Elements

I wasn't planning on a long meditation today - and it wasn't but I did get some surprising images. I was going to my safe place and while walking through the forest I saw a stylised flame that came onto my hand for a moment then danced away. I entered my safe glade and the portcullis came down behind me. I looked round the glade and saw the hedge. the path and the other gate - which closed as I looked at it. I also saw a fountain (the green fountain from FV!!) and went over to have a drink. I realised it was emerald green - and thought Raphael. Then I felt a breeze and realised I was standing on the earth and saw I had all four elements present. I went and sat down on the bench and grounded myself and almost turned into a tree and got the idea that even a gale couldn't blow me over.

I wonder why the fire was outside the glade? I am not sure what this meditation means . Does it mean I have balance or need balance? I am sure I was being told I am strong enough to cope as long as I am balanced.

This needs more thought

Its all in the cards

The other day I did a meditation and it was very interesting. I was walking through my forest, and realised on the left of the path it was autumn leaves while on the right it was spring grass. I decided to see what I would find on the spring side and ended up walking down some steps into a hollow with a stream running through it and a bed by the stream. I lay down and the top of the hollow got covered over by bushes. I got up and had to pull myself up a rope ladder to get out.

I aske don one the FB groups for some advice and got told it could be a new beginning which is probably true. However I realised I had the feeling of choice. I chose to explore the spring side. I decided I needed to re-visit the meditation again. However I also decided to ask Tony for a reading. One of the cards that came out was 'meditate' and another was 'write' He also pulled 'prioritise' . His reading was that I need to decide what my priorities and concentrate on them. He also pointed out I hadn't made a blog entry for some time.

I tried to reviist the meditation again this morning and this time took the path ahead. It wasn't a clear meditation but I found myself running and leaping a gate, but then it all went unclear and I couldn't get any clear images except maybe standing on a cliff. Hmm But trying that meditation on a morning when I am rushing to get out wasn't the best idea really was it.

I really do need to get back to blogging again. I haven't done much in either blog for ages. Bloging is a sign of discipline and I think that is what I lack sometimes

Swan totem?

Yesterday morning I made a feeble attempt at meditation that got nowhere because I couldn't focus. I ended up juts doing Chris's rose visualisation , closing the curtain on it, then opening it to see what image I got. I got a swan.

I decided to ask on FB if anyone could give me a clue what it meant and got told it might be my totem animal. I also got told swan's can access dreamtime and indicates the ability to predict the future. Now although I would love to have that ability I don't believe it exists. When the psychics on 886 predict important events linked to a certain name )sometimes even a specific day) I am always very sceptical - and I wonder how many recipients of the messages get disappointed if/when they don't happen. But there is also a link to healing so I decided I couldn't dismiss the swan image as one from my imagination. It was nexpected - and for me that is a sign I am not imagining it.

So last night I decided to meditate before I went to sleep and see if I could get any further information about the swan. I was in my forest and found myself sitting by a small river with a swan on the water being very friendly towards me - head butting me like a cat, putting its head in my lap. I then linked the access to dreamtime and the ability to predict the future- and found myself thinking about my waking visions when I see writing.

I predicted to myself that I would have a waking vision and this time I would be able to read the writing. Deep breath - I did and I could. Just one word 'interrupt'

Wow.................................

I am now wondering what (if anything) I can do to make use of this and understand it better. I suspect nothing except create a stronger link so an messages can come through clearer.

Is the swan my totem? I have no idea. Do I have a totem at all? I have no idea. Four animals have appeared in my meditations at different times. Penny, a wolf, a robin, and now a swan. These last two are very recent - within the past week. They could all mean something or nothing - but I suspect they do all have a meaning on some level even if I don't believe in animal guides and/or totems.

Now the odd thing is I have never seen a cat - which is the logical animal for my subconscious to pick since my first close contact with an animal was with a cat (RIP TIddles - our neighbour's cat)

My card this morning was the 7 of pentacles. I used the pendulum to try and work out what it meant and I think it is more to do with Krystal Wolf than it is for me personally. I am going to ask Tony to meditate on it.

I tried to meditate on it - but it didn't go well. I am unbelievably tired after the past couple of days - and I couldn't really focus. I did get an insight tho. The entrance to my safe glade is now through hedge arches with portcullis gates. I have seen the gate coming down on my head as I enter the glade - usually when I am not quite focussing. Today I got the insight that the gate represents my self destructive and self sabotage ability. Something to think about - when I have some energy.

This morning I was guided to use my Angel Therapy deck and to pick the top 3 cards which were Fairies, Indigo Child and Integrity. These puzzled me - but I used the pendulum to answer question and I feel that Indigo Child and Integrity are both telling me about myself. Telling me I am sensitive - and a leader - but need to make sure my actions are aligned with my values. Life coaching 101. Fairies puzzled me because it talks about my purpose being to help nature. With help from the pendulum I decided the best way to solve this was to do Laura Daligan's guided meditation. I was able to be a thinner me in the meditation. The gift I gave to Mab was a walnut, and she gave me a green gem. I was very aware of the green gem hanging on a chain round her neck as I visualised her. I couldn't formulate a coherent question for her.

With part of my mind I was criticising Laura's style and thinking it was a bit too fast paced - and found myself wondering about doing my own guided meditations. After all I will be doing hypnosis tracks for my patients. This fits in with other hints I have had about teaching being in my future.

Teaching and communication were on my list of things I want to do when I did CYLI7D
My cottage was full of books - with books on the coffee table
I can easily identify people I feel would benefit from reiki attunement
Emmeline from ROH has said she would be interested in learning reiki in a couple of years - by which time I will be master level. Its almost as if I have pupils coming forward already.

I need to think about this very carefully.

I also need to think about the walnut and the gem and what they may mean.

Priorities

Today I have a busy day including an afternoon of work - PAID locum work so this morning I am having to prioritise what I do. That means spiriitual work before anything else.

I got my pendulum repaired yesterday. Since I am going to be using it more I realised it deserved better than the blu-tac repair to keep the chain attached to the crystal. So I took it inot the jeweller where we get out crystals. As I was waiting for him to finish the work I decided to go and look at the oracle cards - and me eye was immediately drawn to Archangel Raphael Healing cards. Elaine prayed to Rahael before my reiki treatment - and the spray she used was green. When I tired to see my aura I saw green. The cards are in a green box. They jumped to my attention - so I bought them.

This morning the pendulum indicated I should pick three cards from it. I got

Easy does it
Yes
Call upon Archangel Raphael for help

I take this is an indication I was right to agree to work this afternoon, but must not push myself. And that Raphael will be there helping me.

I asked the pendulum if I should work tomorrow afternoon as well - and got a negative. I am sure ROH will be disappointed - but they will survive. If I do both afternoons for them they may well expect me to do a lot more next week - and I am not ready for that yet.

Trusting the tools I have

I usd the pendulum to help me pick cards today again. Cumbersome - but I feel it helps attune me to the pendulum and the cards - and gives me confidence in both. I got my usual decks out - and the pendulum rejected them all, so I asked it if I should pick from another deck and it said yes. So I got all the other decks and it indicated I should pick from Universal Love - a deck a feel little affinity for depsite it being vaguely reiki based.

I shuffled and a card dropped out. The pendulum said it was a pick. I then worked out I needed 3 more cards - and used the pendulum to help me pick them. They were

Message from heaven - be who I am meant to be
Love -let love guide me and respond with love rather than fear
Abundance- its coming my way and remember abundance is a state of mind
Meditation (I think this was the one that dropped out) 'Meditate upon a loving thought for it is through love that all becomes clear'

The overall message is I am doing the right things and things are working out.

Yesterday we got a message from The Falstaff asking is anyone wanted to do readings at the street party they are having for the Royal Wedding. We have said we would - so Krystal Wolf gets its first official outing much sooner than we thought. The invitation arrived on the same day our business cards turned up too. Its all coming together suddenly


Later

I meditated and ended up in my cottage room with Peter. The cottage room was full of books - there were even books on the coffee table. The curtains on the right of the room were red and open. the curtains at the left were green and closed.

I set my intention for the mediation as the meaning of the three cards apart from meditation and the message I got was I am EXACTLY as the universe intends me to be, and to stop negative thinking. So the message from 'be who you are meant to be' is 'For goodness sake accept you are who you are meant to be'

And abundance - well my typing of this was interrupted by a call from the agency asking me if I am free to work at ROH tomorrow and Friday. I have said I can do the afternoons only due to appointments at the hospice.

It feels right!