I did a meditation on CKR today - and got all sorts of things. It represents a journey of discovery - and a maze. I found myself standing in front of a HUGE symbol - and felt comforted by it. I also got the idea that the other symbols sort of 'hang' on it. (Imagine it turned horizontal so things could hook over the spirals)

I found I couldn't give it a colour tho/

My self healing tonight I used DKM .....often. I saw it written in fore above my crown chakra. The energy felt good. Not too much, not the 'electtric' feeling - but calmer - a sort of 'just enough' feeling.

I self healed - and meditated on HSZSN. It was quite an experience. This symbol is all about connections. That is why it used for distance healing. But it is also about connections between this world and the spirit world, connections between past and future.

I used the symbol. then DKM. Then I visualised the symbol actally coming into me. The energy levels were really amazing. And at one point I felt a breeze - or maybe a breath on my face. Was I sensing a spirit with me?

I think tomorrow nights investigation could be very interesting for me

My self healing last night was very interesting. I focussed on SHK and its meaning, and I used the symbol. I felt electric. I could feel my energy expanding. I felt as f I was surrounded by electricity. Today I was focus on HSZSN.

I now realise that you need to progress spiritually to make the best use of your healing abilities. On one level I always knew that. But on a deeper level I now FEEL that.

I did a couple of card readings today and had my cards read by Beverly - one of the admin staff at Little Aston. She is about to have her first reiki attunement. She used an Angel Therapy deck but does it in a very different way to me. She doesn't let anyone else touch her cards - and she pulls 3 cards One for who you are/your past (Solar Plexus Chakra) one for the issue you need to address (mediumship) and the third for how to address it (Visualisation) Well THAT message is clear enough. Tony has just pulled a card form the Angel Therapy deck - and guess what he picked? Yup 'Mediumship! Someone is telling us something - or rather shouting at us.

I have been looking more deeply at the reiki symbols. I am sure that understanding them is the key to progressing with my reiki. No startling insights yet - but I have only read - rather than meditated.

On Monday I asked the angles to help me with my pharmacy CPD. With three days work this week I thought it would be reasonable for me to get at least one patient /request that triggered some CPD for me. All I can say is 'wow' Not one but FOUR over two days. And I still have one more day at work.

I feel I need to make an affirmation - a statement of intent to the universe.

I AM A MEDIUM

Today has been an interesting day spiritually. I sent a reading into to site that was advertising for psychics. The organiser said to do a general reading for him and if it was ok, he'd get back to me with a question. Well I did the reading - and never heard anything. I assumed I'd got it all wrong and he was too polite to tell me I was rubbish. However today he replied saying it was pretty good, and asking for a fairy reading. I will start off on the free readings forum - but would move on to other forums where I would get paid. I am going to send Tony the link so he can try too,

I also found a site the published reiki symbols - and saw DKM written in a way that wasn't even close. I asked Sue - and she has asked if I can see why that symbol is ALSO DKM. I need to meditate on all the reiki symbols and what they mean - and why they work - and what they do. This site gave me a new symbol I have never heard of before. I intend to experiment with it on myself

Self healing went ok. I can feel the energy much better now. I also think I could see someone elses aura/energy wile I was talking to her today. She is about to have her reiki one training so Julie suggested she talk to me. She is going to do an angel reading for me tomorrow if she remember her cards

I feel I am on the verge of a breakthrough - and suspect it is not coincidence it is happening while I am busy and don't really have the time to spend on meditation.

Maybe I need to remember Sue's mantra in the early days' Don't overthink it

This morning my first dilemma was whether I felt up to working at the hospice. The second was what to do about Marion's treatment on Thursday.

I decided to do a proper meditation and see what insights I got. I saw Eli, Thomas and Jenny. I saw Eli and Thomas standing very close together and got the idea of them together supporting the two sides of me. I also worked out how I could treat Marion by getting most of the medical information in advance. It all sort of worked itself out step by step. I then saw a shiny blue orb in my glade and got told to walk into it to energise myself for the hospice.

I only did 2 treatments at the hospital. One treatment was a repeat. The other was a new lady. I got moved to do DKM over her crown chakra. It turns out she she had 3 brain tumours, which have now reduced down to 1 for no apparent reason. But the treatment of these , ended up causing a grand mal fit. I immediately made the leap to Marion. I have been concerned about the effect of reiki on her epilepsy ( for no logical reason) and I think this was conformation that I made the right decision in going ahread with her treatment.

Today I went to see Clare and I did a tarot reading for her . I told Clare to pick 10 - 20 cards. I found it quite easy to read for her. I deliberatley asked her to pick a larger number of cards to see how I would get on. I also picked tarot because I suspected it would force me to connect with Eli. I felt a long time ago that Eli is my 'mediumship' guide.

I had an imnteresting meditation on the way home. Clare gave me some therapy - and we ended up discussing spiritual Sally and scientific Sally. I got the idea that Thomas is there for scientific Sally ( I feel he is an engineer) and Eli is there for spiritual Sally. That gives a new spin on the rock to diamond issue.

I have been reading the Angel Therapy book Marie gave me. It is typical Dooren Virtue - but there are some things in that speak to me - especially when she talks about self doubt and skepticism.

Do I beleive everything Doreen Virtue writes? Well I believe she believes what she writes is the truth. But I do find it difficult to accept people seeing Angels physically.

I di my self healing on the train going up to Clare's. You eally can heal anywhere . I don't think anyone noticed me sketching CKR and DKM. Well if they did - no-one asked me what I was doing. probably thought I was barmy!!

I am debating what to do about Marion's reiki on Thursday. With Andy being in hospital - I thought the wedding would be off. But she contacted me today to ask if it was still on. But she wants me to treat her at 9.00 - which meansd I won't get home till gone 10 - and its too late for me.

Is this a signal I shouldn't treat her? I need to give her an answer tomorrow if I am to be fair to her.