I meditated this morning to the solfeggo harmonic again. I haven't self healed for 2 days tho. I am tired - but I suspect I am spending energy on unproductive things like worry. My mantra this morning was peace and calm - plus I imagine Pam wrapped in a pink fluffy bubble! My carc is thw 2 of swords. I need balance in my thoughts. My crystal is orange cats eye. Orange for the solar plexus chakra which is undoubtedly one that needs support as I am quite tired - except of course orange is for the sacral chakra and I know that. Is that the closest to yellow I have? or is it my sacral chakra that needs support? Not sure. It is a vibrant orange and maybe a symbol of the vibrancy I need. I am at ROH today. I will need all the vibrancy I can get , except by thinking like that I am setting myself up for a bad day there. Thank good ness this is the last week I am there for a bit.

Yesterday I went to to visit Clare and I realised we both have the same issue. Both of us get too caught up in daily things before we do things like meditation and self healing. So I suggested we challenge ourselves for the next week to do these things first. I actually did some healing when I went to bed last night. This morning I have listened to the Solfeggio harmonic and done a simple meditation. Just focussing on peace and calm. And I got the insight that lack of peace and calm can rob me of energy. I have picked a crystal. No idea what it is but I actually don't care. I have picked a card and got the eight of wands. This shows a ma firing 8 arrows into the air. 8 is always about hard work and I think this is telling me not that it will be hard work - but that I can do it. The wand with their link to creativity are telling me I am only limited by my imagination. Tiem to start thinking BIG.

After yesterdays decision to get back to basics I have decided to start with the first exercise David suggests. Finding out who I am. Yes I know did this over 5 years ago when I first read Change your life in 7 days and started off on this journey. But I am not the person I was then so sitting down and doing again makes sense. It will make sure I stay on track. I wrote a guided meditation for the circle and it put them on a path that represented their spiritual progress. The first thing I got them to do was look back and see how far they had come. Well this is my way of looking back. So since I am doing this the David Wells way I am going to start by looking at what my sun sign tells me about myself. 'A natural intuitive you are likely to be highly perceptive already, but structure is required if you are to make the most of yourself and that isn't always welcome is it?' Actually I know I need structure but I seem incapable of getting it. David goes on to talk about the fish swimming in two directions being a sign of lack of direction - but more often because I tend to put others needs before mine. Now that is SO true. Thats why I find it so hard to say 'no' when I am offered pharmacy work. I somehow always seem to prioritise other things above my spiritual (and indeed physical!) exercise. It may be just me being a typical pisces - but I need to acknowledge this weakness and work round it if I am going to get anywhere. David talks about planning time to do it in advance - letting everyone know. Well thats sort of what I did when I put the CPD in my diary. If I put a slot in every day for spiritual and physical exercise it will get done. i will give it priority. In fact i can meditate as `i exercise. David then talks about grounding being important for me - finding practical applications for what I can do. He even says I am likely to be good at 'hands on' healing. That seems very true to me. I DO feel the need to use what I can do to help others - but I am reluctant to sue it to help myself. Thats why I always duck self healing. My piscean tendencies are causing me to get my priorities wrong. Now that is a lesson I need to remember. I do take 'me time' but its often a bath (although my ruminations in the bath are often very helpful. lets face it I am doing this as the result of bath time ruminations) But I feel I have to have 'me time' when Tony isn't up. What on earth is wrong with me telling Tony I am going upstairs to meditate and self heal while he is up and about? David mentions negative thoughts - and the importance of re-programming through meditation - something I feel I am bad at. Well I am bad at making time for it. I will start with Davids basic exercises again and see how I get on. I also need to remember Davids final comment about pisceans. Confusion is a sign you are on your way because confusion brings out answers So my strengths are my intuition and empathy but the downside is I can be confused, vague and easily led. That last one is VERY true. Interestingly my North node is ALSO Pisces. And again reading what David says it is hard to argue with it. I would benefit a lot from meditation and slowing my mind down. I need to stop finding fault in others. I want to be perfect and worry when I am not. In fact David's advice is to be the best I can be. This was my 2012 resolution - to be the best 'me' I can. So has my journey changed me since it started? Well I am happier, I am now married, I do work and use my abilities to help others (although not as much as I would like)I am also very unsure I help people in in the right way. I need. I need to recognise my weaknesses - and try to turn them into strengths.

What's going on? Two posts in one day? I have been thinking about things on and off.And if eel things are starting to fall into place I booked time to do CPD. I need to book time to do meditation, and self healing. I need to be patient with myself - just as David says. I have come a long way. And one of the messages for a pisces is don't expect perfection. I do and I make things way to hard on myself And suddenly things are starting work out for us. We have made a connection up at a new tea shop and she is happy for us to put leaflets in there and to offer readings up there to her clients. Two new businesses helping each other out Tony has been commissioned to write for a new role playing system. Nothing to so with psychic work but his progress affects mine and vice versa. I have details about a one day course about Crystal healing in April in Gloucester and it doesn't cost a huge amount. And its on a Thursday. This s celarly how I meant to serve by improving my skills at the moment.

Wow. I should be at work today. I have not gone in because I couldn't face it. I was at the hospital for the past 2 days and it wore me out. My official reason was that I had a slip on the ice and snow yesterday evening (true but it was only a very one) and that it had upset my back (not true) I need to think about why I decided to compromise my reiki principles to get out of work. Partly it is because Tony is worried about walking up to the shop to see his client today because it is still so icy and if I am home I can drive him up. I need to think abut why I feel I need to support Tony in this way. Anyway I decided to have a nice long hot bath (something I haven't done for a bit - and I grabbed David Well Guide to developing your psychic skills to read in the bath. As I read it I realised that I have never actually DONE the exercises he suggests. I know they will work I teach other people to do them but I haven't actually done them myself. Now what does THAT tell me about myself? Is it a coincidence these thoughts came to be in the bath? Probably not. My sign is Pisces after all. I feel I have the inkling of an idea about how to change things for myself but I have LOT of thinking to do.

Still not sure how succesful I am being with this - but today I did my reiki principles and healing equests while I was still in bed.... it was warmer there! I have picked Green man - synergy as my card today. Reading the book the messgae of this card is that I have an incredible synergy guiding me so that things will fall into place. I need faith that the messag eof this card is right. Thingsdone FELL as if they are going well - but then how often do I tell people that initally a chnage won't feel good but will work out well in the end. That idea really DID just pop into my head. This iS working I think :-) My crystal is quartz which I feel is for communication. I am not sure who I need to communicate with. My guides? the circle? the face bok community? I haven't been communicating much for Krystal wolf - I need to get back to that

I had a lousy nights sleep last night, followed by weird and upsetting dreams when I DID get to sleep. I was late up, and then had an adevnture when I decided to druve to Sainsbury (frts time driving since all the snow on Friday and yesterday) and I got stuck getting home outside my son's house and needed to be pushed, I ache, and am rather fed up contmeplating all the things that may not happen if I can't use the car - including circle on Thursday. So I have NOT done ANY piritual stuff no card no crystal. But I HAVE ket the appoitnment I made in the diary for today and di some CPD. So i do feel I have accomplished something. So why am I bloggin when I have nothing really to blog about. Well I am hoping some blogging will help clear my mind. So how do I feel - totally fed up, like crying, because I ache so much. Mind you I have done a work out including some jogging. But mianly I am tired. I have already told the hospice I won't get out there tomorrow. I feel guilty but while the main roads are fine the side roads are nasty and I am worried about getting stuck again. There is no sign of a thaw. But somthing weird has just happened. I mentioned on FB that I was looking for hypnotherapy courses and I have had a message from a pharmacist colleague about a course running at the hopsice where she works. AND it is running on a Thursday. Is this some sort of answer about what I chould use my Thursdays for! I do feel a little better now Later I have just done my ard pick and my crystal pick The card I got was tsunami - wake up call. I feel I am bieng told I NEED a wake up call The crystal is yellow jasper. Jasper is a great healing stone and closley alinged to the chakras. Yellow is for the solar plexus chakra - which is the kind of powerhouse of the chakras. Well I am very tired. So what is it I need 'wake up ad smell the coffee about' .............My trianing?? A lot of the things I have delat with today have been rleated to my traning - inlcuding a strange incident on healthy pages. i have been contacte dby the moderators to ask if I would check out the bona fides of a poseter who they feel is beig less than honesy in he rintentions.Interestingly she does crystal healing and I was interested before they asked me to test the waters. If I am to learn crystal healing experiencing it would be a greta starting point. Watch this space. I also think this needs I need to rethink how I THINK I am seen on Healthy pages. The moderators said they felt I could be trusted - whihc is nice. I suspect some of my pharmacist colleagues feel I cannot be trusted - but then maybe I am wrong about THAT as well If I am meant to have feet in both the conventional and complementary camps they I am sure the universe needs both sides to trsut me.......