tony drew a random unicorn card and got 'unexpected gift' I wonder if the two could be linked?
Monday, 8 March 2010
Day 3
This morning I did a very structured meditation/prayer session. I went through the reiki principles, said the Lords prayer and then prayed for specific people. One of the people I prayed for was the young boy who has been kidnapped in pakistan. As I prayed for him I remembered how I had tried to send Penny to him - but decided she couldn't find him to help him. As I thought about where he was I got a picture in my mind of a very generic asian street - and a man dressed in black asian costume - with a scarf wound round his face. he was carrying a gun. He looked like a generic taliban fighter I guess. I have no idea of this was me imagining or me responding to something. There is no hint the taliban is involved in any way with this kidnapping.
But I can't get that image out of my head. It was VERY clear and VERY unexpected.
Having prayed I grounded -but this time in my 'safe glade' I also made a point of visualising all my guides giving me all the gifts. I realised that the sword I have visualised - because Beth used it in her grounding meditation - is a gift from Claire -who I beleive is my gatekeeper.
The actual self healing went OK. I got the feeling I was pulling reiki up from the ground although I normally visualise it as white light coming in trough my crown chakra. I got the thought that I needed some earthiness to balance my basic wateryness. (I am a pisces after all)
I am thinking of sending myself reiki ahead to help me cope at work tomorrow. I have the feeling tomorrow could be an emotional day.
But I can't get that image out of my head. It was VERY clear and VERY unexpected.
Having prayed I grounded -but this time in my 'safe glade' I also made a point of visualising all my guides giving me all the gifts. I realised that the sword I have visualised - because Beth used it in her grounding meditation - is a gift from Claire -who I beleive is my gatekeeper.
The actual self healing went OK. I got the feeling I was pulling reiki up from the ground although I normally visualise it as white light coming in trough my crown chakra. I got the thought that I needed some earthiness to balance my basic wateryness. (I am a pisces after all)
I am thinking of sending myself reiki ahead to help me cope at work tomorrow. I have the feeling tomorrow could be an emotional day.
Sunday, 7 March 2010
Day 2 self healing
I have decided to do my self healing in the mornings when I am less tired. This means I may have to re-arrange my morning routine to allow the 30 minutes I need but this is important.
This morning I did a combined meditation and self healing. I tried to find out more about Claire - and this time I saw her in 1940's uniform and got the impression she was in the RAF. I saw her petting Penny - and I think she may look after Penny - or may have had a dog herself.
The Jonas came and took me to the castle - and I got the feeling that is where I need to be to do my self healing.
I saw purple during the session - and green. I also omm'd to open up my crown and third eye's chakra's before beginning the session. I actively tried to concentrate on what I was feeling in my chakra's during the session.
I got the feeling my heart chakra is blocked - so I used my green crystal during the healing - at one point focussing reiki through the crystal. I am alos carrying the green crystal with me to attune it to me.
Separate to the self healing I have received confirmation that I need to study Kabala, and probably numerology as well.
I have also had an insight into an experience I had during one of my first reiki sessions on one of my friends. I saw total black when I put my hands on the friends head during the session. Since black is the absence of any colour - I am wondering if his chakra's were all blocked. After the session he experienced a number of major improvements in his life - and is now a confirmed reiki fan. I am wondering if I helped to unblock his chakra's.
I need to pracice sensing and balancing my chakra's
This morning I did a combined meditation and self healing. I tried to find out more about Claire - and this time I saw her in 1940's uniform and got the impression she was in the RAF. I saw her petting Penny - and I think she may look after Penny - or may have had a dog herself.
The Jonas came and took me to the castle - and I got the feeling that is where I need to be to do my self healing.
I saw purple during the session - and green. I also omm'd to open up my crown and third eye's chakra's before beginning the session. I actively tried to concentrate on what I was feeling in my chakra's during the session.
I got the feeling my heart chakra is blocked - so I used my green crystal during the healing - at one point focussing reiki through the crystal. I am alos carrying the green crystal with me to attune it to me.
Separate to the self healing I have received confirmation that I need to study Kabala, and probably numerology as well.
I have also had an insight into an experience I had during one of my first reiki sessions on one of my friends. I saw total black when I put my hands on the friends head during the session. Since black is the absence of any colour - I am wondering if his chakra's were all blocked. After the session he experienced a number of major improvements in his life - and is now a confirmed reiki fan. I am wondering if I helped to unblock his chakra's.
I need to pracice sensing and balancing my chakra's
Saturday, 6 March 2010
21 days of self healing again. Day 1
I had my second attunment today and it was a very interesting and moving day. Before I went today something told me it could get emotional - so I decided to try and send some reiki to the future (I set it for when I was being attuned I thought) to support me if I DID get emotional. And it did - but not during the attunement.
Sue took me through a couple of exercise to open my chakra's. The first one was just an exercise to help me feel them one by one. Then she played a guided meditation that uses sounds to open up the chakra's - then having opened them it took us to a 'serene place' to meet your spirit. In the final section the one word that came into my mind was 'love' and I realised my spirit guides were my guides because they love me and I am lovable. This was quite emotional. At the same time I started seeing vivid purple. It was when I was talking to Sue afterwards that I realised the reiki I had sent earlier in the day had kicked in. So although I felt emotional - I didnt actually cry.
The actualy attunement was almost ordinary. I didnt see or sense anyhting that made me go wow. But I had my 'wow' moment earlier during the meditation.
I approached today in a mood of 'can do' not 'Can I do it' I have realised I need to trsut spirit. They are with me and they will help me. I just relxed and didn't over think - and didnt try too hard. And it all went like a dream
I have done my first self healing session. I saw some amzing colours. For the first time ever I saw a brilliant bluey green colour. And towards the end of the session I again saw purple.
I started the session feeling very tired. In fact I deliberately did it early because I knew I would be too tired to do it properly if I did it when I went to bed. However I now feel much more energetic.
Sue took me through a couple of exercise to open my chakra's. The first one was just an exercise to help me feel them one by one. Then she played a guided meditation that uses sounds to open up the chakra's - then having opened them it took us to a 'serene place' to meet your spirit. In the final section the one word that came into my mind was 'love' and I realised my spirit guides were my guides because they love me and I am lovable. This was quite emotional. At the same time I started seeing vivid purple. It was when I was talking to Sue afterwards that I realised the reiki I had sent earlier in the day had kicked in. So although I felt emotional - I didnt actually cry.
The actualy attunement was almost ordinary. I didnt see or sense anyhting that made me go wow. But I had my 'wow' moment earlier during the meditation.
I approached today in a mood of 'can do' not 'Can I do it' I have realised I need to trsut spirit. They are with me and they will help me. I just relxed and didn't over think - and didnt try too hard. And it all went like a dream
I have done my first self healing session. I saw some amzing colours. For the first time ever I saw a brilliant bluey green colour. And towards the end of the session I again saw purple.
I started the session feeling very tired. In fact I deliberately did it early because I knew I would be too tired to do it properly if I did it when I went to bed. However I now feel much more energetic.
Friday, 5 March 2010
Reiki level two
Today I will be getting my seconf level reiki attunement. I am looking forward to it and wondering what surprises it will spring on me.
Last time Sue told me several times to stop trying so hard, not to overthink things, to just let it happen. I have realised that is advice I need in the rest of my life as well. I have realised because I always start out with the expectation of failure, I put a lot of effort into everything - work relationships, studying, meditation - and it doesn't always help.
This is an interesting insight because one of the common threads running through everything I have read - inlcduing Paul McKenna is the phrase ' know thyself' So much of what David Wells said in his book matched things Paul McKenna told me in his! And the Qabala is based on 'know thyself. I do feel I am being pulled to study it.
I do feel the insight I have gained about why I put so much effort into everything is a fascinating breakthrough i some ways. I feel I have learned something very important about myself. Now all I need to do is act on it - starting with todays session with Sue
On a separate note Tony has come up with some really fascinating stuff using automatic writing and drawing. It seems we share a spirit guide - Claire, and that she may have lived somewhree nearby. Interestingly he drew a flower for no apparent reason. Yesterday when we went shoping I asked him to pick something for me that he thoguht I would look good in - and he picked a couple of tops. It wasnt until last night that I really looked at the pattern on one of them and realised it bore a startling resemblence to the flower he had drawn while meditating. I have no idea what it means - if it means anything at all! But I am recording it anyway
Last time Sue told me several times to stop trying so hard, not to overthink things, to just let it happen. I have realised that is advice I need in the rest of my life as well. I have realised because I always start out with the expectation of failure, I put a lot of effort into everything - work relationships, studying, meditation - and it doesn't always help.
This is an interesting insight because one of the common threads running through everything I have read - inlcduing Paul McKenna is the phrase ' know thyself' So much of what David Wells said in his book matched things Paul McKenna told me in his! And the Qabala is based on 'know thyself. I do feel I am being pulled to study it.
I do feel the insight I have gained about why I put so much effort into everything is a fascinating breakthrough i some ways. I feel I have learned something very important about myself. Now all I need to do is act on it - starting with todays session with Sue
On a separate note Tony has come up with some really fascinating stuff using automatic writing and drawing. It seems we share a spirit guide - Claire, and that she may have lived somewhree nearby. Interestingly he drew a flower for no apparent reason. Yesterday when we went shoping I asked him to pick something for me that he thoguht I would look good in - and he picked a couple of tops. It wasnt until last night that I really looked at the pattern on one of them and realised it bore a startling resemblence to the flower he had drawn while meditating. I have no idea what it means - if it means anything at all! But I am recording it anyway
Tuesday, 2 March 2010
where am I going?
At the moment I seem to be dabbling in so many things. Reiki is the main one, but I am also doing tarot, and Sue insists I AM a medium even tho i dont think I am.
To be honest I haven't been doing much lately. We SHOULD be in Scotland - but due to the weather and Steve being ill (I spent 2 hours in A and E with him Thursday morning) we haven't gone. I've been gutted about not going away and it has taken some of my focus away I think. But Tony gave me a copy of David Well's Psychic Secrets for my birthday and reading that (plus some other apparently events) has given me the impetus I needed.
On Sunday night as we were on our way home from a Dr Who game, Tony mentioned an old character from one of our games - Claire Feran - who was played as a typical teenager. Then yesterday Tony showed me some automatic writing he had done which clearly seemed to say 'Claire Sally guide' I suggested that having been discussing Claire the day before had put the name into his mind.
Today I was reading David's book and being inspired to get back on track decided I would meditate for the first time in a few days. I had just been reading the bit in the book where David talks about different spirit guides - and he included a description of gatekeepers. So I set my intention to find out about Claire and the thought that popped into my head was that she was a biker - possibly a hell's angel - and that she is my gatekeeper.
OK the sceptic would say I was being influenced by the book just as Tony has been influenced by our discussion about Claire Feran. But I believe your subconscious picks up signals like that and when you meditate or get on touch with your subconscious in the right way you can put together these things to get the correct message - just as when I picked up on Sue's fertility problems because I happened to notice a packet of tampax in her bathroom.
Reading Davids book took me back 3 and a half years -because he was telling me the same sorts of things Paul McKenna told me in CYLI7D. I take that as confirmiaton that I am on the right track. He also said a lot of things Sue has said about not trying to hard and trusting my instincts.
I want to re-read that book, try some of his guided meditations and re-read his other book as well. I also want to learn about Qaballah.
I do feel re-inspired today - and I a looking forward to my second reiki attunment on Saturday.
One thing I also need to record is that I think I may MAY possibly be starting to see aura's. Of course that could just be my imagination.
I am also wondering if I have found the reason for that gnome vision. I am wondering if it is a symbol of earth sent to show me I need to keep earth elements in my life to keep myself balanced.
Again this is something I have picked up from David's book.
To be honest I haven't been doing much lately. We SHOULD be in Scotland - but due to the weather and Steve being ill (I spent 2 hours in A and E with him Thursday morning) we haven't gone. I've been gutted about not going away and it has taken some of my focus away I think. But Tony gave me a copy of David Well's Psychic Secrets for my birthday and reading that (plus some other apparently events) has given me the impetus I needed.
On Sunday night as we were on our way home from a Dr Who game, Tony mentioned an old character from one of our games - Claire Feran - who was played as a typical teenager. Then yesterday Tony showed me some automatic writing he had done which clearly seemed to say 'Claire Sally guide' I suggested that having been discussing Claire the day before had put the name into his mind.
Today I was reading David's book and being inspired to get back on track decided I would meditate for the first time in a few days. I had just been reading the bit in the book where David talks about different spirit guides - and he included a description of gatekeepers. So I set my intention to find out about Claire and the thought that popped into my head was that she was a biker - possibly a hell's angel - and that she is my gatekeeper.
OK the sceptic would say I was being influenced by the book just as Tony has been influenced by our discussion about Claire Feran. But I believe your subconscious picks up signals like that and when you meditate or get on touch with your subconscious in the right way you can put together these things to get the correct message - just as when I picked up on Sue's fertility problems because I happened to notice a packet of tampax in her bathroom.
Reading Davids book took me back 3 and a half years -because he was telling me the same sorts of things Paul McKenna told me in CYLI7D. I take that as confirmiaton that I am on the right track. He also said a lot of things Sue has said about not trying to hard and trusting my instincts.
I want to re-read that book, try some of his guided meditations and re-read his other book as well. I also want to learn about Qaballah.
I do feel re-inspired today - and I a looking forward to my second reiki attunment on Saturday.
One thing I also need to record is that I think I may MAY possibly be starting to see aura's. Of course that could just be my imagination.
I am also wondering if I have found the reason for that gnome vision. I am wondering if it is a symbol of earth sent to show me I need to keep earth elements in my life to keep myself balanced.
Again this is something I have picked up from David's book.
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