Shamanism

I have been reading a book about Shamanism - which resonated with me. And as I read it I realised I have probably already been on a shamanic journey. So this morning I listened to the first of Steven Former's power animal tracks - and I was right. It IS a shamanic journey. What is the difference betweena shamanic journey and a meditation? I don;t know! Anyway I did the 'journey' to meet my power animal. First time I met a bera. This time I met a deer - and a leopard. That is interesting since Freda has channelled leopard watching the circle. I tried to get rid of him - but he kept reappearing. That must mean something I have also done a card pick for myself from Angel Therapy and I got Vegetarian/Vegan. I feel the message is clear. Dump the biscuits and eat the fruit instead

Post holiday blog

I have slipped with the meditation, the biscuit avoidance and so much else since my last entry. but I have been away on holiday - and did come back with a bad back. So I haven't really been at my best. but today I decided I would meditate and decided I would find a card to meditate on. because it was the best deck to hand I picked from the Ascended Masters deck and cot Ameratsu - Come out of the closet. The card is all about recognising who you truly are and about boosting your self esteem. Yesterday I did the second part of Clare's reiki training and we did the Sweet Surrender meditation. At one point I saw myself standing with hands outstretched with light flowing from them. If ever I had an image to boost my self esteem that is it. I also feel I need to stop hiding what I do because I am worried people won't understand or approve.

I haven't made an entry for a couple of days but I have been meditating daily. Although not always formally doing the candle music and incense . Today I did self healing and meditation together. Meditated for 'health and well being' and the clear message I got was 'don't procrastinate' So I have come down and straight away told my milkman and the vegetable delivery people that we are on holiday so I have cancelled the deliveries. I could have left Abel and Cole until tomorrow and MIlk and More until much later but tis done - and now I can relax. Why do I procrastinate? I put things off during the day like meditation and self healing. I put things off like paperwork until later in the week. Thats why I am in such a mess with my HPD portfolio. I kept putting it off and putting it off. This is what the introspection card I got twice on Thursday at circle means. I need to work out why I procrastinate and how I can stop it. It is far aand away my worst fault - and it is what is holding me back. . My mantra needs to be 'just do it'

Interesting times

The last couple of days have been really interesting. Out of the blue I had a phone call from someone in Netherton who has booked a home visit for hypnotherapy. The yesterday evening Rhonda - a lady Tony did a reading for months back - suddenly knocked on our door and we ended up lending her a CD to help her meditate. Then today I have had a phone call from a lady in Nechells in who wants s home visit for reiki. And all this has happened since I had that meditation where I saw myself easily getting over the wall. I have just meditated today. My focus was peace and calm - but as I was meditating I found myself remembering David Wells advice to meditate on a card. I remembered yesterdays card pick for our page which was 'Tree - grounding' The interpretation I put on that was that if someone was involved in a project to keep their feet on the ground - but I also went on to say that the other message was that good foundations had been built and that would be reflected in the future development. At the time I did feel it was apt for us - but the meditation seems to have confirmed that. Hopefully things are about to develop as we want them too.

I did miss one days mediation. Yesterday I tried to meditate before I went to bed - after a day when a LOT of things went wrong. I DID try - but it wasn't going to work. However this morning I let a candle, burnt incense and played music. My meditation was surprising. I found myself on a beach sitting in the sun - then shaded by a beach umbrella the suddenly appeared courtesy of Thomas (I think) I looked at the white sand and blue sea and though 'Sodalite' So I wore sodalite today - and I had a great day

Recurrent theme

Fr some reason I have the song 'When we live in a world of our own' running through my mind. I have NO idea why. But as I finished 'How to be a bad christian' (the book I was given yesterday I realised the sentiment was quite apt in some ways for the apr of the book I was reading. He was talking about the butterfly effect and how small random actions can have unexpected effects. I realised that is creating 'a world of my own' with such acts - like my volunteer work at the hospice, and even like my work for the TV station. I have a small window of time to help the people I interact with - that can create a different world for them AND me. I haven't done the 'om' bit today - but I feel my reading of the book has been a meditation. But I will do the 'om' thing in a bit. And I am still a biscuit free zone!!!

An interesting meditation

My meditation this morning was VERY interesting. Thomas came clearly to mind. I saw his rock gift as an affirmation that I am right to be doing the crystal course. I then got an odd image of me jumping a wall - a high wall the sort of things you see in army assault courses and I got the feeling I make too much of what I perceive as obstacles. I also got the words. You go too slowly. This really does build on the confidence meditation yesterday - and in a way is born out by various things that have happened over the past day. This includes a reading request from someone in Tanzania. And she hasn't baulked at the idea of paying. I had an amazing conversation today while I was waiting for car tyres to be fitted. I was sitting next to a lady who turned out to be ordained - and she gave me a book called 'How to be a bad christian' It whiled away the LONG time I spent waiting for my car to be finished - and I agree with a lot of what is in the book so far. It is getting me to think about what I believe - and that is always good, Plus I read some of the crystal course information - and I found I could agree with a lot of what they said and it fits in with my hypnotherapy and reiki very well. I feel excited :-)