This morning I have done 10 minutes of self healing - downstairs while watching the news. About 5 minutes in I suddenly felt really hot and sweaty for about a minute then it faded away. I could feel the energy flowing all the time . I just kept my hands on my sacral chakra. This was partly for comfort but also because my cystitis issue seems to be making a comeback. I am actually going to look and see what bladder issues could be a sign of in my wider life. I do not subscribe to the belief that some spiritual healers have that EVERY disease in a certain part of the body is linked to the same sort of life issue. But I am totally prepared to look at a psychological cause for physical problems which seem to be recurrent. And lets face it I have had bladder problems since I was 11!! So a bit of reading later.

I went to church this morning. It was interesting that the vestments were green - the colour associated with Raphael - and the bit of the service that hit me like an arrow was the prayer that talked about serving in newness of life - and I found myself thinking that my master training does mark a very pivotal new beginning for me. Message for me?

Why do I feel the need to go to church? I always feel a little uncomfortable because I know a majority of church members and clergy wouldn't exactly approve of my activities and my beliefs. I certainly don't normally stop to talk to anyone. And I got to the 8.00 am said communion so I don't have to suffer the moment in the normal family communion when the congregation is invited to offer one another the sign of peace. Considering I am a very tactile person, love giving and receiving hugs why do I feel so uncomfortable when everyone wanders round and shakes hands? Why do I put myself in an environment that makes me uncomfortable?


Anyway I did a meditation and my normal intercessions before the service - including my recitation of the reiki principles. And no I didn't feel it was inappropriate to do that in that environment. I feel the reiki principles are totally compatible with Christian beliefs, indeed the beliefs of all major religions.

I am preparing for my reiki level 3 attunement in just over a week. I am preparing a long entry about all sorts of things to do with this, but one of my decisions was that in the run up I meditate on things to do with reiki and do self healing every day.

Today I grabbed my sodalite crystal for the meditation and remembered that it has significance for melding the logical with the spiritual. At times I feel my reiki benefits from the logical side. At other times I feel my logical side blocks me from doing the more spiritual things like seeing auras, seeing spirit, getting clear messages from spirit etc.

I settled in to do my meditation and concentrated on my breathing , then I did my normal recitation of the Lord's Prayer and tried to feel the energy in my chakras. After my normal intercession prayer for everyone on my prayer list, I then decided to meditate on the CKR symbol. And I saw that the symbol with its straight lines and curves is just like me. The straight lines are my logical side, the curves are my spiritual side. Now CKR is the CORNERSTONE of reiki. What does that mean for me?

I then did about 10 minutes of self healing. Again I tired to really FEEL the energy flow - and I did.

With a visit to the doctor due to day, I have been focussing on my health issues especially my weight. Today I realised that I had forgotten one large factor that could be responsible for my weight gain over the last year - a massive reduction the amount of days I am working. However this doesn't make me feel any better about my weight and general appearance

I decided to pull a card from 'Ask your guides' this morning . Shame (Divine Healers) fell out almost as soon as I started to shuffle. The message of this card is about boosting self esteem and how the universe supports us -even when we feel the rest of the world is against us. Its the fact that the card is a healer card that is significant too - on a day when my health is uppermost in my mind.

Archangel raphael gave me 'fresh air' so I think I had better get moving if I I am to WALK to the surgery rather than drive!!

I decided to use Ask your guides and Angel Therapy together today - 3 cards from each plus 1 each from Raphael and Fairies

Ask your Guides gave me Self Control Appreciation and Compromise
Angel Therapy gave me Emotional Sensitivity, Fairies and Power Animal.

Fairies and Power Animal both suggest getting into the fresh air - so I wasn't too surprised when Raphael gave me Fresh Air. Fairies gave me vacation

Self control and Emotional sensitivity do go together. I need to use my sensitivity but keep it in check. Yesterday I pulled Temperance from my tarot deck which is also about emotional balance.

Appreciation and Fairies don't seem to fit - unless I need to acknowledge that I get help from ...no I can't say Fairies I dont believe in them - but nature spirits? Could this be linked with my quest for a new lapel badge with a cornish pixie on????

Compromise and Power animal seem totally unrelated.

I was considering taking a walk in the park even before I drew these cards. I will definitely do so. Good exercise for body and mind. I can meditate as I walk.

I feel really fed up this morning - and I am wondering if I need to make an entry in my other blog since a lot of the issues going round in my head are lifestyle related. But I decided to do some cards and picked one each from Raphael, Daily Guidance and Fairy decks

The message was quite cohesive

Acceptance - accepting that everything is going in the right direction is what is on the card - but when I pulled it I THOUGHT I read it was about acceptance of what is going on. Maybe that should also be acceptance of what HAS gone on i.e. my thyroid issues

Honouring your true feelings - because I still DON'T accept what has gone on

Innocence - and the text on the card includes the words 'Give us your feelings of heaviness'

Well heavy sums up how I feel this morning.

The message I take from these is that I have to honour the way I feel, learn from it, accept what has happened - and also accept myself as I am. That idea has literally juts come to me. Blogging as a form of meditation strikes again.

Today started well. I did a good 30 minutes on the wii fir, had a healthy breakfast and was feeling really upbeat and in control. Then I went to meet Margaret and Sheila at Feet Retreat and it all came crumbling down because they wouldn't treat me due to a small crack in the skin on one foot. This really upset me - almost certainly out of all proportion to the actual event.

However there is still one thing on the plus side. Today we are meeting the ownere of the SaS Co hair salon in Bournville. They are interested in both my reiki and Tony's oracle cards for their pamper parties and I am almost certanly going to book a room one day a week at their other salon to give reiki. I have even ordered a portable trartment table and rolling stool!!

I pulled some cards. I ended up pulling 8 tarot cards. Well to be honest I went for one and the other 7 came with it. WHAT a selection!

The Tower
9 of Cups
10 of Pentacles
Ace of Cups
King of Pentacles
8 of wands
8 of pentacles
Ace of Pentacles

Tower = change, 9 of Pentacles - the wish card, 10 of Pentacles - making something concrete for the future, Ace of Cups -well aces are always good. I presume in this case the relationship is between us and Sarah . King of Pentacles - need ambition and determination, 8 wands end to delays - fortune is on your side, 8 pentacles - new direction in career, Ace of Pentacles - invest energy and drive in a new business

2 8's in the selection and I drew 8 cards - and 8 is the number of regeneration

How many good omens can there BE for the meeting??

But I must NOT get complacent. It still needs work and and dedication. It will only happen if we put the time and energy into it

I didn't meditate last night. By the time I got to bed I was too tired. Today however I am up early and will have time to do my spiritual exercises before I go out.

Today the things on my mind are the meeting that I am having this morning with the beauty salon down the road about offering reiki to their clients, exercise, and healthy eating . I am meeting Magie later to go swimming. It will be the first time we have met since the holiday and the row over NOT meeting for a drink while we were both down in Cornwall My weight is out of control at the moment and I need to get BACK in control.

Yesterday I found myself wondering if my habit of throwing dried fruit on my breakfast was as healthy as it could be. It is probably quite high in calories. So this morning I decided to have fresh fruit with plain yoghurt. Yet again I pulled Detoxification from the Raphael deck. That feels like a supportive card for that decision.

Because of a tight schedule - Salon at 9, swimming at 10.30 - although I should walk to the salon I was toying with the idea of using the car just to make sure I am not late for swimming. I do feel the Environmental Awareness card I got from the Fairy deck is a nudge to make sure I walk.

I decided to pull a card from Daily Guidance from your Angels and got Innocence. Does this refer to the spat with Maggie?

Tarot gave me The Lovers - and card that indicates a choice or maybe a partner. Does this COULD this be a good omen for the meeting at the salon?

Or am I just reaching to make the cards fit what is going on?