This morning I decided to ask the question 'What do I need to know about me' as I shuffled my tarot cards for my daily pick. What I got was a huge surprise. I picked the 8 of swords then realised I was being prompted to pick 2 more and do a past present future spread. What I saw was amazing
Te past was the 8 of swords - feeling trapped. I realised there are other cards that could give that message so I wondered why THIS card was picked and realised I was feeling trapped by own thoughts.
The present was the King of swords - the culmination of the suit -someone who is control. I decided this means I am gaining mastery over my thoughts. Well after all the practice with the wonderful Mr McKenna's systems I should be. I have wobbled recently with the positive thinking and yesterday I got a prod to concentrate on meditation and my spiritual well being. Which is partly why I asked the question I did.
It was my Future card that was such a shock The Empress. As number 3 in the major arcana this card is special to me as my life path number/ruling number (from my birthday) is 3.Once I picked my jaw up off the floor I felt this represnted me fulfilling my 'destiny' - well maybe that is to strong a word - so lets say me doing what I should be doing.
However it was obvious that this golden future depends on my keeping my thoughts under control so I decided to 'Ask My Guides' how I could best do this. the answer was 'discipline' a Master Teacher card.
I decided to meditate to see if I could talk to my master teacher and work out what sort of discipline I need. As I was preparing to meditate I got the thought that discipline about house work would be a good idea for starters. That isn't just me being my normal 'worry wort' about the house and garden. I get a great sense of satisfaction and pride in myself when I am happy about how the house and garden look. Yesterdays gardening session left me physically tired but mentally and spiritually buoyed up.
My meditation took me to the castle where I met Peter. I sat down across the table from him and asked him what I needed to do. He passed a book over to me - I opened it and found a crystal ball inside. I have decided I need a crystal ball to use to help my meditations. Another excuse to go shopping!
Well what a day - and I haven't even done my other card picks yet. But going with the flow I will do them in a bit and see what other messages they have for me. Then I am going to give the kitchen a bit of a sort out and do some 'active ' meditation on the cards I pick
Monday, 31 May 2010
Tuesday, 25 May 2010
Fairies
Do I believe in fairies ? No. But today fairies have been very much on mind. Psychic TV had a session with fairy cards and the psychic said we can have fairy guides. I immediately thought about the gnome I 'saw' in a waking vision. The psychic showed a deck of fairy cards and we both liked the look of them, so we went to Northfield to see if we could find them. We didn't but did find a different Doreen Virtue fairy deck.
I decided to buy them and on reading the book that comes with them, she makes issue of the fact that fairies are creatures of nature and the cards work bets if you use them in a natural setting or while visualizing a natural setting. That resonated with me as I have realised how important it is for me to link with nature.
When I got home I decided to do a daily pick. I got 'Inner Power' which talks about how I am spiritually powerful, a light worker, shouldn't be afraid to use my power - all SO positive and affirming .
So I feel very positive that I should have the deck. I am not even going to balk if I find out that gnome I saw is a fairy guide for me. I can rationalise about psychological images and messages from the subconscious. I can think in terms of 'nature energy'
I feel getting that deck was important for me
I decided to buy them and on reading the book that comes with them, she makes issue of the fact that fairies are creatures of nature and the cards work bets if you use them in a natural setting or while visualizing a natural setting. That resonated with me as I have realised how important it is for me to link with nature.
When I got home I decided to do a daily pick. I got 'Inner Power' which talks about how I am spiritually powerful, a light worker, shouldn't be afraid to use my power - all SO positive and affirming .
So I feel very positive that I should have the deck. I am not even going to balk if I find out that gnome I saw is a fairy guide for me. I can rationalise about psychological images and messages from the subconscious. I can think in terms of 'nature energy'
I feel getting that deck was important for me
Understanding card picks
Sometimes the cards really surprise me. Often when I do my picks I just ask for a card for 'guidance' or 'inspiration' or 'what do I need to focus today' This morning I asked if I should concentrate on health or money issues.
I am tired and ache this morning. I am also spiritually bruised by a friends attitude. The dispute with this friend has made me wonder how they see me - and that in turn got me thinking about how I see myself and yesterdays meditation. I was wondering the way I feel is a sign I need to stop and give special attention to my health.
As usual I divided the cards into 4 piles - and got a huge buzz off three of them. So I took one card from each of those piles. I ended up with
7 of wands
Knight of wands
9 of pentacles
My initial reaction was 'what?' But on reading the information in the book I decided they do make sense
The 7 is about courage and competition, and that having achieved some success you can't just sit back and relax. But it also speaks about how you sometimes struggle with yourself as much as outside forces. Now that resonated with me
The Knight is all about action decisive action, not planning a lot but just doing. The knight is successful and self confident If he a fails he picks himself up and just gets on with things again.
The 9 is about material contentment ,the person who has enough for their needs, and most importantly is happy with their own company. the phrase that came into my mind (and not from the book) is 'happy in her own skin' The image on this cars is of someone who appreciates herself and her life.
She is EXACTLY what I am aiming for. And I think the message is that I AM or can be that person as long as I have the self belief to take action.
Did that answer my question? Yes I think it did. It told me what I am doing is working and I just need to carry on with what I am doing.
So I decided to do my others picks as well in a mood of confidence. Angel Therapy just produced total confusion. I asked specifically about health issues and ended up trying three times to pick a card. In turn I got Twin Flame, You are clairvoyant and Books. I have no idea what that is all about. I got books recently and have picked Twin Flame before. You are clairvoyant ?? None of those seem to relate health at all.
When I used 'Ask your guides' I literally said 'OK tell me what I need to know' and got Shame 'Quote from the book 'You are at the risk of falling under the spell of self criticism because of poor choices or learned behavior and this is bringing on the energy of shame' This could refer to the situation with the friend OR the way I feel about my failure to lose weight.In either case the message of the card is 'you are your own worst enemy - and you are loved'. It also talks about these problems being part of the learning process needed to make progress.
I didn't really formulate a question as I was shuffling the Uncorn cards. One card fell out 'Believe in yourself'
Maybe that also means I need to believe in the 'I am clairvoyant' card as well. Now there's a thought.
I am tired and ache this morning. I am also spiritually bruised by a friends attitude. The dispute with this friend has made me wonder how they see me - and that in turn got me thinking about how I see myself and yesterdays meditation. I was wondering the way I feel is a sign I need to stop and give special attention to my health.
As usual I divided the cards into 4 piles - and got a huge buzz off three of them. So I took one card from each of those piles. I ended up with
7 of wands
Knight of wands
9 of pentacles
My initial reaction was 'what?' But on reading the information in the book I decided they do make sense
The 7 is about courage and competition, and that having achieved some success you can't just sit back and relax. But it also speaks about how you sometimes struggle with yourself as much as outside forces. Now that resonated with me
The Knight is all about action decisive action, not planning a lot but just doing. The knight is successful and self confident If he a fails he picks himself up and just gets on with things again.
The 9 is about material contentment ,the person who has enough for their needs, and most importantly is happy with their own company. the phrase that came into my mind (and not from the book) is 'happy in her own skin' The image on this cars is of someone who appreciates herself and her life.
She is EXACTLY what I am aiming for. And I think the message is that I AM or can be that person as long as I have the self belief to take action.
Did that answer my question? Yes I think it did. It told me what I am doing is working and I just need to carry on with what I am doing.
So I decided to do my others picks as well in a mood of confidence. Angel Therapy just produced total confusion. I asked specifically about health issues and ended up trying three times to pick a card. In turn I got Twin Flame, You are clairvoyant and Books. I have no idea what that is all about. I got books recently and have picked Twin Flame before. You are clairvoyant ?? None of those seem to relate health at all.
When I used 'Ask your guides' I literally said 'OK tell me what I need to know' and got Shame 'Quote from the book 'You are at the risk of falling under the spell of self criticism because of poor choices or learned behavior and this is bringing on the energy of shame' This could refer to the situation with the friend OR the way I feel about my failure to lose weight.In either case the message of the card is 'you are your own worst enemy - and you are loved'. It also talks about these problems being part of the learning process needed to make progress.
I didn't really formulate a question as I was shuffling the Uncorn cards. One card fell out 'Believe in yourself'
Maybe that also means I need to believe in the 'I am clairvoyant' card as well. Now there's a thought.
Monday, 24 May 2010
Cards and meditation
My cards today gave me very positive messages on the day that I have my first session at Little Aston. But they also gave me warnings about myself and my need to really know and understand myself.And as ever they spoke of change - one of my cards was Death!
So I decided to meditate on the cards and see what insights I got. The thought that came into my head was about a meditation David Wells suggested to 'meet' your real self. I didn't remember all the details but I know it involved going into a house . So I found myself with Jenny and Jonas leading me to a cottage. It was very dilapidated and in need of repair. I was quite shocked. I realised that is how I see myself. Small and dilapidated. Then I saw a For Sale board and thought 'no' I don't want to sell this place - it can be done up and improved'
I went inside but there was no-one there. I realised not only could the cottage be repaired but it could be extended.
I realised I was being told I need to care for myself if I am going to be able to care for others.
So I decided to meditate on the cards and see what insights I got. The thought that came into my head was about a meditation David Wells suggested to 'meet' your real self. I didn't remember all the details but I know it involved going into a house . So I found myself with Jenny and Jonas leading me to a cottage. It was very dilapidated and in need of repair. I was quite shocked. I realised that is how I see myself. Small and dilapidated. Then I saw a For Sale board and thought 'no' I don't want to sell this place - it can be done up and improved'
I went inside but there was no-one there. I realised not only could the cottage be repaired but it could be extended.
I realised I was being told I need to care for myself if I am going to be able to care for others.
Tuesday, 18 May 2010
Messages from the cards
As can be seen from my other blog, I have realised a few things and come to some decisions about needing to take a new approach to life. This includes the new approach to my card picks.
I did my usual routine with the tarot cards this morning,but asked specifically for a card to boost my self esteem. I got a reaction from all four piles , and got the feeling I needed more than 1 card. After some concentration I decided I needed 5. So I spread the cards out and picked 5 at random.
The cards I got were
Ace of swords - interesting new circumstances, may initially seem negative but is probably a blessing in disguise
Wheel of Fortune - this again contained the phrase 'blessing in disguise' and also speaks about how we ave control -but at the same time no control over our lives. We can't control the options we are given, but we control our choices
Judgment - reaping what you sow - appraising what you ave done
2 of Wands - new venture, unfulfilled potential balance between action and passivity
5 of wands everything seems to be conspiring against you but the friction can force you into new constructive ways of working
If I had dealt them out the natural way (from the top) rather than they way I did which meant I dealt them in the order I picked them they would have come out in the reverse order - and told exactly the story of how I am feeling at the moment and given me a vision of a wonderful future.
I am absolutely amazed at these cards. I am amazed that I seem to have got the message correct about what I was meant to do.
I am now going to go and meditate on this occurrence.
I did my usual routine with the tarot cards this morning,but asked specifically for a card to boost my self esteem. I got a reaction from all four piles , and got the feeling I needed more than 1 card. After some concentration I decided I needed 5. So I spread the cards out and picked 5 at random.
The cards I got were
Ace of swords - interesting new circumstances, may initially seem negative but is probably a blessing in disguise
Wheel of Fortune - this again contained the phrase 'blessing in disguise' and also speaks about how we ave control -but at the same time no control over our lives. We can't control the options we are given, but we control our choices
Judgment - reaping what you sow - appraising what you ave done
2 of Wands - new venture, unfulfilled potential balance between action and passivity
5 of wands everything seems to be conspiring against you but the friction can force you into new constructive ways of working
If I had dealt them out the natural way (from the top) rather than they way I did which meant I dealt them in the order I picked them they would have come out in the reverse order - and told exactly the story of how I am feeling at the moment and given me a vision of a wonderful future.
I am absolutely amazed at these cards. I am amazed that I seem to have got the message correct about what I was meant to do.
I am now going to go and meditate on this occurrence.
Monday, 17 May 2010
Master Teacher
One of my cards today was 'Master Teacher' which apparently is an indication that I have on e- a master teacher that is. Si I decided to meditate to try and find out who he (or she) is.
It was a strange very bitty meditation. At times I was so relaxed I was almost dreaming. One vivid image that came to me while I was in that state was of two cats playing together on the back lawn/ One was a tabby cat - and I think the other was black. It wasn't clear enough for me to identify Misha and Jet clearly - but that was the thought that came into my mind.
I saw Peter but for some reason the name Simon came into my mind and that lead off down the path of thinking. 'Simon Peter' Thomas' both apostles names. That lead naturally on to thinking about Jesus. Do I think He is my master teacher - well he could be I suppose but I am not convinced.
I can't remember the other images I saw. I tried to give some structure to the meditation but it didn't really happen. I was in the castle. Peter was there, at one point I left by the other door and I was flying on a seagulls back again.
I did get the idea I maybe ought to give automatic writing a try - but I am not convinced that isn't just a little jealousy of Tony.
I can't quite convince myself that some of my thoughts were not just 'Monkey Brain' but the one clear image I have taken from the meditaton is of the two cats playing.
Interestingly my Unicorn card today was 'Pets' and one meaning of that is that your pets in spirit are saying they still love you. My original idea was that the card related to Penny. Maybe I was wrong.
I am not sure I have identified my master teacher - but my working assumption is that it IS Peter.
It was a strange very bitty meditation. At times I was so relaxed I was almost dreaming. One vivid image that came to me while I was in that state was of two cats playing together on the back lawn/ One was a tabby cat - and I think the other was black. It wasn't clear enough for me to identify Misha and Jet clearly - but that was the thought that came into my mind.
I saw Peter but for some reason the name Simon came into my mind and that lead off down the path of thinking. 'Simon Peter' Thomas' both apostles names. That lead naturally on to thinking about Jesus. Do I think He is my master teacher - well he could be I suppose but I am not convinced.
I can't remember the other images I saw. I tried to give some structure to the meditation but it didn't really happen. I was in the castle. Peter was there, at one point I left by the other door and I was flying on a seagulls back again.
I did get the idea I maybe ought to give automatic writing a try - but I am not convinced that isn't just a little jealousy of Tony.
I can't quite convince myself that some of my thoughts were not just 'Monkey Brain' but the one clear image I have taken from the meditaton is of the two cats playing.
Interestingly my Unicorn card today was 'Pets' and one meaning of that is that your pets in spirit are saying they still love you. My original idea was that the card related to Penny. Maybe I was wrong.
I am not sure I have identified my master teacher - but my working assumption is that it IS Peter.
Sunday, 16 May 2010
Taking action
After the meditation I decided to try and get some serious practice of some sort in. I used my pendant to check if my chakra's were balanced, and if I needed to carry an crystals. (yes and no respectively) Then I asked it if energy work is the right thing for me to, (yes) and if my daily card picks are valid practice (yes). I got quite vigorous movement of the pendant - not as vigorous as Wolf can - but very definite so that was a positive sign.
I did my card picks working to concentrate on expanding my energy and trying to feel energy coming from the 'right' cards. My card picks were fascinating
Page of Pentacles - a common card for me to pick. One interpretation of this card is that is time for me to develop myself. So I see that as confirmation that energy work is what I need to work on
My Angel Therapy card was Ascended Masters - again a card I have picked before.Reading the information in the book they specifically mention Jesus as an ascended master - and that is who I believe I have seen when my ascended master has appeared in meditation. So that was very encouraging.
"Ask your guides ' I upturned 2 cards during the shuffle 'Devotion' and 'Grace' then I picked Communuty
Quoting from Devotion ' Do not allow your mind to isolate you in fera and get stuck dwelling in misery' Wow what a description of how I have been feeling over the past few days 'Instead get outside in the natural world' A salutary reminder to me to get to the park on the regular basis - starting tomorrow.
Grace talks about being aligned with your purpose. Community means I am surrounded by spiritual ancestors. I must try to see if I can find them in meditation.
My unicorn card was Laughter - a reminder that I haven't done enough of that lately.
I did feel these cards were incredibly apt for my current situation. I can nearly always see some message but these fit SO closely with recent events and my feelings. I may be totally wrong but I can't help but feel my active concentration in using energy to 'feel' what I should do has paid off.
I must keep this up
I did my card picks working to concentrate on expanding my energy and trying to feel energy coming from the 'right' cards. My card picks were fascinating
Page of Pentacles - a common card for me to pick. One interpretation of this card is that is time for me to develop myself. So I see that as confirmation that energy work is what I need to work on
My Angel Therapy card was Ascended Masters - again a card I have picked before.Reading the information in the book they specifically mention Jesus as an ascended master - and that is who I believe I have seen when my ascended master has appeared in meditation. So that was very encouraging.
"Ask your guides ' I upturned 2 cards during the shuffle 'Devotion' and 'Grace' then I picked Communuty
Quoting from Devotion ' Do not allow your mind to isolate you in fera and get stuck dwelling in misery' Wow what a description of how I have been feeling over the past few days 'Instead get outside in the natural world' A salutary reminder to me to get to the park on the regular basis - starting tomorrow.
Grace talks about being aligned with your purpose. Community means I am surrounded by spiritual ancestors. I must try to see if I can find them in meditation.
My unicorn card was Laughter - a reminder that I haven't done enough of that lately.
I did feel these cards were incredibly apt for my current situation. I can nearly always see some message but these fit SO closely with recent events and my feelings. I may be totally wrong but I can't help but feel my active concentration in using energy to 'feel' what I should do has paid off.
I must keep this up
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